おcco at the end of her life,Xu Mo is still interceding for me,She didn't care about herself until she died,It's still me in my heart.,Such a heavy feeling.,I almost couldn't breathe.,I feel like I'm dying.,My chest is blocked.,Breathing is not smooth.,I have a lot of emotions in my heart.,My eyes are involuntarily full of tears.,I don't know how to react.,I just feel very uncomfortable and uncomfortable.。
The ruthless and cold-blooded leader, at this moment, couldn't help but show a look of consternation, his knife was originally going to pierce my heart, but who knows, it was Xu Mo who stabbed in the end, which had to shock the leader, he didn't expect that a woman would have such courage and courage, and he didn't expect that a woman could sacrifice herself for a man.Even, even dying for this man, she died so desperately and tried her best.The leader froze in place, deeply amazed for a few seconds, and then, he suddenly came back to his senses, his eyes returned to coldness, he no longer hesitated, and directly pulled out the knife in his hand.Xu Mo, who was already dying, was pulled out by the leader, and suddenly, her whole soul seemed to be pulled out, the breath of life was almost exhausted, the blood in her chest suddenly gushed out, her weak face suddenly became distorted, and her thin body fell to the ground softly like a mess of mud.I saw Xu Mo fall to the ground, the blocked emotions in my heart suddenly burst out like a torrent, the tears accumulated in my eyes also burst out in an instant, my whole person almost collapsed madly, I didn't care about the pain on my body, desperate for everything, I sat up from the ground with the power of the spray, and quickly supported Xu Mo who fell to the ground weakly.Xu Mo collapsed in my arms like this, her chest was still bleeding out, her clothes were stained red with blood, her face became pale, her eyes were weakly closed, her breathing was very, very weak, and the whole person was extremely weak.I hugged Xu Mo, who was covered in blood, and my heart couldn't stop trembling, I don't know how things could have turned out like this, this is the situation I am most afraid of and dare not face, I really would rather that knife pierce me than Xu Mo to bear the pain of this abyss for me, how can she die for me, how can she.I deliberately ran over to save her, but why did she save me in the end, she used her life to save me I can't accept this reality, I can't watch Xu Mo die, my eyes are completely blurred with tears.My heart was completely dumb from pain, and I couldn't say anything as if I had thousands of needles in my throat.At this time, the leader was already carrying a blood-stained steel knife and stood in front of us, he stared at this scene coldly, and sneered at me: "Su Yan, Su Yan, in your life, you will live by women, three years ago, three years later, it is still like this" The leader's words came into my ears, but could not enter my heart, I have no time to take care of him now, I am just immersed in my own sadness and pain, my tears are like beads with broken threads, constantly flowing down, I can't control my emotions, In particular, seeing Xu Mo's fainter and fainter breath, I panicked even more, I felt an unprecedented fear, I was afraid, I was afraid that Xu Mo would really die in my arms like this.Even, my body trembled slightly, and my hand holding Xu Mo became weak.Xu Mo, whose face was already white, felt my tears dripping on her face one by one, her eyes suddenly blinked weakly, and after a while, she seemed to have tried a lot of effort to slowly open her eyes, and then, she looked at me deeply, weakly touched the corners of her mouth, smiled slightly, and said softly: "Su Yan, don't cry." ”Seeing that Xu Mo finally had a little reaction, I couldn't control it anymore and choked directly, I was like a sad child, venting my emotions without any scruples, the pain in my throat was clogged up, and it poured out instantly, I trembled and choked, and sobbed and said: "Why are you so stupid, I'm here to save you."
You are doing this now, what do you want me to do" Xu Mo saw that I was crying more and more fiercely, her mood seemed to have changed a little, she blinked her eyes harder, as if she was trying her best not to let it close, she used the last strength of her life to maintain her breath, and after a while, she said weakly: "All this is my own volition, I said, I don't need you to save me, if you lose your life in order to save me, then, I will never forgive myself for the rest of my life, even if I die, I will not die with peace of mind."
Hearing Xu Mo say this, my heart hurt even more, I choked in my throat, and couldn't cry: "But now, how can you tell me to live the second half of my life with peace of mind, do you want me to feel guilty for the rest of my life" In the end, my emotions really collapsed completely, I couldn't stand it, I couldn't stand this kind of ending, the big war three years ago had already buried an indelible shadow in my heart, I saw so many people die for me, this is the deepest guilt in my life, the most painful memory, I have already carried too many people's lives and sustenance on me now, now, why add another Xu Mo, she shouldn't fall into the whirlpool of my hatred, she is innocent, how can she live her ordinary college life because I fell to death, enjoy the superiority of her school flower, why did God destroy her so ruthlessly, could it be that God let me be reborn again, just so that I can experience this extreme pain again Xu Mo After listening to my words, her sad emotions finally couldn't be controlled, the corners of her eyes, Slowly shed two lines of tears, the corners of her mouth, uncontrollably trembling slightly, she closed her eyes slightly, and then tried to open them again, she looked at me with tears, and said slowly: "Su Yan, do you know, as early as three years ago, the moment I heard the news of your death, my heart seemed to die, every day from then on, I lived a tormented life, every night, I was thinking, if I was there that day, I would definitely accompany you to jump off the cliff, at least, then I can feel your feelings, Maybe I can't do anything for you, but at the very least, I can accompany you and not let you go away alone. ”Hearing Xu Mo say such sincere and affectionate words so weakly, my heart is even more painful, Xu Mo has endured for me, not to mention the pain and torture at the moment, she has endured the pain for me for three years, and in the past three years, she has lived a mess.People are not ghosts, she has lost herself and lost her happiness, just because, her heart died with me, she is not just stupid now, she has been stupid every day for the past three years, how can she be stupid for me to such an extent.I felt breathless again, like a fish in my throat, I couldn't speak with guilt, and after a while, I broke through the choking and said painfully: "I'm sorry, Xu Mo, it's me who is sorry for you, it's all my fault, it's me who made you suffer too much, I'm sorry" In addition to apologizing, I don't know what I can say at all, I just want to use this sorry voice to make up for her psychological trauma a little, if I can, I really want to put all the pain on Xu Mo's body on my body.I think she can live like a normal girl and enjoy the happiness and vitality that youth brings her.When Xu Mo heard my apology, her brows suddenly frowned weakly, she pulled her pale lips slightly, and then, she continued to use her only remaining breath, and said to me as hard as she could: "Su Yan, you really don't need to say sorry to me, you haven't been sorry for me, all this is my own choice, I don't regret paying one-sided feelings to you."
I don't regret everything I've done for you, even now, even if I am given another chance, I will not hesitate to block this knife for you.I, Xu Mo, have identified you in this life, between us, since high school, involving the present, there have been too many things between us, and I don't know how, my feelings for you have changed like this, and I felt guilty for you in the past.Slowly I can't forget you again, that kind of love, unconsciously, seeped into my bones.Actually, I was so angry just now, just because I couldn't accept it for a while, you actually told Xia Chuxin first, and didn't tell me, I feel that even a person who killed you can know your identity, and I, a person who thinks about you for a long time, has always been kept in the dark by you, which really makes me feel unbalanced.However, it's not so much angry as being jealous", Xu Mo said this long paragraph, but she still insisted on finishing it.And I, after hearing her words, choked up again for a moment, I know that my biggest disappointment to Xu Mo is feelings, feelings, this thing, is the most uncontrollable, in high school, I do have a hazy good impression of Xu Mo, and after meeting again in college, I also have a little vague love for Xu Mo while hating.However, too many unexpected things happened later, Xu Mo and I finally drifted apart, I felt as if I had no emotional connection with her, however, I never thought that Xu Mo would fall in love with me silently, and even, this relationship has been so deep that she worries about me every day, and now, she is even more willing to die for me.I, Su Yan, how can I bear the weight of her feelings, and what qualifications do I have to talk about feelings now, for xu mo, i am destined to be ashamed in this life, and i am still sorry for her in the end i looked at xu mo in a daze, silently shedding tears, and then.I said to her in an extremely hoarse voice: "Xu Mo, thank you, thank you for this love for me, I know, it's useless to say anything now, I just beg you, don't close your eyes, hold on for a while, I'll take you away later, and after I take you out of here, you can settle this account with me."
Hearing me say this, Xu Mo couldn't help but show a faint smile, she closed her eyes again, then tried her best to open them, looked at me, and said: "Don't be stupid, I know what situation I am now, I know best, don't blame yourself, really, you can save me with all your might, I am already very satisfied."
What I'm doing now is also equivalent to a reward for you, and you don't have to have any burden.As long as you promise me to live well, it will be for me and continue my life. ”After I listened, an unknown hot current surged through my heart, and my emotions became extremely complicated, I nodded with tears in my eyes, and said in a dumb voice: "Okay, okay, whatever you say, I promise you, you don't talk now, save some strength, and wait for me to take you away" Xu Mo heard this, and smiled weakly, she said softly to me with a faint breath that was almost annihilated: "Su Yan, thank you, let me feel moved like never before." ”At this time, Xu Mo actually thanked me, which made me, who was already guilty, even more painful, and I couldn't bear it.What qualifications do I have to bear Xu Mo's kindness to me, I have tired her and killed her, and she still has to thank me, how can this make me good I shook my head painfully, and shouted in despair: "Don't talk anymore, I beg you, save some strength, wait for me to take you away, don't say this kind of thing again" Xu Mo didn't care about my insistence, she just said her words to herself: "There are some things that I won't say now."
I never had a chance to say it again.Su Yan, don't cry, look at you like this, my heart is so uncomfortable, you are a big man, how can you cry" Of course I know that I am also deceiving myself, Xu Mo's current situation is simply powerless, not to mention, I can't protect myself now, and I can't take her away, the reason why I want her to persist is because I can't see her die with my own eyes, I can't let her die I used my hand and held Xu Mo's cold hand tightly, I want to do my best to bring her a little warmth, I stared at her without blinking, Said softly: "Okay, I won't cry, don't hurt your heart, I won't cry, you don't hurt anymore" When he said this.My tears flowed more fiercely, I wanted to keep myself from crying, but the horror of Xu Mo's death made me unable to stop the sadness and pain, and my tears fell endlessly on Xu Mo's pale face.The corners of Xu Mo's eyes continued to shed silent tears, and at the same time, the corners of her lips hooked up a smile, and she said with a smile while crying: "Didn't you say that you don't cry, why are you still lying to people?"
In the end, I was still lying to her, I couldn't save her, but I kept saying that I would take her away, I said I wouldn't cry, but I couldn't stop the surging tears.No, I can't lie to her anymore, at least until she closes her eyes, I shouldn't lie.Thinking of this, I immediately wiped away my tears with the clothes on my shoulders, and I tried my best to hold back the tears that continued to form in my eyes.After a while, when the tears completely stopped, I pretended to be relaxed and said: "Look, I didn't cry" Xu Mo saw me like this, her eyes were a little crooked with a smile, at this moment, her eyes were really with a happy smile, but it was difficult for her eyes to continue to open, and her upper and lower eyelids gradually closed weakly.She squirmed her lips and let out a last weak voice: "Su Yan, if there is an afterlife, I want to spend a lifetime with you to see the long stream, but in this life, I'm really sorry, I can only accompany you here." ”After speaking, Xu Mo's eyes closed completely, and her hand, like a fallen ornament, slowly fell down from my hand, and her breathing also stopped forever in this regretful happiness