Fang Xuan wore a puff-sleeved shirt with a JSK skirt and said in surprise: "All three of us are wearing shirts!"
”"Today is the Shirt Squad.Do you want to take a team codename?
”Lin Zhan's eyes lit up, and he began to play strange games again.It was too naïve, Fang Xun was reluctant to participate, and Fang Xuan nodded happily, and first proposed: "My brother is in a white shirt, and his hair is pitch black, like a ceramic doll, and my brother is a porcelain doll." ”Fang Xun: ?
Lin Zan laughed out loud and hurriedly said, "Okay, it's decided." ”Fang Xun glanced at him, and Lin Zan only smiled.Fang Xuan's opinion was adopted, and he immediately puffed up his little chest proudly: "That's my turn."
I wear this puff sleeve from my brother, I'm going to call it Little Bubble!
”Fang Xun was a sister after all, and he smiled when he heard it: "Yes, it's very cute." ”Fang Xuan's confidence soared, and he said that he wanted to take over the task of taking over the name: "Then let me take Senior Lin Zhan's code name!"
”Lin Zan nodded, waiting for his codename.But Fang Xuan's inspiration seemed to have disappeared suddenly, he glanced at Lin Zhan, and then looked at the sky, but he didn't come up with it for a long time.She tilted her head in distress and asked her brother for help.Fang Xun looked at Lin Zan playfully: "The color of this shirt is very similar to cream popcorn."
It's better to call it popcorn. ”Lin Zan knew that those who should come would come.This is revenge!
Popcorn doesn't sound cool at all."
AhhThat's great!
”Fang Xuan clapped his hands, "Cream popcorn is good for Senior Lin Zhan!"
The popcorn is super sweet. ”Fang Xun moved his gaze to Lin Zhan's eyes, explaining that he didn't mean that way, and said softly, "I didn't say sweet." ”But his eyes were a little warm, which made Lin Zan inexplicably a little ashamed.Sweet or not, ah, good one.With the code name in hand, the three-person team rushed to the first ride.At the beginning of the game, Lin Zan shed tears of remorse for his elementary school chicken behavior.Why would he propose such a retarded replacement?
Fang Xuan was full of enthusiasm, full of joy at the code names of the three people, and felt that they were the most special existence in this playground.The three of them did a roller coaster side by side, and she said very seriously: "Let's call our code name when we rush to the highest point!"
”Hearing this childlike sentence, the two big boys were a little panicked.Lin Zan performed one on the spot: frozen.jpg Fang Xun turned his head sideways to look at Lin Zan with his eyes full of words: Are you happy?
Lin Zan was aggrieved: Ah, I don't want to scream, it's so embarrassing.Without waiting for a few more seconds of brainwave exchange between the two of them, Fang Xuan made a final decision: "Call it!"
We want to make good memories!
”So, the roller coaster sped up on the track, and as it cut through the wind majestically, you could hear the roars of people either frightened or happy as it reached the heights."
Ahh"It's so cool!""
Ahhhand a few sentences with a weird style: "Little bubbles!
”"Popcorn......
Flower. ”"Porcelain......
Doll. ”After getting off the roller coaster, Lin Zan and Fang Xun invariably chose to leave here quickly, and they must not be recognized by anyone as the idiot who was different.Fang Xuan hurriedly stopped them: "Wait!
I want to see the photos. ”The two men braking the car and reluctantly turned around and walked towards the photo print.The camera captured many photos, and Fang Xuan quickly found the ones with them, and smiled uncontrollably: "Oh my God, our expressions are so hideous." ”That's not it, shouting "porcelain dolls" and "popcorn" into the air, the expression is hideous.Lin Zan raised his hand and hid it in front of his eyes, unable to bear to look at it.He is an image-oriented person, what is the difference between this picture and a public execution!
Fang Xun noticed his small movements, the corners of his mouth curved slightly, and he reached out to take the clearest one from Fang Player, and took it to the checkout."
Why are you buying this?"
When Lin Zan found out, he immediately followed and whispered beside him.Fang Xun finished paying, put away his mobile phone, pinched the corner of the photo and gently fanned him: "Guess." ”Lin Zan was a little depressed: "Your bad taste as a photographer is here again?"
Collect weird emotes?
”Fang Xun shook his head: "No." ”He called for Xiao Xuan, put the photo in her small backpack, and the three of them made their way to the next game facility.Lin Zan didn't get an answer yet, and he tugged at the back of his shirt as he walked: "Why is that?"
”Fang Xun stood still, raised his head slightly, and his eyes were as clear as the clear sky: "Remembrance."
One of the original meanings of photographs was to freeze memorable moments. ”Then, he looked at Lin Zhan, and his voice was lower: "Riding a roller coaster with you, Xiaoxuan is really happy."
Thank you. ”Lin Zan subconsciously asked, "What about you?"
”Fang Xun smiled, laughing so hard that Lin Zhan's heart shook."
Me too."
He made another promise: "I won't show others the photos you don't think look good." ”There seemed to be a gust of wind blowing in my heart, and countless dandelions were flying everywhere.Lin Zan was embarrassed to say that he didn't dislike it, and even wanted to go back and buy one.The trio played a few more projects.They are not afraid of heights, they have played almost all the roller coasters here, and they accompany Fang Xuan to ride the Ferris wheel together.The Ferris wheel spun slowly, slowly rising, and the sunlight that had just been hidden began to emerge from the clouds little by little, reflecting the ground of the car.In the car, Fang Xuan sat opposite, holding a cone, laughing out of small dimples, and the two boys opposite were helping her take pictures.After taking the shot, Fang Xuan handed the phone back after reading the photos, she was super satisfied and received a lot of beautiful photos.The Ferris wheel rises to its top, and the sun is completely revealed, shining all over the place.Fang Xuan finished eating the ice cream seriously, wiped his mouth, and then raised his head to look at the other side, but suddenly froze for a few seconds.Lin Zan looked down at his phone and was talking to Fang Xun.Fang Xun leaned back in the chair, tilted his head slightly, a thin light floated on his skin, and a light smile rippled on his lips, listening to the person next to him.They sat very close.Suddenly, Fang Xuan felt a wonderful atmosphere from them, which was very natural and comfortable.Today's small bubble Fang Xuan seems to see colorful bubbles floating in the air.But who made the bubbles?
Fang Xuan couldn't figure it out.But you don't need to think it through.They're sitting on a Ferris wheel, surrounded by bubbles, and that's a beautiful thing, and there's no need to ask why.She pinched the frog doll on her bag, smiled brightly, and suddenly said, "I'm so happy!"
”Fang Xun and Lin Zan looked at her together and smiled at her: "Hmm." ”When the sunset appeared on the horizon, they stepped on the earth of late spring and left the playground in the gentle evening breeze.The playground was built in the new town, where there were few people, and there were not many people on the bus for the return trip.It's just that as soon as they got into the car, several girls wearing lo skirts noticed Fang Xuan and praised her enthusiastically: "Your skirt is so beautiful!"
”Fang Xuan met so many friends for the first time, and he was a little shy, and a little excited to say thank you.One of the girls invited her to sit next to her, and Fang Xuan sat down with a red face, and then looked at her brother with a sparkle in his eyes.Fang Xun smiled and nodded, and sat in the back row with Lin Zhan.The girls were bustling with activity, and the carriage was filled with their crisp and pleasant laughter.It turned out that they were all lo girls in the same city, and they didn't know each other before today, so they specially made an appointment to gather together today, so they would be so friendly and cordial when they saw Fang Xuan.Seeing that Fang Xuan was chatting happily with them, Fang Xun was also a lot more relieved, and he also talked to Lin Zan in a low voice.It was getting darker and darker, and street lamps were lit up along the way, and the dim light reflected on the glass.Fang Xun glanced at the glass, a hazy shadow of Lin Zan was projected on it, and he suddenly hummed a song very softly: "Whyisthereyouwhentherearefewpeople......
Lin Zan laughed all of a sudden: "You have run too far in this tune." ”"Really?
What's the right tone?
”Fang Xun smiled faintly, and even raised his tone inadvertently.There were very few people in the car, so Lin Zan opened the window and sang a few words softly."
That's right."
He was in front of a serious teacher.The wind blew into the carriage and brushed the edge of the glass, sending a slight coolness, Fang Xun replied comfortably: "I know, I haven't learned." ”Ha?
Lin Zan glared at him without any momentum: "Then you ask about wool." ”Fang Xun laughed, and the trembling graininess melted into the deep timbre: "I'm not here to be a student, I'm here to listen to a live performance." ”Not satisfied with recording at a distance from the original sound through the microphone and speakers, he wanted to hear it more clearly."
Why do you say fare evasion?"
Lin Zan couldn't understand what he heard, but his heart gradually became soft, like a piece of chocolate that slowly melted away in the hot weather.Fang Xun's gaze brushed the tip of his nose, up little by little, catching the fluctuating light in those eyes.He was still laughing, maintaining the coherence of his words: "Because I'm not one of your 100,000 stars yet." ”Lin Zhan's heart trembled, and he suddenly couldn't grasp the emotions of this moment.His body was a little soft, but his heart was beating nervously, and there was a cloud of white light in his head, only Fang Xun's face was close in front of him, so clear that it was panicking.Star.That's the word he used in the last recording post, and he wanted to be romantic, so he took it upon himself to compare 100,000 fans to 100,000 stars.But why does he now feel like he's been hit by a meteor?
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The earth was spinning, and the meteor slammed into a huge crater, rattling through his heart.It's so wonderful that it's an incredible feeling, Lin Chan experienced it in a short moment.He felt that his throat was a little dry, and he couldn't understand what kind of chemical reaction was playing in his body, so he asked Fang Xun in a daze, with a little complaint: "Why not?"
”Fang Xun was also stuck, his mind was smooth when he said those words, as if he was driven by some kind of mystery, and now that he thought about it, he suddenly didn't know how to answer.Why?
Why isn't there a point of attention?
Fang Xun tilted his head slightly, but he didn't understand at all, so he only asked hesitantly and in a clumsy tone: "I have already downloaded the APP for you, do you want me to click the only attention for you?"
”The author has something to say: the happy scene is finally here!
Chapter 22 Is the weather so hot in late April Lin Zan felt that his back was sweating finely, and his palms were damp.What kind of questions are they asking each other?
It made the two of them breathe tightly, and they had a hard time answering.Lin Zan lightly opened his palate, and his vocal cords vibrated slowly: "Can't you?"
”Can't you give him the only attention?
It seemed to be just a very small thing, but Fang Xun mistakenly used the word "unique".So what's there to worry about?
Unintelligent words and sentences are always harmful, so Fang Xun chose a concise way this time: "Yes." ”But the conversation has ended, but the strange atmosphere has not gone away.On this bus, it seems that there are only two of them.The carriage was silent, except for the sound of the engine as an illusory signal, proving that time was still flowing.They stared at each other blankly, looking into each other's eyes, but they didn't notice the reflection in those eyes, the self there.It was a slam braking from the driver that broke up this separate space.The two men fell forward by inertia and held the crossbar in front of them.Lin Zhan's ears burned suddenly, and he didn't look at Fang Xun, clenching the cold pole with both hands."
Get out of the car."
Fang Xuan called out to them, "It's time to stop." ”"Hmm."
Fang Xun stood up first, took two steps and turned around and called Lin Zan softly, "Let's go." ”Lin Zan quickly stood up and got out of the car behind him.The outside of the car was much cooler, the dark blue sky looked very clean, and the street behind the bus stop was full of small shops selling barbecue, milk tea, cold noodles and other things.Fang Xuan asked Lin Zan curiously: "Senior Lin Zan , why are your ears so red?"
The face is also a little red. ”As soon as she asked Lin Zhan, she felt that her face was burning in panic, and her eyes fled in a hurry, only to collide with Fang Xun's line of sight again."
Well," his mind went blank, so he looked at Fang Xun stupidly and said, "It's too hot." ”"Ah, what should I do, I didn't bring a small fan."
Fang Xuan said distressedly.Fang Xun pointed to the small shop over there: "Do you want to go eat some ice powder together?"
Ask the boss to give you more ice. ”"Okay."
He agreed, but his movements still seemed sluggish, and he didn't look like he had come back to his senses.Suddenly, Fang Xun put his two hands on his shoulders, and Lin Zhan's heart trembled violently."
Hurry up."
He was pushed forward by Fang Xun, and heard him say in his ear, "I'm about to be infected by you." ”Lin Zan subconsciously turned his head to look at Fang Xun, his ears were also slightly red, just like evening clouds, Lin Zhan's heart settled down all of a sudden.It's a disease, and they're all infected with an anonymous illness at the same time.He's not alone.Lin Zhan smiled, quickened his pace, and walked with him to the small shop on the street.There were yellow lights, friends gathered in pairs, and the conversation was high and low.The boss scoops up a large spoonful of ice cubes and ice water and spreads it on the bottom of the bowl, then adds raisins, crushed peanuts, mash, dried hawthorn, taro balls and diced fruits, and finally drizzles with brown sugar juice.On this day, the night sky was clear, the air was clear, and Lin Zan ate the sweetest bowl of ice powder in his memory.When he got home, he ran upstairs and sang for a long time into the unplugged microphone in the workshop.Like a madman, a person laughs at himself.There are countless rising bubbles in the body, and the feeling of the whole body fluttering has subsided a little by spitting it out through the singing.Singing and singing, he thought of Fang Xun's sentence "I evaded the ticket to listen to the live performance", and couldn't help but start thinking: Has Fang Xun heard his previous recording?
What does he say about these recordings?
Lin Zan reached for the mobile phone on the table and couldn't help but want to flip through the comment area, but he forced himself to stop halfway through his hand.You don't have to care about it so much, do you?
After running for a day, let's go take a shower first.Half an hour later, Lin Zhan wiped his hair with a towel in one hand and a mobile phone in the other, waiting for a reply.Still can't hold back!
On the other end, Fang Xun sat in front of the computer and laughed at the phone screen.His fingers tapped on the keyboard, and he quickly typed an answer: How can I praise you?
The comment section has all said what I have to say.However, Lin Zhan slid the screen, and while flipping through the comments, he thought weakly: You can't take this kind of thing seriously, right?
Also, "Husband, I can" or something, it can't be what you want to say.Like a child begging for candy, he asked greedily and honestly: Even if it is the same, everyone will say it differently.A shy man said, "It's amazing, I love it so much!"
”, and the feelings of a person who is usually enthusiastic and say this sentence are obviously different.Lin Zan wanted to know what a person like Fang Xun would think of him.The light of the computer screen is reflected on Fang Xun's face, the interface of PS is still open, and there is a business picture on it, the model is standing at the bus stop, and the weather is sunny in the picture.Fang Xun glanced at the bus sign in the photo, and his mind flashed back to the chance encounter with Lin Zan not long ago, when he heard the song "YesterdayandToday" for the first time.The moonlight climbed up the windowsill, and the rooms of both men were illuminated by the same moonlight.Lin Zhan's mobile phone vibrate, and he saw Fang Xun's reply: Before I heard it up close today, I cycled the single for a week.In just one sentence, Lin Zan looked very slowly, but after reading it, the phone shook violently.Fang Xun said again: If you don't mind, I think I'll still cycle the single for a long time, okay?
If there were no questions in the last three words, Lin Zan might not have reacted too strongly, but looking at the screen, there is indeed a "Is it okay?"
”, his whole breathing became slow.A few hours ago, he asked Fang Xun, "Is it okay?"
and now, it was Fang Xun's turn to ask him.Just a little bit of the phone screen, but his hand became so inflexible, slowly moving from "k" to "e", then "y", and finally "i".He used an indescribable mood, a state of soul floating outside the sky, to write "yes".Pressing the send button, Lin Zan immediately threw the phone aside, and fell down his face towards the soft bed.His fingers tugged at the sheet slightly.The body is hot.It was as if in the middle of summer, when he closed his eyes and saw a world full of light, where water vapor was flooding.After a few minutes, he turned his head sideways, took a big breath of air, and couldn't help but smile again.Single loop.Single loop.Single loop.Single Loop!
The mobile phone vibrated intermittently at this time, Lin Zan subconsciously thought it was a call from Fang Xun, and immediately grabbed the mobile phone and sat up from the bed."
Hey."
He tried to make his voice sound calmer."
Baby, are you resting?"
It turned out to be his mother calling.Lin Zhan didn't know whether he was happy or lost for a while, but he was a little surprised.They had another fight just a few days ago.He went home that day to get his things, but the house was still empty, and his parents didn't come back.He sat down on the couch and called his mother and then his father.Lin Zan is really helpless, after so long, has there been no one in this house?
He tried to restrain his emotions and calmly wanted to talk to them.But his father was silent for a long time, and only said: "I'm sorry son, the matter between me and your mother hasn't been dealt with yet, and I haven't taken care of you for a while." ”can't take care of him, can't divide too much heart to take care of him is not the point, the point is that he is the only one who doesn't know what's going on!
Then his mother repeated the sentence: "You are still young, you don't understand yet." ”Lin Zhan's anger was ignited all of a sudden, and he yelled irritably: "Does being young mean that you don't understand anything?"
Can't I just try to understand, or do you think it's necessary at all?
Mom, when did you become like this?
”After yelling, he hung up the phone and threw the couch pillow out, his eyes red with anger and shortness of breath.It's really bad habits.He shouldn't throw something when he's angry, it's pointless, but he can't help it.In the past, his family spoiled him, and he didn't have much chance to lose his temper, but it wasn't until recently that Lin Zan realized that he couldn't control his anger.This may be explained by the high anger value, but in the final analysis, it is probably because he is a little lacking in love deep down.As soon as he can't get what he wants, he wants it even harder, and he will put himself in a manic situation.It seems a little strange to say.His growth environment is so simple and so warm, how can he raise a child who lacks love?
But that's just the way it is.The night Fang Xun came to his house, he realized with fear that he had been dreaming about himself all along, beautifying and processing his memories intentionally or unintentionally.He knew from Miao Wei that a father would not care about his daughter's feelings, and he could ridicule and hurt his own child.Fang Xun's performance that night also gave him a glimpse of the truth about his family, Fang Xun's melancholy expression from time to time, and his straightforward "I don't want to go home" when they met during the Qingming Festival holiday, all of which revealed the form that family affection might have and was different from what he imagined.A fortress heaped with gravel, it ends up being overturned by the waves.At this moment, the tide is already gradually surging, indicating that the last line of defense is in jeopardy.Lin Zan clenched the phone, pursed his lips vigorously, and then replied, "I didn't sleep." ”The author has something to say: The manuscript box has been emptied, and I officially opened the naked running mode qaq, and I can't update it for the exam tomorrow.Chapter 23 They didn't talk a few words on the phone, so Lin Mu Xiao Yuan said that she was coming over now.Lin Zan felt a little restless, why did she come here on purpose?
The tone is so solemn that it makes people very panicked.Obviously, he himself was looking forward to his parents all day long, and wanted to talk to them calmly, but now he was afraid of the scene of getting together with his mother, which was really strange, Lin Zan himself felt ridiculous, took a deep breath, and went upstairs into the workshop.A miniature model that had been working on had been completed, a dressing room with a specially shaped display case for a pocket perfume bottle.He reproduced Xiao Yuan's favorite models.He put the small, delicate perfume on it and admired it quietly for a few minutes.When mom comes, give it to her.It was nearly ten o'clock when Xiao Yuan arrived.She still has exquisite makeup, elegant and charming, but Lin Zan faintly feels that there is something else in her eyes.Lin Zhan took the coat she took off and hung it on the hanger by the door.However, the movement of his arm drove the air to flow, and Lin Zan keenly caught the smell of perfume on his mother's body, and he was in a trance for a while.She used to prefer woody perfumes, but the back notes are warm and soft, and the spices are always supplemented by roses, vines and other plants, giving people a sense of intellect and composure.And now the perfume she uses is a little spicy and a little more sharp.Lin Zan suddenly thought: People always like to describe the breath that belongs to their mother.And what happens when that taste changes?
He pressed the inexplicable emotion in his heart and pulled Xiao Yuan to sit on the sofa.Since everyone of her is here, there is no need to beat around the bush, Lin Zan asked bluntly: "What the hell is going on?"
What the hell happened to you and your dad?
”Xiao Yuan obviously wanted to say something, but was choked by his question, and was stuck for more than ten seconds before sighing: "Baby, it's all my mother's problem." ”"Yes."
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Lin Zhan's expression was very serious, and he said, "What's the problem?"
”Xiao Yuan's eyes fluctuated for a few seconds, and her voice was low: "You may think that your mother is whimsical, after all, even your father doesn't accept it." ”Lin Zhan's face was slightly cold: "You don't need to give me any more vaccinations."
I said before, Mom, don't treat me like a child, just say it. ”He waited too long, he was impatient, and he stopped going around in circles, asking, "What happened to you and my dad?"
”He frowned incomprehensibly: "You shouldn't make trouble for so long, right?"
”"It's not awkward."
Xiao Yuan sits in a beautiful posture, with one leg overlapped on the other, her toes slightly tilted, and her upper body straight.She looked at Lin Zan with those eyes full of brilliance, and emphasized: "It's been a long time, so it's not awkward." ”"What's that?"
He asked, confused.Her words are nothing more than saying that she is serious, what is she doing seriously?
Xiao Yuan looked at him quietly, like looking at a work of art, her tender and scrutinizing gaze flowing on him.But this look made Lin Zan a little uncomfortable.He had a vague sense of the absurdity of the possibility, and the slightest hint of it was a quick rebuttal, and the more he refuted, the clearer the possibility resounded.Time seemed to be stretched out, the scene before him became distant, and he paced back and forth in silence and noise.Finally, Xiao Yuan's answer ended his long wait.Every word she spat out smashed against an invisible film, and when it was cushioned, there was a pliable unreality: "I'm tired of family." ”"I want to live alone."
Lin Zan really couldn't react immediately, he couldn't quite understand what Xiao Yuan contained in these two short sentences.He subconsciously asked, "Tired of what?"
”Xiao Yuan took a deep breath, made up her mind, and said again: "I'm tired of family." ”After saying it many times in front of her husband and still not being understood, Xiao Yuan also felt tired, and she wanted to maintain her dignity in front of her children.But Lin Zan said don't treat him as a child, she will give it a try to see if he can understand.She said in one breath: "Since you were born, I have felt constrained, and my family has brought me more suffocation than happiness.I don't want to have to worry about the family when I'm busy with work, I have to keep my heart on you and your father all the time.I'm not me anymore, I don't have a moment of my own, I've had enough. ”Every word she said made Lin Zhan's heart be cut by a knife.Lin Zan said very unconfidently and frustratedly: "Mom, are we all just burdens to you?"
”Xiao Yuan's gaze stayed on him, with pity and some helplessness, there was maternal love in her eyes.But she said, "It would break your heart if I said that."
But baby, in addition to being your mother's baby, you have really caused your mother to suffer a lot of sins. ”"I felt like I had been kidnapped by my family for many years.After having children, I lost myself, and you and your father will never be able to understand my feelings. ”There was a hint of accusation in her voice, but reason quickly brought her to normalize, and her tone became calmer again, "This society has tied too many things to mothers. ”She looked at her son's injured expression, and her heart still throbbed.But what can it be?
Is her life going to be like this forever?
Since having a child, her whole person has changed, and she is no longer the same person she was when she was younger.They are lucky, their families are well-off, they have a lot of income, and they don't have to worry about tea, rice, oil and salt like other families.But Xiao Yuan still felt that most of her life had been taken away by her family!
She kept seizing her territory, giving up her personal space little by little.In the end, even her heart was almost snatched away by her family.Her dreams, her hobbies, have gradually faded into oblivion over time, and her efforts have been devoted to how to build a beautiful and warm home.After the age of forty, she felt more and more bored, and she recalled her teenage and twentieth self more and more frequently.She felt a crisis like never before.She lived her life step by step, going to school, getting married, having children, growing old, and going through her life "right" as most people think, never thinking about whether such a trajectory was really what she wanted.Occasionally, she dreamed back at midnight, and she woke up in a cold sweat, and there was a storm in her heart.She thought of the divorce cases she had fought and the mothers in those families, who always chattered about their love for their children, but the more Xiao Yuan thought about it, the more she detected a trace of complaint in their words.It seems that the mother will treat her own contribution as love, and in turn use her own contribution to ask her children to understand this "love".Xiao Yuan felt that she was almost in this strange situation.Motherhood, motherly love, what is the difference between the two?
Was she kidnapped by motherhood, or was she motivated by maternal love to love her child spontaneously?
The result of thinking about it is: Xiao Yuan wants to live alone.Because the desire for the life she envisioned before was far more than she was satisfied with the current life.She also needs time to figure out some things, like what is called love.Although she had already determined her thoughts in her heart, looking at Lin Zhan's pale face, Xiao Yuan was a little shaken, she pinched her fingertips and said, "Baby, I'm sorry, this is not fair to you."
You've been nurtured since childhood, and I know you're hard to understand. ”Lin Zhan's eyes were red, and he asked again with unconfidence: "Did I really make you suffer a lot?"
Am I that bad?
”Xiao Yuan sat closer to him and hugged his innocent son: "So I said you can't understand, baby, you haven't given birth to a child, and you're not a woman, and you'll never be able to understand my feelings." ”She gently patted Lin Zhan's back, like coaxing him to sleep when she was a child, and said patiently but melancholy: "Mom suffers."
The whole heart hangs on you, and if you feel a little uncomfortable, your mother will be so nervous that she can't sleep well.Mothers are also human beings and have their own lives, but after having children, mothers can't help themselves.You are in front of you, not in front of you, I am worried about you. ”Lin Zan was ashamed and depressed, and he didn't know how to answer her words at all.Is that so?
Could my mother have become so miserable because of his existence?
Lin Zan didn't know what to do, at this moment his gratitude to his mother rose to the extreme, but there was something indescribable in his chest that made him disgusted by this scene, and he seemed to have been enjoying his parents' love with peace of mind.But just because he was their child, could he be so at ease?
Lin Zan felt the body temperature that belonged to his mother, his eyes were a little unlucky, and he said dryly, "I'm sorry." ”Xiao Yuan gently stroked his hair, and her heart was sour.Her son's "I'm sorry" really made her feel emotional.Motherhood shook her again.But she had to go.She didn't want to abandon her children or husband, but she was determined to put the focus of her life back on herself.Men may never be able to understand, but Xiao Yuan knows what she wants.At this point, Lin Zan no longer had any reason to question his mother.Mother is his nurturer, the one who brought him into this world.How can a son rightfully command his mother?
He was in an extremely complicated mood, but he still stopped Xiao Yuan at the moment before she went out and gave her the miniature model that had been made for a long time."
Mom, send you, I hope you have a good time."
Xiao Yuan took it with a smile and looked at him gently: "Baby, you are always the pride of your mother." ”So mom will let you grow up with confidence, and mom is going to go on her own path of growth.Lin Zan was the only one left in the room.He waited quietly at the door for a few moments before he took another heavy breath.To be honest, he really couldn't understand it.He could hear his mother's bitterness, but he still didn't understand.Why did family make her so miserable?
In Lin Zhan's heart, family is the warmest and most comfortable existence.Xiao Yuan's words seemed to reveal the other side of the family, which was forbearance and suffering.Is home like that?
Does the beautiful castle that Lin Chan has been looking for only exist in his own imagination?
Has his expectation of home been proven to be hypocritical?
Lin Zan moved his stiff steps and walked back to the sofa step by step, where the smell of perfume on Xiao Yuan's body still remained.He slowly squatted down and sat down on the carpet in front of the couch, his hands clasped around his knees, his posture a little helpless.I don't know how long it has been, but his phone vibrates again, and the screen lights up.