"You are going to die, such a heavy rain and still run like this" I ran to Yan Jiaxin, directly blocking her way, the downpour from the sky directly ticked on our bodies, she and I were all soaked by the rain, she kicked her eyes at me with resentment, and pushed me hard, "Get out of the way, you get out of the way for me." ”I grabbed her straight and didn't let her go any further, and I yelled at her; "What are you doing, do you have someone like you who doesn't cherish your body" "You don't have to worry about my affairs, you get out of the way." ”"I won't let it, I can't see you hurt yourself like this, because I'm going to feel distressed."
Yan Jiaxin was stunned for a moment, I just wanted to pull her back into the car, she opened my hand directly, smiled and said to me: "You feel distressed, don't I feel distressed, do you know how I feel, do you know that you make me desperate again and again, hurt me again and again, how do you make me think about it, do you want me to look at you two happily there, or as an air, I don't hear anything and see nothing, pretend to turn a blind eye, I tell you Lei Hao, I can't do it." ”After saying that, she pushed me with greater force, and on the slippery ground of the heavy rain, I fell down again, and she, at the moment when I didn't have the strength to grasp her, ran away from me again, her pace, her mood, and her desperate cry, so that I fell to the ground again into a kind of immersive thinking, yes, she was right, I always unilaterally think about the good and bad of a thing, but always forget how much harm this thing will bring to others, I got up from the ground and wanted to chase Yan Jiaxin's steps to run forward again, but I couldn't catch up anymore because my feet couldn't say anything at this moment.When I watched her walk farther and farther in front of me, to the corner of the alley that I couldn't see, I slowly walked back, between Yu Fei standing behind me with an umbrella, seeing her at this moment, I suddenly had an urge to cry, but I still endured it, she walked in front of me with an umbrella, hugged me with her hand, she patted my body, and said to me: "I don't blame you, just blame this world is too entangled, and those of us who can't do anything to change our own situation, We can only wait for the world to baptize us, and every time we go through a baptism, we will be more mature and more aware of what to do to be better for ourselves and the people around us. ”I don't know what to say, I really cried inadvertently on Fei's body, her body was already soaked, this umbrella was very small, not enough to support the space between the two of us, and her body was wet I don't know if it was my tears, or the erosion of the rain, or the combination of rain and tears.She took me back to the apartment, took a towel and wiped my soaked head and hair, and then said to me, "Go take a shower and change your clothes, or you will catch a cold." ”I looked up at her, she was still smiling at me as always, but I couldn't smile at her, she saw my heaviness, walked in front of me and sat down, put her arms around my neck and sighed at me again: "Perhaps, parting is really a good choice for you." ”I gritted my teeth, in fact, we should have separated a long time ago, but I always contradicted myself, even if I said again and again that I wanted her to leave, I always saw her hurt and tortured myself with an indifferent attitude, and I would always feel distressed unconsciously.I broke free of Yu Fei, put my hand in the bag, took out the cigarette inside, wanted to light it, but it was already soaked, I threw the pack of cigarettes into the trash, Yu Fei walked up to me, took out a pack of soft white sand from his body to me, and said to me: "I know you will definitely need cigarettes, so I will always have a pack on me, in case you need to relieve your troubles when you need it, but you promised me that you can't smoke too much, you can only smoke one." ”She handed me the soft white sand, and I took it and lit it immediately, smoking this cigarette with infinite troubles, my mood was always changing in ups and downs, and slowly the weather outside improved, and finally there was no heavy rain as just now, and slowly an incomprehensible sun came out, very big.I smoked this cigarette very hard, I smoked too much, I coughed very uncomfortably, Yu Fei patted my back, and after a bad meal, I finally said to her: "I'm sorry, I want to take a shower and be quiet." ”Yu Fei walked out of the room very clearly, took a shower, changed clothes, I finally walked out with a refreshing and comfortable appearance, Yu Fei sat in the living room, on the table, and the breakfast she bought for me, but I didn't have the heart to eat it, because there was a person who was more uncomfortable than me, and I couldn't enjoy it with such selfishness.I finally spoke to her: "I'm going out to find her, I'm going to find her anyway, because I'm what hurt her so much, and I can't be so selfish." ”"Go ahead, though you've done so much to her selfishly."
I didn't say anything to Yu Fei, closed the door, drove out in an electric car, and came to Wang Ye, I took Yan Jiaxin's bag from his house, because I thought: Yan Jiaxin is unlikely to go to the bar to pick up things, so I drove away from Wang Ye's house.I was aimlessly searching for this huge city, and at the moment, I really wished I had a sensory radar that would allow me to find her, but I didn't have that kind of thing.I don't know how long I searched until the electric car ran out of power, I still didn't find her, I dragged the electric car and continued to search in this corner of the city, I thought: I can find her, because she is so eye-catching, especially since she is already full of injuries, like an angel with folded wings walking on this street.Her downfall, when I saw her walking dejectedly on the gravel road opposite me, I didn't think too much about it, I just picked up something and ran to her, shouting to her: "Yan Jiaxin." ”Suddenly, a large truck passed in front of me, directly blocking my vision, and when the car was completely driven in front of me, Yan Jiaxin's figure disappeared from in front of me again.I searched around with all my might, but I couldn't find her, and I could feel that she must have heard me, even if she hadn't turned to look at me just now, she must have heard me calling at her clearly, because I was shouting so hard.She's avoiding me, obviously avoiding me.I put her bag on a small chair on the gravel road and shouted loudly in the middle of the gravel road, "I'm sorry." ”After shouting, she left the gravel road in a sad mood, and she must have taken the bag I had put there, and walked with her back to me on the other side of the gravel road, the opposite way.aa2705221: