073 Thank you for being with me After booking the ticket, Su Bin was in a state of hot and cold, and he kept covering his heart with his left hand, because the heart rate was too fast, and covering his heart was an instinctive reaction.
In the past, I always felt that it was an exaggeration to cause physical pain because of "sadness", but at this moment Su Bin understood that people who came over did not deceive him.
Su Bin was lying on the bed, and he couldn't help but think of a lot of things related to Huang Zhengwei in his mind When I was in junior high school, I met for the first time because I sat at the front and back tables, and I became familiar with the only two highest scores in the class in the first math test, and I became iron buddies because I fought against the gangsters in the class together.
After that, they call each other brothers and brothers, and talk about everything.
But most of them are Su Bin "talking", and Huang Zhengwei rarely responds because he is a stone.
When listening to Su Bin's words, Huang Zhenghuan likes to make a deep expression, which makes people feel that he is very trustworthy, but Su Bin knows that it is an illusion, and Huang Zhenghuan is in a daze most of the time.
If you ask him why he is in a daze, he will say that it is because his brain is too small to pretend to be serious.
They get tired of playing games together, watching CDs, and going to the small shop to pick up game cards every weekend.
Huang Zhengwei is very smart, he and Su Bin usually study and play together, and Su Bin has to surprise before the exam in some subjects, but Huang Zhengwei rarely reviews, but his grades are no worse than Su Bin In junior high school, the two were admitted to the same high school with the same grades, assigned to the same class, met Guo Li, and the three became the "Three Musketeers" in the class at that time.
Huang Zhengwei still doesn't pay much attention to studying, he can't wake up all day long, and he can only jump twice in physical education class, which is in stark contrast to Su Bin's appearance of playing chicken blood every day.
But Su Bin knows that he is a rebellious person at heart, or rather, a little bit unlike ordinary high school students, he loves to watch Japanese ethics films, read horror novels written by Americans, which have various blood types and erotic descriptions, and likes to do a boring thing repeatedly Su Bin has always felt that Huang Zhenghuan is more mature than himself, because he never knew what Huang Zhenghuan was thinking, but Huang Zhenghuan knew everything about him.
Later, Su Bin confessed to Chen Xiaotian in the radio room, smoothly communicated with each other, and gradually broke away from the small group of three, Guo Li laughed and scolded him several times for valuing sex and ignoring friends, but Huang Zhengwei didn't say anything.
During the college entrance examination, Huang Zhengwei was not admitted to the Provincial University, and went to the Provincial University of Science and Technology on the edge of the Provincial University, Guo Li's grades were not as good as the two of them, but he also reluctantly got on the tail of the Provincial University of Science and Technology, and continued to enter and exit with Huang Zhengwei Later, they would often get together to eat, chatter, and sing K Many, many details that are as plain as water can't be avoided, can't be wiped off, and scramble to appear in front of you.
Huang Zhenghuan looked contemptuous when he handed himself a tissue, Huang Zhenghuan lay on the floor of his house and concentrated on playing cards, Huang Zhenghuan waited for himself to make a hillbilly steamed egg, Huang Zhenghuan said "I'm better than you" when he was conceited, and Huang Zhenghuan looked affectionate when he sang The heartwarming memories that I once thought were all splashed with dirty ink at this moment.
There is a saying that "women are like clothes, brothers are like siblings", if Chen Xiaotian's abandonment is like stripping off the clothes that Su Bin has worn for four years, making him feel embarrassed, desolate and faceless, then Huang Zhengxuan's abandonment is like tearing off his two hands, leaving him bloody and disabled for life.
He has always felt very happy, although he rarely gets the love of his parents, but he was admitted to a prestigious university with his own ability, studied a popular major, has a future, has a girlfriend, has friends, and claims to be a winner in life, but now he has woken up to the fact that he has been living in a hypocritical emotional world, immersed in the illusion he has created His first twenty years perfectly confirmed the two initials of his name, stupid.
Su Bin curled up in a ball, trembling in pain.
There was a faint sound downstairs, it was Yang Chengzhe and Ellen who had returned, Su Bin didn't want to see them, he was afraid of being seen by them.
Hearing someone call his name, Su Bin was so frightened that he shrank into the quilt and covered himself tightly Don't call me, ignore me, let me be alone A few minutes later, the phone rang, and it took several minutes for Su Bin to muster up the courage to reach out and see.
"You're in the room" was sent by Ellen.
Su Bin wanted to reply with a "yes", but when he sent a text message, his hand was not good, and in the end he only sent a dot "" Ellen outside the door: "" "Are you asleep, why don't you come out," Ellen said again.
Su Bin didn't know what to reply, he didn't want to see anyone now, and he didn't dare to see him, he was afraid that as soon as he went out, he would be found undressed and alone, with no arms, and nothing.
The text went off again Ellen: "Are you masturbating?"
Su Bin: "No" Ellen: "Then why don't you come out for dinner, I brought you something to eat." ” Su Bin hugged his mobile phone, his eyes were sour, why did he want me to come out, why did he send text messages, why did he care about me Ellen: "What's wrong with you?"
Su Bin: "It's nothing, I don't want to eat, thank you." ” With these words, there was a knock on the door, Su Bin trembled in horror, and he heard Ellen's voice outside: "Open the door." ” Su Bin: "" Ellen: "Come out." ” Su Bin shrunk his hands and stepped out of bed, walked to the door, and locked the door with a "click".
Ellen: "" Su Bin separated the door and tried his best to speak in a steady voice to the people outside the door: "Ellen, I'm sorry, I'm in a bad mood right now and want to be alone" Su Bin didn't hear Ellen's answer, but when he heard the footsteps of the other party in the distance, he breathed a sigh of relief, and he felt more and more sad Just as he was about to climb back into bed and continue to lift the corpse, the footsteps returned Su Bin tensed, and in the next second, he heard the door pin ring, and then, the door was opened Su Bin: "qaq Ellen pulled out the door key and looked at Su Bin, who jumped on the bed and squatted in the corner in an instant, with an unkind face The little fool had eyebrows at the corners of his eyes, his mouth flattened, and he looked like he had been bullied, pitiful and nervous: "You, how do you have the key to my room" "This is the study I used to have."
Ellen looks like she has a key and takes it for granted.
"But you've already rented this room to me, how can you be like this, Su Bin wants to cry without tears."
Ellen walked to the side of the bed, stared at Su Bin for a while, and whispered, "Come here." ” In fact, they are already very close, the one-meter-two-wide bed, and it is not separated by the Pacific Ocean, Su Bin doesn't know where else he can go, he shrunk himself even smaller, and he can't let me be alone if there is a hole in the corner of the bed for him to fall down Ellen didn't fulfill his wish, sat directly on the edge of the bed, reached out, grabbed someone's arm, and dragged him out of the corner of the bed.
Su Bin wanted to fight hard, but when he thought of Elen's inhuman palm, he gave up Then, his whole body was dragged in front of the other party, and then he was hugged again.
"You're sad," Ellen hugged him and whispered in his ear, "because of what?"
Su Bin: "QQ Ellen: "Tell me. ” I don't want you to be upset about something I don't know.
Su Bin's face was forced to press against the other party's soft sweater, smelling the clean smell of the other party's body, Su Bin was moved for a moment.
Ellen stroked his back gently, and Su Bin didn't know what to do Gradually, the stiff body relaxed and softened, and in the end, Su Bin seemed to be drained of the strength of his whole body and softened into a noodle man.
He leaned into Ellen's arms and wanted to cry Why are you just an ordinary roommate, but you have to do such an intimate action Why comfort me in such a way "Don't say it" Ellen waited impatiently, paused, stepped back a little, looked at Su Bin's red eyes, and threatened with a heavy gaze, "If I don't open my mouth again, I will do something else." ” Su Bin was stunned and looked nervously at Ellen about other things Seeing the corners of Ellen's slowly hooked mouth, Su Bin hurriedly said, "I, I said" Is he going to threaten in that way with the previous move, it's really better than QQ Su Bin's heart was pounding, such a heart seemed to cover the previous pain, making him feel a little better, but he really didn't know where to start After struggling for a long time, Su Bin mustered up the courage and said to Ellen: "I was betrayed by a good friend" As soon as this sentence came out, it seemed to open the conversation, Su Bin couldn't hold it back anymore, and confided in Ellen little by little.
At first, it was very messy, because it was necessary to translate the tragedy from Chinese into English, all kinds of stumbling, and then the more it was said, the smoother it became, it was simply Shakespeare's possession, Su Bin couldn't help but shed tears while saying, and completely cried into a bubble noodle man in Ellen's arms Face, self-esteem, pride, etc., roll as far as you want The boy doesn't flick when he has tears, but he hasn't reached the sad place Woooooooo Ellen took him in her arms and rested her head on her shoulder From beginning to end, he didn't say a word, didn't evaluate the people who hurt him in Su Bin's mouth, and didn't correct Su Bin's messy grammar and word use errors.
Let him speak, let him cry freely He looked at Su Bin's pitiful appearance with tears on his face, this was originally his favorite look, but at this moment, he didn't feel excited.
He was very jealous, what he wanted, Su Bin easily gave to someone other than him.
He wiped away the tears of the other party little by little with his free hand Little fool, I'm sorry, I don't feel sorry for you at all.
I'm glad they betrayed you, hurt you, and made you despair.
Stay away from you, and let you be the only one in your world.
I want your tears to be shed for me alone.
With such dark thoughts, Ellen felt that he was a demon, but he didn't want to suppress these crazy thoughts and let them spread in his body and mind.
Su Bin finally finished speaking, but he was still immersed in his sad story, and he was entangled over and over again "why did they treat me like this" Although he didn't get an answer, and he knew that maybe there wouldn't be an explanation that reassured him, at least at this moment, he vented some of his grievances and pain, and felt much more relaxed He leaned against Ellen, a little drowsy.
The other party is very strong, and the body is also very warm, what to do, I don't want to separate Moreover, the man was still stroking himself repeatedly and kissing the corner of his forehead with his lips Su Bin unconsciously stretched out his hand to wrap his arms around Ellen's waist and hugged him gently, t1706231537: