In the dim light, An Zishan saw that his father's complexion had changed, and it was cloudy and uncertain for a while.I only heard An Jiaye say quietly: "Second child, after all, this is something that only happened in a dream, not a reality, the reality is that our family doesn't need to ask anyone now, and life is not very good, but it is also counted in the village." ”After saying this, An Jiaye was silent for a moment, then raised his head and looked at An Zishan, his eyes did not blink, and said in a deep voice, "Second child, Dad knows those things back then, although it has been a long time, but those injuries are difficult to heal and forget in your heart." ”"Even if people start over in this life, if they hold on to the grievances of the past, how can they live the days to come?""
If you can't forgive, choosing to let go is actually a kind of redemption for yourself."
An Zishan was stunned, looking at his father with a kind face stupidly, and there seemed to be a light called wisdom in his eyes, "Even if people start over again in this life" The words rang in his ears, and he suddenly realized that his father seemed to understand the dream.In the evening of the beginning of April, the afterglow of the sunset and the setting sun faintly reflected the two blurred faces, An Zishan suddenly felt a little dazed, he didn't know his father anymore, is this still his father who knew everything about himself in his previous life?
An Zishan was stunned for a long time, just looking at An Jiaye with a gentle face.He muttered, "But what good is the past!
”Almost everyone understands this truth, but a few people can do it.After being confused for a moment, An Zishan looked at his father with blazing eyes and said abruptly: "Dad, in that dream, you were not able to work in the Highway Bureau, and after you came back from Fangqiu City, you have been working as a small worker at the construction site. ”"And the vegetable garden at home has always been so big, and my mother is busy in the vegetable garden every day, pushing her bicycle to the county seat to catch the morning market, and setting up a stall to sell vegetables.""
When I was in college, I was in Xingcheng in Xiangshui Province, far away from home, and once I had no living expenses, so I called you" An Jiaye frowned slightly, but did not interrupt his words, and still listened silently, but the message in his eyes was encouragement and spoiling.An Zishan paused for a moment and continued: "I called you, but there was no money at home, and the food was not delivered, so you borrowed money from the sea and did a clothing business in the sea in your dream. ”"He laughs at you, borrow money now, what will you do later?
Although he agreed in the end, he didn't send me the money, just because of this, you have a grudge against the sea for the rest of your life!
”"Because of the sea, you complained about the third aunt's family for half your life.""
Dad!
And now you are persuading me to forgive them, to let go, and to help them?
How come I can't read you anymore?
”"Is this still you?"
The last sentence An Zishan almost roared out, his eyes were filled with tears, and he glared at An Jiaye with angry eyes.An Jiaye was stunned and speechless, looking at An Zishan's somewhat crazy appearance and sad, his face slowly showed sadness, he slowly stretched out his hand and gently rubbed An Zishan's cheek, and said in a choked tone: "Second child, are you having a hard time in your dreams" An Zishan was stunned, and let the tears in his eyes gush out of his eyes, flowing wantonly along his cheeks, and he woke up from his dreams in countless nights in his previous life, and was overwhelmed by various debts.The lack of hope for the future and the kindness of the fallen stone made him immerse himself in the gray world all day long, and he once wanted to cry in the arms of his parents like a child, but he couldn't.The bitterness and bitterness that I had held back for so long were pierced by An Jiaye's simple actions and a non-intimate inquiry.Wiping away his tears, An Zishan still didn't answer An Jiaye's question, but muttered: "Dad, those are all in the past." ”An Jiaye was stunned, a trace of regret flashed in his eyes, and he nodded and said, "Yes, it's over." ”"Son, that question you just mentioned.I want to tell you, this man is going to change!
”"Especially with the change of experience and social status, of course, this change does not appear in an instant, but imperceptibly.""
In your dream, I have been doing small jobs on the construction site, I have never met talents, the hardest and most tiring work, thinking about how to live every day, talking about life is too luxurious, just living, I have done my best.""
When I came back from Fangqiu, I was working on the construction site, and I felt like this when I was full of resentment towards some people and things."
An Zishan was stunned, his eyes were slightly condensed, and he said coldly: "Dad, is the person you are talking about your master?"
”An Jiaye paused, Master?
The man's voice resurfaced in front of him again, from the first time he arrived in Fangqiu, to the gray departure, the memory of that scene flashed in front of him, and after a while, he smiled and said: "Yes, yes, but now it's all over." ”"Dad, if you do something wrong, you have to admit your mistakes, you have to be punished, if the person who is hurt doesn't care, then how can the person who hurts others know how much he has exceeded, and how can he know that good and evil will be rewarded in the end?"
An Zishan stared at An Jiaye and said word by word.An Jiaye was stunned again, and said with a wry smile: "What you said is not unreasonable, maybe I cherish our family's life at this time now, and I no longer want to care about those people and things that make me feel bad." ”An Zishan was silent, looking at his father with a complicated look in his eyes.An Jiaye said: "To be able to enter the Highway Bureau, and then step by step to the current position, I have seen through a lot and learned a lot, some from the leader, some from the colleagues, and" An Jiaye looked at the son in front of him and smiled, "There is also from you, some of the words you have said, I also understand a lot." ”"In short, the second child, people, will change, even if it is the same person, experiencing different lives and different encounters, the results will be different.""
So, you ask me, in your dreams I hated the sea all my life, and now I ask you to forgive your relatives who did wrong things in your dreams, and I want to help them.""
It's all caused by different circumstances, in fact, if the things in your dream happen again, I will still hate and resent, but it hasn't happened now, has it?""
Only by letting go of those unhappiness can we let ourselves go further.Got it, son?
”An Zishan fell silent, the obsession and hideous complexion in his eyes gradually dissipated, replaced by relief and letting go, he gently hugged An Jiaye's arm, and the two continued to walk forward."
Dad, what do you think of those aunts?
Do you want to help too?
”"Well, if you can, help me.""
Okay, I see!"
In the evening, the family sat on the kang and discussed the construction of a vegetable planting center in the village where An Zishan's aunts and aunts lived.An Jiaye and Zhang Guiyun, according to An Zishan's request, wrote down the names of the villages where those relatives were located and the names of each relative in the notebook.The next day, instead of returning to school, An Zishan went to the Education Bureau and found Zhang Mingjiao."
Here, that's the list you want."
Zhang Mingjiao smiled and handed An Zishan two pieces of paper with the names of the three hundred and sixty-five vegetable planting centers in Lianshan County printed on them."
Thank you, Uncle Zhang."
Zhang Mingjiao sat opposite the coffee table, poured a cup of tea for An Zishan on the sofa with a smile, and asked: "Your parents think so, I think it's understandable, Wu Yuhai was able to invest in Lianshan, to be honest, it's all your credit." ”"In this case, there is nothing to say about seeking some benefits for those close to them.Besides, strictly speaking, it is not considered to have any benefits, and the construction of vegetable planting centers in these villages will benefit the whole village. ”"It's not exactly your aunts, aunts" An Zishan held the list of relatives in one hand, and the list of vegetable planting centers that Zhang Mingjiao had just handed over to him in the other, and was carefully checking, and after hearing Zhang Mingjiao's words, he raised his head and looked at the other party, grinning: "Uncle Zhang, I also understand what you said, but there are some people, I don't want to help" "In my previous life, our family had a very hard time, and the ugly faces of some relatives made me hate it very much, it would be good if I didn't trouble them, and let me help them, to be honest, I don't have such a broad mind." ”Zhang Mingjiao was stunned, and only then did he realize that the problem was here.He shook his head and smiled: "Xiaoshan, I understand what you said."
However, since you are here, it means that you have been persuaded by your parents, right?
”An Zishan nodded silently, and said with a look of indignation: "Yes, I was persuaded by my father."
He told me that even if people start over in this life, if they are holding on to the grievances of the past, how can they live a good life in the future. ”"He also told me that if I can't forgive, choosing to let go is actually a kind of redemption for myself."
An Zishan looked complicated, looked at Zhang Mingjiao opposite and sighed: "Uncle Zhang, I was stunned at that moment, I really couldn't believe it, these words came out of my father's mouth.It seems that these days at the Highway Bureau, it has really changed a lot for him. ”Zhang Mingjiao's eyes flickered, and his face showed a look of surprise, as if he didn't expect An Jiaye to say such profound words.After a moment of silence, he chuckled, "It seems that your father is a wise man." ”While the two were chatting, An Zishan finished comparing the two lists, frowned slightly, and said slowly: "Uncle Zhang, the villages where my aunt, second aunt, and third aunt are not on the list, why?"
”Zhang Mingjiao was stunned, stretched out his hand and said, "Which villages, show me." ”