After that, Cheng Xiaoguang fell seriously ill.And I, during Cheng Xiaoguang's hospitalization, felt relieved to attend classes at school.Teacher Xu, I see that you have been in a good mood for the past two days, so why don't we have classes this Saturday, why don't we go out and have fun English teacher Yu Jie suddenly waved her hand in front of me and smiled sweetly at me.I smiled back at her gently, stretched out my hand to close the lesson plan in front of me, and replied politely, since Teacher Yu has said so, then you can make an appointment, I am free.Yu Jie pretended to think about it, brushed the broken hair that fell on her chest, and said with a smile after a while, Well, it's set at ten o'clock in the morning on Saturday.But Mr.
Xu, you don't have to be too outside, just call me by my name.Said that if I see outside, don't you also see outside, and call me Teacher Xu Yu Jie I raised my eyebrows in a good mood, and couldn't help but ridicule the beautiful teacher in front of me.Yu Jie is a mature and elegant woman, and the words between her eyebrows show the charm of a mature woman at the age of twenty, young and beautiful.Look at my brain, Xu Yi, you won't mind Yu Jie looked at me suddenly, and smiled shyly at me again, and her tone was a little embarrassed.Of course.I gently raised the corners of my mouth, picked up the textbook and lesson plan on the table, pointed to the watch on my wrist, and said to her, then I'll go to class first.Good.Meeting Cheng Xiaoguang in class today is something I can't even think of.Standing on the podium, no matter how calm I tried to make my tone normal, I couldn't ignore the hot gaze that fell on me in class.With that fiery gaze, and unconcerned about the doubts around her, she just swept straight at me, making all my movements slow and stiff.Every time I accidentally collided with her gaze in the air, I suddenly forgot everything, my mind went blank, and what I wanted to say stopped inexplicably.And then came the beautiful spring colors and the shouts of that night, each of which pierced the bones with shame that made me want to hit the wall.It was so absurd and rude, I knew I shouldn't have done it, but I still lingered with her.No matter how much I deceived myself, I was like a demon on that sultry night, and I only knew how to enjoy and take.And I, when I faced her clear and innocent gaze at this time, only felt more disgusted and disgusted with myself.I'm just a beast, a rude and contemptible beast with red eyes.How do you let me face my own students, she is only more than fifteen years old, I am more than ten years older than her, I don't want the old cow to eat tender grass, I am a beast to do a bad thing.Could it be that I looked at her miserable white face in front of her, and said to her disappreciatively, didn't you say that you like me, then I like your body the same, shouldn't you be excited, I also like it, or say, it's obvious that you tempted me, what's wrong with me, don't you enjoy it yourself, or even more scoundrel, Cheng Xiaoguang, anyway, you are a woman, and you are not a nun, There will always be a time when someone will be on it, it will be the same as being on it, and I won't lose it, you are really a pig and a dog, and you are not as good as a beast after finishing this language class, I deliberately pretended not to hear her shout, grabbed the textbook and broke out of the door, so funny that it was like running away from the desert.I can't, I can't say such irresponsible and ruthless words, I can't do it, facing her questioning, pretending that I am the victim, begging her not to pursue it anymore.Could it be that I went to tell her, Cheng Xiaoguang's events that day were all involuntarily, if you have to ask for an explanation, even if it is my fault, but can we stop caring about it in this era, even if we are, it is reasonable not to provoke such a thing as a relationship, I am a scumbag, a beast, but I don't want to obey my own selfish desires after obeying my own "wrongdoing", and say all irresponsible words to clean up this matter.I didn't dare to face Cheng Xiaoguang, my student.I don't want to say such hurtful things again, and let her disgust me after eating and wiping it off, in fact, I'm already disgusted with her, and I started to think about her.I confess that from the first time I saw her, I coveted everything about her immaturity for no reason, that innocent smile, casual little movements, and that youthful vitality and childishness.Everything about her provoked my inner yug, and I was fascinated by her clean and immature body, by the sweetness of her lips and the sweetness of her mouth, and even by her innocent laughter and slightly childish words.From the very beginning, even though I reminded myself every moment that I was her teacher and her student, I still fell in love with her at first sight and was infatuated with all her youthful energy.Despite the teacher-student love and pedophilia, I couldn't disobey my own heart.No matter how many times I try again, as long as I go back to that rainy night with her wet in my arms, everything will go on, just because I didn't think she was my student in the first place.What's more, under her repeated words and hints, the pandering and shouting that night made me unable to deceive myself no matter how much I escaped, I didn't like her, but I really liked her body.I like everything about her, the breath of youth and youthfulness.In the next few days, Cheng Xiaoguang also noticed my evasion and didn't want to face it, so she no longer called me from a distance without a head, but didn't say a word when she followed me.She was getting more and more lethargic and she slept to death in every class I had.She no longer stared at me from class to class, her eyes like a torch as if she wanted to burn me alive.She became even more silent, and went straight from the original optimist in the class to the diving party.She was at the last table, like a sleeping god who had lost all her vitality, slept more and more dead, and no one could wake up.She no longer submits homework, and every time she arranges essays, she does not hand in the genre of fiction, and even in the monthly exam every month, her Chinese test paper is blank.I thought she was angry with me and I avoided her, so she deliberately acted recklessly in my subject and didn't look like a student at all, but when I heard that the teachers in other subjects were in the same situation, I realized that I was wrong.But this is definitely not related to me.But I was relieved, and it was logical that I and Yu Jie had dinner together several times to determine the relationship between boyfriend and girlfriend.I'm obsessed with the little girl's body, but I also understand that it's not love or love, and we absolutely can't I abandon everything I have now just to sleep with her.Now, although I only have a good impression of Yu Jie, in the eyes of outsiders, we are at least a very good match for men and women, and I believe that I will like her.Anyway, no matter how you live, you can break up after dating, you can cheat and divorce when you get married, can't you have an abortion if you make someone else's belly bigger, you see, there is nothing permanent in the world, just a woman, whatever, isn't it okay to look at, isn't it pleasing to the eye, can't you live a lifetime So, I don't feel sorry for Cheng Xiaoguang, and I feel disappreciative of what Lu Lu said I ruined her.She's only so young and young, it's just broken, it's not that she can't live, can't she have a lot of men in the future, there will be no shortage of men who will be on her at that time, I'm just scared, she uses this to restrain me, everything that binds me makes me gradually lose interest in infatuation, so indifferent that I take everything for granted.Maybe I'm a scumbag with this idea, maybe I'm a scumbag myself, but isn't this also a matter of mutual affection, then I can't blame the other party, right, maybe I should be woken up.The matter of becoming a boyfriend and girlfriend with Yu Jie spread in the school all of a sudden, I originally thought that Cheng Xiaoguang would come to me to make trouble no matter how stagnant he was, I had already thought about dealing with her, but she didn't come to make a scene for a long time.Until the end of this semester in boredom and boredom, she never came to me again, and I was faintly disappointed, and she was determined not to come to me again.She may have really had a good impression of me and liked me, but what she can provoke will not be like.For her, the price of that night was even if it cost her to the hospital, but she had to admit that it was Xiaohun and intriguing that night.It was as if that night was nothing more than a relief from loneliness, and there was no more emotion to say between us, so the end was also complete and unsparing.It's just true that the age gap is a valid reason why we can't cross the chasm.But what I didn't expect was that Cheng Xiaoguang would come to me again, and she did not forget what she had said.It wasn't until later that I lost her that I would inadvertently think of why I couldn't catch her, didn't protect her by my side on that dark and quiet night, and if there was no Yu Jie between us, maybe we would never leave.On a dark night during the winter vacation, I returned to my room after the winter vacation and went back to the bed without turning on the light, but suddenly found a familiar and petite body in my arms.At that time, I didn't live at home, but rented a general-sized house outside.My mother died in childbirth when she was born, and then my father brought back a stepmother for me and Lulu three years after my mother's death.After graduating from university, I moved out early for work reasons, and rented a house outside to get closer, and although Lu Lu sometimes came to live here, it was rare to come here.At this time, there was a familiar body in the empty room, and I was naturally shocked, but when I was about to get up, she hugged me, and the sweet voice came into my ears with a hint of sultry, せせい teacher, it's me.I gritted my teeth, smelled her unique body fragrance and couldn't help but be a little confused, resisted the impulse under me and hoarsely asked her, Cheng Xiaoguang, why are you here, teacher, today is my birthday, I said that I want to give it to you.Like an introduction, I instantly ignited all my thoughts and desires for her, and I buried my head in her hair, sniffing the light fragrance of the shampoo, so that all requests were justified.A few months away made me even more infatuated and reluctant to her
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