"There's nothing I can't make up, I just don't know how to open my mouth, just talk to you about it" Shangguan Hongyang said, with a very complicated look on his face, a little self-deprecating and a little guilty, which made Leng Lingyun frown, hesitating whether he should stop him, but Shangguan Hongyang did not give her such a chance, "Actually, Ying'er told you that day, or concealed part of the truth, she only said that we met in the Chu Pavilion, and she was a woman disguised as a man, but she didn't tell you that I was a man disguised as a woman at that time, and I was stunned and sent into the room where she was. \ His words fell, and Leng Lingyun looked at him in shock.
"Back then, in the palace, for that high position, everyone was crazy and took the opportunity to take the position by excluding others, and my mother was just a little palace maid, and she didn't even have a reputation in the palace.
But it is precisely because of this that I did not arouse the ideas of the other palace concubines and masters, and after I became pregnant, I naturally did not dare to speak out, and worked as usual, and from time to time I had to be beaten and starved, which was also my life, and even then I couldn't get rid of it.
It wasn't until the end that the stomach couldn't hide it that everyone noticed, and after some interrogation, it was up to my father that he remembered that he had indeed been fortunate to have a palace maid on a whim, and that my father's children were thin, so I was allowed to give birth Because my mother has always lived at the bottom of the palace, she knows the dirty things in the palace in private, so in the end she used all her savings to beg the midwife to hide my real gender.
At that time, everyone thought that I was a girl, and my own mother was just a palace maid with no identity and background, so they all thought that I had no chance and capital to compete with their children for that position.
I was able to grow up smoothly, because I have always been cultivated as a princess, so I can know so much about women's things, until five years ago, the secret of my identity was about to be revealed.
At that time, when his father was seriously ill, but he had not yet decided on a candidate to succeed him, Concubine Hui's son King Wen had the highest voice, and with the grandfather of the regent who had the power to lean towards the government and the opposition as the backing, whether it was the previous dynasty or the harem, it could be said that he covered the sky with one hand.
Only the queen's maiden family, because she is in charge of the command of the black cavalry, can still compete with the regent, but the queen has never had an heir.
My father was seriously ill at the time, but he was not confused, and he knew that if King Wen succeeded to the throne, then the Shangguan family's country would most likely change hands, so he did not hand over the seal letter of the Black Cavalry for a long time.
I still remember that day I was about to visit my father, and I happened to collide with King Wen who had just come out, and he was in a very bad mood at that time.
I, an unfavored princess, naturally didn't dare to compete with it, and saluted respectfully, but he didn't want to let me go, and said that he wanted to ruin his father's children one by one, and then ordered someone to tie me up and send me to the inferior Chu Pavilion.
At that time, although I was already a disciple of the master, in order not to reveal my identity, I pretended to surrender, until I opened my eyes again and saw Ying's daughter dressed as a man, because I was a man and had studied women's dressing and behavior for many years, so I could see through her disguise at a glance.
It just so happened that we each took what we needed, and we hit it off at the time, and the two of us acted in a play together, but I didn't want anyone to come looking for me later.
When I saw the queen's people at that time, I was a little surprised, because for so many years, I have always faced all kinds of things alone, and my mother basically did not help me substantially except for being able to hold me and cry after the matter was over.
But I know that she loves me, and I got from her the blood affection that is difficult to feel in the royal family, but I never thought that my mother would be for me It wasn't until I returned to the palace that I saw the body of my long-dead mother in front of me, and the empress told me that my mother told her my secret, and only if we join forces can we change the situation of the Chinese king's family dominating the palace.
Oh, in order for me to protect myself, she chose to end her life in such an extreme way, you can't imagine how much I regretted it at the time, and didn't tell her about the master.
If she knew that I had enough ability to protect myself, wouldn't it have ended like this, but it was too late, and later because of the death of my biological mother, I corrected my gender and was adopted under the queen's name, and since then I have been supported by the forces behind the queen.
In addition, my father saw my ability, and it didn't take long for him to solemnly hand over the Black Cavalry into my hands and pass it on to me.
After that, I spent a year cleaning up and rectifying the power of King Wen's mother and son, and finally found evidence that they had formed a party for personal gain and plotted against each other, and disposed of them all according to the law, and also took the entire Black Cavalry Army for their own use, and had their current position.
But my mother never came back, and I could only posthumously give her the nickname of Mrs.
Deyi, and I didn't even dare to call her a queen mother in front of people, I was really ashamed to be a son of man."
When Shangguan Hongyang said this, his eyes were full of self-deprecation and sadness, and Leng Lingyun felt sad for a while, not only sympathizing with his experience, but also thinking of his mother, where is he doing now After being silent for a long time, Leng Lingyun spoke, "Senior brother, don't blame yourself too much, if she didn't do that back then, even if you have the ability to penetrate the heavens and the earth, you may not be able to survive under the heavy pressure of the palace.
Maybe you can take your mother away, but I think that since your mother can die with such dignity for you, she must not want to see you live like a deserter, and maybe she will not agree to your approach.
Your mother's spirit in the sky, can see your achievements today, and must be able to look at it, but now that you blame yourself so much, how can she rest assured to let herself go, and also make your mother feel at ease.
This topic is too heavy, let's talk about the soul, the jade bracelet in her hand should be what you gave you."
Shangguan Hongyang nodded, then took a deep breath to calm his emotions for a while, and then continued to speak, "That jade bracelet is a gift from my mother and my mother, she once told me in private that this jade bracelet should be a meeting gift for my future daughter-in-law, so I put the jade bracelet on her before leaving, and said that she would wait for me to go back to her.
But when I settled down with my mother's funeral, I went back to look for her, but I found no trace of her, and she was as if she had never appeared, leaving no trace":