The smell of smoky cigarettes, I leaned on the pole of the pole and I didn't know how many cigarettes I smoked, but this day I smoked more cigarettes than all the times I came here, the two small trees around the shape are very different, but the falling leaves are very evenly distributed around me, and I am like the wind that suddenly blows in Shenzhen, giving the two trees different degrees of damage.I picked up the leaves on both sides of my perimeter, one has small holes, the other is full of small holes, like a wound, maybe it is because of the more violent force of the small insects here, the light rain just enough to get through this small hole and fall directly on the ground of Shenzhen, without a trace of obstruction, not like hitting a big tree, it will not fall by the leaves, and there will be no beautiful vitality, the same wonder as water leaves.I put the two leaves in my left and right pockets, lost the last pack of cigarettes, and finally turned back and walked towards the man who had been injured and weakened by me.When I knocked on the door for the first time, Yu Fei opened the door directly, she seemed to have cried again, there were more obvious tears in the corners of her eyes, she walked in front of me, and then returned to her bed, covering herself with a quilt, but I didn't know where to start with my back to her, no matter what words I didn't know how to tell, I was afraid that as soon as I told it, it would be like a sharp sword, hurting one after another people who were good to me.She turned around slowly, looked at me a little energetically, and finally asked me, "Are you all right?"
I shook my head helplessly, "We broke up, really broke up." ”After saying this, I looked out the window at the tall buildings with an empty expression, and the tall buildings made me feel a little bored, because it blocked the way I could look ahead, look farther away, and in the middle of these tall buildings, there was that large singing venue that hurt people, maybe people would be happy to sit in this venue and watch the perfect performance, but I didn't have any heart to sit on that venue, because here, it has already hurt the best people around me that can't be explained.My mood was very depressed, and suddenly, Yu Fei hugged my waist directly from behind, she was close to me, attached to my ear and whispered to me, her breathing was not so powerful and vibrant, but that's it, she was willing to be a good person who was impermanent, and gave me the warmth that she could have around her, even if I was cold inside, then my not thick back was at least warm."
I'm sorry, it's all my fault, I shouldn't have acted arbitrarily like that, if it weren't for my arbitrary behavior, the scar on your chest wouldn't have been stabbed like this again, I'm really not a good person, maybe, my coming back was a mistake."
As she spoke, she choked on my back.Where is there too much right and wrong in this world, but everyone strives to live according to the way they want to live, and if there is a relative side, there will be the opposite side, we are not saints, but we always want to use a saint's attitude to make things more absolute in our own thinking, but we don't know that this matter has been clearly denied in other people's opinions.I shook my head at her, I don't blame her for doing this right or wrong, I just feel a little sorry for this girl who will be wholeheartedly good to anyone, she is really kind, kind to the point that she is like the white and flawless little flower standing on the mountain, even if it is the freezing of ice and snow, the fierceness of the wind and rain, or the sun that makes people afraid and avoid, she always stands there with such a smile, even if the flower falls and is injured, but she still lets herself stand there with roots.She hugged me tighter, and continued to say to me: "Let me take care of you, okay, let me take care of you with the time of my life" I finally turned to look at Yu Fei in front of me, she let go of her hand and wiped her tears, but I couldn't say the "um" that promised her She had been waiting for my reply, her breath was very heavy in the air around her, making people have a sense of oppression that was difficult to speak, the sincerity of her expression made me a little ruthless to refuse, after a while, I finally asked her after this pause: "Why did I hurt you so many times, and you still want to say words to take care of me so recklessly, I really am not a perfect person, I am just a bastard, a solid big bastard." ”I really want to get such an answer from Yu Fei's mouth, an answer that I don't know, maybe a man won't know, only a woman will understand.She shook her head, then hugged me again and whispered to me: "You don't need a reason to love someone, when you take that person as the last faith in your life, you will find that everything in your life is as if it belongs to him, whether he is good or bad, as long as he can give you the warmth of happiness in essence, even if there will be injuries, you will want to be good to him without resistance In this very tangled world, and you have long left such a thorny seed in my heart, even if there is a sting."
I would like to raise it, and maybe one day it will really change the thorns and turn them into roses, and that kind of beauty will make people feel happy after being hurt. ”She stroked my chest with her hand, pointing at this chest with a slightly lost expression, "In you, I see a seed, a seed that is the same as my heart, but it belongs to me here." ”She took my hand and put it on her face, I looked at her face with complicated eyes, and she smiled bitterly at me, "In the hand." ”When I was young, I took the initiative to chase her, but she took the initiative to hold my hand and put it on her face, that was the first time I had contact with her, physical contact, I was more shy than her, that time I almost took my hand back, she grabbed me, this time, I almost took my hand back, she grabbed me again, and said the same words as at that time, "Don't go, don't take away these little warmth, let me feel willful." ”I didn't pull away, but my mind was not like that of my youth, but my mind began to withdraw at this moment, and the picture in front of me unconsciously changed, and changed into the same smile.aa2705221: