Li Xiaoyun, who followed Fang Jinghao to the police station where her mother's suicide case was handled, had been deep in thought for a long time.
She only passively got out of the car with him when the car reached its destination.
Fang Jinghao held her cold hand, walked into the police station, helped her go through the procedures and got the yellowed and old suicide note from the deceased.
"I want to read it myself."
Li Xiaoyun broke free from his hand, hid under a nearby tree and sat on a chair, and hurriedly opened the letter.
Every word inside began to catch her eyes.
Arjun, Yiyi: Mom knows that when you read this letter, I will no longer be in this world, but I still want to write it down, because this is the last thing I can leave to you.
I just want you to know that my mother had no choice but to abandon you.
My illness is hopeless, but I don’t even have a dime on me.
To be honest, I don’t have the courage to live in this world.
I originally wanted to take you brothers and sisters to jump into the sea together, but seeing your cute little faces, I really can’t bear to do it.
If I want to die, just let me die alone.
I don’t want you to know that your mother is a useless person who doesn’t even have the courage to fight against fate.
I admit that this will be an extremely failed example for you.
I don’t even want you to cry over my death.
You are still so young.
How can I bear to make you sad because you have lost your mother?
The only thing I can do is to make you think that I don’t want you, so that you will be strong, right?
Tell mom, have you really become a strong child now?
Hate me or blame me, if resentment can give you the courage to live in this world, then this is the only gift that my useless mother can leave to you.
It was my obsession that harmed you.
I just wanted to prevent that damn man from getting what he wanted.
In order to prevent that woman from entering, I refused to divorce your father.
But I realized in the end that I was wrong.
If I hadn’t been blinded by hatred for a moment, you He wouldn't have had such an unfortunate childhood.
In the end, I was cruelly abandoned by him.
It's okay for me to suffer alone, but I can't let you suffer with me.
If I could have left the Zhao family earlier, the three of us, mother and son, might have been able to start a new life together happily.
I am a failed mother, especially emotionally, so I hope you will be brave enough to find true love, find someone who truly loves you, and use the rest of your happy life to make up for the harm your mother has done to you.
Bar.
Don’t always dwell on the hatred of the past, face the future calmly, cherish the people around you, and if I can see you happy, your mother will be happy for you in heaven.
"Mom" Li Xiaoyun, with tears streaming down her face, rubbed the letter into her heart, and the pain over the years turned into tears that kept flowing.
She didn't know how long she had been crying.
Li Xiaoyun just kept crying until a hoarse male voice sounded in her ears: "Stop crying, if you keep crying, I won't be able to bear it."
Raising her blurry tearful eyes, looking at Fang Jinghao's loving and pitiful gaze, she threw herself into his arms and cried: "I'm such a bastard, I always thought she didn't want me anymore, I used to hate her so much Ah, but I didn’t expect that she would have so much pain in her heart.”
"Now do you still blame her and hate her?"
"I don't hate it anymore.
I stopped hating it a long time ago.
My mother loves me.
She was afraid that my brother and I would be hurt, so she chose this path."
Li Xiaoyun's tears soaked into the fabric of Fang Jinghao's chest.
"Do you mind letting me read her letter?"
Fang Jinghao quickly read through the contents of the letter and couldn't help but secretly sigh at a mother's good intentions
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