Qin Rao felt that she had a dream.Obviously, you can still see Qin's mother, Zhou Liang, Hu Dake, and those people around, but it seems that she is beginning to be isolated from this world.It was as if she had split into two with her, in two planes at the same time.But no matter what time and space she was in, it was as if she had lost control of her body, and she could only be like an out-of-body soul......
Listen and look at everything that is in front of you, or rather in your mind.- It was a little girl, who looked very thin.She was dressed in fat clothes, which made her even more withered.She stood alone outside a somewhat dilapidated classroom, looking at the joyful, laughing and playful children of her age on the playground.No one played with her, not even near her.What's more, it will grab the sand and raise it to her eyes.She avoided it in silence, as if she didn't want to make any contact with them.Her escape made some children born from the side of their hearts.They tried to get close to her.But every time they met her fierce eyes, they became weak again.In order to hide the fear in his heart, the leading child shouted loudly: "She is the daughter of a stupid madman, she must also be a crazy fool, and she will not pay for her life if she beats someone, let's stay away from her!"
”Everyone called her a little madman.Because her mother was insane and insane.Her father had already left the two of them to go to the town to enjoy the blessings, and took the inheritance left by her grandparents and found a good-looking woman in the city.Nobody likes her.Except for the crazy woman who always wanted to be close to her, but was always disgusted by her."
Rao, you're back."
The madwoman spoke slowly, but she spoke very clearly.The little girl yelled at her with a look of disgust: "I said don't call me Rao!
”The mad woman stepped back in fear.When the girl looked at her like this, she was even more disgusted: "What are you doing again?"
Isn't it good to stay at home?
Don't you know that everyone in the village hates you?
”The crazy woman was very at a loss, so she could only spit out word by word: "Rao, don't be angry!"
It's my fault!
”The girl glared at her, didn't say anything more, and took the madwoman by the hand and went home.- When the girl grew up, she left the village and went to live in the city.She was admitted to a good university, she can get scholarships and subsidies every year, and she usually goes out to work part-time without classes, and her life has been very fulfilling.It's also beautiful.After she came out, the isolation and rejection that had been there were no more.The classmates are friendly and the teachers are kind.It's as if, leaving that place, all the bad things that used to be are gone.She gradually became less gloomy and dull, and even began to make friends and chat with people.But she still can't forget the past.Every time in the dead of night, those who used to be like tides, quickly wrapped her, suppressing her out of breath.During the day, she is sunny and positive.In the dark night, he has always been plagued by childhood nightmares and cannot live in peace.Eventually, she went to see a psychiatrist......
She was diagnosed with a disorder of brain function......
That is, mental disorders.But she refused treatment, and as a result, she began a long sleep disturbance, with long-term difficulty falling asleep.Later, there were even hallucinations.But she still refused treatment.No matter how much the doctor tried to persuade her, telling her that she was just sick, like a cold and fever, and that she just needed treatment, she was unwilling to accept it.Who wants to admit that they are mentally ill?
Her childhood, in particular, was filled with all the unfriendliness of the mentally handicapped - her mother, the crazy woman.How could she allow herself to be like that?
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