So,Teacher, you're satisfied, I looked at the angry little girl dumbly.,This result is also not what I want to see.。
As long as things are exposed, then everything will not be able to contain the fire.I can't imagine that I am on the cusp of public opinion, scolded, blamed and disgusted by the world.I admit that I am cowardly and incompetent, and I can't afford it.せせい teacher,Taboo or not.,As long as you say a word,,I'll never leave you.。
You decide, choose me or choose Teacher Yu Jie I looked at the little girl with a serious face in a daze, as if our first meeting was still yesterday, I couldn't figure out the north and south in the office to correct the composition, and when I saw the composition of the novel genre she handed in, I called her in.And then she was like today, flashing with big eyes, the bottom of her eyes was clear, and her slightly baby fat face stayed serious, she asked me, faintly thundering, hazy sky, but I hope that the wind and rain will come, and you can stay here.せせい sensei, do you know, what is the next line of this poem, I'm sorry, I didn't answer you seriously at that time, I don't know.I'm sorry, but at that time, I was putting on the shelf of an adult and a teacher, and scolding you for being unreasonable.Now, I owe you another answer, and I owe you an equal choice.You ask me, Teacher Yu Yu, you decide, choose me or Teacher Yu Jie.Why let me decide, why can I foul so roguely, it's up to me to decide the direction of the plot after that, why don't we have an equal choice, why let me make this choice, because, don't you want to decide anymore, are you disappointed in me Cheng Xiaoguang, little girl, we, do you really have to come to this point?
The little girl smiled bitterly at me, and the disappointment in her eyes seemed to be dripping, leaving a sad exclamation mark.Cheng Xiaoguang, I really want to hug you again, this is the truth, this is true.However, I really can't help it.I tried to look directly at her, my eyes were full of sadness, my palms couldn't help but tighten, I gently hooked my lips, making myself smile happily, Cheng Xiaoguang, let's separate.Let's never fall in love again.I will try my best to forget the happiness you bring me, get used to the room without your fragrance, let go of the satisfaction left to me by your every inadvertent action, and will miss your stupid time day and night, and never touch the songs you have heard, the fans you have chased, the comic exhibitions you have visited, and the sy you have pretended.Oh yes, the pillows, dolls, posters, art books, novels, figurines, postcards, line art books, comic books, etc., you left in my house, I will find a few cardboard boxes to pack them all for you, just as you left them in my house at the beginning, and I will return them to you this time as a matter of course.Cheng Xiaoguang, I really don't lie to you, I will live in a world without your company, day and night, and get used to it as usual.It's just that I think there's really no girl in the world who likes me as much as you.has occupied you for so long, and you have a little glasses by your side, you will be happy, right, just like the beginning of acquaintance, the novel is set up, I am your teacher, you are my student.It's so good, it's just a little sad, and I'm sad that I still give up on you.Cheng Xiaoguang, my dear little girl, forgive me for my selfishness and cowardice, there is no way to bear it with you, and there is no way to choose a glorious career and a dull love under the top of the love.Xiaoguang, my dear Xiaoguang, I think I like you a little, but that is not enough to make me give up my career, my fame, and my broad path.Okay せせい teacher, from today onwards, we are still my teacher, and I am still your student.Seeing the pear blossom rain that the little girl instantly collapsed and cried with tear ducts, I suddenly felt a little more unbearable and heartache, and I completely understood that there is really no existence that loves me more than her.But I can't choose her, and I can't choose her.Good.I almost choked up, I resisted the urge to hug her uncomfortably, and finally asked, Cheng Xiaoguang, do you really love me so much The little girl smiled bitterly, she wiped a handful of tears, and forced herself to speak out, Teacher Yu, you are still asking this, do you think it makes sense I'm sorry, I won't bless you and Teacher Yu Jie, I don't like to lie.When the little girl left alone, I looked at her thin body that couldn't help but tremble, and suddenly felt that the sadness was intense, and it became suffocating in my throat.I seem to have experienced the sadness of Xu Cheng's cousin back then, because he finally stood in his current status and height, so he was even more unwilling to let go, and as a result, he hurt the girl who loved him and liked him.It's just that he is more resolute than me, he has loved a girl for so long, he can resolutely say let go, but he still heard the girl he loved say, I will find a man to marry when the tears immediately burst out of his eyes, and all the firmness instantly collapsed.And I, not resolute but cowardly, I want to stay with Cheng Xiaoguang, the girl I like a little, but I don't have the courage to accompany her to brave the wind and waves, standing on the mouth of the wind and waves, regardless of the world's accusations and scolding.I vaguely remember a sleepless night after Xu Cheng graduated, I hid in the room with him and drank, carefully pricking up my ears to listen to the movements around me, while drinking and talking drunken nonsense.In the days when he broke up with Han Xi, I also happened to break up with my first love, so we two lovelorn dogs, on the night of a certain adult's absence, hid at home and drank the second pot head and cried.With my encouragement, Xu Cheng's cousin, who has always been poor at expressing himself, called Han Xi's phone and wanted to reconcile.I originally thought that the two of them loved each other so much that big things could be resolved, but I didn't expect that before they could say a few more words, the two seemed to argue.I snatched Xu Cheng's phone and turned on the speakerphone, although I thought it was very bad, but I still wanted to know what happened to them, after all, they were so happy when they fell in love.After turning on the speakerphone, I also gave Xu Cheng my mobile phone, and I listened to him quietly when I didn't drink anything, but I heard Han Xi say ruthlessly on the phone, Xu Cheng, don't come to me again.After graduating from college, I will find a man to marry.Then the phone was hung up, and I saw that Xu Cheng's cousin kept calling back the phone but it was always turned off, and I couldn't look any further, so I finally grabbed his phone and threw it out the window.What I didn't expect was that I just didn't want him to continue to despair, but he collapsed like he had lost his last pillar, he screamed and called the man's name, his fist that kept pounding against the wall was gurgling blood, and he cried and even became short of breath.I panicked all of a sudden, and suddenly remembered that Xu Cheng had a heart attack, and I couldn't help shaking him and asking him where the medicine was, but he just pinched his throat in pain, biting his lower lip tightly and not saying a word.I hurriedly rummaged through the boxes and cabinets looking for medicine, but his breathing became more and more rapid, and God knows how much I regretted letting him make that call.Cousin, I chose to become famous in my career, just to make myself better at the beginning, so that I can match her almost perfectly.I heard him say the last thing, and I could hear the last thing he was trying to say, even though the words he had struggled to spit out were a little mutilated.When I called an ambulance and looked hopelessly at the painful Xu Cheng, I realized for the first time that I was so useless as an elder brother, and I also understood that love would make me lose confidence and pride.Obviously, he is the almost perfect person, but he feels that he is not good enough to be worthy of Han Xi, and I think, Han Xi also thinks bitterly that he is not worthy of the perfect adult in her heart, but at that time, I didn't meet Cheng Xiaoguang, and I couldn't feel how difficult the choice was, and I didn't even take that step to accompany him when Xu Cheng was sent to the hospital.In the end, even after learning the news of his death, he was so indifferent.It's just that when I saw my aunt's long hair that turned gray in an instant, I regretted it, so I chose to be by her side when she lost her only son, and my aunt has always loved me and Cousin Xu Cheng, so she naturally blamed Han Xi for all the sins.I have been so cowardly from the beginning, I am simply a shameless coward, until today, when I looked at the back of Cheng Xiaoguang's departure, I suddenly thought of the departing cousin Xu Cheng, and I was also asking myself if I really want to give up Cheng Xiaoguang and choose Yu Jie, I like it so hard-won, even a little bit is enough for me to feel uncomfortable and distressed.When Yu Jie came to the house I rented without saying a word, I had already packed up all of Cheng Xiaoguang's things and returned them, as if Cheng Xiaoguang had never been there, without any clues.When I watched Yu Jie do her girlfriend duty to make me dinner, I didn't bury my head in the sofa sullenly and kept changing the TV channel, and for no reason remembered that the little girl wanted to get me food before but was embarrassed, and finally waited for me to get something to eat.When I curled up on the couch and watched the news, she would cheekily climb into my arms, snatch the remote control and change to a childish cartoon and smile stupidly.It's just that I let go first, she also has small glasses, don't we have no way to be together anymore This night, Yu Jie lived and slept next to me as a matter of course, smelling the perfume on Yu Jie's body, I miss the little girl's faint body fragrance, so soft and comfortable.I didn't touch Yu Jie in the end, and I sloppily hugged her under the guise of being sleepy, and I couldn't sleep all night, all I thought about was the appearance of the little girl, and I began to regret my decision but I couldn't say anything to keep it and couldn't make up my mind.The next day was the holiday, I got up early in the morning, bored to open the laptop and browse the web, suddenly remembered the poem that the little girl said, and couldn't help but subconsciously type.Suddenly there was an extra pair of hands around my waist, and I frowned slightly, but I still chuckled and held her with one free hand, asking her why she didn't sleep longer.I don't want to sleep when you wake up, and you don't seem to be in good spirits, and the dark circles under your eyes are a little heavy.Yu Jie behind her said sullenly, and I could feel her eyes staring at the screen.I smiled quietly and replied to her lightly, I didn't dare to touch you last night without your consent, so I just held you and lay down all night, can I not be tired and I want to eat but can't.I'll give it to you the next time I come.The hand tapping on the keyboard stopped suddenly, and I smiled and continued to play, but the moment the results were found, my body suddenly stiffened.It turned out that she was confessing to me at the beginning, and she had waited for me for a reply for so long.And I, on the other hand, failed to live up to her liking
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