I am in a very bad mental state now.,The whole person is wilted.,A little misanthropic feeling.,I just want to walk quietly and aimlessly.,I don't want to be disturbed.,So,Seeing the old beggar in front of me.,I instinctively have a disgust.。
Speaking of which, it is not the first time that I have met the old beggar, he has appeared several times in my wandering life, every time he comes to me, he will say the same thing, at first I think this person is quite amiable, although the image is a little worse, but after all, they are all beggars, no one dislikes anyone.On the contrary, there is a sense of sympathy, so I don't reject him.However, after getting along with the old beggar a lot, I found out that this person clearly has a brain problem, probably a crazy old man with paranoia, he always pesters me, saying that I have strange bones and is a martial arts wizard, and he wants to accept me as an apprentice and teach me peerless martial arts.I thought he was joking, but later I found out that he was obviously crazy, and I don't know what stimulated him, so he actually regarded himself as a peerless master in martial arts movies.Although I have been begging, at least my head is normal, I don't want to communicate with a madman who is not very sober, so every time he comes to me, I love to ignore him, this time, I am in a bad mood, and I don't want to talk nonsense with him, so I simply take this old beggar as air, bypass him and go straight forward.The old beggar was not happy to see that I was ignoring him, he turned around, followed after me, and said, "Hey, hey, little brother, you don't see my big living man here."
Ran in front of me, once again blocking my path.I raised my eyes to look at him and said seriously: "I'm in a bad mood today" The old beggar grinned like an uncertain prophet, and said: "I know, you are looked down upon, beaten by others, and ridiculed" I said a little impatiently: "I know that you are still bothering me" is an unfriendly attitude towards me.The old beggar didn't care, but persuaded me bitterly: "This is a utilitarian world, the weak eat the strong, don't we beggars be looked down upon, my old man has experienced this kind of thing much more than you, but the most impressive time was when I went to the bar to beg for a drink, and the guards at the door didn't let me in.As a result, I met a good person, he gave me 20,000 yuan, I took the money and went directly to the bar to eat and drink, you say it's fun" I'm in this state now, I'm not interested in anything, after listening to the old beggar's special experience, I didn't react much, just snorted, and said: "That's your luck" The old beggar waved his hand and said seriously: "No, that's the road of heaven and earth, no matter what your situation is, there will always be a time to turn over" I don't know why, today's old beggar seems to be a little unusual, If he behaves like crazy, I think it's normal, but he's acting serious at this moment, which is a bit abnormal, and the most important thing is that what he said seems to have some truth, which doesn't look like a madman saying anything at all.I suspect he's got it wrong, no matter how much he makes sense.It has nothing to do with me, I replied in a deep voice: "So what, my life is destined to be like this" Salted fish turned over, this word is not suitable for me at all, I am an ant at the bottom of society, I have nothing on my body, I don't even have the ability to make money to support myself, I am a complete waste.I can only live by begging, what hope is there in such a life, how can I have a time to turn over, I am afraid, in the future, my life will return to the past, I will become the homeless man who has no purpose and no pursuit to wander around, I can no longer think of a relationship.Not even unrequited love.The old beggar listened to my frustrated words, and hurriedly said to me: "Who said, as long as you practice martial arts with me, you can definitely become a dragon among people, no one will dare to look down on you in the future, you can live as you like" Hearing this, I was speechless again, just now I also said how the old beggar changed sex.Unexpectedly, after all the old beggar came back to the practice of martial arts, he said so much, just to make me his apprentice, I am now more convinced, this is a madman, I really don't want to talk to him anymore.So, I said to him directly: "I'm sorry, I'm not interested in practicing martial arts", and after saying that, I passed him by, and hurried to leave.The old beggar was still calling me behind me, but I didn't hear it, so I kept going, and finally disappeared in front of the old beggar.In the following days, I just waited for death every day, I wandered in this city, living a beggar life, I was still the same as before, the biggest task of the day was to eat a full meal, but some things were different from before, that was my heart, I always felt that something was missing in my heart.It's hard to be satisfied, after all, the short-haired girl has walked through my life deeply, and she has a relationship with me, which is a fact that cannot be changed, and it is engraved in my heart, even if I want to forget, it is difficult to forget.Again.I also left a deep impression on others, the university that the short-haired girl studied, most people knew that I was such a number one person, even if I didn't go to that university recently, but in this city, it was inevitable to meet students there, and if someone recognized me, they would point fingers at me and talk about it.Some people will even come over to me and ask: "Li Zhike is not cool to play" For this kind of person, I can only avoid it like a plague god, and run away as fast as I can, but I can escape, but the short-haired girl can't, she is haunted by this shadow at school.Most people in the school already knew about the relationship between the short-haired girl and me, a beggar.Her reputation was completely ruined, and this matter was too exciting and heavy, so it spread in the school, and the topic was extremely hot, and there was a tendency to remain high.Some bold people even went out of their way to ask the short-haired girl what it was like to have a relationship with a beggar and how she could do it.Where did this courage and perseverance come from?
The short-haired girl was about to be depressed by this incident, and she felt a strange gaze sweeping her wherever she went, which was like punching countless holes in her, which made her very unhappy, she basically didn't even dare to go to class, she just wanted to find a place where no one was there to shrink up.The same depressed person, as well as Cao Ziyue, his ugly things made the whole school known, naturally very unhappy, originally he and Shen Ningning had a good relationship, maybe he wouldn't care too much about the short-haired girl, but the turmoil that day made him lose face, and the woman he had never played with was actually by a beggar, and he couldn't swallow this breath.Even if he has broken up with the short-haired girl, he is still very unwilling to do this, and there is always a resentment in his chest, which cannot be dissipated.One day, Cao Ziyue was having dinner with a few fox friends and dog friends in a restaurant, and when the drink was rising, his friend mentioned it again.And said to Cao Ziyue without any subtlety: "Ziyue, you kid can't do it, chasing Li Zhike for so half a year, spending so much effort, but she didn't get her to bed, and finally got a beggar cheaper" As soon as he mentioned this, Cao Ziyue was like being grabbed by the tail, very manic, he took a big sip of wine, and then said angrily: "That bitch is a slut, and she pretends to be pure with me, and she doesn't let me touch it, I have to say that women's chastity is important, I really can't stand it, so I got together with her best friend, Man.Isn't it normal to steal a fishy result of this bitch, just find a beggar to take revenge on me, it's too shameless" His friend smiled and said: "Her approach is too extreme, I'm really curious, how did she do it, find a beggar and find a better looking one, so ugly and dirty, how can she get rid of it" The others heard this.I couldn't help laughing, everyone was sighing: "It's cheaper than that beggar" These laughter, listening to Cao Ziyue's ears, will only make him feel harsh, he thinks this is his shame, is a failure in his life, at the beginning, he chased the short-haired girl really hard, and finally caught up, but never tasted fishy, I didn't expect that I had been thinking about the cabbage for so long, but I was arched by me, the most humble beggar, which really made Cao Ziyue indignant, especially when I heard that other people were talking about this as a joke, He was more stimulated.Cao Ziyue hated the short-haired girl in his heart, and he was even more resentful of me, a beggar who didn't know the height of the sky.He was eager to kill me to relieve the hatred in his heart, just when his fox friends and dog friends laughed and discussed me, he suddenly slapped the table and said loudly: "If I see that stinky beggar again, I will definitely break his legs" A roar of anger exploded Cao Ziyue's infinite grievances in his heart, and his emotions were catalyzed by alcohol, and he was already extremely irritable.Whereas.At this moment, an ugly beggar in a torn cotton jacket was begging for food at the door of the restaurant with a broken bowl.Seeing this, the waiter of the hotel immediately ran to the door to bombard the beggar, and said in disgust while banging: "Let's go, there is nothing for you to eat here, hurry up and go elsewhere" Cao Ziyue, who was angry at the case, did not notice such a scene.It was a friend at his table who couldn't help but look at the door, and then, he squinted, pointed to the beggar at the door, and said to Cao Ziyue: "Ziyue, look at it, that beggar, is it the one who cuckolded you?"
Cao Ziyue said.Immediately turned his head to look at the door, and in an instant, his eyes emitted an extremely cold light, his face twitched twice, looking fierce and ruthless, although he and I only have one side, but he still remembers my appearance vividly, just because.My face was covered with ugly scars, the ugly ones were very special, and they were easy to identify, and Cao Ziyue recognized me at a glance.That's right, this ugly beggar is me, I completely unintentionally begged for food to get this restaurant, but I fell directly into the tiger's mouth because of this.Cao Ziyue is worried that he can't meet me.Now suddenly seeing me take the initiative to send to the door, of course he was excited and violent, poofed, he got up from his seat, and said to his group of friends: "Go" After throwing off the word, Cao Ziyue immediately strode towards me, and his fox friends and dog friends also put down their chopsticks one after another, and surrounded me with malice