Seeing the servant supporting Su Qianqian and walking away, Yin Yulin looked at their backs like a lost soul. , That's a bit like my mother's old days.
There was a faint pain in his chest, which made him feel a little numb and turned around, but he met Zheng Yu's attitude that seemed to be asking.
"It's okay, let's look carefully, if this place is really haunted, no matter how well it is covered, it will leave some traces."
"Yulin" Zheng Yu coldly stretched out his hand and grabbed his wrist when he pretended to be normal and was about to walk in front of him.
"What's wrong with you?"
breathed a sigh of relief, and saw that there was only Zheng Yu around, and Yin Yulin's indifference to cover himself gradually faded.
"Have you ever felt like this, some people, always around, but you ignore it, and when you miss her one day, you find that you missed a lot of times, but you can never get those days back" My heart hurts.
While his mother was alive, Yin Yulin had been under tremendous pressure, and he was forced to take on another identity and become another person.
It's like a curse, reminding him all the time that the sibling who was killed many years ago.
It's like a secret between him and his mother, hidden for many years, and has become a dead knot in his heart that can't be opened, every time he faces his mother, it seems that there is a lot of separation between them, his mother can't say it, he can't say it, his mother has a guilt for him, and this guilt accumulates more and more over time.
In fact, his mother had already regretted this decision back then, and knew that this matter had hurt him, but he took over the burden of the Yin family, and there was no way to change it.
Take a step back, maybe everything will collapse, gritting his teeth and moving forward, only to escape from his true self, he thought that there would be many days like this, until one day, his mother suddenly fainted and then the second uncle told her that his mother did not have much time.
Too many things on his mind before he had time to say it, and his mother had already left his life.
It wasn't until after his mother's death that he realized that a large part of his heart had been dug out of what he had never cared about the most, like a life that had long been a habit, he was used to his mother being by his side, and then, keeping to each other the things they had never said, and it passed day by day.
It wasn't until my mother died suddenly and my life changed dramatically that I realized what a privilege it was.
"When I was very young, something happened to the Yin family, and I didn't have time to ask what was wrong, so I was forced to accept all this.
Since then, the life I have been familiar with has been different, and I can't bear to say it, and so is my mother.
In fact, when I think about it later, my understanding of my mother is really pitiful, and I don't even know why she married into the Yin family and married someone like my father.
If she really knew from the beginning what the danger to the Yin family and my father was, why did she choose to jump in.
"When Yin Laosi told him what kind of person his mother was before giving birth to their brother and sister, no one could have imagined the already turbulent heart under his calm exterior."
I also want to know about my mother's life, even if it's a small thing.
Maybe for me, learning about my mother's past was the only chance I had to get close to my mother. ” "That eldest lady of the Su family reminds you of your mother, right" Zheng Yu understood now.
No wonder he has always felt that Yin Yulin seems to be particularly easy to fall into one of his emotions when facing Su Qianqian, it turns out that through Su Qianqian, a person who used to be very good with Yin Yulin's mother, Yin Yulin seems to feel the traces of her mother's life.
He was healing the scar on his heart.
This scar, he didn't let anyone notice, and after calmly facing his mother's death, he calmly showed that it was a heart that had already collapsed.
Knowing that he still had to live, and knowing that everything in life had to go on, he acted like an unobtrusive person, deceived everyone and made them believe that he was okay.
But at the same time as his mother died, the life he had to shoulder had already driven him crazy.
It's almost crazy to miss a past that can't be returned to completely "Yulin."
He grabbed Yin Yulin's hand tightly, but this time, he felt that Yin Yulin's hand was very cold, and he didn't know how to express his feelings in unfamiliar language.
Only this time, he felt more deeply that Yin Yulin was standing on the edge, very dangerous, and would fall into the abyss at any time because of the unspeakable secret in his heart.
Zheng Yu has never been so afraid.
Yin Yulin, who was in front of him, didn't seem to be able to catch anything.
"No, no," Zheng Yu shouted anxiously, trying his best to stop Yin Yulin from falling towards the abyss.
At this time, what appeared in front of him was Yin Yutang's childhood, she was running among the mountains and fields, looking back with an innocent smile, her laughter echoed in his ears Zheng Yu was powerless to break free, he didn't know why he thought of Yutang at this time, why "Yuyu" The person in front of him, what is going on Why is the person standing in front of him Yin Yulin, but he has always felt the traces left by Yutang.
It's like, that innocent smile is engraved in my heart On one side is the unscrupulous memory fragment, and on the other side is looking at Yin Yulin, who is about to fall into the abyss Unable to think about it anymore, he reached out and pulled Yin Yulin in front of him and hugged him in his arms "What are you doing?"
Yin Yulin, who was immersed in grief, reacted because of Zheng Yu's reckless behavior at the moment when his limbs were numb, and his voice was so weak.
"I won't let you fall, I won't let you fall" Zheng Yu hugged him tightly, vaguely resisting the fear he felt, not letting the powerlessness that swept through them continue to spread.
"Fall" How did Yin Yulin know what Zheng Yu felt, this brainless word made him feel funny, and he couldn't help but laugh softly, "What stupid things are you talking about." ” "Yulin, don't give up, don't give up, it's not like that, if Mrs.
Yin is still there, she will definitely not want to see you do this for her business, Yulin Yulin, you have to be sober, Mrs.
Yin, she won't want to see you sad, she, she is such a good person, she cares about you" Zheng Yu suddenly remembered that in the depths of his memories of those fragments, there was a woman's figure, which was Yin Yulin and Yin Yutang's mother.
She has always been behind their brothers and sisters, Yutang is cheerful and lively, Yulin is calm and rational, and the memories of her childhood are emerging little by little, Mrs.
Yin is such a woman, strong behind the children, silently watching them.
No, he knows, if it was Mrs.
Yin, she would definitely not want to see Yin Yulin, who was sinking in grief, falling.
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