Time is a wonderful thing.,A lot of people and things will be drowned in the long river of time.,At the beginning,People who knew me in school.,There will be different reactions to my death.,But slowly,With the passage of time,,I've been gradually forgotten.,Most people won't think of me anymore.,I'm like this.,Really turned into a cloud.。
In a flash, two years have passed, and I have completely disappeared from the memory of the world, but the world does not know that I am actually alive, but I am still alive, but I am a vagabond without the memory of the past.Wandering the streets of the city every day, begging for a living in my memory, I have no father, no mother, no home, I have been wandering outside, wandering everywhere, the four seas for home, for me, the happiest thing is to be able to eat a full meal, but, most of the time I am hungry, I belong to the lazier type of homeless, only when the hungry can't stand it, I will go to beg.Maybe others think that my life is not good, but I am very satisfied with the status quo, eat and sleep, sleep and eat, do nothing, do nothing, and beg freely on the way, I have met all kinds of people, some people pity me, will give me food, some people dislike me, see me and take a detour, some people look down on me.They said that I was young, that I had hands and feet, that I was not good at what I did, that I had to beg, and that some people even beat and insulted me, saying that I was a dog.I don't care what other people think, I just want to live each day quietly.Originally, I thought that I would always be comfortable like this for the rest of my life.But there was one thing that turned my peaceful life upside down.It was a late autumn evening, everything was no different from usual, I was hungry again, but I didn't want to beg, so I went to the trash can in the back alley of the bar to find food, and when I was full, I went straight to sleep.When I slept in the middle of nowhere, I was suddenly woken up by a loud shouting from someone.I opened my eyes in a daze and found a girl with short hair talking on the phone in the alley.She looked angry and irritable, as if she had drunk too much, and was arguing violently with the person on the phone.I didn't hear what she said, I was just fascinated by her appearance.She is so beautiful, I was stunned when I saw her, the street lights shone on her face, playing a soft light and shadow, her eyes were big, her eyelashes were long, her skin was very white, her hair was a little short but refreshing, she was really good-looking, I had wandered many places, but I had never seen such a beautiful girl.It's just that this beauty is not in a good state, she seems to be getting more and more angry the more she talks, tears are coming out, just when she is most emotional, her eyes suddenly glimpse me lying in the corner.When the short-haired girl noticed me, her eyes suddenly changed, and they became very strange and unpredictable.After staring at me for a few seconds, she suddenly roared into the phone: "You wait, I will definitely make you regret it" After yelling, she hung up the phone directly and walked towards me quickly.I shrank into the corner of the wall in fright, and my heart was pounding.Walking up to me, the short-haired girl immediately stopped, looked down at me condescendingly, her eyes were very red, and some tears, suddenly, she raised her hand to wipe away her tears, and said to me in a hoarse voice: "Am I beautiful?"
The beauty took the initiative to talk to me, which had never happened before.I couldn't even say anything excited, just nodded stupidly.The short-haired girl saw me nodding, and actually bent down to hold my hand, and said domineeringly: "Get up, follow me" I was like this, and was taken away by the short-haired girl in a daze, she took my hand and walked very quickly.I've never touched a girl's hand, let alone a beauty of this calibre.I really can't believe it's all true, I feel like my head is confused, my heart is beating fast, and I can't describe the wonderful taste.Before I knew it, I had been pulled into the bar box by the short-haired girl, the box was large, but there was no one in it, only a coffee table in the middle was full of empty wine bottles.As soon as the box door closed, the short-haired girl threw me on the couch without saying a word, and for the next half hour.I felt like I was dreaming, and after a spring dream that I would never forget, I sat on the sofa in a daze, thinking about the dream-like scene just now.I never thought that I would suddenly become a real man in such a situation, I thought that no woman would touch me in my life, but today, such a beautiful beauty came to have sex with me.It's unrealistic, but it's true.I felt very wonderful and excited, my body is still hot, and I have an endless aftertaste, but when I was relieved, I realized that the short-haired girl didn't know when she had left, and I was the only one left in the huge box.And those empty bottles.Suddenly, my heart was as empty as these bottles.I felt at a loss, if it weren't for the fact that I was in a box at the moment, if it wasn't for the fact that everything in front of me was so real, I really thought I was in a dream.But this is really not a dream, my body even has the body temperature of a short-haired girl, this girl who was still entangled with me just now, disappeared in the blink of an eye, my heart couldn't help but be lost, I didn't think much about it, I quickly put on my clothes and chased out.I searched everywhere, but I could no longer find the short-haired girl, the street was empty, dead and silent, I looked at the boundless darkness, and suddenly lost my strength.Inside, there is a complete emptiness.The short-haired girl came so profoundly and walked away lightly.It's like a little fairy suddenly falling from the sky to give me pleasure, and then suddenly the little fairy disappears.This kind of gap is so difficult to bear this night, I finally tasted what happiness is, and deeply experienced the taste of lost soul, regret, and longing.For the first time in my life, I was taken away by a short-haired girl.And my heart was taken away by her, I don't know where she went, I don't even know her name, but my mind is already full of her.I wish I could see her again, even if it was just to know her name, but it became a luxury, and she was really like a wisp of smoke, completely evaporating from the world.For many days to come, I stayed at the door of the bar day and night, but the short-haired girl never came, and I missed her more and more day by day, and I always wondered why the short-haired girl suddenly took my hand, suddenly had sex with me, and suddenly said goodbye.But after thinking about it for a long time, I still can't figure it out, I can't understand the minds of girls, I haven't had the opportunity to contact girls before, let alone understand girls.Actually, no matter what, I should have been content, and being able to have a relationship with a beautiful woman, isn't it a blessing for me in my eight lifetimes, and what else do I have to ask for.It's just that I'm a very traditional person, and in my mind, it seems that only husbands and wives can do that kind of thing.Since I did it with the short-haired girl, then she should be my woman.But, think about it carefully, what kind of identity am I, a beggar that everyone dislikes, how can I be qualified to have such a beautiful girl, who should I have self-knowledge, at this moment of me, I suddenly gave birth to something called inferiority in my heart, I finally realized the gap between myself and normal people, this gap, doomed me to have happiness, let alone love.I also knew that I had to forget about the short-haired girl and treat her as a passer-by in my life.However, she seems to occupy all of me, even if I try hard, I can't forget her, I really have no interest in the days after that, I am still wandering, but I am no longer the carefree homeless man I used to be, I am worried every day, the whole person seems to have lost the soul, only the body is drifting.Moreover, no matter how I walked or wandered, I never left the city, and I may still have a glimmer of hope in my heart, I hope to meet the short-haired girl again.But this is just an expectation, a dream.The city is very big and there are a lot of people, and I couldn't meet her at all, and after two months, the weather turned cold, and this morning in the cold winter was cloudy and windy.There was no sun or rain in the sky, but the air was bitterly cold, and I was huddled in a corner of the street in my shabby cotton jacket.My head was very dizzy, my whole body was hot and weak, this winter was too cold, I couldn't bear the erosion of the cold, and I started a high fever.I haven't eaten for three days, and people who are hungry are having convulsions, their mouths are very dry, and their throats are burning like fire, which is very uncomfortable.The streets were full of people, but no one looked at me, no one gave me food, and I didn't have any expectations, and my heart was already cold.After months of being in this city, I have already felt the indifference of the people of this city, their hearts seem to be colder than this winter, and there is no one to pity a beggar like me, so many times, I would rather go to the garbage can to pick up something to eat than beg for food.It's just that these days, I'm so sick that I can't walk anymore, and I can't beg for food, so I can only huddle by this wall, lingering.My consciousness gradually began to blur, my head became more and more painful, my body became more and more weak, I felt so tired and tired, the whole person was extremely weak, my eyelids finally couldn't hold on, and slowly closed.Just as my eyes were about to close, a bun was suddenly thrown in front of me, and hot white smoke was still emitting from the bun.When I saw it, my weak eyes lit up, and as if I had grasped a life-saving straw, I grabbed the bun and stuffed it into my mouth twice.At this time, my cold heart had a trace of warmth, and there were still good people in this city.I couldn't help it, so I raised my head and looked at the benefactor who gave me alms.She is a girl, full of personality, dressed very fashionably, on a cold day, her legs are still wrapped in stockings, very dazzling.Her pants were short leather pants, she was wearing a short white down, her hair was smooth and smooth, and a little short, and the whole person looked very fresh, like a beautiful scenery.When I looked at her, she was leaving in style, but her face still flashed in front of my eyes.Just in such a flash, my heart suddenly shook, my heartbeat was about to explode, this face, I am too familiar, even if I only look at it, I can instantly recognize her, she is the short-haired girl I want to worry about day and night.In my heart, the short-haired girl is the most beautiful girl in the world, although we have only met once, but her appearance has already appeared in my mind a thousand times, she took away my heart, took away my soul, and left me with endless thoughts.I've been wandering in this city for so long, just to meet her again.At this moment, I finally saw her.My heart jumped out of my throat with excitement, my eyes were moist, and my weak body suddenly came with strength.I supported myself and quickly got up from the ground with difficulty.My feet were a little weak, but I tried to stand firm, and then I tore away my hoarse throat and looked at the short-haired girl's back, and said with tears in my eyes, "Hey, wait"