She pursed her lips tightly, trying to calm the unwillingness and anger that had risen in her heart for a moment.However, at this moment, Lu Xining stopped and reached out to pull her slowly moving body.She hadn't come out of her depressed mood yet, she looked at the table expressionlessly, but found that the other party frowned lightly, looking at herself with concern, her heart suddenly burst, her face immediately adjusted her state, revealing a trace of doubt, "What's wrong" Lu Xining didn't answer, just let go of the hand holding her, and looked at her quietly, her eyes were beating with a different brightness, such brightness made her feigned composure shaken for a moment, and she had to look away, pretending not to care, touching the ponytails on both sides of herself, and asked, "Why are you staring at me?"
"Ling Xiquan, do you like Ye Qingting" Lu Xining's sigh-like words came from her ears, but word by word made her brain boom, as if it had exploded, she couldn't think about anything, she could only look back at her in a daze.Lu Xining knew how she knew that she hadn't controlled her emotions just now, so that she could see the clues, and questions followed, her head was messy, but Lu Xining seemed to see her thoughts, and grinned helplessly, "Ling Xiquan, I really don't understand you, if you like it, if you don't like it, if you don't like it, why are you afraid that I know" She paused, suddenly remembered something, and laughed self-deprecatingly, "However, I am not qualified to say you." ”"I'm not afraid you'll know."
Seeing her self-deprecating expression, Ling Xiquan frowned, subconsciously denied it, then was silent for a moment, and deliberately emphasized again, "Really."
I'm not afraid you know. ”The afterglow of the sky became more and more dim, a warm wind swept by, the two rows of street trees made the sound of brushing, and the orange street lamps lit up one by one, shining on the two girls in the middle of the path, stubborn and silent.Lu Xining looked at her steadily, did not answer, but suddenly sneered, "Ling Xiquan, I should really prepare a mirror for you to let you see what you looked like just now, do you know that your face is ugly, so you almost ran over and scolded them." ”Yes, she did.Ling Xiquan looked at her silently, "So, you think I like Ye Qingting" When the last six words came out, she unconsciously lowered her tone."
It's not because of this."
Lu Xining shook his head with a complicated expression, "Actually, I felt that something was wrong with the two of you last semester, but, how to say it, Ye Qingting is not as easy to get along with as he seems on the surface, and he always feels a little unapproachable, and that happened to me myself, so I slowly didn't care." ”"But, Ling Xiquan, we have been at the same table for many years, I know you too well, when do you usually change your face, even if Di Qin sometimes jokes, you have never shown that kind of gloomy look."
When she said the word "gloomy", she hesitated slightly, and then, looking at the table with a somewhat dazed expression, she said bluntly, "Moreover, thinking about it this way, your recent abnormality is not because of your family's affairs, but because Ye Qingting does not come to school" Ling Xiquan looked at his tablemate with a determined face in slight surprise, as if he had reacquainted with her, for a while, he helplessly evoked a smile, "Lu Xining, I don't know, whether to say that you are dull or sharp." ”"So, it's a tacit acquiescence" Speaking of which, there's nothing left to hide.Ling Xiquan calmed down instead, bowed his head slightly, hesitated, and asked, "Do you blame me for lying to you before" However, Lu Xining's face was far from the anger she imagined, she didn't even mention this topic, but raised her voice slightly, and reprimanded, "Ling Xiquan, what do you say you are thinking in your head, if you like it, go and confess it, what is it to secretly have a crush behind your back, you don't know about me, or do you want to follow in my footsteps, do you know that if I am given another chance, I will definitely not hide it, Because of her own little awkwardness, she missed" Her voice choked, under the street lamp, there was an indistinct light in her eyes, Ling Xiquan was a little unbearable and wanted to interrupt her to explain, but she sniffed and said to herself, "You said that it would be better for me to die to save face, or if I couldn't put it down, I just want to say that I really regret it now."
Ling Xiquan, I don't want you to regret it as much as I do. ”Ling Xiquan listened silently, took out a napkin from her schoolbag and handed it to her, wiped her eyes after watching the other party take it, she pursed her lips, and pretended to pat her shoulder easily, "Don't talk about this, it's so dark, go home." ”"You" Lu Xining immediately put down his wiping hand and glared at her in disbelief, "I said so much, you actually changed the topic for me, please have a little response, okay" "Okay, I'll think about it" Ling Xiquan put the napkin back into his schoolbag and said perfunctorily.Seeing this, Lu Xining was so angry that her nose was crooked, "What to consider" The anger at the same table was too obvious, she corrected her attitude with interest, and said sincerely, "Lu Xining, don't stare at me, this is not a trivial matter, I always have to think about it carefully." ”It's a similar attitude.Besides, with Ling Xiquan's temperament, it was strange to immediately agree, Lu Xining nodded, "Okay, you can think about what I said." ”Two people walked under the heavy street lamp, the gray shadow will be narrow and short, and when they turn the road, the gradually more vehicles and bright neon lights on the side of the road slowly set off a corner of this bustling city.However, perhaps Fang Cai's words recalled some memories from the past, Lu Xining lowered his head all the way, appearing very silent, but Ling Xiquan did not break this condensed atmosphere, and looked at the traffic around him carelessly, his mind drifting far away.Lu Xining did not pursue her concealment and deception, but in order to give her the courage to confess, she uncovered her scars.She was not unmoved.She's not pretentious.It's not that she hasn't thought about confessing it.However, she is not Lu Xining.And Ye Qingting is not Xie You.I don't know when, she began to slowly think that boys will be like Xie You, even if he doesn't want others to know when he likes someone, he will definitely let the person he likes know, even if it's just a hint and a feeling.Because, even if there is only a 1 in 1,000 chance of being in love, he is reluctant to let the girl he likes guess about his behavior and feel uneasy.So, for so long, why don't you confess that she is Ling Xiquan, she is proud.However, how could she be a little proud in front of Ye Qingting, just because only if he likes it, her confession is meaningful.So whether Ye Qingting likes her or not, it seems that every time he is physically and mentally exhausted, he will always follow the next guess and confirmation, and his heart will always be surrounded by "whether he likes me or not", as if the joy he had after figuring out that he was special at the beginning slowly evolved into a never-ending anxiety and uncertainty.Only one thing is certain, and Lu Xining also alerted her.If we don't end this state of ambiguity and bitterness, we will only bring more suffering to ourselves.And she, unwilling to let go
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