"Wait a minute, Master, I have to say the last one, I guess you don't go online anymore, so I don't know, I'll give you peace of mind."
What gives me peace of mind, it's obviously for herself, she belongs to the type who can't say anything and is crazy."
Well, let's talk about it.""
It's that your comments on the Internet have suddenly taken a turn for the worse recently, your college grades, your Hope Project donations, your usual volunteer to send books to community primary schools, and the pictures and materials you work day and night have been exposed, but don't worry, you can't find a photo of your face, the Internet now says that you are the Gray Prince, and many girls are clamoring to marry you!"
I scoffed, which girl would want to marry me who lived in a broken hotel and ate bagged instant noodles, crazy.However, who did this, ah, here it is again, wishful thinking."
Well, got it, hang up."
I just hung up and asked her to say that she could go tomorrow.I started looking for a job, looking around the bulletin board, looking for a nearby one, preferably with a dormitory, so that I don't have to rent a house, the salary can't be too low, but the position can't be too high-level, I'm afraid of being recognized, so the designation will be wasted, and there is no job that wants to apply for the low-level administrator who is targeted on the Internet.I made more than a dozen phone calls, either it was full or the position was not suitable and I was rejected, and then it was too insulting to lose my talent, I really didn't want to, I graduated from 985 University anyway.I couldn't write down my former employer's work experience because of the previous revelations, so my work experience was only the original hotel, and to be honest, I only had good grades on paper since I was a child, because I was busy looking for a job to make money, but in fact, what I really learned was very limited.In addition, my interpersonal skills are also average, except for the familiar field, I am really a little scared of other positions.There is only one position that I have learned to do, and I called to confirm that I can come directly for an interview, and I walked a kilometer only to find that I didn't have a resume, so I patted my head and went back.As soon as I opened the door of the hotel, the wooden box placed on the little Mazar rolled to the ground because of the broken leg of the little Maza, I hurriedly ran over to help it up, the floor was cornered, and the cowhide on the box was punctured, and I was so distressed that it was like poking on my own body.I carried the box to the bed, crossed my legs in my arms and wiped it, and when I touched the combination lock, I wanted to open it."
What will Du Tingwei put in it?"
I twisted my fingertips around the lock three times, and finally made up my mind, I am not a good person, why should I be condemned by my conscience.I directly lost my birthday, and it opened with a click, and I was not without irony in my heart, he and I both took the birthday of the person I liked as a password, but the person I liked didn't care.Open the box, the top is two tickets, the journey is Beijing to Dunhuang, the return trip is our hometown to Beijing, the passenger's name is Du Tingwei, the time is, seven years ago.Du Tingwei actually went to us seven years ago?
I put down the ticket for the time being, and no longer lamented that our familiar passing and fate were inseparable.Below is a picture scroll, and I dismantle the gold thread on it, the same as opening the college entrance examination admission letter.The scroll was slowly opened, and as soon as I loosened my hand, the gold thread floated to the ground.The picture on that piece of paper is of myself at the age of sixteen, crying and laughing in the sunset by the river.Chapter 46 Say goodbye to getting drunk in a noisy and vulgar little bar, I drank into a puddle of mud, threw a few thousand dollars at the bartender, and went out by the wall.Thanks to the fact that the world is not blooming everywhere, otherwise my appearance would probably really be played badly.I walked to the hotel, the alley was very dark, and as I walked, I fell to the ground, my lips broke, I licked the blood, and stubbornly blamed Du Tingwei.Liar, say whatever I say I'm here and I'll never let you fall, liar.As soon as I stood up and didn't take two steps, my left foot stepped on the lace of my right foot, and I dragged myself to the ground, I hugged the back of my head and cried, embarrassed and ridiculous, I suddenly figured out, in fact, Du Tingwei didn't lie to me.I fell because he wasn't there at all.And why is he not there, I pointed to my heart and asked myself, you tell me about Xia Zhushen, he is fine, why is he not there?
The cavity is so empty, no one answers me why Du Tingwei is not there, and no one answers me, where did Du Tingwei go, he disappeared, I couldn't find it at all, and I didn't have the courage to find it.I didn't even dare to look for him, I didn't even have the courage to yearn for him.I choked on the tears I cried on the ground, punched myself on the ground, my cheekbones hurt, I choked and coughed.I regret it, I regret it to death, I want to hold his trouser leg to make him feel sorry for me, but I can't find Du Tingwei, I don't dare to find Du Tingwei.At the bottom of the box, there is a pair of shoes, Du Tingwei is such a clean person, but he preserves the shoes with mud spots, the shoes I recognize, the shoes that can never be forgotten.The left foot is "Saint" and the right foot is "Devil".The terminal handed me a rock sugar gourd, let me live, and made an umbrella for me, all of them were Du Tingwei, the second palpitation was him, and the third time was him, except for the unremarkable golden leaf elm in the promenade in the rain that day, the rest of the fate and encounters were all Du Tingwei.I asked myself why I didn't recognize him, why I had to miss him so many times.Obviously, there are so many small differences between those eyes and Jin Yeyu's, and it is obvious that he uses words like "maybe, probably, maybe" so obviously, and there are so many hints around him.I bit the tip of my tongue, and my bite was full of blood, and I deserved to say it a thousand times.Why can't you recognize it, why is it that you are trapped in that little detail, and you don't want to take a good look at the people around you, why do you dare to easily determine that the second and third times are all golden leaf elms just because of the hateful and hateful first meeting, why don't you doubt it when the movie tickets are searched.It can be avoided, and the injuries of the three people can be avoided.Xia Zhushen, don't you boast that you are deaf and clear-sighted, why are you blind, why are you deaf.If I had been a little more careful, he and I would not have come to this point, and we would be as happy and complete as I dreamed.We will have our own little yard with no one to disturb us, the yard will be full of rhododendrons, all kinds of colors, and birds will come to peck, probably the blue azaleas we have seen together.On summer nights, we don't pull the lamp, light a candle, and swear in that light, and the shadow is stretched by the candle flame.We promise to be together in this life, never to leave each other, and then spend our lives happily and happily, to send each other to the end, and grow old together.Obviously, there is not even a little variable.But I don't have anything now, I don't even have a chance to start over, Du Tingwei he doesn't want to see me, he doesn't want to like me anymore, he doesn't even want to look at me.I pounded my chest and asked, why, why did I miss it once, I missed it a second time, I missed it a third time, obviously the box was under the bed, obviously he was by his side, as long as I asked, as long as I paid attention, we wouldn't have come this far.My tears were in the puddles, and my clothes were soaked.He knows everything about me, he knows that I am a cold-blooded and ruthless murderer, he knows that I am a bastard who doesn't recognize my relatives, he witnessed the whole process of my killing my father, but he still dares to love me, he still dares to say that he loves me.Say love to a man whose hands have blood on his hands, fool."
The road in this world is so dark, he still walked alone."
He already knew, he already knew how dirty and dark my world was, he had long known that I endured my pain, so he dared to care for and love me in every way, and held it like a baby.He's a bastard, and he really wants me to live without him.The wine poured back in my nose, and I held my heart so hard that I couldn't breathe, curling myself up into a small piece."
Du Tingwei, I hurt, I hurt so much, you come back to see if it's okay, just take a look, just take a look, aren't you the most reluctant to let me hurt?"
Look at me, look at my ugly look, you laugh at me, you mock me, can you just come back and see me.You let me see you, I really miss you.My consciousness was so lost that I couldn't even make out my five fingers.Close your eyes and open them, close them and open them, and count them to sentence yourself.But when I opened my eyes for the fifth time, there was a shadow in front of me.I looked at him suspiciously, Du Tingwei really came, he really appeared, the living Du Tingwei, the real Du Tingwei, he really appeared.He patted me on the shoulder, and he asked me, what's wrong with you.I slammed into my arms and wiped all my tears and snot on his body, the alcohol numbed my nerves, I couldn't smell the smell of his body, I could only use all my strength to trap him.But he didn't hug me, he still wanted to break free.I was so nervous that I shouted, "I was wrong and I could change it, why should you throw me away." ”I'm just playing a scoundrel, I know it's all my fault, but I'm wondering, if I talk like this, Du Tingwei is such a kind person, will he stay because of groundless accusations and guilt in his heart, even if he knows that this matter has nothing to do with him.But he became smarter, he didn't take this trick anymore, he said, you let go of me first, the tone was so indifferent, I was flustered, and my nails were like poking into my heart.He's tired of me.He was still saying something with his affectionate mouth, and I could only pounce on him impatiently and kiss him, so that I could not hear what I didn't want to hear.But he even avoided his lips, crossed his face, and I felt pain in my heart, I remembered the way he asked for a kiss and was avoided by me at that time, it turned out that it was such a heartbreaking thing to be rejected by the person I liked."
You won't even touch me?"
I stubbornly tried to bite him, but he grabbed me by the neck and said don't come back, I'm not the one you want.He pinched me, he actually pinched me, he turned out to be someone who would be distressed if I lost an eyelash, he actually pinched me.As if I had been cut off from all the meridians in my body, I asked him with red eyes, "Why don't you love me anymore?"
”The building in my heart was gone, and I was terrified by what I said."
I remember when you loved me, it seemed to be more passionate than anyone else."
I'm afraid that he will become the second Golden Leaf Elm, and I'm afraid that he will forget everything between us."
Do you remember the old days?"
He shook his head, I felt like I was going to collapse, he didn't remember, he didn't remember our past.How can you not remember, it was our past, there was only one time, and I couldn't find a second one in my life."
You don't remember, the good and the bad, the sweet and the sour, only I care about it, and I am the only one who guards it."
A bird took off from the antenna overhead, shaking off the rain that had accumulated in the morning.The cold water droplets shook down my eyelids, and I suddenly woke up, no, Du Tingwei is not like this, this is not Du Tingwei.My Du Tingwei can't be like this, how can you say this and do this, no, I don't allow it.Such a person can only be Jin Ye Yu, because he has done it, but Du Tingwei will not be like this, so this is not Du Tingwei, this is Jin Ye Yu.I thought about it and told myself it was a golden elm, and then I looked at his silhouette again, and the more I looked at it, the more it looked like a golden elm.Ah, it's the golden elm, that's good, don't want me, like he did, and like I did to him, that's fine.I was completely drunk, and I interrogated Jin Yeyu seriously, asking all the things I couldn't ask, didn't have the face, and didn't have a chance to ask when I was awake.I've wanted to do this for a long time, but the mood is different, I used to want to ask him why he left with someone else, but now it's different, now I just want to make a decision.I have a strong sense of ritual, I hate that village, but I agree with the customs in the village, probably imperceptibly, and probably a thief's heart, there is a saying in the village that the ghost does not go away, everything has to be broken, and the ghost will be reincarnated after saying goodbye, and I also have to say goodbye to the past in order to be clean and simple Xia Zhushen.I'm afraid that my former self will still curl up and not leave, I feel that I have been intimidated by misunderstanding and tricked by fate, like a ghost who has died unjustly, probably only by giving myself an answer, that fool can disappear with peace of mind, and Jin Yeyu and I can both start again with peace of mind.So give an explanation to yourself who likes Jin Ye Yu, and also give Jin Ye Yu an explanation, let's make it clear.Whether it's a misunderstanding by mistake, or a temptation to get by, the one who likes Jin Yeyu, I forgive him from my point of view, he forgives me from his point of view, gives me the ignorance of the past, gives him the worthlessness of the past, a formal farewell.He was still listening to me, but I was pulling and talking too much, and he didn't know whether he was annoyed or bored, and finally knocked me out.Later, he seemed to carry me to a chair, and then it seemed that a security guard came, took out my mobile phone and made a call, but there was only one of my contacts.Who did he call to, I was stunned, I didn't know anything, when I was conscious, I just felt that I was lying on a very soft bed, the quilt was very warm, and the house had a fragrance, so familiar smell.But I had nightmares again, very strange dreams, terrible.I dreamed that Jin Yeyu was stabbing Du Tingwei with a knife, Du Tingwei was covered in blood, my hands and feet were tied, crying and begging Jin Yeyu, and shouting his name, Jin Yeyu Jin Yeyu.But my throat was suddenly pierced by him with a knife, and the sentence "Please let Du Tingwei go" also turned into a whimper.Suddenly, the sound of the violin sounded, very gentle music, like lovers whispering in their ears.Then the nightmare changed the scene, the blood stains were gone, there was a breeze blowing, I was lying on Du Tingwei's back, holding the windmill, and the windmill kept turning in the sun, without stopping.I waited for the next piece, but the sound stopped, there was no next song, there was no musician on the stage, I got up in a panic and tried to find a musician on stage, but I couldn't get out of the audience no matter how I walked, and finally fell asleep in my seat exhausted.Someone stepped on a plastic bottle, and I was finally woken up by myself, sweating profusely and sitting up on my little broken bed.There was no one in the room, the wind outside the broken window was still blowing inside, it was not cold at all when I fell asleep, the violin hung on the wall, and the position did not move at all.I lowered my head in disappointment, not knowing what I was crazy about.As soon as I withdrew my hand, I touched my phone next to the bed, its screen lit up and playing silently, the movie we had watched twice together.I turned up the volume of my phone to the maximum with trembling hands, and cried with joy in the early morning sun.
“Iwillreturn，findyou，loveyou，marryyou，andlivewithoutshame。”
Sora: I didn't give it to the official match and didn't give it to my mother, and I went back and forth to go through the motions, did you give money?
Picked up one after another, all objects!
Chapter 47 Repentance has ignited all hopes, and I won't be so happy in five hundred billion.Du Tingwei really came, picked me back from the park, and guarded me, he didn't want to see me, he didn't dislike me.He's been here, he's been here last night, there's a mark of someone lying on my pillow, there's a few yards of footprints on the ground, there's a fingerprint on the black crystal surface of the violin that doesn't belong to me, he's played for me, the music in my dreams, he's playing for me, he's putting me to sleep.I sat up excitedly, the walls clattered, the rooms on the left and right were empty, no one scolded me, I didn't think it was enough, and I jumped on the bed happily, until I heard a slight crackling sound before I sat down according to my mood, the bed was not good.After the joy, I was a little melancholy, who was the one I met on the bar street, Jin Yeyu?
It doesn't seem to be, Du Tingwei's words, he said a lot of stupid things last night, and he doesn't seem to like my touch very much, so is he really pitiful to me?
But what is that line?
Could it be a coincidence?
Ah, dizzy, I hid my face and was depressed for a long time, and finally convinced myself that I didn't care, just as if he still liked me, anyway, he didn't know.Although I deleted my call history, but he is still there, he has been here, which means that he still has no feelings for me, and he still likes me and loves me, so he just wants to reconcile with me.Yes, that's it, I'm good at logic, I've always been good, and I got a 99 in college, so my analysis is completely fine.Anyway, as long as he is here, he hasn't completely given up on me, I can beg him, I can wait for him, it doesn't matter how long I wait, he can do whatever he wants to me, I wait for him to heal his heartache, wait for him to forgive, and beg him to like it again, like it more.I have time anyway, and we're young anyway.I hesitated for a long time, and finally registered WeChat with a new account, and then named it Little Candle, to add him, and my avatar was a rhododendron.The meaning of this is too clear, I lowered my head and sent the application to add friends, I was blushing in the quilt, just like a blind date with a yellow flower girl.After sending it, I waited, looked at my phone once every two minutes, then one minute, then thirty seconds, then ten seconds, then three seconds, and finally turned the screen to solid on, and kept holding it.But my eyes were sour, and he still didn't pass.I wondered if he was really pitying me, or maybe he didn't come last night, or that someone was sending me back, or that it was just a dream I had when I was drunk.I patrolled the house and cheered myself up, maybe he didn't recognize me, then that's a good thing, it shows that he ignores those who hook up with him, he is a good boy who loves himself.Then do I want to use the previous number to board, but that number is too unpleasant, I always feel that the diaphragm should be like a return, but what I want now is not to return, but to go again.I was hesitantly lying on my stomach, the door was suddenly knocked, dreaming of returning to the hotel, I didn't even take care of my shoes, I ran to open the door, and was pleasantly surprised to win the jackpot of 300 billion.I suddenly opened the door and shouted, "Brother!
”The smile on my face slowly solidified, I touched my lips, the smile on my face fell, and asked, "You, why are you here?"
Jin Yeyu stood outside the door, like ten years old, the pair of beautiful eyes like Du Tingwei became lifeless, and there was no resemblance to Du Tingwei, but I was a little afraid, was Du Tingwei's eyes like this for a moment.His eyes were covered with dark blue, his bright black eyes had turned cloudy brown, even the whites of his eyes were yellowing, they were covered with blood and small dark spots, his face was pale, he was very thin, his cheekbones were high, and his lips were full of bloody scabs.I don't know how he could have made himself look like this, so much so that I was scared when I first opened the door."
Xiao Shen, can I go in and sit?"
He spoke, but his voice was hoarse and terrifying, like a ghost in a horror movie.His appearance softened my heart, and I suddenly felt that I was a bad and good person with no temper, but we were not bitter enemies, and we used to take care of each other and treat each other as family.How is it now, once upon a time knee was knee promotion."
Come in."
I got out of the way, let him in, and closed the door.It was still such a hot day, but he was wearing a leather jacket with a long-sleeved shirt underneath the skin, and I remember that he was not afraid of the cold before.There were no disposable cups and I poured him water in my lunch box.He sat on the bed, touched the sheets with his hand, and asked me, "Is it Du Tingwei?"
”I shook my hand and nodded, pure white things, he could actually tell it, it seems that he really likes Du Tingwei, our awkward triangular relationship."
You really like him."
I didn't expect to be robbed of my lines, I was noncommittal, because I didn't think it was necessary, I wanted to hand him water and felt that there was no place to put it, so I held it like that, and I was embarrassed indecently.He looked at me and laughed and said, "Put it down, I'm not thirsty." ”I poured the water into the basin, you didn't say it sooner, just now, waste water, how tired it is to boil a pot.I was standing there, and he patted the empty seat next to me and asked me to sit down, as if he were the owner of the room.I was carrying a little butt in the corner of the bed, and he pulled me over with a familiar unpleasantness, and I was about to shout when he said, "Are you so afraid of me?"
”I'm afraid there's something to be afraid of, but I just think it's ridiculous for the two of them to sit together now.I sat there wringing my fingers in boredom, and he was silent for a moment before calling me, "Xiao Shen." ”It's been a long time since I've heard this term, and I haven't been able to answer it in the first place."
Do you hate me?"
It seems a bit false to say that he doesn't hate, but I really don't want to hate him, I'm not that miserable, and in my eyes, some of these things he has done, some of which I deserve, and some of which I repay him."
There's no need."
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I thought about it for a long time, and I could only say that it was unnecessary.He listened and laughed, covering his face and not speaking, his body trembling slightly."
How did we get to this point?"
He asked me, but I didn't know, I still don't know, how much is his fault at this point, and how much is my fault."
How's your novel going?"
mentioned his hard work, but his reaction remained the same, just as unstoppable lifeless."
It's rotten, the person who has wind in the South Courtyard, and all his works, are all rotten."
I didn't pay attention to the Internet anymore, and when I heard him say this, I guess he blew me out and didn't get any benefit."
Everyone believes that I wrote it, but they have already spurned me as a person, so even if it is my original work, they would rather read a plagiarized article than support me as a person who sells his friends to clear his name."
Betraying a friend?
Is this friend me?
I was dragged into it again, and I don't know what kind of role I am in the eyes of the public this time.I have nothing to say, I usually have sharp teeth, but these days I seem to have forgotten all my language skills, I can't say a word that sounds comforting, and I'm not good at it."
Xiao Shen, I'm this, is it retribution?"
Probably both of us end up in a causal cycle.I didn't answer him, he sat down for a while, got up, and I got up."
You, let's live in a different place, I'll find you a house, your place has been exposed by several netizens, and they have followed you since you left home."
I was really shocked, I don't understand how someone can be so attentive to me as an ordinary person, even if they find me, what's the use, what do you want to ask me, what can you get?"
No, no one has blocked me these days, it doesn't matter if I block me, I don't have any value to dig up."
He looked a little sad, I don't know which sentence poked at his sore spot, but I didn't think anything was inappropriate, isn't this normal?"
I'll find you a house, don't live here."
He looked around again and saw the violin on the wall, "Here, the environment is too bad for you to live in." ”I'm a little angry, it's my own life to be at this point now, I don't blame him, but he shouldn't have told me this."
So what's right for me?"
He didn't speak, and I suddenly felt aggrieved and angry."
Promiscuity, drug abuse, breaking the law, and dying at the bottom of Beidaihe, is this suitable for me?"
He hurriedly came to hug me, but let me avoid it, but I was not as strong as him, and I turned around and let him hold him, and I raised my elbow to beat him, but he cried.Tears were dripping down my neck and he cried and said sorry."
I don't have a team, no one teaches me how to do it, for a writer, the work is like a relative, I can't watch them insult it, I can't help it.""
So you chose to insult me."
He was speechless, he wanted to argue but couldn't say anything, he could only keep crying, which made me upset, because I remembered that after I separated from Du Tingwei, he came to take me home, and he also cried and said sorry.Once I felt believable, twice I felt tired.I don't want to argue with him about right or wrong, I'm already here, what's the point of talking about cause and effect, the South Courtyard can't be cleaned, and there's nothing I can do about it."
Xiao Shen, can you forgive me?"
I now feel that Jin Yeyu is a little bit inched, this sentence, if you say that you don't hate me, I can give him a well, but what reason does he have for me to forgive him, that's my own business, don't care and forgive, it's different.When a person makes a mistake, he can ask others not to hold grudges, but he should not ask others for forgiveness, because if he does not hold a grudge, he may still think about others, but forgiveness is completely for the sake of making himself feel at ease."
I have nightmares every day, dreaming that you are attacked by the Internet, constantly exposed by netizens, hiding in a rental house and not daring to go out, starting to be depressed, and finally ......
Finally......
"He choked up and couldn't speak, and I probably guessed my end.""
Finally died."
He slammed me tight, "Don't say such things, Xiao Shen, don't say it." ”Is it that people are so capricious, and the person who arranged me to turn into bones at the bottom of the river early tomorrow is him."
So, you begged me for forgiveness to have a good dream."
His Adam's apple rolled, he swallowed hard, he couldn't make eloquence, he could only cry out in a pale and weak voice, "No, it's not like that." ”I really don't want to play ball with him anymore, I still have something to do, I'm in a hurry to date online."
You go back, we'll be it.""
What's that?""
I don't hate you, so I can't talk about forgiveness or forgiveness.""
What's that?"
My patience is exhausted, "It's like two clear." ”He suddenly let out a weird laugh, "Two clear, two clear, good one two clear, okay......"
He hugged me fiercely, like hugging a corpse forever, and then finally let go of me, wiped his tears and turned his head away, opened the door, didn't look back at me, just choked up and said, and disappeared.He said, "Xiao Shen, I have regrets. ”Jin Yeyu Actually, this character is actually very, very realistic, because I know his ending, it's really not painful to scold, I wrote this article after thinking about his ending, Jin Yeyu's image was the first to form, so my feelings for him are probably deeper than the protagonist, this article is actually quite strange, it's really an entanglement of three people, not a double male protagonist and a second male, I like to be so blind.Chapter 48 Waiting for it seems that Jin Yeyu has come this time, many things have changed, my heart is much more comfortable, I thought about it for a long time on the balcony, and finally understood.It turns out that I can't forget those people, I just want to hear them say sorry, I can't forget a lot of things, I just didn't get a goodbye from them.It turns out that life is so simple.The sponge in my heart has absorbed enough water, and I don't have to wring it out, and when it is wrung out, it will be sucked back again, so it will be saturated, so nothing will be sucked in.Du Tingwei still didn't approve my application, and I even wondered if he was also cut off from the Internet, so much so that three days later, I changed the background to a puzzle of sunflowers and paper airplanes, and he ignored my invitation.If you want to make a phone call but don't dare to make a call, it's better to wait for a message than to hear that the phone you are calling is turned off.At the beginning, I was very anxious about that day, looking at my phone all the time, I was afraid that I would miss it in the middle of the night, set an alarm clock, read it every half an hour, and the next day it would be much more normal, I hesitated for a few seconds because of a background when revising my resume, and it was in these seconds that I thought clearly.If he doesn't reply to me, it means that he is hesitating, he will hesitate when he sees candles, he will hesitate when he sees cuckoo birds, he will hesitate when he sees sunflowers and paper airplanes, which means that he is still thinking about it.He's just scared, I have a chance, I have a chance, I just have to wait, I have to give him a chance to react.The three places where I interviewed that day were waiting for notices, and I felt that there was a lot of hope, so I gave up looking for a job again for the time being, and waited for news in a small hotel with peace of mind.There is only Zhen Huan's biography and the way to make money on TV, and there is nothing to do on the mobile phone except watching movies, I have a great shadow on Weibo now, and I don't want to load this software at all, only WeChat can have a pastime in the past.I changed all my passwords, set them to 1234567 first, and when Du Tingwei promised me one day, I would change the date of that day to the password.There's nothing to do, time flies too slowly when I'm waiting, I cut the account back to the original one for the time being, and then click on Du Tingwei's circle of friends, sure enough, nothing, he never sends this thing, he can isolate the Internet better than me.I dangled my legs on the bed and thought, if I can endure not having sex, it would be good for Du Tingwei and I to go to the mountains to be a pair of monks.I am happy when I think about it, I can be brothers with Du Tingwei, as long as he comes back to me, I can be a father.Du Tingwei's WeChat interface is too simple, the background is white, he took a picture of his sheets, and the avatar is the rock sugar gourd pendant I gave him.When I saw this thing in the store, I wanted to buy it for Du Tingwei at first sight, instead of the golden leaf elm that had given me a rock sugar gourd, but now that I think about it, I have already been reminded by myself.I tapped it on my skull, "Stupid." ”After doing this, I had nothing to do again, so I just went to watch a comedy movie, I didn't dare to watch that movie, I would cry when I watched it, so I could only watch a comedy, the score of that drama was quite high, but I was drowsy to death, thinking in a daze, if Du Tingwei watched this, would he giggle and start laughing again.Thinking about it and feeling happy, I wrote down the screenshots of the film, found several comedies and added them to my collection, and then I fell asleep while watching them, and when I woke up, it was already four o'clock in the afternoon.I didn't want to get up after waking up, so I lay on my side and looked at the violin, and suddenly on a whim, I opened the music software to listen to the song and recognize the song, and hummed the song I heard in my dream from memory."
ForestHymn", by Bill Douglas, coincidentally, I still don't know it.I don't know classical music, I can only read the comments, and I can rely on netizens to know what this song is about, and when I clicked on the comments, I saw a poem, Brecht's "Memories of Mary Ann"."
As for the kiss, I have long forgotten it, but the cloud that floated in the air I still remember, I will never forget that it was white, moving high in the air, those plum trees may still be blooming, that woman may have given birth to a seventh child, but the cloud has only appeared for a few minutes, and when I look up, it is gone."
I read it several times, listening to the sad sound of the piano, which I thought was warm music before, but now it is full of parting tunes.