Li Xuebin has been very anxious lately.Although there is still more than half a year before graduation, everyone has already started to look for jobs, and many people have even invested in internships.He has also been busy submitting resumes, applying for jobs, and interviews since the beginning of school in September, desperately hoping to find a satisfactory company as soon as possible, but a major life event has been hanging in his heart.Recently, the information sessions of major enterprises in this school and other schools have been held one after another, and he has listened to them one after another, submitted a lot of resumes, and participated in several interviews, one, two, and even three, but he is depressed, seeing that it is more than half of October, he still hasn't even got an offer.Most of the resumes submitted online are also unheard, and he has basically gone to a few replies to the letter, but unfortunately, no one has made a clear decision to him.And the people around him have settled one after another, most of the classmates have signed employment agreements, and there are very few people like him who have not been resolved so far.The other five in his dormitory have all found very good companies, some have signed state-owned enterprises, some have signed industry leaders, and the basic salary of seven or eight thousand is often higher, so that he who used to be a chatter, was so ashamed that he didn't dare to say more in the bedroom, and even the ordinary accosting made him cautious and nervous.The happy atmosphere in the bedroom has gradually changed in his eyes.Chen Zhao and Xu Xuyang, who have started internships, go out early and return late every day; Zhao Le and Sun Guanghui have no worries.I've been soaking in DC from morning to night, and people are about to stink; And Zhu Yulin, after finding a job.I rented a house outside, and went to live a two-person world with his little girlfriend, occasionally going back to the dormitory, and getting thinner and thinner.But whether it is full, decayed, or erosive, it is better than him like a lonely ghost.He envied each and every one of them.It's another Friday.After eating dinner alone, Li Xuebin did not go back to the bedroom.Tomorrow is a day off.The four who remained in the dormitory must have been as noisy as if they had been liberated nationwide, and he hated the atmosphere when he had recently become silent.In fact.It is fear, fear of the noise and happiness of his roommates, which will make him more and more sensitive to inferiority and pain, and afraid that his increasingly fragile nerves will uncontrollably destroy the friendship that has been together for four years.There was nowhere to go, so he went to the Internet café and soaked for two hours.By the time he walked out of the Internet café, it was past 8 o'clock and the air was cold.Wearing only a thin sweatshirt, the cold wind blew in and extinguished the temperature left on his body surface by the air conditioner of the Internet café.Walking alone on the road, he felt cold, cold from the outside to the inside.So, he gathered himself and wiped his hands in his trouser pockets, trying to warm himself up.However, it didn't work.It was still cold, so cold that his teeth chattered.It was so cold that he missed the bed, but he still didn't want to go back to the bedroom.It's still too early, so let's keep walking.He thought so.Then go and put it into practice.He didn't walk aimlessly, for a small person like him, too far away from the place he was familiar with, it belonged to the second time, he only dared to walk around the campus.From west to south, from south to east, and from east to north.After the hustle and bustle, I also passed by the depression, and saw groups of people shouting and shouting in the food stalls, and I also saw quarrelsome couples squirming and pulling in the middle of nowhere.If you want to divide it, hurry up and divide it, what's the ink.As he passed by the couple, he thought to himself in a rage.After thinking about it, he felt that he was about to become a social unstable factor.Then, he became more and more irritable and depressed.Time seems to pass very slowly, a huge campus, walking around the periphery, it only took less than an hour.Unconsciously walked at the gate of the school, was hit by an oncoming tall boy staggered, looked up blankly, and saw the brightly lit main teaching building at a glance, he paused, and after the boy walked by, he scolded manically: "Fuck you" After scolding, he felt that he was a special waste material.People can only blame society for frustration, hehe.Li Xuebin, who was suddenly cold and uncomfortable, wanted to turn around and continue to walk around the periphery of the school, but the mobile phone in his trouser pocket suddenly rang.frowned slightly, took out his mobile phone, and saw that the caller was his mother, his heart suddenly contracted, and when he was about to turn around, he also paused, and then slowly moved forward."
Mom.""
Hey, are you sleeping?"
"Not yet." ”"How are you doing?"
”"Is that job confirmed?"
"Not yet, I want to look for it again." ”"The Huayuan Electronics you mentioned, I've inquired, isn't it good.It seems that they all have a salary of seven or eight thousand, isn't it" Li Xuebin's chest was sullen: "It's not that high, I have my own number, Mom, you can rest assured." ”"Well, don't look at the masters, why are you so noisy over there" "Oh, I'm having supper with my classmates." ”"Then you eat well, I'll hang up, go to bed early.It's also cold over there, so remember to dress more and pay attention to your body. ”"Well, Mom, you also pay attention to your body."
There was no sound from the other end of the phone, Li Xuebin held the phone, lost his soul, his whole body seemed to be hollowed out, and the corners of his eyes were also very sore.There were pedestrians coming and going, but he didn't want to be embarrassed, so he hurriedly frowned and looked up at the sky.The night covers the stars, like a pitch-black robe, covering those Qionglou Yuyu, covering those tree shadows, and also covering his heart, which is too heavy to bear.Despair, in an instant, crept into his heart.He felt like he couldn't breathe, as if someone was being grabbed by the throat and pressed against his heart.Unfortunately, he didn't have the courage to end everything.It's still a long time, and the opportunity is that not everyone has found a job, he's not the worst, and he's trying to reassure himself.Adjust your mood hard.,Unconsciously,The bedroom is getting closer.,No. 1 bedroom building.,Girl's.。
He heard the frolic of warblers and swallows coming from the nearest bedroom, full of sound and reverie, but unfortunately the windows were hidden by the curtains, and he could not see inside.Then, he felt even more uncomfortable.College really doesn't do anything."
Huh."
He grinned wryly.In the bedroom not far away, the sound of frolicking was quiet, replaced by singing, not light."
Nothing can stop you, your yearning for freedom.""
With a whimsical career, your heart has no worries.""
Through the dark years, I also felt hesitant.""
The moment you look down, you realize the road under your feet.""
The free world in my heart is so clear and lofty.""
Bloom and never wither, blue lotus," he lowered his head and touched his eyes.Wet.Loser.He snorted and cursed in a low voice.To be continued: