"What's the matter, why are you calling me so eagerly" On the phone, Aunt Mei replied to me with a smile."
Because there's something."
I replied in amazement."
Tell me something."
I sighed and replied, "Aunt Mei, you can speak first." ”"You two children are really weird, one mobile phone is turned off, and the other is nervous and wants to come to you for dinner."
Mei Qing said impatiently.I chuckled and replied, "Dinner," "Well, it's just noon today, and these two kids miss you two a lot, and they've always wanted you to come over." ”I didn't respond to Aunt Mei, just blindly silent, Aunt Mei seemed to feel something, and questioned: "What's wrong, can't you come?"
"Come early." ”After saying that, Aunt Mei hung up the phone, and I just wanted to ask her about Yan Jiaxin's whereabouts, but it seems that I can only go to Aunt Mei first.After wandering for half an hour, I finally gave the driver an accurate location, and the driver finally sighed with a long sigh.When I came to Aunt Mei's house, after pressing the doorbell, the door was quickly opened, and it was Yan Yin who opened the door, Yan Yin smiled and beckoned me in, her face was more ruddy than before, and it seemed that she was living very well with Aunt Mei.I followed this girl in, and as soon as I entered, I saw Aunt Mei and Yan Xun running in songs together, and after Yan Yin's soft shout, the two of them stopped and walked towards us.I patted Yan Xun's body, Yan Xun was more complexion than he saw a month ago, and his body was more healthy, "Brother Lei Hao." ”He shouted respectfully at me.I smiled at him, Aunt Mei looked back, as if she was looking for something, and asked me after a while: "Why didn't Xin'er come with you" Aunt Mei asked, I immediately became speechless, seeing me like this, Aunt Mei was even more anxious, "What the hell is wrong" She pulled me to the seat and asked me about it, in the face of Aunt Mei's eagerness, I had to tell her all the things that had happened these days, Aunt Mei was silent after hearing it, and did not say anything, just shook her head vigorously.After being silent for a long time, she looked at me and said, "Go, go to the Huaxia Cemetery, go and bring Xin'er back." ”"Aunt Mei, are you sure she's there" Aunt Mei nodded, and said with a sigh: "Yes, go, bring her over, just say that I want you to bring her over" I didn't continue to be stunned, and immediately walked out under Aunt Mei's instructions.Before leaving, Aunt Mei gave me her car keys directly and asked me to drive her car over.Huaxia Cemetery, I parked the car at the door, and as soon as I got out of the car, I ran in at a fast speed, because I got an answer from Aunt Mei, I firmly believed that Yan Jiaxin would not do stupid things.But I was still extremely worried, inexplicably worried about the tombstone, when I saw Yan Jiaxin sitting alone next to the tombstone, it was so lonely, my inexplicable worry was gone, and slowly I stopped my rushing steps and walked towards her quietly.She didn't notice me, just blindly looked at the photo on the tombstone, very lonely, she stretched out her hand, stroked the photo on the tombstone, and said in a choked voice: "Grandpa." ”I stood quietly beside her, and I looked at the cigarette in my pocket, and had no desire to light it, for I feared that the inconspicuous little fire on the cigarette would burn."
Are you okay?"
were the first words I said after a moment of silence.This sentence made Yan Jiaxin's body tremble violently, and she raised her head to look at me.At this moment, on her evocative face, all I saw was lowness, haggardness, and panic, the kind of panic that was uneasy at first sight.There were still some tears in the corners of her eyes, as if she had just cried.There was no anger, and I couldn't see any anger in her eyes.In an instant, she suddenly stood up and reached out to push me back.At this moment, I didn't continue to be stunned, I grabbed her hand that was pushing towards me, not ready to give her any chance to escape, she resisted, and I was holding on."
I'm sorry."
I lowered my head, looked her squarely, and said these three words sincerely, this is what I must say, and I have to say.Because I didn't understand her embarrassment, I didn't really think about how much this girl was wronged, facing the pressure of the school board, and even the pressure of the whole school.Under such heavy pressure, she just silently endured it alone, no one shared it, and no one understood.And she believes in me, and believes in me, a friend who treats her with all her heart.It is precisely this kind of heart-to-heart comparison that she will take my words as a straw for comfort, put them in her heart, and put them in the depths of her heart.The straw, which is also the straw ignited by the nameless fire, with my unintentionality, with my unintentionality, indirectly became the source of the fire that ignited the deepest anxiety in her heart."
I'm sorry."
I said sorry to her again, and honestly, I don't want to say sorry, because being sorry only makes people sad, it only makes those who believe in you feel upset and disappointed.It was my sorry sentence that made her really cry, crying with real emotions, crying is so panicked, every cry of her seems to tell her inner pain, the deepest pain.And it was her low crying that I really found out that I was really not a man, because I always made the girls around me cry.Yu Fei will cry because I am such a fucking bastard, a bastard who has never done anything to make her comfortable, except for trouble, there is only trouble.Chen Yao would cry because I was so stupid, so stupid that she was under so much pressure alone to like me, but I could only be like an idiot, like a coward, not daring to touch or believe.And Yan Jiaxin would cry, because I was such a fucking bastard, and I knew that she was under so much pressure that I couldn't bear, but I still said indifferently those hurtful words that seemed unintentional but intentional.At this time, I shouted at her with all the strength I could in my body: "Cry, cry if you want, remember to give me a smile after crying, that real smile, the purest smile." ”Tears flowed, and she cried not in such a low voice, but with all the pain that could be told, completely emotional, and I let go of my grip on her hand, because now, she really needed a tear board, a tear board that could withstand these tears."
Old man, is your decision really right?"
I sighed as I looked at the tombstone plaque made of marble standing on the ground.aa2705221: