He always knew that it was a girl who looked very easy-going and indifferent on the surface, but was very gentle on the inside.The first time I saw her, she was standing at the door of the classroom because she was late, looking cramped and uneasy.At the time, he was surprised because he had not seen her at the opening ceremony.She is very beautiful, her eyebrows and eyes are crooked, and at first glance, she gives people a sense of tranquility like a spring breeze, as well as the subtle graceful temperament of some tutors.But what really caught his attention was the two ponytails that were beating from time to time, so soft and bright that people wanted to grab them.At that time, he thought, this girl is very different.And when she hurriedly sat next to him with her head down, she was inexplicably a little happy in her heart.Noticing the moment she looked at herself, for the first time in her life, she had the urge to say hello.However, when they looked at each other at close range, there was a sudden moment of panic, so that when the girl turned around quickly, he didn't have time to react to anything.Only the smile that bloomed on him, clear and bright, still remains in my mind in the hope of the years.Later, he learned that her name was Ling Xiquan.Elegant, poetic.And she, as her name suggests.Before the second year of junior high school, they hadn't even talked once.Every day at school, after school, and after school, Yin Junyu chatted about his favorite football, and it seemed that his junior high school career would pass like this.He's always been of such a character, cold and cold, who doesn't care much about anything, or, rather, nothing gets into his eyes.He was not born with a clean heart, but the generosity and power of his family gave him the strictest family education and the most pampered material needs from a very young age.Slowly, from crying and asking for toys like other children, to later, it seems that I don't want anything anymore.Nothing is lacking, everything can be easily obtained.Even the most rare gifts and surprises are difficult to make waves.It's not that he hasn't had an expiration date for the so-called campus career, but it's just that it's far from touching him.He never looked down on anyone.Nor will it deliberately alienate anyone.For him, no one is special, and in his eyes, everyone is the same.And the pride and superiority engraved in his bones, the sense of superiority that was inadvertently revealed, he painted it with the most appropriate politeness that he had been taught.Many people like to be close to him because of this, and he is patient with everyone who takes the initiative to approach him.He has always been good at getting along with people.The intimacy is clear, but it is difficult to make others feel a little uncomfortable.Only she is different.Even if he didn't talk to him, even if he didn't even come and go, even if the distance between the seats was always kept between the two columns, it seemed that he had been paying attention to her presence in a small corner of the light next to him.She is very close to Lu Xining, Di Qin and Lin Xiaoqi, and the relationship is also very good, so that everyone is in the clouds, and when the class is boiling about the scandal between him and Di Qin, his first reaction is that he is afraid that she will misunderstand.However, she seemed to have forgotten him for a long time, and her gaze at him was always misty.I never thought I'd sit in front of her one day.But when she passed by, she ignored her math homework.Suddenly, I was a little unhappy.She could smile at Neshe, a classmate from another class who had nothing to do with, but she was not a little curious or touched by his arrival.So he deliberately swept the pencil case she had placed on the edge of the table to the ground, then picked it up again, and politely said "sorry".The girl looked up at him.Her eyes were serene and translucent, with a hint of incomprehensible softness.In an instant, he heard the sound of his own heartbeat.It's a very strange feeling, so long that it seems that I haven't even felt like this when I got the toy I wanted the most when I was very young.The farce that happened during the summer vacation was nothing more than the comparison and greed between the two girls, he watched coldly, and he didn't intend to intervene, but when he saw her deliberately falling on the hard ice in order to warm up, he opened his mouth to relieve the siege.God knows, he has never liked to meddle in things, and he doesn't like to take the initiative to take care of things.Some people say that it is difficult to hide the heart, cover your mouth, and it will run out of your eyes.He hadn't seen him for a summer vacation, and he occasionally remembered the girl sitting in the back.When she couldn't find the exit, she hurried to his appearance.She spoke softly.She pretended to be calm, but even the roots of her ears were dyed crimson.Like a layered mystery, the more you try to find the answer, the more you can find a new look every time.He slowly grew happy.However, the feeling is both fresh and dangerous.He clearly knew that from birth, he was different, and the path he was going to take in the future was already predestined, and at this moment, he couldn't tell whether his motivation was an impulsive novelty or a loneliness that he had no desire for too long.He can't see through his own heart, but there is one thing that is difficult to change.Such a temptation is vain and flashy, suitable for all people at this age, but it is not suitable for him alone.And, ask yourself, he likes her, but he thinks that this kind of liking is far from the point where she has to be.So before the new semester began, he decided to cut off the quietly budding favor in time.But he didn't expect that in a typhoon, he rejected everyone who wanted to help him, but met her expectant bright eyes, and couldn't bear to say the simple sentence "No need, thank you, my family will come soon." ”He started saying to himself every day, wait, wait, he wasn't going to leave that soon anyway.So, it was out of control.He loved the feeling of talking to her.And the way she stood in front of her, blushing.How many times he wanted to reach out and touch her head to see if it felt as soft and smooth as he imagined.So when he saw her standing there alone, her hair covered with milk, he suddenly felt an indescribable and inexplicable uncomfortable feeling in his heart.He didn't like to see her so pitiful, like an elegant cat cruelly abandoned, waiting for anyone's kind mercy.He wet the napkin with a cold face, and without thinking about it, he wanted to wipe off the dry stains on her face.However, the panic in her eyes was so obvious that he suddenly realized his abruptness.Is she afraid of her own touch He thought so, the temperature in his heart was a little colder, and his tone cooled down, "Wipe it and wash your face again, it will be uncomfortable." ”But he didn't expect that on the day of the school sports meeting, she would hand him mineral water.The good brother's sudden stomach pain forced him to run a thousand meters for him, and the already unhappy mood disappeared in that instant.He even felt that he understood what she was looking at the mist in his eyes.She likes him.On Christmas Day, when he came home from school, he flipped through a greeting card in the paper of his homework book, and on a blue background, Santa Claus on a reindeer grinned at him.All the Christmas gifts he received were put in the gift bag, so this greeting card must have been put by someone else, so who put it in his school bag He thought casually, flipped through it casually, and a line of Christmas cheer written in blue watercolor pen came into view.It is a very upright and beautiful word.It's familiar.A name comes to mind almost immediately.Then he saw the corner of the greeting card, a striking correction band.For the first time in his life, with a little curiosity, he found a knife and carefully scraped the correction belt.Just like I thought, there are still a few small black words left underneath I like you so much.I like you so much.A smile involuntarily rose on his lips, and then widened until he couldn't help but laugh softly.It's so cute.Lingxi Spring.He then put the card on his bedside table, the first thing he put in his suitcase when he went to England.He likes her, and she likes him, why can't they be together Almost at the moment of figuring it out, he landed on QQ in anticipation, but his father knocked on the room at this time and told him that his mother was calling.Every now and then, he would remember that he was going to England.Maybe it's next semester, maybe it's next year.But I always have to go abroad.To be honest, he doesn't feel much about the things that the family carries, and any family concepts don't exist in his world.It's just that if he has to leave sooner or later, then after he leaves, what should she do So sensitive and fragile girl, she must be careful about her feelings, if they are together, but he goes abroad, what will happen to her Is it a collapse or uncomfortable He didn't dare to think, so he stared silently at the QQ login interface of the computer screen, and then, clicked to close.What a helplessness that I can't help myself.For the first time in his life, he rubbed his temples weakly.So the next day, I could only pretend to be indifferent and continue to treat everyone with indifference.But I still couldn't help but want to get closer to her.So on the day of Xuejun, he deliberately changed positions with Yin Junyu, looking at each other in pairs, the girl's shyness was so obvious, she lowered her head, like a frightened cat waiting to be comforted.And he really did.Almost ghostly, he reached out uncontrollably and touched the girl's head.The crooked military training hat is very in the way.But he soon noticed his abruptness, and the girl's stunned gaze looking up at him.It's so clear that there's not a trace of dirt.His hand paused, and then he straightened the military training hat she was wearing for her as if nothing had happened.He knew something about her.seems to be indifferent to everything, but his heart is softer than anyone else.At the end of the day, I just don't know how to reject others.For example, in the matter of Lu Xining and Xie You, and for example, in the matter of Qin Zuo.If he went abroad, he thought, he probably wouldn't be able to rest assured of her.But before that, he also found out that she was very jealous.No matter who is close to her, she is like a great enemy, but she wants to act like she doesn't care.It's just that the melancholy personality signature can always see some clues.He has no intention of letting her misunderstand, and there is no idea of "because I am going abroad, find a girl to misunderstand her, and she will not continue to like me", it is precisely because he is leaving, so he cherishes every day he sees her, every word he says, and he hopes that when she thinks of herself in the future, it will be some happy memories.But she knew that she was going abroad sooner than she expected.Are you going to the UK The moment I received her text message, I was overwhelmed and my brain was overwhelmed.How he should answer, he was not ready.The only thing to be thankful for is that she's not in front of her.If she was in front of him, it was hard for him to imagine that he could calmly and repeatedly scrutinize every word of the reply, even the fingers pressing the screen were trembling and complicated, and the typing could not be clear, otherwise, meet at the subway station near Mr.
Feng's house on the weekend and get a definite answer, he breathed a sigh of relief, and the next second his heart came up again.What kind of attitude should he answer and face, so that she will not be so sad.However, the truth is that as long as he leaves, she will surely be sad.So after a long day of idle talk, he finally gritted his teeth and told all the reasons why he went abroad.She was calmer than she had imagined.He thought.But the emotion in her eyes was on the verge of guilt.He thought.He wanted to hug her and comfort her.But he held back.Because he knew that once she took this step, she would be truly sad.And now, at least she doesn't have any other psychological burden.So he endured the discomfort in his heart, pretending to be light and light, but the hands hanging on both sides had already been clenched deeply, painful, but it was nothing compared to the upcoming separation.He thought.He slowly stopped going to school.Ye's mother found him an English tutor, a very authentic British, saying that he grew up in China and was afraid that he would not get used to it when he first went.How can you not get used to it.He silently retorted in his heart, but did not refuse, and asked for leave from the school.If he couldn't see him, would she be better off if she slowly faded from her life like this, but he still couldn't help but inquire about her news from Yin Junyu's mouth.I vaguely remember the first time he asked, "How is Ling Xiquan today", his friend was so shocked that he couldn't speak.He knew that when he said a girl's name from his mouth, Yin Junyu must have understood what he meant.Because he never took the initiative to mention any girl.So he could get news of her from Yin Junyu's mouth every day.Today, she sat quietly in the back for the day.Today, Ms.
He praised her essay in class.Today, the little sister named Liu Yao in the second class blocked her after school, and he couldn't sit still, so he went to Xie You's house and mentioned Liu Yao's matter by the way.To his surprise, Xie You didn't feel surprised when he knew about it, but looked at him with a meaningful gaze, and said, "Ye Qingting, Ye Qingting, I see that you and Ling Xiquan are eyebrows, why haven't you done it yet" How to get it done He smiled bitterly, he didn't have Xie You's urge to do what he wanted to do, and he didn't want to chase after him if he liked.Seeing that the day of going abroad was getting closer and closer, he still selfishly wanted to see her for the last time.After a sleepless night, I can only fall asleep during the day when I keep looking at the time.So I opened my eyes again and unfortunately found that I had overslept.Almost washed out at the fastest speed, sat on the taxi and found that I forgot to bring something, back and forth, in a blink of an eye it was almost the appointed time, but the girl did not come to the text message to ask.After a little thought, he took the initiative to send a text message about the traffic jam, and he quickly received a reply.Desperate to see her, when she saw the girl across the road, with two long ponytails and a mobile phone in her head, she suddenly retreated.Although he has practiced thousands of times in his heart, when he really has to face it, he still can't take a step for a long time.If time stops at this moment, it doesn't seem bad.But the vibration of the mobile phone in his arms pulled him back to reality, he saw the girl opposite looking at him from afar, her eyes spread gently, her hair danced against the wind, I don't know why, he slowed down, if time went a little slower, a little slower, it would be fine.He prepared two gifts for her, which he gave to her on the grounds of his birthday.But her eyes were bright, and the feelings in them were all too familiar to him.At that moment, the panic that he had never felt before spread in his heart, and almost as soon as she spoke, he hurriedly interrupted her.He heard himself ask, "Ling Xiquan, do you remember what you said?"
Do you remember what you said about relying on me, and the girl was really stunned."
That time when I studied the army, on the last day I watched the art show, what you said after you almost fell."
He was ruthless, knocking on her heart word by word, and also smashed his own heart, "I wanted to say to you at the time, but Ling Xiquan, I can't catch you every time." ”I wanted to say to you, okay, I'm not going to let you get hurt in the slightest.The words against his heart were said in the most indifferent way, and even the smile on his lips became cold.He saw that the light in her eyes had dimmed, but it was again covered with fragile strength, as if it would break at the slightest poke."
I wish you a nice trip."
Then I heard her stiff and dry blessings, and left without looking back.He saw how hard she was gripping the bear's fingers.He saw her turn away and quickly wiped her cheek.He knew why.But he opened his mouth silently, and finally turned into a clear and shallow arc on the edge of his lips.As usual, smiling shallowly.Ling Xiquan, I like you too.He replied softly in his heart.Loved it, loved you.But.Before I said I wanted to be together forever and ever.I'll give you a smile first.Good no good: