Looking at Zheng Ji's indifferent expression, Feng Shu was silent, but she still wanted to try, and asked tentatively: "I mean, I, I may not be the current me, I" Zheng Ji stopped his chopsticks and looked at Feng Shu in surprise, Jin Lan was silent on the side, and looked at Feng Shu in surprise at the moment."
How could you not be you, you are confused."
Jin Lan asked puzzled."
Isn't the princess sick?"
Zheng Ji looked at Feng Shu tentatively and asked.As soon as the two said this, Feng Shu had nothing to say, and if she continued to talk about it, I was afraid that the two of them would treat her as mentally ill.lowered her head and ate two bites, and suddenly felt that she had no appetite, Feng Shu simply put down her chopsticks and said, "I've eaten well, you eat slowly." ”The two of them were taken aback, and looked at Feng Shu one after another, they only ate two bites of a full table of dishes, and the cost was probably expensive enough, the princess won't eat it now, so the princess has not eaten a few bites yet, so soon it will be eaten" Zheng Ji asked.Feng Shu looked at him, nodded and smiled reluctantly: "I have something, go first, you eat slowly." ”Then he left alone.She left very lonely, Zheng Ji noticed the loneliness in her eyes, but he didn't know why.Thinking that I couldn't waste this table of good dishes, I finally spent all my savings to have a meal at the most famous Heguilou in Chang'an, but I had to eat enough, otherwise I would die.Zheng Ji ignored Feng Shu and swept away the dishes on the table, and his eyes signaled Jin Lan to finish eating quickly.The food was almost finished, Zheng Ji motioned to Jin Lan to call someone to settle the bill, Jin Lan shouted at the door, and immediately Xiao Er came up and said with a smile: "Guest officer, what else do you need?"
"No need, how much, settle the bill." ”Zheng Jidao.At this moment, his heart was worried, because he knew that this meal was not cheap."
Okay, guest officer, I calculated it for you, and it was a total of five ingots of gold."
Xiao Er looked at the table and said with a smile.Zheng Ji was almost so frightened by him that he fainted.After eating a meal, he asked for five ingots of gold, and he only had a dozen ingots of gold in total, and he had already spent several ingots to buy things with the princess, and now he had to pay five ingots.Zheng Ji was very reluctant to give Jin Lan a look, and Jin Lan had to take out five ingots of gold from her purse and hand them to Xiao Er.Xiao Er took it with a smile and then went downstairs happily.Zheng Ji suddenly collapsed on the table, leaned his head against the table and stopped talking.Jin Lan didn't bother, he just waited quietly.After lying down for a while, when Zheng Ji calmed down, he remembered that the princess had not given her the gifts he bought, so he picked up the gifts with Jin Lan and went to the princess's mansion.It is said that Feng Shu left Heguilou and did not return home, but went to a familiar and beautiful place, Liu Quge's grave.Autumn arrived, and the yellow leaves began to fall, one by one, around a round mound of earth.On the tombstone, the mound of earth is full of golden fallen leaves, the fallen leaves are fluttering, broken and beautiful."
Princess, I'm sorry."
Feng Shu stood in front of Liu Quge's grave for a long time and said lonely.The withered yellow leaves fell down and hit Feng Shu's body, on top of his head, but for a moment they fell to the ground with the wind.The breeze blew lightly, and the hair on the tip of the brow was blown up."
I used to think that I was alive to avenge you and us, but later, after walking through the Xiongnu and Chang'an, and experiencing pain and suffering, I suddenly felt that that kind of life was not what I wanted."
Kneeling down gently in front of the grave, Feng Shu continued: "The enemy is all dead, except for the grip, but for some reason I don't want to see him again and don't want to kill him again."
I slept in Yanmen Pass for three days, I figured out a lot of things, ask the princess for forgiveness, Feng Shu didn't want to live as painfully as when she was a child, before she met the princess, Shu'er was in danger, living on the streets, and being bullied.I don't want to live so painfully like all these years, staying on the edge of life and death all the time, and I can't see tomorrow and can't live today. ”As he spoke, two lines of tears fell down his deep eyes, hanging on his face like pearls.Feng Shu looked at the tombstone and continued: "Princess, Shu'er wants to live a good life for herself in the rest of her life, Shu'er doesn't want anything else, she just wants to be happy, even the simplest happiness." ”Feng Shu longed, as if she was afraid that the tombstone in front of her would blame her."
Be with the people you like, coarse tea and light meals, and face the helplessness and hardships in life together.Princess, isn't this the life you came to Chang'an to pursue, Feng Shu wants to learn from you.It's just that I'm still pretending to be you, and I hope the princess doesn't blame me. ”"You said that it's not easy to find someone you like, and it's even more difficult to stay with him for a long time, Shu'er remembers it."
When he was talking to the tombstone in front of him, Feng Shu was thinking about Zheng Ji in his heart at the moment, but for some reason, the figure of the grip was suddenly flashed in his mind, just a flash, and then disappeared in an instant.Feng Shu felt that her thinking was a little confused, what was she thinking, did she come to the princess's tomb to do something to repent or atone for her sins or hesitate in her heart, and wanted to come here to find an idea, "Princess, Shu'er, Shu'er wants to ask you, you said that Shu'er has exposed her identity, what will happen to Zheng Ji, will he still treat me so respectfully as he does now, or he won't pay attention to me at all."
I don't know why, but I'm starting to have some gains and losses now.Do you know that I actually want to give you back this princess identity, but" Feng Shu hesitated, lowered her head, and didn't know what to say at the moment."
You say, if I told him, wouldn't he think I had a nervous disorder?"
Feng Shu looked at the tombstone longingly to get an answer, maybe the more people who cared about it, the more they would suffer from gains and losses, but Feng Shu, who didn't care much about Huo Guang, could say it clearly."
Princess, I'm sorry, Shu'er is sorry for you."
Suddenly, with tears in her eyes, Feng Shu raised her head, kowtowed a few times in front of the grave, then turned around and ran away with low tears, and when she ran into the depths of the woods, Feng Shu stopped, stood in place and paused for a moment, Feng Shu looked up at the sky and shouted: "I'm sorry, I want to be happy, I just want happiness in the second half of my life." ”As if he had done his best, he yelled hysterically, knelt heavily on the ground, bowed his head and began to cry.The fallen leaves fell one by one, yellow and bright, falling on the crying man, one piece, two pieces Zheng Ji and Jin Lan sent the gift to the princess's mansion, but learned that the princess did not return to the house, Zheng Ji had some doubts and seemed to be a little worried, after all, the princess looked lonely when she left, but I don't know who the princess is not there now, so she had to put the gift in the mansion.Putting the gift at the princess's mansion, the two left on foot.When Feng Shu came back, she looked lonely and weak, the little girl opened the door and told her about Zheng Ji's gift, Feng Shu answered and went straight to the room and lay down, closed her eyes, didn't think about anything, and slowly fell asleep.The sun rose in the east and set in the west, and by the time Feng Shu woke up, it was already the next morning.Ying'er brought a basin of washing water, put it aside, and asked: "Why did you come back yesterday and slept until dawn, seeing that you didn't look very good yesterday, Ying'er was very worried, I came to call you at dinner but couldn't wake you up" Feng Shu took the square towel handed over by Ying'er, touched her face, and smiled slightly: "I'm fine, let you worry." ”Seeing her say this, Ying'er put her mind at ease, and a smile bloomed in the corners of her eyes.After washing his face, he chose a bright red robe, let Ying'er dress up, and came to Zheng Ji's mansion brightly.Jin Lan opened the door, glanced at Jin Lan very uneasily, Jin Lan was a little uncomfortable, lowered her head and said, "Princess, please, I'll call my family." ”Feng Shu pondered uncomfortably in her heart, calling so kindly, "My family, that's mine, not yours." ”glared fiercely at Jin Lan's departing back and followed into the hall.Zheng Ji was called out by Jin Lan, greeted Feng Shu in the hall, and said slightly: "I don't know if the princess is coming, I missed the welcome, and I ask for forgiveness." ”What he said was polite words in the officialdom, and Feng Shu suddenly felt a little alienated, but he didn't know why."
I forgot, I left the horse here yesterday, and today I came to lead the horse, thank you by the way."
Feng Shu consciously sat down on the upper seat and said.Zheng Ji was confused, a princess personally came to lead the horse, and the courtier bought some gifts for her, and she wanted to thank you Is this the princess of the Han Dynasty But since the princess said so, Zheng Ji couldn't say anything, so I had to treat her respectfully what she wanted to do.Jin Lan sent tea, but Feng Shu had no intention of making peace, Jin Lan sat aside and had no intention of leaving, and Zheng Ji did not explain to her.According to the rules of Emperor Xuan, maid women are not allowed to enter the lobby, especially when the men in the family receive VIPs, not to mention the royal nobles.This is the treatment that only grandmothers and wives in charge have.Yesterday, I also had dinner with Feng Shu and others, just like Zheng Ji's family, which shows that this woman has an unusual relationship with Zheng Ji.But how did she get here, when she went to the Huns, she didn't see Zheng Ji with such a woman by her side.After thinking about it, Feng Shu suddenly felt funny, more than ten years have passed, and it is not strange that Zheng Ji has an extra woman by his side, after all, she and Zheng Ji have not seen each other for many years."
Is she your maid or lady," Feng Shu looked at Jin Lan and asked.The two people she asked were a little embarrassed, and Jin Lan blushed all of a sudden, but she seemed to be a little afraid of Feng Shu and didn't dare to meet her eyes.Zheng Ji hurriedly explained embarrassedly: "The princess misunderstood, misunderstood, this is Jin Lan, the daughter of an old friend of my father, the old friend uncle has passed away for many years, Jin Lan came to join me, I saw that she was lonely and left at home."
Zheng Ji has always regarded Jin Lan as his sister. ”After saying it in one breath, he looked at Jin Lan, but saw that her expression darkened, Zheng Ji didn't know why, turned his head to look at Feng Shu but saw that she was radiant, so she was not in good spirits.Two women, strange, Zheng Ji couldn't help but be confused."
In this case, you see, Jin Lan stays in your mansion, a lonely man and a widow, how do outsiders look at it, it is very inconvenient."
Feng Shu thought about it, and then said: "It's better to leave her in my mansion, and find a good family to marry in the future."
This will not damage your reputation. ”Feng Shu looked at Zheng Ji, as if asking for his opinion, but she didn't seem to want to ask for advice at all."
Very well.With the princess to take care of, Zheng Ji is so happy to find a good family for Jin Lan in the future.Jin Lan, I haven't come to thank the princess. ”Zheng Ji was overjoyed and said to Jinlandao.Jin Lan's eyes were dim, and she saluted Feng Shu reluctantly, and said, "Jin Lan thanked the princess." ”Feng Shu smiled happily, now she was finally relieved, she and Zheng Ji came to Japan for a long time.Thinking like this, Feng Shu became more and more comfortable, said goodbye to Zheng Ji, took Jin Lan to the princess's mansion on horseback, and handed Jin Lan over to Ying'er, and was afraid that Zheng Ji would have no one to take care of him, so he told Ying'er to choose an old mother to send Zheng Ji over.Everything was in order, and Feng Shu settled down.aa2705221: