No!
You can't just let Su Ziyi leave!
Subconsciously, Bian Qing lifted the quilt and wanted to run out to stop Su Ziyi and make it clear to the other party.But unexpectedly, as soon as his arm propped up on the bed board was forced, the crook of his arm seemed to be stabbed by something sharp, which instantly made him lose his strength, his arm couldn't help bending, and half of his body fell back to the bed.It's just that this fall has made him sober up a bit.No, he was too scared and had too many scruples in his heart, so he didn't understand Su Ziyi's complete words.At this time, his whole body collapsed on the bed, the quilt was only half covered, and most of his body, which was only wearing thin underwear, was exposed to the cold of the night, and his skin was covered with small goosebumps.But Bian Qing didn't care about this, and didn't even have the idea of picking up the quilt and covering his body, letting the coldness wash away the anxiety in his heart.What exactly does Su Ziyi mean?
Bian Qing was panicked in his heart, he turned his head sideways, rested his head on his arm, the whole person curled up a little, and his palms tightened weakly, and then he was stung by the edges and corners of the things he was holding in his hands.He looked over reflexively, and saw the white mass in his hand clearly by the dim candlelight, and the astringency in his heart deepened.I have been asking for something for so many years, and I hold it in my hand now, but why am I not as happy as I wanted?
At this moment, the light imprinted on the wall flickered violently, and then disappeared without a word, and suddenly pushed the darkness outside the room into the room.And Bian Qing didn't bother with the extinguished candles, he had calmed down a little, stuffed the contract under the pillow, and retracted his body into the quilt, because he was worried that it would be cold to Su Yulang, so he also pressed the quilt with his hand, even if the quilt was very large and thick, it would not let the cold air reach Su Yulang at all.After doing these things, Bian Qing put his head on the pillow and closed his eyes to prepare for sleep.No matter what, he would not let Su Ziyi leave him and Ah Lang behind.Here, Su Ziyi, who consciously solved the important matter in his heart, went back to the room relaxed, but he didn't go to sleep.Because as his cultivation grew, his thirst for sleep became much less, so he preferred to spend this night meditating and cultivating.And he felt that since he had already talked to Bian Qing today, he should be more diligent, what if Bian Qing chose to leave with him?
Thinking of this possibility, Su Ziyi felt even more oppressive.After all, in this world where strength is respected, if he wants to protect himself and others, he can only use his strength to speak, and since he promised Bian Qing, then he should also take responsibility, before Bian Qing and Su Yulang have the ability to protect themselves, he must ensure the safety of Bian Qing and Su Yulang, instead of taking them out and leaving them alone.If that's the case, it's better to leave the other party in the village for a peaceful birthday.The sun rises late in winter, so when Bian Qing got up with Su Yulang, the roosters in the village had already stopped breathing and were silent.And when he just pushed the door open, he saw that Su Yulang had just finished his cultivation, and he was closing his eyes and raising his hand to collect his momentum, and after exhaling a breath of turbid air, he turned back to meet his gaze, his eyes were not shocked, and there was no emotional fluctuation, as if he was the only one tossing and turning for last night's events."
Did you sleep well?"
In fact, looking at the blue and black under Bian Qing's eyes, Su Ziyi didn't have to think about it to know that he must not have slept well, but when the two faced each other, he didn't know what to say."
Okay."
Bian Qing staggered his gaze and said casually.At this time, the sequelae of insomnia had come up, making his brain dizzy for a while, but he was thinking about things in his heart, and these uncomfortable feelings were directly ignored by him, so he just took Su Yulang, who was still a little dazed, with a calm face to fetch hot water to wash.At breakfast, because the two adults were hiding things in their hearts, they were all silent and did not speak, so compared to the past, the dinner table was much quieter.However, the problems that should be solved still need to be solved.After breakfast, Su Ziyi took Su Yulang into the study, and after teaching the other party today's homework, he withdrew.And just as he closed the door, Bian Qing, who had already been unable to suppress the anxiety in his heart, appeared behind him, and without waiting for Su Ziyi to ask, he dragged Su Ziyi's sleeve and walked to the bedroom.And Su Ziyi looked at his posture and estimated that Bian Qing should also have a final account, so he didn't resist and followed his strength.As soon as he entered the door, Bian Qing reflexively locked the door firmly.It's just that when he turned around, the irritability in his heart could no longer be suppressed, and it was all on his face, this kind of situation was rare in Su Ziyi's opinion, after all, he had never seen Bian Qing with this appearance, so when Bian Qing looked over, he even took a few more looks."
You-" Bian Qing had a lot to ask Su Ziyi, but there were too many questions, and he really didn't know which one to ask for a while.Therefore, after hesitating for a long time, he took a deep breath and raised his head to look directly at Su Ziyi: "Why did you give me the contract yesterday?"
”After holding it for a long time, I said this?
Su Ziyi raised his eyebrows, nodded at Shang Bian Qing's somewhat uneasy expression: "The reason is what you think." ”Su Ziyi didn't like to stand and chat, so he sat on the square bench next to him on one side, and then raised his head slightly to look at Bian Qing, who was facing the window against the light: "Just like I told you yesterday, I will have to leave here sooner or later." ”This time, the same words made Bian Qing's heart fall into place, and he was no longer so high."
I don't know what you think."
Su Ziyi rested his hands on his thighs, and the expression and tone on his face were very serious: "Actually, no matter what the choice you make in the end, I will return your contract to you." ”He was looking forward to Bian Qing's choice, because he could see that although Bian Qing had always resisted the outside world, he was actually not so succumbed to reality in his heart.Therefore, he believes that once a person like Bian Qing breaks through the shackles in his heart and has the opportunity, he will definitely be able to create a world of his own, and he also hopes to see this day.As soon as his words fell, Bian Qing's heart was full of sourness, it turned out that Su Ziyi had already planned everything?
If I didn't force him to tell him what he was going to do, wouldn't I tell him until he was ready to leave?
At this moment, even Bian Qing, who had long known in his heart that Su Ziyi would not be satisfied with the status quo, was sad and angry in his heart.But he didn't show this grief and indignation, but said very calmly: "Then do you know what this means?
”"Of course I do."
Su Ziyi smiled indifferently: "I never wanted to manipulate anyone's life in the past, especially in this way. ”Looking at the young man in front of him, Su Ziyi was a little soft-hearted: "In the past 20 years, you have been too tired to live for the sake of survival and Yulang, so it's time to live for yourself once." ”Live for yourself once?
In an instant, these few words stabbed Bian Qing's soft heart like a sharp blade, and immediately burst into tears, so shocked that Su Ziyi didn't know what to say, but in fact, without waiting for Su Ziyi's reaction, Bian Qing said in a trembling voice: "For......
Myself......
Live?
”Hearing his trill, Su Ziyi thought that Bian Qing was crying with feeling, so he was relieved."
Can I?"
Hearing Bian Qing's question, Su Ziyi hurriedly continued: "Of course you can!"
”After finishing speaking, he realized that what he said was too arbitrary, so he coughed a little embarrassedly before saying softly: "Just like I saw yesterday, you will learn to read and write with Yulang, which shows that you actually still have hope in your heart."
People, as long as they still have ideas in their hearts, they can always make something different. ”His words moved Bian Qing's heart a little, and even the tears on his face stopped.Why did you learn to read from Yulang?
He knew the answer better than anyone.Since he was a child, he has been a servant living at the bottom of the Liu Mansion, and he knows that literate servants are often more likely to get the respect of their masters and live a better life than their illiterate servants, so he has a longing for this kind of thing that can improve his predicament.It's just that he's a twin.Among the servants, Shuang'er and women are worthless and unvalued, so he doesn't know a few words until he leaves the house.And after coming to Luoshan Village, the embarrassing family situation and the harsh Su Ziyi made him absolutely delusional.But he didn't want to live this way, but he came to a bright spot when he didn't expect it most.Since then, the conditions at home have improved, and Su Ziyi has been generous to him, and he has also begun to release his heart little by little, especially when Su Ziyi read the book to Su Yulang, the desire that has been dormant in his heart since he was a child is even stronger, and even makes him a little irrepressible.And, in addition to this, thinking of this, Bian Qing subconsciously looked at Su Ziyi, who was still waiting for his answer with inquiring eyes, and couldn't help but smile bitterly in his heart.How much of my thirst for literacy is not because of the man in front of me?
In fact, less than a year has passed, but Bian Qing can hardly remember the previous days.He only knew that Su Ziyi looked down on him because of his identity in the past, and he despised the other party in his heart because the eldest young master couldn't recognize the present world and only knew how to spend time and drink, especially after being beaten and scolded by Su Ziyi, dark emotions would breed in his heart and curse the other party.It's just that when he curses the other party, how can he not curse himself, because he knows that he may go on like this for the rest of his life.
★But★ he didn't expect that he was caught off guard - Su Ziyi he had changed, he had become another person.This Su Ziyi is different, he works hard, he is motivated, in order to achieve his goals, he will choose to work hard, to learn, instead of feeling sorry for himself.It is precisely because of his efforts that he has grown up at a speed that will surprise everyone, and led the people around him to work together, unconsciously falling into the atmosphere of fighting for life and the future.Therefore, in the inner circle of this atmosphere, Bian Qing was undoubtedly infected and attracted by Su Ziyi's attitude, and his eyes couldn't help but start following the other party, wanting to know what kind of point the other party would go to and what kind of results he would achieve.It's just that because he has seen too much and observed too subtlely, he knows more than others, and the panic in his heart has also risen wildly.Especially seeing that Su Ziyi had jumped from the fourth layer of qi refining to the sixth layer of qi refining in less than a few months, and continued to move towards the seventh layer of qi refining with the same firm determination at a slow speed, the fear in Bian Qing's heart could not be stopped.He knew that if he still chose to watch from the sidelines, instead of changing himself, trying to catch up with the other party, sooner or later he would be abandoned because the distance between the two was too far.So, he acted.All along, he chose to watch coldly, he finally panicked, he desperately wanted to do something to change the status quo, instead of being forgotten in the corner by this man, becoming a not very deep memory in the man's memory a few years later.He wanted to see it.He wanted to know.He wanted to know what kind of path this Su Ziyi in front of him could take.Moreover, if he can, he also hopes that he can be like Su Ziyi, not confused in his heart, and have a firm goal to support himself to go on.This time, Su Ziyi, who had not been able to get Bian Qing's reaction for a long time, thought that his words had hit Bian Qing's sore spot, after all, others were secretly hiding from learning literacy by themselves, and he would definitely lose face if he directly pierced it.Therefore, after thinking about this, he decided to say a few more words and give the two sides a step down, but before he could speak, Bian Qing, who had been standing stupidly like a stake for a long time, spoke up."
Then what can I dare?"
Although he has no love for Bian Qing, listening to the confusion in his voice, Su Ziyi is still very distressed for him, after all, such a good young man should have a great future, but because of his family and system, he ended up in such a predicament.Therefore, he said very sincerely: "Long-term goals are really hard to find, so it is better to find what you want to do most now." ”When he said this, he probably understood Bian Qing's choice - this young man, he had already taken the most important step, but because his life was too blank, he didn't know where to go.But it doesn't matter.Su Ziyi's eyes looking at Bian Qing were very kind, although he couldn't treat the other party as the other half, he would also care about the other party in his heart, after all, the other party was the one he was familiar with in the world and one of the best people for himself.Therefore, no matter what choice Bian Qing makes, he will definitely support the other party.And listening to his words, Bian Qing finally showed a stretched smile on his face, and he said as if relieved: "Yes-" He no longer stood stupidly in place, turned back and walked a few steps, and sat on the bed, his delicate face was separated from black and white because of the cover of the bed tent, and the emotions in his eyes were completely shrouded, so that outsiders could not snoop."
I want to take Yulang with you.""
Okay.""
If you can—" When he said this, Bian Qing closed his eyes as if he had gambled on the courage of his life: "Can you teach me how to cultivate?"
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