Well, fortunately, she finally knows the real "distressed" parents now.
Wei Lan regretted everything she had done so much, so she hoped that she could get rid of this nightmare in her life.
Since there is no hope of curing this disease, why didn't he bother to die at that time, because his selfishness affected his family Before I knew it, tears had soaked the pillow towel.
Zijing felt the pain of the original owner in the plot, helpless, and struggling However, with the deepening of the understanding of the plot, Ziqing knows that in fact, the original owner is abandoning herself, and deep down in her heart, she is not eager to be more cared for and loved again and again Oh, what a contradiction.
True death can actually be very simple and can be achieved with countless opportunities and time without anyone knowing.
But there are very few people in this world who are willing to die silently, no one really wants to die, just like those who want to jump off the building to take poison and hang themselves or something, they will publicize it with great fanfare in advance, of course, it is not excluded that life is indeed facing an insurmountable hurdle, and it is really desperate to think about it.
But after all, they are afraid of death, so they will let everyone know that what they are looking forward to, or waiting for, is the attention and sympathy of others, and then they will be reluctantly dragged back after hours of persuasion with those well-wishers But what Ziqing wants to say is that it is not others who can really save himself and get himself out of pain, but himself, and only himself Only when you become psychologically strong, cheerful, and optimistic, will you see the brightness of the sun, perceive the fragrance of birds and flowers, and be truly moved by those who love and care about yourself, and will make life warmer.
At least for the time you have a life, your own existence is meaningful. otherwise Just like the original owner, it was originally just a family of food and clothing, but because of her illness, all her savings had been squeezed out in half a year.
There are grandparents who need to be supported, and younger brothers and sisters who are studying.
Her extreme reaction forced her parents to put all their energy on her, and finally sold the house, all the valuable things in the house, and the family went out to rent the cheapest house to live in Ziqing can also fully understand the "selfishness" of the original owner, the ants are still stealing life, not to mention that she is in the prime of her life, seeing a beautiful life slowly unfolding in front of her, and suddenly the whole world is splashed with the thick ink of death, and everything loses its luster.
How desperate that must have been.
She blamed herself for dragging down her family, and on the other hand, she blamed why she wasn't reborn in a richer family, and as her personality slowly changed, she became self-isolated, and she began to hate herself and everything around her.
Therefore, Ziqing doesn't feel that there is anything wrong with the contradiction of the original owner, after all, not everyone can bear the pain of chemotherapy again and again, and many people commit suicide because they can't stand the pain of this treatment.
But she endured it, which shows that she is still a very strong girl in essence.
I don't feel that the original owner's parents and family owe her anything.
Ziqing has experienced too much life and seen all kinds of people, in fact, in her opinion, the original owner is very lucky compared to those who are abandoned from birth, or are directly abandoned by their relatives in the hospital after being diagnosed with a terminal illness.
Everyone is not wrong, in fact, looking at the whole plot, if there is no damn disease, what a happy and wonderful family it would be.
Ziqing knew that all the problems were caused by this leukemia.
Is it that the disease is cured, and everything is solved?
Ziqing put aside all the plot information for the time being, and ran the spiritual heart trick a few times before the original owner's residual resentment did not affect his state of mind.
Data collection on leukemia began With the understanding of this condition and the diagnosis of the original owner, Ziqing was a little desperate, because the original owner had chronic myeloid leukemia, a chronic leukemia that had no effective treatment until now.
Even if the treatment continues, it will only be to endure the pain caused by one more chemotherapy treatment, to survive the endless pain, and to add a heavy burden to the family.
Ziqing thought that the original owner asked the main god space to counterattack for his life, and the most fundamental thing was to end his life as soon as possible and not to add a burden to the family.
In fact, Ziqing can feel that the original owner is saying his request, how painful and struggling in her heart is, if she can, she really doesn't want to die, such a beautiful age, but she is afraid that if she comes again, she will let her family suffer again because of her selfishness, so she still chooses to let herself die neatly Thinking of this, Ziqing cried, really cried.
What to do now, damn the system's request this time is to "survive", survive If you talk about the life-and-death competition in the gladiatorial arena, you can also fight for the chance to survive through your own skills; In the apocalypse, becoming a little cannon fodder zombie can also struggle to survive on the edge of the plot by trying to avoid danger.
So now, she has nothing to do.
From the search for the original owner's memory just now, Ziqing also learned some means to alleviate the pain and enhance vitality, but it is fundamentally a symptom rather than a cure.
Therefore, the art she learned, acupuncture, was just to relieve the pain and alleviate the side effects caused by chemotherapy and taking Western medicine, which made her feel embarrassed.
According to the plot of the original owner, she still has more than half a year at most Of course, in fact, it is largely due to the original owner's resistance to treatment, as well as psychological depression and autism, which makes the body tense for a long time and causes the condition to deteriorate rapidly.
Therefore, if you relax your mind, through acupuncture, as well as traditional Chinese medicine, and a reasonable diet, you may be able to prolong your life It's just that this is just an extension, not the "survival" required by the system, so is this mission doomed to failure?
Ziqing was weighing, she thought, should she give up this task wisely, or look at the situation first, after all, she has just entered this body, and she has just received the plot, and she has not really experienced the pain and helplessness of the original owner, and it seems that it is too disrespectful.
Well, in order to fulfill the original owner's "wish", before she finds a cure, the first task is to convince her parents to give up the treatment and let her be discharged from the hospital before the whole family is torn down. t1706231537: