Some people say that memory is like water poured in the palm of your hand, no matter how you spread it out or hold it, it will eventually flow from your fingers, and I used to think so.If there is no hatred in the eyes of the church, you don't believe that there is a white head in the world.It wasn't until I met this old man who had survived the war that I realized that there were some things that were really impossible to forget.The figure of the old woman was illuminated by the candlelight, leaving a shallow shadow on the wall, and her hoarse voice echoed in the room, as if it had penetrated more than seventy years of time, and returned to that day."
I waited for him in the agreed col for two days and one night, he didn't come, but the adults of Longchang began to appear around the col, they were holding ropes and iron bars, I knew they were hunting, or rather looking for me......"
"I don't know what happened to Junsheng, I was very scared, I walked out of the col after dark, but I didn't have the courage to go back to Longchang.""
The only passage inside and outside the Beijing Customs is the Hongqiao Port, and there is only one choice in front of me, and that is to enter the enemy-occupied area that is raging by war.""
I didn't know how I survived, I passed through artillery fire and gunsmoke, hid in Tibet, and finally met a company that was scattered and was sent out of the war zone.""
Six months later, the siege of Beijing took a turn for the better, the army regained the place, and the road that had been blocked for almost two years was finally opened.""
After I learned the news, I returned to Longchang as soon as possible, and the scene here at that time shocked those soldiers who had been tested by the war.""
Of the tens of thousands of refugees, only about 700 remained, and how they survived without food became a taboo.""
The refugees were transferred, and I followed them to check one by one, but I didn't find Junsheng.""
I asked all the people, and I didn't blame them for the sins they had committed, I just wanted to find Junsheng.But this simple wish could not be realized. ”"In the afternoon of the next day, an old man came to me, and he said that he was the caretaker of the day, and I knew something from his mouth that should have been thought of a long time ago.""
After I was selected for food, Jun Sheng went one by one to find the occupants of that floor, and he knelt down all over everyone, just wanting to be eaten instead of me."
The old man's body trembled very much, and he put his fist on his chest: "Jun Sheng has no bones left, I only found this in his room in the end." ”She trembled and stretched out her hand to lift the silk satin and took out the hydrangea pressed at the bottom: "I heard the surviving old man say that Jun Sheng spent his last time with this hydrangea. ”Gently holding the hydrangea in the palm of her hand, the old grandmother slowly raised her head: "When people are old, it is easy to recall, but it makes your junior smile." ”She tried to hide the scars in her heart with a smile, but as soon as she raised her head, tears had already flowed out of her eyes with the smile.The cloudy eyes were pale, and I looked at my grandmother, and my heart seemed to be tightly grasped by someone's hand, which was a little uncomfortable."
I'm sorry, I didn't expect that."
Turning his head to look at the short black shadow standing behind Grandma, he was looking at the old man at this time, his arm was raised, and finally he overcame his fear, and reached out to help the old man wipe the tears from the corners of his eyes.It's a pity that his hand can't touch the old man's body at all, as if a shadow is shining on the curtain, and he tried several times without success.The old man sat there silently, his pupilless eyes quietly looking at the short black shadows around him, even though they couldn't touch each other."
Grandma, this child is Junsheng, right?"
I also sat down on the bed: "Can your eyes see him?"
”The old man nodded, and said something even more unbelievable."
After the war, I have been staying near Longchang, this place may be because there are too many killings, even God can't stand it, disasters continue, and over time it will be abandoned.""
Except for me, a survivor who came out of Longchang, very few people will come here.""
Day after day, year after year, there are many people who have persuaded me, but I have refused, I promised Junsheng to wait for him here, since I agreed, I will wait at least for a lifetime.""
As the days go by, I occasionally hallucinate, as if Junsheng is still with me, and sometimes I hear him call my name.""
I make a living by embroidery, maybe I use too many eyes, and when I was in my thirties, one eye began to blur.""
It was from that time on, I could vaguely see a child, he was very similar to Jun Sheng, he had no ill will towards me, just like when he first met me, like a fart, curious about everything, thin, timid, but he likes to watch me embroider quietly.""
No one broke the peace, and more than ten years passed like this.""
My eyes are getting worse and worse, and I can see everything else very clearly, but I can see the child more and more clearly.It's a strange feeling, like standing in the middle of two worlds.When you want to see one world clearly, you have to give up the things of the other world, and it's fair. ”"Later, I lost my sight completely, and for the first time, I saw the child's face clearly.""
He is Junsheng, but his memory can only stay for one night, and he forgets everything every dawn.Late the next night, as if he had appeared for the first time, he hid in the distance with curiosity and timidity to watch me embroider. ”Hearing this, I was a little puzzled: "This little guy's memory only lasts for one night?"
No, since he will come to you, it means that there is a force pulling him in the dark, and he knows that you are waiting for him. ”I don't understand, this little black shadow is not a ghost, nor is it an evil spirit, he is like a shadow, living in another world.And the reason why he appeared here is because of Grandma's waiting and some kind of obsession of his own, and secondly, it may be that he needs some kind of medium, a medium that can travel through the two worlds, or can pass through reincarnation.The moment this thought came to mind, I almost immediately thought of one thing—the fragment of the reincarnation mirror that the Netherworld Show had me looking for!
Could that be the same thing as this kid?
I didn't act rashly, just now the hydrangea in the little guy's hand fell, I wanted to help him pick it up, but I caught a void, I couldn't touch this kid at all, let alone search his body."
When I looked far away at Bai Ya'er's house, I saw more than one black shadow in the ancient building, but this little guy ran out.If the people who died in the Longchang community decades ago have become black shadows and live in another world, then what do I see?
The Venerable Master speculated that the Red Mansion was near the Animal Life Road, could it be that the so-called reincarnation was hidden in the old site of the Longchang community?
Is that world real or false?
The boy's memory is only one night, and the next day he will forget everything, so even if that world really exists, I am afraid that it has great limitations. ”Heavy rain and late night, lightning streaked across the sky, and with the help of instantaneous light, the two worlds looked at each other from afar.I retracted my thoughts and secretly glanced at the short black shadow, who knew that this little guy was very timid, and when I saw it, I immediately hid behind the old man with the hydrangea.No one spoke in the house, I was afraid that the old man would be stimulated, so I didn't dare to ask, and after she calmed down, she whispered: "Grandma, it is said that people will enter reincarnation after death, and no one knows what they look like when they die. ”My original intention was to lead to the old site of Longchang, but before I finished speaking, the old man gave me another unexpected clue: "I believe that reincarnation exists, have you ever seen that stupid child living on the sixth floor?"
”"Silly boy?"
I was stunned for a moment, and after a moment I realized that the old man was talking about the little boy who lived on the sixth floor and ate rotten apples: "What does that child have to do with reincarnation?"
”"I suspect that child is the reincarnation of Jun Sheng.""
The family moved to the pig cage apartment two years ago, when the child was only four or five years old, and according to the child's parents, they moved here because they were instructed by a master.Their child lost one of the three souls and seven souls, and he still represents the spiritual wisdom of emotions and thoughts, so he will be stupid.The master calculated that the lost spirit was in the Longchang community, and they moved here to save the child. ”"What does this have to do with reincarnation?
There are many reasons for congenital stupidity. ”"You don't know."
The old man's emotions were very complicated: "I have touched the child's face, his facial features are almost the same as Jun Sheng, and the child's voice, personality, including the way of doing things are exactly the same as when Jun Sheng was a child." ”The old man's words were suffocating, and then she said something amazing: "Do you remember the monster that chased you and Junsheng outside the door?"
You call it obsession, but no matter what the thing is called, one thing is certain, they are related to the person who was eaten in Longchang decades ago, maybe the grudge of a tragic death is combined, or it may be the gluttonous obsession as you said.Anyway, these things are very hostile to all living things, but they turn a blind eye to me, as if they were my own kind. ”"I was a survivor of the pig pen apartment back then, and I experienced everything like hell, maybe I also have that kind of breath left on my body, after all, I have eaten it."
The old man's voice changed and he got to the point: "I wasn't attacked by them, which is understandable, but there is another person in the building who is also regarded by them as the same kind, and that is the stupid child who lives on the sixth floor.Both of his parents were killed by monsters, but he escaped.With a difference of seventy years, he could not have been a survivor of the Pig Cert Apartment, and the only plausible explanation is that he was the reincarnation of the former Pig Cert Apartment tragic death. ”The old man's words shocked me so much that I sorted out my thoughts and was speechless for a while.There is a difference of more than 70 years, and there is an overlap between memory and people.The information about the child on the sixth floor appeared in my mind, and I carefully recalled the things I experienced with him, he was very hungry and would not eat meat, and he was very afraid of Li Ming, who had been invaded by obsession......
Slowly, my mind overshadowed his figure and the dwarf black shadow hiding behind Grandma's back."
Is it reincarnation?"