The night of the city is hazy, the cold of winter climbs up to his knees in the middle of the night, the streetlights on the side of the road emit an orange and red light, shining inch by inch on his heart, Lu Xining shrunk his head in a thick scarf, and his bare hand carrying the cake was cold, gradually numb and red, and he lost consciousness.Returning to her rented one-room apartment of more than 40 meters, she fumbled to turn on the light, put the cake on the table, took off her scarf and gloves in a huff, and quickly turned on the heating.The phone rang.She took off her coat and picked it up."
Hey" Lu Mu's voice sounded with vicissitudes of life, "Ning Ning, I'm working overtime again" "No, a friend has something to do tomorrow and changed the itinerary with me." ”"That's good."
Lu Mu breathed a sigh of relief, "You are a girl outside, pay attention to safety." ”"Got it, Mom.""
You say, why don't you live at home, child?"
Hearing her promise, Mother Lu couldn't help but babble, "There are only two people at home, me and your father, very clean, you are at home, I can still take care of you decently." ”"Mom, didn't I tell you, it's close to the company, it's only a few steps away.""
You kid."
Lu Mu sighed, "You said you've been working here for several years, why haven't you yet?"
Lu Xining didn't know what Lu Mu was going to say, so she hurriedly interrupted her, "Mom, I haven't eaten yet, I'm going to cook first." ”Lu Mu reluctantly gave up.Hang up the phone, and the room is already warm.Instead, she sat down on the floor and tilted her head slowly, her face faithfully reflected in the dressing mirror in the closet next to her.Several layers of foundation are applied, thin eyebrows are depicted, deep eyeliner, and flaming red lips.A face that is mature and sophisticated.She stared at her face in a trance, and the more she looked at it, the stranger it became.Raise your hand and wipe the lipstick off your mouth with the back of your hand, revealing a faint, slightly pale lip color.She simply stood up slowly, slowly walked to the bathroom, turned on the faucet, and carefully removed her makeup and washed her face.When I dried my face and looked up again, a delicate and somewhat tired and pale face was reflected in the mirror.She stared at the person in the mirror for a long time, and then turned back to the inner room.On the cabinet next to the bed is a calendar, and a day is outlined in a striking red pen.She glanced at it and turned to find a lighter in the room.Carefully unwrapping the cake, a delicate and small mousse cake suddenly appeared in front of her, she lit the gift candle, turned off the light, and the whole world seemed to be only the bright red twenty-five in front of her.She folded her lips, opened her lips, and her voice trembled slightly, "Happy birthday, thank you." ”Outside the window, it was raining heavily, and the howling and harsh wind swept the rain on the windowpane, making a crackling sound.She opened her eyes unconsciously, and two lines of tears had already slipped down, dripping on the floor, wetting her heart and blurring her eyes.In the faint dancing candle flame, she seemed to see twelve years ago in a hazy halo.In Shanghai that year, the clouds were clear.When she saw Xie You for the first time, she never thought that this boy who bowed politely was the rumored arrogant and rude boy who did no evil.I never thought that he would fall in love with his swollen nose at first sight.The first time she was confessed, she expressed her refusal incoherently without the slightest preparation, and she didn't bother to wipe the cup next to the computer if it was accidentally knocked over.Fortunately, she hasn't been discovered by others across the Internet, and her shy and flushed face has not been discovered.She thought with rejoice.But I never thought that the seemingly cold boy contained a heart that seemed to burn everything.He is approached as if no one is around.His eyes were empty of all boldness.His careful and gentle actions.His domineering sworn words.As a result, the fiery enthusiasm that instinctively repels from the feeling that he is worthless at the beginning gradually becomes the acquiescence of daily anticipation.She began to pay attention to him, looking for him in every crowd.She wanted to be close to him, and every now and then, her heart felt like it was going to skip a beat.It's just that the young man with a handsome face will only show that kind of warm smile to her, and then, say that he likes it.It was so nice to be treated so specially.So good that she almost forgot that the boy had a higher self-esteem than ordinary people.In fact, she didn't know why she was so insincere, but when she was poked by Di Qin in her heart, it was as if she had also pierced the secret in her heart, and she said that she would not like his face.Looking back on it now.It still made her sad and her heart hurt fiercely.However, when she faced her heart and recognized her feelings for him, the arrogant boy who treated her gently treated her indifferently.She wanted to be close to him, she wanted to learn to get to know him, but she never had the chance.The day-to-day indifference let her know that he was not angry, nor angry, but really, let go.Let go of her, let go of that shallow and fragile liking.But it's not fair.She obviously likes him too.Just when she lost her self-confidence, she made a big mistake.At that time, when he thought the sky was about to fall, he returned to her world.What responsibilities and obligations, what I don't want to see the girl I like, helpless and sad, are all excuses.At that time, she was so sure that he still had his own in his heart.As a result, he has never followed his footsteps silently like the courage he had in those years.But for fear of being disgusted by that person, he could only carefully control the distance between the two.only to find that there was slowly one more person by his side.Always cold and arrogant, he occasionally shows the gentle smile he remembers.He cared so much about that person's body.Even on an international flight, no matter how tired and sleepy he was after landing, he insisted on picking up that person to eat together.Oh, yes.What a caring person he was.She was watching them from afar, and her heart was crumpled.They are so compatible, loving.She couldn't even be jealous.So day by day, what I originally wanted to say slowly became dumb, and in the end, even the courage to confess was exhausted.If all this was what she fantasized about, how nice it would be to reunite beautifully.Until that day, she watched him reach out and take the man and walk slowly, passing her to the admiration and applause of the guests, like a slowed down movie camera, with a desperate heartbeat in her ears, like someone's heartbeat.She secretly exchanged RMB with the person next to her, mustered up her courage, and walked to the center of the stage in full view of everyone.This is the last time.She thought.Whether Xie Youjie accepts it or not, she needs a positive and decisive answer, so that she can make up her mind to live her life in the future."
Lu Xining, that's enough.""
I don't love her, why should I marry her," she breathed hard.The heart, as if it were shattered glass for a moment.She couldn't hold back the tears that welled up in her eyes.Even though I had expected this ending, my heart still hurt so much that I couldn't breathe.The beautiful story she painted for herself is probably coming to an end here.So, when did it start Maybe from the beginning, from the moment he bent down to apologize when he was young, the story has already begun.It's just that the injury of youth and ignorance has a little bit of self-inflicted cruelty, and in a blink of an eye, more than ten years have passed.They are so happy.Only her, for so many years, it has been like a one-man show living in her own world.Thoughts that flew away were slowly pulled back to reality.Outside the window, the storm was still pounding on the glass.She wiped a handful of tears and blew out the candles.The dancing light faded.Darkness enveloped her head-on.She couldn't see anything.Only the terrible sound of wind and rain in my ears seemed to be about to break through the window in an instant.Suddenly, in such a dark atmosphere, he burst into tears.If she could go back to that time, the moment he pushed the door in, she would not have acted so helpless.If she could go back to that time, when he confessed strongly, she would definitely hug him hard and say her heart out loud.If she could go back to that time, she would tell him that what is a humble gentleman, what is as gentle as jade, is not as gentle as his eyebrows and eyes.None of them are as good as you.However, there are no ifs.He looked into his eyes, calm and transparent.And she, as always, lives alone.Walking alone.Shopping alone.Eat alone.Sleep alone.One misses.So thank you, happy birthday.I heard that you and Qin Zuo are about to get married.Well, this is my last birthday for you.I make a wish from the bottom of my heart.If, the rest of my life is destined to be without you.I'm going to make sure I'm doing well.At the very least, look good.In this way, it is worthy of living without you
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