Without Su Jiangbai, the entire villa was empty, as if it had lost its vitality all of a sudden.He entered through the gate, step by step, and looked around.From every grass and wood, to every floor, every tile, furniture, decorations.......
He looked down at the urn he was holding in his hand, and his voice was hoarse with choked sobs: "Obviously, you are no longer there, but you are still everywhere in this house......""
Teacher Su, I miss the food you cooked."
Whether he wanted to or not, the old man who was supposed to be busy and quiet here was gone.The chef stepped forward tremblingly and asked, "Mr.
Shao, what do you want to eat at night?"
”Shao Zixin ignored him and went up to the second floor with the urn on his own.The housekeeper looked at Shao Zixin's lonely back, in just four days, the twenty-four-year-old Shao Zixin seemed to be ten years old.He said to the chef: "Mr.
Shao, I haven't eaten much in the past few days, you can just make some porridge." ”Shao Zixin went upstairs and returned to the bedroom, put the urn on the bedside table and went to the children's room.The children's room has been furnished, not much different from the blueprints, except for the bed.Even the bookshelves where he wandered were full of books.From children's books to college professional books, Su Jiangbai bought and loaded everything the two children wanted to read in just one month.He stared at it for a while and then shifted his gaze to the desk, where there was a book, the cover was opened, and it was obvious that Su Jiangbai had nothing to do here.He walked over, picked up the book and opened it tremblingly, and there was a line of quotations.It was true that I liked you at first, and then I liked you, and it was also true that I wanted to like you all the time.Touching is real, happiness is real.It's also true that I've thought about breaking up many times.It's true that I'm reluctant, and it's also true that I'm leaving this time.There is a vague line written underneath.- I used to like you.Shao Zixin fell to the ground in a dejected manner, clutching the book tightly.Su Jiangbai used to like him.At what time?
He remembered that when Su Jiangbai went to his place to be a servant, the man's gentle eyes and shallow smile.Carefully tutored him in his homework, and his face would be red when he watched him take a bath, and his eyes were watery.I would make soup for him every day and send him all the way to school.At that time, Su Jiangbai had just been kicked out of the school, there was a scandal, all the reports were insulting him, passers-by could recognize him, at that time, he was the most afraid to enter the school, but in order to bring him soup, he would come to his school gate every day to wait for him to get out of school.Why do you only figure it out now?
All the bastard things in his life are aimed at the man who once loved him deeply.Facing the empty house, Shao Zixin realized for the first time that he was so stupid, remorse and self-blame, like a knife, plunged into his heart, dripping with blood and suffocating.He leaned back against the desk, his body curled up and trembling, and for the first time, so sad that he lost control, he opened his mouth and smashed his fists against the cold plank.His right hand was covered in blood, and he refused to stop.The pain in his body was no better than that of his heart, and that piece of flesh seemed to have been stabbed, leaving a hole in which the cold wind poured in, freezing his internal organs.Such a loud voice upstairs attracted the attention of the butler, and he ran up to see the scene in front of him.Men are like mad beasts, self-harming without knowing pain.He rushed over and hugged Shao Zixin fiercely: "Mr.
Shao, calm down." ”"He's dead, Su Jiangbai, the teacher who loves me, doesn't want me anymore, how can you let me calm down!""
Mr.
Shao, Mr.
Su is gone, but he left you with two children."
As he spoke, the butler became a little hesitant, and after struggling for a moment, he finally spoke."
Before Mr.
Su died, he asked you to take good care of his two children, if you fall now, the children will really become orphans, in that case, Mr.
Su will not be at ease below."
Shao Zixin was in a trance, he looked at his blood-covered hands blankly, his fingertips trembled, and his vision became more and more blurred."
He's not at ease, so will he come to me?"
The butler was silenced.Shao Zixin was just talking to himself, and he never thought that someone would reply to him, but he still listened to the housekeeper's words.He stood up, his body shook weakly, he took the book in his arms, carefully wiped the blood from the cover, and placed it in the corner of the shelf.The housekeeper brought the porridge up, Shao Zixin only ate a bowl and put it down, then went into the bathroom and took a simple bath before going to bed, holding the urn and lying on the bed.The heart hurts so much that it still hurts, and the eyes that are swollen and swollen when they cry or cry, and the people who are engraved in the depths of their souls can't forget it.Shao Zixin touched the urn and moved cautiously."
If you stay with me a little longer, I'll take you home, okay?"
There is only one Su Jiangbai in the world, you are dead, where can I go to find you?
It would be nice if there really was a netherworld.You wait for me down there, wait for me to go down to you, and then I'll carry you on my back.