An Zishan sorted out the things he wanted to bring tomorrow in the bedroom, put a few pieces of clothes in his travel bag, and then prepared things to wash, and threw the travel bag on the ground next to the bed.He turned off the light casually, and Kazuo lay on the bed looking at the roof in a daze.In their previous lives, until they were reborn, their family did not reconcile with An Jiadong, and the An brothers never called An Jiadong uncle.Although the uncle who called in the main house just now was muddy, although he didn't want to disappoint Zhang Guiyun, the floodgate in An Zishan's heart had already opened.The resentment against An Jiadong seemed to slowly dissipate with that reluctant greeting."
Alas" In the dark room, a long sigh suddenly sounded, An Zishan's eyes flashed at will without focus, and his heart seemed to have overturned the five flavors of the world."
Since this is already the case, don't worry about it anymore, people are not saints and sages, they have all forgiven him, what am I still doing here, their happiness is the most important thing" An Zishan muttered, with a wry smile on his face that was both helpless and gratifying."
Xiaoshan, it's time to eat!"
Zhang Guiyun's shouts came from outside, An Zishan came back to his senses, sat up, and replied with his throat pulled: "Got it, right away." ”He got out of bed, stood in front of the mirror hanging on the wall, looked at the blurred human face reflected in it, the corners of his mouth slowly curled, and turned to walk out of the room.On the ground of the main house is placed a group of newly bought coffee tables, which I bought after the completion ceremony of the office building of the vegetable base not long ago.In case a certain leader comes to sit at home, our small round table is too cold.This coffee table is about 60 centimeters high, rectangular, marble countertop, under the countertop is actually a group of small cabinets, concave shape, empty in the middle, tea trays and tea leaves.On either side are two small cabinets, where some bits and pieces are placed, and the whole cabinet is painted with dark purple paint.This coffee table is indeed a little higher than the previous small round table, but An Zishan scoffed at his father's aesthetics.When he saw this coffee table for the first time, he said a word, it's really ugly, and the soil is slag.As soon as An Zishan walked into the house, An Jiadong raised his head to look at him with a warm smile on his face.However, An Zishan did not look at him squarely, but walked to the grandmother who was about to get off the kang, took her arm, helped her off the kang, and sat down on the coffee table against the east wall.At this time, there were already six dishes on the coffee table, and Zhang Guiyun was still busy in the kitchen.An Zishan frowned, looking at this appearance, could it be that he could not prepare eight dishes?
Generally, guests come to the house, less than three people, and they prepare six dishes.Today, An Jiadong is alone, and he also stir-fried eight dishes, which shows An Jiadong's position in his parents' hearts, An Zishan sighed lightly.Of course, what he is distressed about is not money, now that the living conditions are better, and there are all kinds of vegetables in the vegetable base, and the materials are extremely rich, An Zishan glanced at the dishes on the table.Well, there are only four vegetables, the rest are either meat dishes or fish.It looks like it's been carefully prepared!
An Zishan didn't sit down at the coffee table, looking at it condescendingly, An Jiadong was a little flustered, and glanced up at him slightly, his expressionless appearance made An Jiadong feel uneasy."
Second child, what are you doing standing stupidly, go and help my mother serve food."
An Jiaye frowned, turned his head to look at An Zishan, who was standing beside him in a daze, and reprimanded lightly."
Oh, good."
An Zishan responded in a muffled voice, raised his leg and went to the kitchen.After a while, the dishes on the table were all on the table, and the family sat down.An Jiaye picked up the wine bottle and poured wine for An Jiadong with a smile on his face, An Zishan glanced at the wine bottle.Ho, it was actually the 1980 Lianshan liquor that Li Defu gave him, and he was reluctant to drink this wine himself, a total of four bottles were tightly hidden in the cabinet under the TV cabinet.I actually took it out today, alas.In the bottom of his heart, An Zishan sighed lightly again, blood and family.I still remember that in my previous life, I was a son, a husband, a son-in-law, a younger brother, and so many roles, only the son was the best, but he was also the most unqualified.In this life, as long as they are happy and happy.At the beginning, the atmosphere on the table was a little dull, and An Jiadong didn't talk much, just drinking with An Jiaye.An Zishan didn't speak, he ate with his head bored, and occasionally said a few words to his grandmother next to him.The old lady's admiring and concerned gaze stayed on her two sons, and from time to time she muttered, "You two drink less!"
”An Zishan's brows furrowed, these two people drank a little fiercely, a teacup-sized wine glass, a full cup of two dollars.An Jiadong and An Jiaye brothers were gone, and in less than half an hour, half a catty of wine was gone.Zhang Guiyun also frowned, pursed his lips and shouted: "An Jiaye, you and your eldest brother drink slowly, don't just drink wine, eat more food." ”The brothers may have drunk their faces because of genetic problems, and at this time, the faces of two middle-aged men who were somewhat similar and a little vicissitudes of life were red.An Jiadong grinned, snatched the wine bottle in An Jiaye's hand, got up slightly, held the wine bottle with both hands, and slowly poured it into An Jiaye's wine glass.While muttering, he shouted: "Brother and sister, don't worry, my brothers and sisters have a number, a number." ”"Family business, I'm happy today, I'm so happy, come, come, I'll be with you all over the mountain.Alas, don't rob me, I know this is the Kai family, can't I pour you a glass of wine?
”An Jiaye hurriedly stood up, the two of them hunched their waists, he held the wine glass, and An Jiadong poured wine."
Brother, I'll pour, I'll come, how can I let you pour wine, you come to my house, you are a guest."
The two were arguing, An Zishan glanced at them, and said expressionlessly, "Dad, you just let the uncle pour a cup, and besides, the two of you sit down and drink, standing and drinking doesn't count." ”He didn't finish a word, the An family brothers suddenly lost their voices, An Jiadong turned his head to look at An Zishan, his eyes showed joy, and he hurriedly said, "Yes, yes, sit down and drink, sit down and drink."
Xiaoshan has said, don't fight for the family business, let me fill it up for you. ”An Jiaye was not grabbing wine bottles, but holding wine glasses in both hands, letting An Jiadong pour them full.After the two sat down, An Zishan felt that the atmosphere was obviously warm, and the dull and depressing feeling quietly dissipated.He didn't know if the previous depression was his own feeling, or if everyone else felt this way.Or, it's just because I can't let go of it in my heart that I feel depressed in their excitement.An Zishan didn't see it, when he finished saying this, Zhang Guiyun in front of the left showed a worried look in his eyes, and turned to a relieved joy, only to see her smile and say: "Xiaoshan, Uncle Kai also bought a schoolbag and utensils box for you two brothers, in my opinion, it's strange and good-looking." ”An Zishan was stunned, holding a piece of celery on the chopsticks in his hand and just about to stuff it into his mouth, a faint smile appeared on his face, and he said softly: "Uncle has a heart, then I will accept it on behalf of my eldest brother, thank you, uncle." ”"Huh!
Huh!
No thanks, no thanks, yes, yes" An Jiadong couldn't help but reply with joy, and his voice was a little choked as he spoke.Hurriedly turned his head, picked up the wine glass in front of him and said to An Zishan: "Come, Xiaoshan, I toast you with a drink, uncle should thank you, if it weren't for you, I might still be alive and dead in this life." ”"This day is the same, and the whole life is the same.If it weren't for you, I might still continue to be confused and wrong, my father and my mother are both good people, and they are kind to others. ”"The mistakes I made when I was young, I didn't have the courage to admit it when I was older, I didn't learn anything else, I learned to escape, I always thought that my father and mother would hate me for a lifetime, and my family would not forgive me, I didn't expect it" An Jiadong suddenly cried, tears rushed down his cheeks, dripping into the wine glass in his hand."
I didn't expect them to forgive me so easily, I didn't expect that in your hearts, even if I did so many wrong things, I still have no face for your eldest brother or our mother's good son" The old lady was stunned, her cloudy eyes trembled, and she said suspiciously: "What's the matter, the family is happy, why did they suddenly howl, don't howl, boss, what a big person." ”An Jiaye also red-eyed, moved the stool, came to An Jiadong's side, raised his hand and patted him on the shoulder, and said in a choked voice: "Big brother, don't howl, let our mother worry."
Let him pass the past, and live and look forward. ”"Life will get better and better, as long as the family is well, I will be satisfied."
An Jiadong lowered his head, raised his right hand and wiped his tears, then slowly raised his head, looked at An Jiaye in front of him and a few people at the table, and said blankly: "I often have such a time, before going to bed at night, I recall what I did in a day, but I can't remember a complete thing for half a day.I often sit at my desk stupidly, looking at the photos of our family of four when we were young. ”"I knew I was wrong about what I did when I was younger.I just don't have the courage to admit my mistake to you face-to-face, I'm just a coward, and I've been living in my own life. ”"I'm sorry for you!"
An Zishan sat stunned, staring directly at An Jiadong, the words he said kept rolling in his mind, his whimper, his tears, and his face full of regret and unconcealable sadness.It was so real in An Zishan's eyes, at this moment he suddenly believed An Jiadong, his apology was from the heart, and so was his repentance.The most vulnerable time for men is when they are drunk and when they are alone.An Zishan took a deep breath and exhaled slowly, he smiled, picked up the teacup in front of him, and said in a deep voice to An Jiadong from afar: "Uncle, I represent the whole family!"
Forgive me!
”"There is a saying that how you live each day, how you live a lifetime.Every day is a microcosm of a lifetime.When we look back on the past half of our lives, we are confused except for guilt, because we can't remember anything, and there is nothing worth remembering about every day, every day is like today, starting in a muddle and ending in a muddle. ”An Zishan thought of his past life, the confused and difficult time before his rebirth, and his eyes became a little dry."
The days of confusion are relatively easy to consume, and people who are too sober will live very anxiously, because sober people are not willing to spend every day doing nothing, and they have to distinguish grievances and grievances clearly, and it is difficult for him to have any way except to escape.""
My father once told me that if people hold on to their past grievances, they won't be able to live well in the future.""
So my dad said that if you can't forgive, choosing to let go is also a kind of redemption for yourself.""
And now, I've let go and forgiven.""
I also believe that our family's life will get better and better, and everything will be prosperous."