"In this situation, it is estimated that the trouble will not end.Stimulate him with Gu Yuanchen, take his glands again, and throw him into a neurological hospital when the time comes, then he will be a real madman. ”Yuan Limei has planned it, "After all, it's not in country H, and the speed at which we are looking for people in country C is not as fast as the Gu family." ”For a long time in the past, Yuan Limei knew Ji Mu's character, and instead of giving him physical pain, it was better to scratch his heart.Just like back then, when she went to the hospital and sent Suiyu to hell "with her own hands", sometimes it only takes a moment to destroy a person's heart.Yuan Limei didn't lie, she really had a child who died in her womb, and in her heart, this child was killed by Suiyu.The moment the truth was revealed, Suiyu completely collapsed.Thinking of this, Yuan Limei was upset, and said to Ji Mu: "It's a pity for you, the good rose pheromones have to be replaced with the mediocre gardenia." ”Ji Mu became sad about this: "Mother, if my father wakes up, what will we do?"
I don't want to be locked up anymore......"
Yuan Limei pursed the corners of her mouth and laughed sarcastically: "Ji Feng is unkind to our mother and son, it remains to be seen if he can wake up." ”She put so much effort into creating this car accident, at least, Ji Feng can't wake up until she achieves her goal.If he died, it would be better, and many things would be dead without proof.At this time, in a private clinic that looked very informal.Ji Mu sat on the blue rest chair with gloomy eyes, he lowered his head, not knowing whether he was looking at the gray floor or looking at his embarrassed past.People in civilian clothes came out and shouted, "It's your turn." ”Ji Mu got up, and although the road in front of him was short, it seemed that he couldn't walk at the end.He stopped where he was, groping the back of his neck with difficulty.In the humble operating room, a sudden smell of blood escaped.Ji Mu's stomach was filled with nausea, and he covered his mouth and ran out.Someone behind him shouted, "What's the matter with you?!"
”Ji Mu ran out of the door, holding on to a pool and retching for a while, but there was nothing.He was scorched by the sun, but the clinic was dark, like where he should be.The man followed impatiently, and muttered, "Sir, have you thought it through?"
Don't waste our time, there's going to be the next one to do the marker surgery!
”Ji Mu's face was pale, and his body was as thin as a withered leaf.Seeing his weak appearance, the man's tone softened: "Then do you want to come back tomorrow?"
I'm going to add money tomorrow, so it's for you to cut in line!
”"I'll go in now."
As soon as Ji Mu heard the money, he hurriedly said.The scorching afternoon sun was dazzling, and the curtain disappeared into the gloom of the clinic.In a trance, everything is like a nightmare.The author has something to say: it is generally more than two days off, or more three days off, depending on whether the manuscript is enough to decide.Chapter 70 A month later, enter the real scorching heat.Chen Yu carried a shopping bag and stood in a small alley.He reached out and knocked on the door, but there was no movement in it for a long time.Chen Yu didn't give up, and continued to knock twice on the dilapidated security door, he approached and shouted in a low voice: "It's me, Chen Yu." ”The sides of the door frame were covered with rust marks, and when the door was opened, there was a dull "squeak" as usual.In the narrow and dark space, the pale-faced Ji Mu weakly pursed the corners of his lips at Chen Yu: "Chen Yu, why are you here?"
”"Don't worry about you!
My internship is a bad place, and I only give interns one day off a month, so I have to come and see you when I have time, have you eaten well recently?
Why does it look so thin?
”Chen Yu laboriously squeezed into the door, put the shopping bag in his hand on the table, and almost all of them were eaten.He turned on the light and clearly saw the bandage on Ji Mu's neck, and his palms were slightly numb: "Does the wound still hurt?"
”Ji Mu sat on the edge of the bed and shook his head.His mental state is not good, his health is not good, and he can't speak.A month ago, in order not to be found by the Ji family, he asked his only friend Chen Yu who could be contacted in country C.Fortunately, Chen Yu's family always hides debts and is best at finding a place to live.He helped Ji Mu find a small rental house in the town next door to his hometown, although it was a little dilapidated, but this place was really hard to find.When he came, Ji Mu also came by Chen Yu's fellow countryman's private car, leaving no footprints.In the meantime, there seems to be an accident on Han Sen's side, which is related to the Ji family, and he can't come to Country C for a while.After Ji Mu found out, he was apprehensive, and naturally thought that Han Sen was also implicated by himself.But he had no choice, the only thing he could do was to unilaterally take the initiative to cut off his contact with Han Sen.He's already finished, and he can't drag Han Sen down.Since Yuan Limei can control Ji Feng ruthlessly, what will she be afraid of with just one Han Sen?
Yuan Limei will not let him go, and Gu Yuanchen may have to get justice for Ji Mu......
He didn't know how long he could hide, and he was at a loss.But there is only one thing, he is clear - the only way to make Gu Yuanchen no longer so angry is to take the initiative to remove the mark on the back of his neck.After all, this is Gu Yuanchen's last request for him, Ji Mu has done so many things to be sorry for Gu Yuanchen, and he doesn't want to let the other party spit on this.The mark can't maintain the love between him and Gu Yuanchen, and the mark can only help the shameless Ji family.He thought, it's better to cut it off.Ji Mu was so heartbroken that he found a private clinic that could perform surgery without registering his identity information, and removed the mark.Fortunately, the operation was very successful, but because of the long-term injection of other people's pheromones, the gland's self-healing ability was slow.In the days that followed, he hid in this rental house to recuperate.But in less than half a year, he underwent demarking surgery, and his body suddenly became very weak, and his glands often turned over and over in pain at night.………… Chen Yu boiled a little hot water, poured a cup and brought it to Ji Mu's hand, and raised the temperature of the air conditioner by two degrees: "Your hands are so cold, don't turn on the air conditioner so cold, don't drink cold water, try to drink warm." ”Ji Mu nodded.Chen Yu sat beside him: "Lu Ze'an has looked for me before and asked me if I know where you have been." ”"......"
"I pretended not to know and fooled the past."
Chen Yu was also not at ease, "Ji Mu, what's wrong with you?"
”"At home......
Something went wrong. ”Ji Mu prevaricated."
Something happened to you at home, do you need to wash the markers?
Lu Ze'an told me that Senior Gu has been looking for you.And some time ago, Senior Gu also came to my internship place to find me and ask about your whereabouts. ”Chen Yu thought that Ji Mu would be happy to hear this, but he didn't expect that Ji Mu just clenched the water cup when he heard this, and his whole person trembled a little.When Chen Yu saw it, he hurriedly said, "I won't ask, don't be nervous!"
”Ji Mu closed his eyes, lowered his head, and the broken hair on his forehead was slightly long.His amber eyes were almost falling into the twilight.Chen Yu hurriedly said something else: "By the way, you don't look like you're recovering well, have you gone to the hospital for a checkup?"
”It's just this question that suddenly pulled Ji Mu's empty thoughts back.He remembered the scene in the hospital yesterday, and the doctor told him very clearly: "Mr.
Ji, you are pregnant. ”Seven simple words sound extraordinarily heavy.This is a move that cannot be changed in the original plan.Now, it's a "surprise", but unfortunately no one is happy.Ji Mu smelled the smell of disinfectant water, he lowered his head, and his afterglow aimed at his lower abdomen, unable to tell what mood he was in."
Even though you had surgery to remove the markers, which was very harmful to you, the child survived very strong and did not have a miscarriage.This is a special situation, and it is the first time I have encountered it, and the little guy is probably desperate to live. ”Under the doctor's simple description, Ji Mu suddenly had a vague shadow in his mind.It was his and Gu Yuanchen's child, small, white, and fragile, but a brand new life.He was in a trance for a moment, until the doctor spoke again, shattering his shattered illusions."
It's a pity that your physical condition is very poor, and the indicators of the glands are even more frighteningly low.For the next few months, you'll have to take medication to treat your fragile glands.In such physical conditions, I suggest that you still have a child. ”The doctor said bluntly that he was not fit to keep the child.However, Ji Mu was in his mind, and he was held by that vague shadow.Children are always fragrant and soft, Ji Mu tried hard to get closer, and only saw a pair of eyes that were very similar to Gu Yuanchen's eyes.He couldn't bear it all of a sudden, he was always making fools.Ji Mu asked, "If I ......"
Halfway through, he moved his lips with difficulty, not having the courage to say the next sentence.He sat dumbfounded, like a fool, sluggish to comprehend every word the doctor said."
Mr.
Ji, I know this is a difficult choice.But if you want to keep the child, you have to be mentally prepared.First, you have to stop the drugs that harm your child's glands and replace them with harmless drugs, so that you have to endure the pain of the glands every day.
Second, you have to buy artificial alpha pheromones to soothe the baby in your womb, because you don't have pheromones to give it yourself.If there is no pheromone to conceive it, over time, the child will die in the womb; Thirdly, these two drugs are expensive, and the price is not something that the average person can afford for a long time. ”Ji Mu listened quietly, never stopping the doctor from talking.Knowing his hesitation, the doctor pushed the frame on the bridge of his nose and added, "Also, artificial alpha pheromones may also be repulsive with you.Once rejected, it can lead to a miscarriage of the child.If you are sure that you want to use it, it is best to be mentally prepared for this.You don't need to match too much for the first time, try it first, and the child will continue to use it if he can keep it, but another side effect is that it will cause damage to your body. ”"Hurt me?"
Ji Mu looked up."
Yes, it can make you feel upset, lose your appetite, and vomiting is the norm.Mr.
Ji, if you really want to keep the child, I suggest you ......
Why don't you go find your former Alpha and ask him to help.He is the father of the child, and his pheromones, which are 10,000 times better than artificial Alpha pheromones, will not have any side effects, and will also help your recovery. ”The doctor didn't force Ji Mu, he hoped that Ji Mu would think clearly.It was a difficult decision, and Ji Mu has not made a decision until now.He temporarily dispensed a new medicine, and also a little artificial Alpha pheromone, and took some yesterday, and the child was fine, indicating that there was no rejection.As the doctor said, this little one, it's trying very hard to survive.It grows quietly in the belly of the season curtain and takes root tenaciously.Ji Mu took a deep breath and unconsciously touched his hand on his relatively flat lower abdomen.Chen Yu asked, "What's wrong, does your stomach hurt?"
”"Nope."
Ji Mu looked at Chen Yu and suddenly asked, "Chen Yu, have you ever hated your parents?"
”Chen Yu was stunned, he didn't expect Ji Mu to ask such a question.Ji Mu also knew that he was abrupt, and said, "I'm sorry." ”"It's okay, our family is really special.My dad has been gambling and drinking ever since his business failed, and my mom is a cowardly man who indulges him.I do ...... sometimes.
I hate them. ”Chen Yu didn't want to say that many things are scars that can't be removed in the original family.He looked at the lost Ji Mu and thought that if he forgot it, he should comfort and comfort his friend: "But if you want to say that it is particularly annoying, I can't say it."
When I was a child, the family also had happy times, and when the days were hard, it was really bitter, in my junior year of high school, I was beaten by debt collectors in the alley every day, and I almost thought that I was going to be beaten and disabled, and I couldn't go to the college entrance examination.At that time, I was so painful that I wished I wasn't their child, but I couldn't choose my own parents......" he shrugged: "And my pheromones are so ordinary, and there are so many troubles at home, probably no one wants to fall in love with someone like me in this life." ”He had crooked thoughts before, and he really wanted to find a rich Alpha in the school, but he was aiming at Xiao Cheng.Fortunately, Ji Mu came to stop it in time, and Chen Yu did not offend Lu Ze'an.But it was also his own brain, and he was obviously rejected by Xiao Cheng, so he still had a sweet dream.Chen Yu actually knows the word "the right person", and blames Xiao for admitting that he really learns to play badminton and looks too handsome, and he didn't hold it for a while.After he finished speaking, he saw that Ji Mu looked unstable, and hurriedly helped him lie down."
I still have to catch the car back, is it okay for you to be alone?""
It's okay."
Ji Mu's glands hurt badly, he smiled bitterly and took Chen Yu's hand, "Thank you for helping me." ”"We're friends, we should."
Ji Mu said again: "But Chen Yu, don't come to me again, don't ask me why, I don't want to continue to drag you down." ”After Chen Yu reluctantly left, Ji Mu was curled up in the thin quilt and shivering alone because of the side effects of the drug, hot and cold.Time passed minute by minute, and every day now is a long time for the season.He didn't know what to do, he couldn't put his heart into shedding the child, and he couldn't make the decision to keep it.No matter which path you choose in the end, it is unfair to the child.As Chen Yu said, children cannot choose their parents, and his children may not necessarily want to be his children.Ji Mu closed his eyes and entered one nightmare after another wearily.The life in the Ji family and the pain of losing Gu Yuanchen hurt Ji Mu very much.He thought, if Gu Yuanchen knew that he was pregnant, what would his expression be?
Will he show an unusually disgusted look, will he scold himself for being shameless, will he refuse to forgive him in this life?
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He apologized countless times in his dreams, and in the end, he seemed to be dumb.But it doesn't matter, he did something wrong in the first place, why should Gu Yuanchen forgive him.He just wants to be alive.Even though there is nothing, I want to live sadly.Man's instinct for survival is so shameful that it is stronger than what little pride is left, and he feels despised for himself.And Gu Yuanchen in the dream is still kind, no matter how indifferent he is, he has pity for his poor self.The sweetness at the beginning of the relationship was real, and the love given by Gu Yuanchen at that time was also intoxicating.Sometimes dreams are always too long, and it makes Ji Mu think about many things that should be forgotten over and over again.The sweetness and sourness of the past mocked him, the suffocating conspiracies and frame-ups surrounded him, and he came through all kinds of predicaments one by one.But now, he is a waste.He is the garbage abandoned by Gu Yuanchen, and he is the wicked person who is spurned by Gu Yuanchen.Together with the child in his womb, he was sentenced to death before he could open his mouth.………… Ji Mu closed his eyes tightly, and in his dreams, he was whimpering in pain.When he opened his eyes, it was sweltering, and the air conditioner was out of service in silence.It was already three o'clock in the morning and the alley was out of power.Ji Mu struggled to get up, his fingertips touching his face full of tears.The nausea kept coming up in his throat, and he covered his mouth and crawled out of bed, stumbling over to the sink, leaning over and retching, as if he was going to vomit his stomach.The sour water stinged his throat, and the damp smell never dissipated.Suddenly, there was a lingering pain in the back of his neck, as if there were many needles piercing him.He touched his neck and raised his head, in the mirror, the bandages were terrifyingly dense, like the retribution that Ji Mu told him back then.His retribution has finally come.The author has something to say: Finally pick up the first chapter, it's not easy for me _(:з"∠)_ Chapter 71 The mobile phone rang at an inopportune time, it was a belated deduction text message from a small hospital.Ji Mu pulled out a tissue and vigorously wiped away the remaining tears after waking up.He stared at the screen of his mobile phone, suddenly thought of something, and immediately checked the balance in his card on his mobile phone, which can be said to be very little.This card was made by the Ji family behind his back, and the account holder was not himself.The money in it was all earned by him saving money, or doing homework and running errands for others.He didn't dare to use any card except for the money in this card.Because as long as he uses it, he will be found.Every bottle of medicine in the drawer was very expensive, less than half a month's worth of medicine, and his money was enough to match a month's worth of medicine.Ji Mu subconsciously touched his lower abdomen, and after thinking about it, he planned to leave here tomorrow after another day off and go to a more hidden place, so that the expenses would be a little smaller, and then he would find a job and take over his life.And the pain of the glands is better than the pain of being beaten in the Ji family before, and it will not be unbearable.It's a pity that his studies are completely ruined, and he could have gotten his graduation certificate in one year, but now, he doesn't dare to go back to C University no matter what.Naturally, every day after that, in order to avoid the pursuit of the Ji family, he should have been fleeing to various places.Since Yuan Limei wanted his gland, she would not call the police to deal with this matter.The Ji family's ability in country C is limited, as long as the Gu family does not interfere, she can't find people in the whole country.Ji Mu thought about a lot of things, he lay on the bed, and stayed up until dawn with his eyes open.It was about 5:40 a.m.Outside the window, in the alley, there was the sound of the door opening.With a "squeak", the same rusty door was pushed open, and the air was jammed with staccato sounds, like branches climbing up.The wheels ran over the threshold, shaking the brackets all over the body, and there was a crisp sound of bells.Ji Mu knew that the old man of the opposite family was going to come out of the stall.There was always a string of bells hanging from his cart, and a late-blooming gardenia was stuck in the knot, which was faintly fragrant."
Grunt-" Ji Mu passed through the door, smelling a trace of salty fragrance, he didn't know if he was pregnant and his taste had changed greatly, or because the old man's craftsmanship was really good, even if he couldn't eat anything else now, he still had to eat a bowl of bean curd with fritters every morning.Especially the fried fritters fried by the old man, crispy on the outside and tender on the inside, with a bowl of bean curd, it simply melts in the mouth, and the aftertaste lingers around the throat.He was so disturbed by the hunger in his stomach that he didn't feel sleepy, hurriedly washed up, changed his clothes, and appeared in front of Uncle Li's stall on time at six o'clock.The old man was familiar with Ji Mu, and when he saw him reporting on time, he took the lead in greeting: "It's so early today?"
Are you feeling better?
”The bean curd has been expertly sprinkled with chopped peanuts, chopped green onions, and minced mustard, and the finishing touch is a small spoonful of special soy sauce.Ji Mu rarely showed a smile, and his face was still a little pale: "It's much better, thank you." ”The old man didn't ask much, but said, "If you are not in good health, you should eat more, so that you can have strength." ”A bowl of hot bean curd and a plate of freshly fried fritters were placed on the humble plastic table, more than anyone else came to buy, "Ming'er will set up a stall for another day, and I won't come." ”"What's wrong with you?""
My daughter just gave birth a few days ago, and my wife and I wanted to go over and help her."
The old man was full of happiness, took out his old smartphone, and found a photo of his grandson in the album, "Look at it, what a white milk doll."
He looks like his mother, and like my wife when she was young. ”The baby on the screen hasn't opened his eyes yet, and he can't say it's white.But the old man is full of kindness, and he thinks that his grandson is good-looking, and he wants to show off when he meets people.Ji Mu was affected by his good mood, pursed the corners of his mouth slightly, and praised from his heart: "He is so cute." ”Even with it, Ji Mu thought of his child, would he be so wrinkled when he was born?
But will it be born safely, he has nothing, not even enough money to buy medicine.Thinking of this, Ji Mu couldn't help but be disappointed, and his mood plummeted.After eating breakfast, Ji Mu returned to the rental room, the pain in the glands was reduced, sleepiness swept through his mind, and he wanted to make up for sleep.The power was still out in the rental house, and Ji Mu opened half of the window and wiped the sweat off his face with a tissue.Before he could lie down on the bed, the mobile phone rang noisily, and it was a familiar number.Ji Mu hesitated for a moment and hung up the phone.Immediately, he received a message: [Answer the phone.] ]Ji Mu was reluctant to pick up the call.The second message sent: [If you don't answer again, I'll go to Ji's house in person to ask for clarification.] ]The ringtone of the mobile phone embarrassed Ji Mu, he obviously changed his number, but this person could always find him so quickly.Ji Mu had to pick up the call from this number again.On the other end was Han Sen's voice: "Something so big, why are you avoiding me?!"
”"......"
"I already know your address, I can pick you up the day after tomorrow at the latest, don't run around.""
Uncle Sen," Ji Mu persuaded him, "Ji Feng has an accident, Yuan Limei is a madman who doesn't care about the front and back, if you continue to have dealings with me, she won't let you go." ”"Then she has to have that ability!"
Han Sen's tone was not very good, he should have been in a hurry, "Since you and Gu Yuanchen have been together, I have never wanted to disturb you, I respect your choice, even if it is wrong!"
But now that something so big has happened to you, there's no way I'm going to leave you alone!
I can't watch you being ruined by the Ji family, you definitely can't be the same as your mother!
”"I won't-" Han Sen was also anxious, he called his full name for the first time, and interrupted him sharply, his words did not pause, and he was quite annoyed: "Ji Mu!
You promised me last time!
”- If you are in danger later, I will take you away, and you cannot refuse me.This sentence seems to have been said only yesterday, and Ji Mu will not remember it.His heart "chuckled", inextricably linked, and he took the initiative to tear it off: "I won't let them find me, you leave me alone." ”Ji Mu crumpled the tissue and threw it into the trash, just like the Ji family once threw him into the trash can, decisively and recklessly.Han Sen was so angry that he couldn't sit still, he spoke mercilessly, and scolded angrily, "What kind of stupidity are you committing?
Usually quite smart, how can you be stupid like this now?
Since I can find your new number and address in country C, Yuan Limei's speed will not be slow.Do you think you can really hide from her?
”"......"
Han Sen said in a deep voice: "If I want to find you, one footprint of Chen Yu is enough."
If you really want to hide, you shouldn't actually ask Chen Yu for help.But since you asked him for help, it means that you are really alone. ”Ji Mu clenched his phone, and his lower lip was bitten white.Han Sen was right, he seemed to be calm, but in fact he was cornered.He doesn't have many friends, and there is only one Chen Yu who can be contacted at present.Han Sen said: "I stopped the Ji family's news network for the time being, they don't know where you are hiding yet." ”Ji Mu looked out the window, the narrow window was shining through the blue sky, he pursed his mouth tightly, and didn't say anything.He didn't know what method Han Sen had used, but in the past three years, it may not only be him who has changed, but Han Sen is no longer a simple gangster in country H.Han Sen couldn't see Ji Mu's silent grievances the most, he opened his mouth for a while, and finally slowed down his tone a little: "You are still young, there is no harm in asking elders for help with many things, and there is no harm in it, and there should not be too much burden."
You're your mom's only child, and I just want to protect you. ”Ji Mu lowered his head and rubbed his eyes: "Uncle Sen, I know what you mean.But you have helped me too much, Yuan Limei can even handle Ji Feng, I am afraid ......
"I'm afraid that she will hurt you too."
Han Sen didn't care about these concerns at all, he had worked hard for so many years, openly and secretly, and suffered countless hardships, he gritted his teeth and endured it.In order to be able to take his "child" Ji Mu out of the Ji family's demon cave today."
Come with me to a foreign country, leave the Ji family forever, and the Gu family.It's been three years, and now I'm more than capable of cutting you off all contact with them, so that they will never find you. ”"You let me think about it, okay?"
Ji Mu pressed a stone in his heart and said it with difficulty.Han Sen should have lit a cigarette, as if he was patiently waiting for Ji Mu to loosen his mouth.His voice was low, a glass of light wine in his throat, and he was invisible: "The reason why you don't want to go with me is nothing more than that you think Gu Yuanchen will come back to you."
You like him, I know, you have been thinking about him and looking forward to him for so many years.From the beginning, he was like a hope for you. ”Han Sen said bluntly: "But in the month you have been hiding, has he come?"
I don't remember that I had a news network that blocked the Gu family.Xiaomu, your plan failed, you are not the Omega he wanted, you know better than anyone else in your own heart."
Isn't it?"
If it's not yours, it's not yours after all."
Ji Mu was dumbfounded, unable to say a word of rebuttal.Those amber eyes were no longer full of energy, and they were gradually empty.Suddenly, his mouth unconsciously began to deceive himself: "He has, he is looking for me......"
"He is looking for you?"
”Han Sen's words were a knife pierced in Ji Mu's heart, and he completed his mission in blood, "Okay, then even if he really comes now, are you sure he is not here to seek justice for others?"
”Or, to snatch a gland.Hearing this, Ji Mu's eyes were flustered, and he was afraid that others would say this answer.This knife pierced into Ji Mu's heart exactly as it was, and the flesh and blood were halved in half, and he didn't have time to cry out in pain.But it hurts."
You took away the pheromones from his betrothed and lied to him.He must hate you very much, otherwise you wouldn't be where you are today. ”Han Sen brutally stretched out his hand, "pulled" the knife out of his heart, and "stared" at his bloody wound and persuaded him with good words, "Be obedient, stop being stubborn." ”Ji Mu's eyes went from dry to moist, and from wet to tearful."
Little curtain?""
No......" he suddenly moved his lips and whispered.Han Sen listened patiently."
I'm not under illusions, I just want to get out of here after I get everything in order.But, but now, something is wrong......"
Ji Mu sat weakly on the edge of the bed, and as the minutes passed, his voice was cold, but with a hint of confusion and sadness, "I really don't know what to do now." ”"What?""
Even after the marker removal surgery, the baby in my belly still survived."
Ji Mu squatted on the ground in pain, "It's the same as me, it wants to live so much......
Should I leave it?
”"What kid?!"
Han Sen was anxious."
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I was wrong."
Ji Mu covered his face, and despair pushed him to the bottom again and again, and he fell all over his body, "It's the child I forced."
Gu Yuanchen didn't know, he didn't know that I would have this child.I forced it, I didn't know we would get this far, I didn't expect it......
But now, it's turned out to be an accident. ”In Han Sen's heart, Ji Mu will always be a silent person, he has never loved to shed tears, he is cold and strong, as if he has resilience, no matter how others suppress him, Ji Mu can remain calm.He is different from Suiyu, Suiyu is gentle and weak, while Ji Mu has a beast of desire locked up in his heart.He knows how to fight and bite, even if it is himself who hurts in the end.But at this moment, for the first time, Han Sen heard Ji Mu crying in front of him.So pitiful, so helpless, those strengths were instantly shattered.Across the phone, Ji Mu's voice was hoarse, as if he had been suppressed for a long time.This feeling is like Suiyu who was about to die back then.He said: "Uncle Sen, she was ...... back then In what mood did you leave me?
”The same is abandoned, the same is lonely.Mom, why did she leave herself?"
Does she know that I live a miserable life, does she know how I grew up all these years?"
Can she see from heaven that I'm suffering?
If she could see it, would she regret it?
is obviously so unfortunate, but he still has to drag an innocent life into the world and suffer a lot.Ji Mu still hates his birth, he has been devoured by the past, and his body is incomplete but he still has to survive.The appearance of this child allowed him to see his former self.The same trajectory, the same unblessed, what is the meaning of their existence?"
I don't want to kill him, but I don't want to keep this kid either."
I don't want ......
"I don't want it to come into this world like I am and suffer all this." ”No one but me had expected it, or even knew it existed.I love it, love is always so vulnerable, always so easy to break.The author has something to say: Xiao Gu is here in the next chapter!
Uncle Sen, you are one step slower (orz!)
）Manuscript Crisis!
The day after tomorrow!
Chapter 72 Han Sen was silent for a long time, so long that Ji Mu thought he had hung up the phone.The tears on his cheeks were cold, and Ji Mu's eyelashes were soaked in silence, like dense seaweed in the water.But as time passed, Han Sen said gently, as if he was afraid of hurting Ji Mu, almost gently: "When I met Suiyu, you were already in kindergarten.The little one always likes to ride on my shoulders and let me take you to the river to fish.Your mom followed us, carrying a bag of biscuits, yogurt, and chocolate that you liked. ”It was a good time, and he will live forever in Han Sen's memory.It is warm."
I asked Suiyu, why do you want to keep you even if you're divorced.She had a hard time at first because of you.Taking care of children and working part-time jobs together can really crush a person. ”But she still survived, with a silly, persistent love."
She told me that when she found out she was pregnant with you, she looked forward to you for a long time.Even if she is the only one waiting for you, she still wants you to be born into this world and want to live with you. ”"......" he snuffed out a cigarette, and the ashes fell: "I know that you have complained about your mother in your heart, thinking that she died like this, and sent you to a cage to suffer.But you have to know that if it weren't for her cancer, if it weren't for the fact that she was desperate, if it weren't for the kindness of the Ji family, she felt that the Ji family had a trace of conscience......
She won't send you back. ”Suiyu's mistake is that her heart is too simple, and she actually doesn't understand how deep the resentment and hatred in this world can be.That is, because they don't understand, they will send the child to hell with their own hands."
Xiaomu, whether you want to keep your own children or not, that's your business, I can't make a decision for you.But what I know for sure is that she has always loved you.From the time you were born to the time she died, she loved you. ”has nothing to do with the Ji family and the Yuan family, she is just a mother who simply loves her children.Han Sen saw all this in his eyes: "All the beginnings may be wrong, but you don't have to choose the wrong path again.You're not Suiyu, and the child in your womb won't be you. ”