Unconsciously, three years have passed, since that mysterious dream, three years have passed in a hurry, Xiao Lin has never had any similar dreams in these three years, he has even gradually stopped thinking about it, after all, he is not one of those people who daydreams all day.
His job is not bad, his position and salary are continuing to improve, although there is still a lot of gap with the real elite white-collar workers, but Xiao Lin is a contented person, according to his plan, in another two years, he will have more money on hand, plus the help of the family, he plans to buy a house in the suburbs first, pay a down payment, and then like the vast majority of mortgage families in China, from now on to live a life of repaying the mortgage every month.
Although this is not what Xiao Lin really wants, but this is also an ordinary life of an ordinary person, over the years, the family has arranged a lot of blind dates for him, but he has never been, not that Xiao Lin has a high vision, nor that girls look down on him, although the reason for him and his family to shirk is that he is still young and wants to work hard for a few more years.
But the real reason is that Xiao Lin has never mentioned it to others, subconsciously he always feels that there is a shadow in his heart, a very vague and vague shadow, he doesn't know who it is, he doesn't know when he met, and he even forgot the specific appearance.
But Xiao Lin just felt that he could never forget that vague shadow, and he felt that if he couldn't wait for that person, he would definitely regret it for life.
However, the pressure from relatives at home, coupled with the fact that he knew that he was getting older, would eventually have to find a girl to make do with it for the rest of his life.
Xiao Lin began to be a little dazed, his life continued, commuting to work normally every day, playing games at night, going out to drink with friends on weekends, as usual ordinary life, but he didn't know why, and gradually began to feel a little irritable.
Xiao Lin began to hesitate, he told himself that as long as he completely forgot the shadow of his heart, his life could get back on track, but he couldn't make up his mind, that feeling was like cutting meat, he couldn't make up his mind, and even he couldn't figure out why.
What exactly am I hesitating about?
What the hell am I bothering about?
Why do I feel like I'm missing something in my life?
Xiao Lin's temper began to become a little bad, he also knew that it was not good for him to do this, and even wanted to go to a psychiatrist to see him, and his friends were also comforting him, encouraging him to simply take a vacation and go around, they felt that Xiao Lin was just too stressed at work.
Xiao Lin thinks that maybe this is the case, in fact, when he was a child, he often suddenly had some kind of illusion, such as when he was doing something as if he had experienced it, but he really couldn't remember when and where he had experienced it, but since he grew up, this feeling rarely had again.
He felt that this distress might also stem from this, so Xiao Lin decided to accept the kind advice of his friends, took a long vacation for the company, and then carried his travel bag and traveled aimlessly to improve his mood.
But the distraction did not have the effect he imagined, this time it was different from the usual time, after temporarily losing the burden of busy work, his calm heart instead remembered more, more vague shadows, more vague people, more vague things.
Those vague people or things have a strong sense of familiarity, but they feel very strange and distant, as if it is another person's life, a life that has nothing to do with him, but why is he so obsessed.
Xiao Lin felt that he was going crazy, he thought that he probably had schizophrenia, but he went to various hospitals and did countless tests, but there were no results.
In this way, another half a year has passed, and there is still no progress, Xiao Lin, who is exhausted, sits alone in the hotel, staring blankly at the sun outside the window, he has been like this these days, he is trying to remember, but he can't remember anything, he feels that there must be something missing in his life, but he really can't say it.
Until a news attracted his attention, the total eclipse of the blood moon was coming, which was a rare astronomical spectacle in more than two hundred years, and the major newspapers and news media were promoting it a few days ago, but Xiao Lin only suddenly noticed it now, because the TV in the hotel was always on, but he didn't have the habit of watching TV, but he was now afraid of staying in a too quiet environment, which would make him more cranky, and he just wanted to make more other sounds in the house.
Xiao Lin inexplicably had a very strange feeling in his heart, subconsciously he always felt that he seemed to have seen a total eclipse of the blood moon somewhere, but he quickly laughed at himself and shook his head to deny it, because the news made it clear that this was an astronomical spectacle in more than two hundred years, and he was not born two hundred years ago, so it must be just his own delusion.
However, Xiao Lin still decided to watch this lunar eclipse, maybe to relax, or maybe to verify some strange feelings, his luck is not bad, the city is currently clear weather for several days, there is a mountain nearby, so on the day of the lunar eclipse, he carried a travel bag very early, and brought enough food and water to the mountain.
The mountain is not a very famous tourist attraction, and the neighborhood has not yet been developed, so there are not many people who come to visit, he has seen the introduction, saying that there is an observatory on the mountain, but it is never open to the public.
Xiao Lin tried to go to the observatory to take a look, and sure enough, he had a closed fast, but it didn't matter, the lunar eclipse didn't need an astronomical telescope to observe, not to mention that he was not interested in astronomy, more to relieve his mood.
Xiao Lin found an open place on the top of the mountain alone, and as the night fell, the huge full moon was already hanging high in the night sky, and it was indeed bigger than usual, bathed in the bright silver moonlight, the feeling in his heart became stronger and stronger.
He was sure that he had seen the same moon at some point, but he couldn't remember when, Xiao Lin tried very hard to recall every stage of his past, and there was never any missing part, if it was just amnesia, maybe he would be at ease, but now it was as if someone had forcibly changed his life, which only made him more desperate.
The total lunar eclipse finally began, Xiao Lin's thoughts became more chaotic, he came to watch the moon just to relieve his mood, but he didn't expect to make himself more irritable, the feeling of splitting headache made him unbearable for a while, curled up on the ground and trembled constantly, more and more sporadic memories floated out in his mind, but they were all fragmented, missing a thread that could run throughout, making him at a loss.