There was a roar in her head.What did this mean, his hands suddenly clenched, and the bear holding his chest was pinched into a deep, ridiculous shape.The boy's gaze fell on her hand, he froze slightly, and moved his lips, but he didn't say anything after all.His eyebrows and eyes were still light, and there was a hint of indistinguishable smile floating on his slightly raised lips, which seemed to be the same as what he usually saw.However, perhaps it was the illusion under the orange lamplight, his gaze seemed to be intertwined with light and shadow in the moonlit night, and at the moment of saying that sentence, it was complicated to be unable to hide it with the light wind and clouds.However, she suddenly understood.Even if she couldn't see through the complexity of his eyes, it didn't matter.Because he knew exactly what he was calling him for.He knew what he wanted to say.He may have known that he liked him.Also.After getting along for so long, no matter how careful you are, how can you really show no trace in the face of the person you like, and the tacit understanding that you have always thought is just a subconscious trick to deceive yourself.It turned out that love at first sight was only her solo in the end.Like a basin of cold water falling from her head, her heart was drenched cold, and then it hurt faintly.Staggered her gaze, took the bear and the paper bag in her chest in two hands, and then looked up, she stiffly supported her emotions on the verge of collapse, showed a decent smile, nodded, and spoke paradoxically, her throat full of fragmented voices."
I wish you a nice trip."
After speaking calmly, she bowed slightly, turned around and walked into the community.This was the first time she turned her head in front of Ye Qingting and left.She didn't look back, kept her unhurried pace, a slightly strong wind blew, she closed her eyes, wiped her arms wildly, returned home, calmly turned on the light, changed into slippers, and went into the bedroom.Taking off her school bag and putting the blue bear and paper bag in her hand on the bed, she opened the paper bag and took out the delicately wrapped kisses chocolate box inside, and a piece of paper was carried to the ground.She leaned over and picked it up.This is what my dad got back from his friend the day before yesterday, it is said to be a limited edition bear toy, I don't like sweets, I hope you like it.What is this, I obviously don't like her, why do I have to give her gifts once or twice.Her heart was full of embarrassment and sadness, but there was no complaint against him, as if he had shot her in the heart silently, but she still felt that the gun had gone off on its own.In retrospect, Ye Qingting never seemed to have said a trace of ambiguous words to her, nor did he make any moves to cross the distance.Even if it was a few times of support, a polite distance was maintained.It was she who was passionate, she mistakenly thought that the first love would have the opportunity to be happy with each other, believing that everything he was special about was written for herself.Then he mistakenly thought that the little bit he was special about himself was due to liking.However, some like it, and it's over before I can open my mouth.The ridiculous temptation and caution broke the trick at the last second, and she mustered up the courage to take that step, but the boy didn't even give her a chance to speak.Perhaps, such a person who is indifferent and detached and polite with everyone will interrupt in a hurry at that moment, must know that he can't respond, so he tries to be considerate and want to save self-esteem and room for her.What a clever refusal.She clenched the paper tightly in her hands and sat silently down the edge of the bed to the floor.The bright lights illuminated the room from above, and the secret love of more than two years seemed to end here, as if her single-mindedness was squandered in the next second when Ye Qingting spoke, and then there was nothing left, quietly shedding tears, but she didn't even have the strength to cry.She forced herself to open the chocolate box, the beautifully made truffles were colorful, she tasted one, her mouth was full of mint and bitterness, she stood up, opened the bottom cabinet of the locker, put the chocolate box and the bear inside, and then took the lollipop box in the most conspicuous place of the decorative cabinet, put it in, locked the cupboard, as if this would lock up all her love forever.There was a vibration from the phone on the bed.I'm sorry.She texted back very seriously.Why do you want to say sorry The phone didn't light up for a long time, she blinked, and tears seemed to be flowing out again.What Ye Qingting brought to her was always limited warmth and infinite sadness.But she can't blame him, she can't blame him, she can't blame him.It's probably because he is too in line with his fantasy of love, and even she didn't expect that liking someone can be so deep.Ling Xiquan slowly wiped the tears from his cheeks, and just as he wanted to reach out to zip his schoolbag, his phone vibrate.She picked it up like a frightened bird and looked at it.Xiaoxi, mom is back from a business trip tomorrow, do you have anything special to eat, signed by mom.She suddenly felt ridiculous, then she actually laughed, and then laughed louder and louder.Perhaps, the process of falling in love is about the same.Every text message she wished for at every moment was him.And he will definitely have such great joys and sorrows in the future.He will meet a girl he likes and tug at her heartstrings for her every move.Then fall in love, get married, and then go white.This is bound to happen later.His world will definitely not have her.As if the distant future had not yet happened, she had already rehearsed the boy's life with a headache.She put down her phone and finally couldn't help but cry.Ling Xiquan hasn't been sick for a long time.In her memory, except for the fever when she was a child, she didn't even have a cold.She curled up in the futon with chills, as if she had a dream, and walked up the long staircase of the school building with her schoolbag on her back, and there was a burst of laughter and slapstick in the corridor, she walked into the classroom, sat down in her seat, and took out the homework in her schoolbag.Ye Qingting sat in front of her, her back and silhouette blurred in a white light that could not be seen clearly.There was a faint sound of the teacher's lecture and the answer of the classmate on the podium, she looked around, and couldn't see the faces of the classmates clearly, only the black and white of the school uniform dangled in front of her.She was a little panicked, and subconsciously pushed Lu Xining next to her with her arm, but there was no reaction next to her, she looked sideways, and the side was empty, where was Lu Xining's figure.Suddenly, the boy in front of her turned his head, his face was still hidden in a white man, but the familiar pleasant voice sounded in her ears in a low voice, "Ling Xiquan, I can't catch you every time." ”Her heart suddenly felt sour, and she tried to make a sound, but a white light flashed in front of her, and when she opened her eyes again, tears had soaked the pillow
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