Sitting in the cab of the car, it was drizzling lightly outside, I was driving alone on the quiet cemetery road, Emi was gone, the motorcycle that witnessed the past with Emi was no longer riding, it was sent far away by me to a place I could no longer see, I once rode a motorcycle with Megumi in this hurricane scene but can not erase it, vividly, the radio of the car is the exclusive memory of Chen Xiaochun's songs, the classic lyrics and songs let me immerse myself in the memories of the past" I forgot that from the first few days after separation, I like to watch the heavy rain alone, and being lonely without contact is like a chain reaction, and I don't have the strength to be happy.I hope you are my exclusive memory, in the bottom of my heart, no matter how ugly others say, now what I have is you, is to give me half of the love, I like you!
It's my exclusive memory, no one can, pull you away from my body, in the blockade of my feelings, there is no mention of you, no problem!
......”It's really like a song written for me, during this time of youth and frivolity, Emi used her beautiful and holy youth to compose a beautiful love fairy tale with me, and the prince and princess in that love are still living happily ever after.In reality, we had to leave with tears in our eyes because of worldly prejudices, and looking at your crying red eyes, I felt for the first time how small and powerless I was.I've wanted to take you on a long trip more than once, but where can we hide?
How long can we ignore the responsibilities and the expectations of our families?
Emi can give her life for me, and so can I, I can even fight everyone for her, but is this kind of life what she wants?
Will my Emi be happy?
Whether you admit it or not, in fact, each of our lives is controlled by an invisible hand.It's like the gravitational pull of the earth that you can't see, although it is colorless, odorless and formless, it pulls you all the time and keeps you attached to the surface of the earth forever.My Emi still can't resist the power of her family, even if she dies, it's useless, Megumi still returned to her city and has not been heard from since.I know that she has left her heart in that fairytale world that is full of fingers and soft dreams.She and that prince, the prince she made out of virginity, would live happily ever after.As the plane whizzed overhead, I looked back at the text message on my phone again: "Life is your person, death is your ghost!"
”It was as if I could hear my frozen heart shattering piece by piece......
Whenever I think back to this love, I always think of Emi's smiling face, so perfect and so profound.The one who walks hand in hand with me through thick and thin, although it is short-lived, it is as eternal as a diamond and will not be shaken.Because I really loved with my heart, even if you are in heaven, I will watch over that sky for you.Because it was the first time, there will be no more first time, the three words "I love you" engraved on the cigarette case are still so clear, the hanging bottle for you in the bathroom, the sound of the spring water flowing and your shy expression have become my exclusive memory.Our hearts are tightly connected so we have each other, so we don't waver....
Maybe we all think the same thing at this moment, and we are still deeply in love with each other.Emi, I love you, I know you hate me, hate me for not having the courage, I know that the probability that you can see the book I wrote in reality is only one in 100 million, but I kneel to you in front of all the readers who have read this book, I don't ask for your forgiveness, but I really love you all the time!
I know that you are the bravest, the most infatuated girl of all the girls who have loved me, and the best girl who loves me the deepest, it is I who am sorry for you, it is I who prevented us from martyring for love, and it is not an ancient legend in books for us, this is just what we once experienced.Tonight, time overlaps again.In this bleak lonely night, in this starry sky full of tears, our love continues, and are you still there?
Are you still firmly guarding our love?
The night of obscurity is now overlapping and overlapping on me.Countless nights, countless patience, always want to maintain firmly, meaninglessly guard.But all the efforts are still short-lived, chirping crookedly.After the evening falls, I just want to have your company, your gentleness, and your ears and temples.I don't regret my former love, I don't regret my hard work, I don't fear people's words, I don't fear the ups and downs of fate.Even if my short life ends in nothing, I will not regret it, I have no regrets, because I have been working hard and have never given up.It's just the cruelty of fate that I can't have anymore, to have your tenderness, your fragrance.It's sad, but it's been pretending.Why?
Why can't I have it anymore?
Countless unwilling, heartfelt shouts.But think about how many people in the world can be like me who has ever got a person who is crazy about love, you who can give your life for love without hesitation, how many people in this world can love someone as sincerely as you?
How many girls like you can be as pure and immaculate as jade?
So a person's aftertaste is still such happiness, so no matter what, since it has been so difficult, even if it is always a person, it is necessary to go on perfectly without fear of wind and rain.The lonely heart has been thinking about you, a little white flower from the Jiangnan girl of Yangzhou.The first time I miss your pure and beautiful, the first time you hit my head with a book, the first time you kick me with your foot, the first time you accompany you to Xinjiekou shopping, the first time you fall into my arms and be coquettish.Kiss your cheek for the first time, kiss your delicate red lips for the first time......
That bright red, like a rising rose, is reflected in eternal memory.I miss your smart black eyes, I really haven't seen clearer eyes, I miss your long black hair, pure and translucent.Snow-white, silky milk-like skin with a faint fragrance.I miss you crying with water in the pear blossom in my arms, like an orchid in the rain, fresh and elegant.I want you to have long hair flying, white clothes fluttering, like a swan flying body, like an angel descending to earth.Really gone?
Really don't have it anymore?
Suddenly I feel that death is close to me, the vow I once made in the Ferris wheel, the promise that we were ready to die for love together, have you really been waiting for me in heaven?
Don't be afraid, my darling, I'll be desperate to pursue your world.Are you cold?
My Emmi, you must be crying without my arms, right?
Know that you are a crying little girl.My dear little darling, how could I be willing to make you sad?
Believe me, I will come to you soon and take you to my parallel world to accompany you for the rest of your life............
We will never be apart again!
Many times I have been in such a trance, I have entered meditation like this, as if I want to save all this and copy it in my exclusive memory, Sister Xiaorou is always very anxious to shake my shoulder: "Brother, why are you like this again?"
Xiaorou is so worried, this will make her head bad, brother, let's go on a trip!
Let Xiaorou accompany her brother to start a new life......
"Half a month later, Xiaorou dragged me to the travel agency, this time I went to the "New Malaysia and Thailand" with Xiaorou to travel, re-sort out the mood, and bury the memory of Huimei deeply in my heart, no matter whether life is bitter and bitter, the future days will continue......