I stumbled through the crowd in the hospital hallway, ignoring my mother's heart-rending cries behind me, blurring my vision and finally rushing to the road outside the hospital.Looking at the traffic in front of me, I fell to my knees weakly, only to feel the darkness around me swallow me completely.Everything is fake.All I felt was a chill on my face, and I forgot the last time I cried.I thought I had found parents to rely on, I thought I had a family of my own, but reality finally gave me a resounding slap in the face.They came to me to save their daughter's life with my life.What about me, what am I, a pawn that they can discard at any time, I laughed at myself, stood up, and limped home.There were countless missed calls from my parents on my phone, and I ignored them all, and now I just want to go home.There was a power outage in the community, and I couldn't see my fingers in the room, and I only felt that my body had lost all my strength, and I fell to the ground in embarrassment, and it didn't take long for me to gradually lose consciousness.When I woke up again.He was kicked awake.A ray of sunlight shone in front of my eyes, I squinted my eyes, turned around to look, and I don't know when, Ke Meng actually stood beside me, beside her.Zhong Qing, Xu Jiao, and Guan Henan all looked at me speechlessly."
I haven't seen you for a few days, why are you so casual and can fall asleep on the floor" Guan Henan complained to me, Ke Meng looked at my face with some doubts: "There seem to be tears on your face, is something wrong?"
Before I knew it, I had shed tears all night.I didn't want them to know about it, so I stood up and smiled: "I seem to have dreamed that you won't come back, and I was heartbroken and wept in my dreams." ”"Flim tongue" Xu Jiao complained to me, but Ke Meng kept looking at me suspiciously.The faces of the four girls were full of exhaustion, and it looked like they had rushed back overnight, and I felt distressed.Hurriedly asked them to rest on the sofa now, and I went to the kitchen alone to cook.The four girls were talking and laughing in the living room, and the atmosphere was warm, and I lowered my head, but my heart was dripping blood.I was washing the dishes in despair, and suddenly I cut the wound with a kitchen knife, and the blood flowed half of the board, and I reacted, and hurriedly stuck a band-aid while the four girls were watching TV, cleaned the board, and soon a hearty breakfast was served on the table."
Enlin Zhe, you still don't want to be an actor, how good it is to be a full-time chef for us to accompany me to college all the time" Seeing this delicious meal, the four girls drooled, and even Ke Meng lay on the table and gobbled it up without any image.I just woke up to the fact that the college entrance examination scores had come out, and I didn't know how many points they scored and which school they applied for.After asking, I learned that Ke Meng and Guan He Nan had both applied for schools in the imperial capital, and their scores were very high, so they should be able to be admitted easily.Xu Jiao and Zhong Qing applied for our provincial capital, after all, they only had their mother at home after they left, so they had to find time to go home to accompany them as soon as possible.Although the score is not too high, it is no problem to admit the one in our provincial capital.I nodded absentmindedly, as if I thought I was worried about them leaving, Ke Meng laughed: "Don't be sad, we all brought you gifts" I hurriedly cheered up, forced a smile and asked them what kind of gifts they were.Guan Henan turned around directly and took out a teddy bear from his schoolbag: "Take it, don't thank me" I was a little speechless, do you think I am Zhong Qing Ah Zhong Qing covered her mouth and chuckled, took out a small pocket from her arms and stuffed it into my hand: "Look at her when you think of me in the future." ”I opened my pocket and looked at it, I was instantly scared to death, it was actually a white bear panties, this guy is really crazy, Xu Jiao is not as unreliable as them.Gave me an e-book for me to read.In the end, Ke Meng turned around and took a photo album and put it in my hand: "This is the photo that Zhong Qing helped us take, if you want us, just look through it and then you don't need to look at other girls" I took it with a wry smile, opened the album, and photos of four girls with different shapes appeared in front of me.They laughed happily, their slender figures, and their free and easy figures stimulated my soul.After a long time, I finally couldn't restrain my emotions, and a trace of tears flowed down my face again.I also have people who care about me, but why, at the moment I only have despair left in my heart."
Lin Zhe, what's wrong with you" Ke Meng finally sensed something was wrong, and hurriedly grabbed my hand.All four girls stopped eating and looked at me nervously.I smiled and shook my head, Ke Meng looked at me and whispered: "Lin Zhe, you still treat us as outsiders, right" "I didn't" I shook my head and wanted to explain, but Ke Meng looked at me disappointed: "Since you didn't, why don't you tell us what happened, don't you believe us" Xu Jiao stepped forward and grabbed my hand, her voice worried: "If something really happens to Lin Zhe, tell me, I am your family, if you don't even believe me, who else can you trust" The word family is for me, It's a great irony.Their concern for me is not fake, but I can't let them know about this matter because I have already made a decision about Li Mingfeng's matter.I smiled and shook my head, and just as I was about to explain, the doorbell rang suddenly, and I hurried over to open the door.Outside the door, it was my mother.Her eyes were red and she looked at me in despair."
Xiao Zhe" "Why are you here" I whispered, my voice trembling."
Xiaozhe's mother really can't help it" She just wanted to say something, I was afraid that she would say something to reveal the truth, smiled apologetically at the four girls who were eating, and pulled my mother into my room.The door closed, my mother knelt on the ground, hugged my legs and cried: "Xiaozhe's mother can't help it, if you don't look for you, your sister will die" I was silent, she still looked at me like she was talking to herself: "Xiaozhe, your sister is only thirteen years old, and she hasn't seen the world yet."
My mother couldn't bear to let her leave like this, and our family has tried their best to treat it, but no matter what, we can't find a suitable kidney source.Xiao Zhe's mother please, please save your sister, whatever you want, my mother will give it to you, Xiao Zhe's mother begs you" She cried so much that her voice was hoarse, holding my legs and constantly talking, I looked at her.Watching her collapse, I couldn't help but laugh."
Okay, I promise you" Mother froze: "Xiao Zhe" "I'll go for a matching test this afternoon, and if it's successful, I'll give my kidney to my sister and let her live." ”I said it indifferently, as if I was talking about something insignificant.My mother finally came to her senses and held me directly in her arms: "Xiao Zhe Xiao Zhe" "Mom will take you to the best school, let you receive the highest education, and contact high-level people in high society Mom will do everything to make up for your Xiao Zhe, thank you" "There is no need to be like this" I smiled and hugged her gently, and it took a long time to calm down her emotions and send her away.The four girls stood behind me and watched me, and when my mother finally left, I laughed: "Why don't you eat anymore" They were all silent, Ke Meng looked at me with a cold look in his eyes: "Don't go" Sure enough, I heard it.I chuckled, "Actually, it's nothing. ”"I said no," Ke Meng's eyes flushed, and she gritted her teeth.The body is trembling: "Do you know that if a person has no kidney, his body's immunity will continue to decline, and he will be sick for many years and become a waste person who can only be bedridden" "It's okay if I lie on the bed and let the nanny serve me." ”The "bastard" official He Nan kicked me directly, and I staggered back to the door, standing in place against the door."
Anyway, if you can't go, we'll all watch you, don't you want to go to the hospital," the four girls wept and refused to let me go.I smiled, my brain was in a state of confusion, and I went straight back to my room."
Okay, you go back, I'll lock the door, in short, you don't want to match" Ke Meng closed the door directly, the room was quiet, I sat on the ground weakly, covering my face, and my body trembled slightly."
I'm sorry," I could only whisper.After sitting on the floor for an hour, I opened the door and walked out, and the girls were all lying on the couch and falling asleep.Meals.I've put sleeping pills in advance.It is impossible to hide this matter from them, as long as they know about it, they will definitely be stopped.I turned off the air conditioner, covered them with a quilt, and then went back to the room, took out a piece of paper, thought for a long time, and finally smiled and wrote two words on the paper.Note.As Ke Meng said, a person who loses a kidney will be sick for a long time and will live to be forty years old at most.I don't want to become such a burden, I don't want to refuse my mother's plea, she is helpless, Li Mingfeng is innocent, I can't make them desperate because of my selfishness, and I can't retaliate against society like before.If it succeeds, I'll just die.I looked back on all my previous experiences and suddenly felt that maybe I was born wrong.No matter how hard I struggled, no matter how hard I tried, at the end of the day, I didn't get anything.I'm so tired, I'm really tired, I've been so tired, I've no strength to fight anymore.I thought about it, and wrote down all the words I wanted to tell on paper, I begged the four girls to live well, and I begged Xu Jiao to take care of my sister-in-law.I begged my parents to take care of them and give them all the property they had intended for me, so that they could live without worry.My last wish before I die, I think they will grant me.I wrote down all my inner thoughts on paper, I like them, I like Ke Meng, I like Zhong Qing, I like Xu Jiao, I care about Guan Henan, I don't want them to get hurt, if I can, I really hope to live with them forever.This wish may never be fulfilled again.After writing the suicide note on three sheets of manuscript paper, I exhaled, put it on the table, and walked out of the room.The four girls were still sleeping peacefully, and I looked at each of their faces and imprinted their faces deeply in my mind.Then he walked out of the room without hesitation.I came to the hospital and asked for a kidney match, my parents were surprised, but they agreed to my request with tears in their eyes.Putting on a sterile coat, I lay on top of an instrument, and next to me was Li Mingfeng, who was still sleeping.Looking at her petite face, I suddenly felt that everything was worth it.After a long time, a male doctor's cold voice came: "The match is successful, and the kidney transplant can be performed" I smiled and glanced at the potassium cyanide hidden in my fingernails, which was wrapped in transparent edible paper.I closed my eyes, remembered what had happened, and chuckled.Farewell, this world.Farewell, my favorite person: