Scenes emerged from my mind, and I met, fell in love, got married, and spent more than ten years of youthful years together.However, time passes, the original intention is no longer there, and in the end, they cherish each other and are well.Tang Rou's breathing was a little short, An Zishan's silence explained a lot of problems, and suddenly, her heart began to feel uneasy, and she didn't know what she was worried about.I just couldn't convince myself to calm myself down, a faint sourness rose from the bottom of my heart, my mouth was deflated, and my eyes blinked, slightly crystalline.After being silent for a long time, An Zishan let out a long sigh, which seemed to contain a deep and boundless melancholy like the sea.The voice was very low and melancholy, "Sister Rou, I won't hide it from you."
I never wanted to hide it from you, but these things are already in the past, and I don't want to mention them again. ”"I did get married, but before I was born again, I was divorced.""
Huh?"
Tang Rou was slightly shocked, "Divorced?"
Why?
”An Zishan sighed faintly and said bitterly: "I don't know why, maybe the road is too long, and the original intention is no longer there."
Maybe it was because of those trivialities that wore out patience, and by the world's Taoist magazines, it was broken out of deep affection. ”"Sister Rou, I left a lot of regrets in my previous life, and I have thought countless times that it would be great if I could do it all over again.""
Now, again, I never thought of going to her, I hope that in this life, I will just be a passerby with her.""
In my previous life, I couldn't give her happiness, not just material factors.There was a lot going on along the way, and she couldn't let go of it, and I minded it.So much so that the noisy again and again slowly wore out the patience and warmth of more than ten years. ”"After being reborn, I thought clearly, people, don't force it if you don't agree with the three views.Don't expect time to change a person's character, the country is easy to change, and the nature is difficult to change, the ancestors are not talking about playing. ”Tang Rou was a little puzzled, but she seemed to understand something, and her voice was still a little low, "Have you known each other for a long time?"
”"It's been a long time, we were high school classmates, we fell in love in college, and we got married a few years after graduation.More than ten years" An Zishan replied in a trance, there seemed to be the woman in front of her, she was looking at herself with a smile, and she smiled and smiled.Tang Rou was silent for a while, remembering what her father had said.An Zishan and that woman, fell in love in their previous lives, got married, and walked together for more than ten years, what a long time this is, whether this person is in his memory can no longer be erased.What if, if that's the case?
Silently, two lines of clear tears slipped from the corners of her eyes, and there were crystal teardrops hanging on her long eyelashes, and her heart was sour and bitter for a while, and she was very aggrieved.Suddenly hearing a faint whimper from the other side, An Zishan's face changed slightly, his brows furrowed and he pondered for a moment and said, "Sister Rou, don't think about it too much, now I really have you alone in my heart."
For me, those are already from the previous life, and now that I have done it all over again, I don't want to live in the pain of the past anymore. ”"I know what you're thinking, although I have the memories of my past life, but in this life, you are the only one who has entered my heart.For me, those fates in my previous life are just those in my previous life, and I just want to make up for some regrets. ”Tang Rou sobbed faintly: "What regrets do you want to make up?"
”An Zishan was stunned, and sighed lightly: "Although in my previous life, I stumbled with her all the way, I didn't feel sorry for her, and she didn't let me down."
It's just that her youth and the first half of her life are wrong, so since I have been reborn" "I want to change her fate, I hope she can be happy and happy in this life, it is enough. ”"That's why I tried my best to make Lianshan's township high school withdraw and merge so much earlier, so that she could study in the county key high school, and be admitted to a key university in the future to change her fate."
As he spoke, An Zishan's eyes darkened slightly, and he said in a muffled voice: "I don't want to do too much, these are enough."
I didn't even think about recognizing her, and even in this life, she and I were just passers-by. ”Tang Rou was stunned, and in an instant, her heart turned a thousand times, gushing out for many years, listening to An Zishan say these words in a low and melancholy tone, she was inexplicably a little sad.It's hard to go so far with an affectionate relationship, but the result is still okay and going their separate ways.It's hard to say that even so, he hasn't forgotten her when he started over in life, and he is trying to change the fate of her previous life, and still hopes that she will be happy and happy.This should be true love, Tang Rou thought.By the way, there is one more thing, Tang Rouqiao's face turned red, and she stammered, "That, little brother Shan, I still have one last question, you, do you have children?"
”An Zishan was stunned, his face was squeezed together, a heart-rending pain rushed from the bottom of his heart, his hands trembled violently, his bones turned white, and his muscles and veins were bulging."
No, no" As if he had exhausted all his strength, An Zishan pursed his white lips tightly and squeezed these three words out of his mouth.In my mind, I remembered the bone-crushing pain that happened that day, it was not that they had never had a child, but after she was ten months pregnant, when the two happily discussed and decided to have a caesarean section the next day.The next morning, I went to the hospital for a check-up, and the fetus in my womb had no heartbeat!
An Zishan endured the overwhelming grief to comfort her, went to run before and after arranging many matters, and when the suppressed pain was unbearable, he could only hide in the stairwell of the hospital and hug his eldest brother and cry.In front of her, he always behaved so strongly, and the memory that was really buried in the depths of his soul never took the initiative to remember, pretending that such a thing had never happened.However, sometimes for so long, after more than a year of rebirth, it was suddenly revealed by Tang Rou!
He never expected that the first half of his life would be so tortuous, and he would encounter so much pain and life and death.Sometimes he also wonders if he has done something evil that angers and resents people, but in fact, from childhood to adulthood, An Zishan has always been well-behaved, growing up at the request of his parents and starting a family under the influence of society.Like all living beings, he lived to his thirties step by step, and he never went out of line.But this fate seems to be unfortunate and bumpy, why is this, An Zishan can't figure it out.As if sensing that An Zishan's mood was wrong, Tang Rou hurriedly asked with concern: "Little Brother Shan, what's wrong with you, Little Brother Shan?"
”Listening to the shouts in his ears, the staggered lights and shadows in front of An Zishan slowly coincided, looking at the river gurgling in the sun, his face showed a sad look, and the voice was lifeless."
I'm fine, Sister Rou, do you have any other questions?"
Tang Rou's eyes moved slightly, her expression darkened slightly, and she said in a low voice: "No, little brother Shan, I'm sorry, I shouldn't have asked you these things."
You're right, it's all in the past, and it's time to let him go with your rebirth. ”"It's all my fault, you, don't think too much, okay?"
An Zishan tried to calm himself down, and said softly: "It's okay, it's not your fault."
It's just that you don't know enough about my past, and you just want to know more about me, I understand, it's okay, Sister Rou. ”"I promise you, when the dust settles, I will tell you a long story, and you will know about me, my past.""
Good" An Zishan sat on the stone by the river in a daze, his expression was in a trance, and his eyes fell on the unwavering flowing water in front of him without focus.It's been almost half an hour since he hung up the call with Tang Rou, and he has been in this state, just like Wangfu Shi.He didn't know why Tang Rou suddenly asked these questions, but in the bottom of his heart, he had expected it.Just like in the previous life, after every new relationship, the girlfriend will always ask the ex, maybe this is a woman's instinct, and subconsciously compare herself with the ex.It seems that this can see the importance of the heart of the man in front of you, and maybe you can swear sovereignty in this way.An Zishan thought that Tang Rou, a young lady from a family, would not be like an ordinary girl, but now she understands that this woman, no matter what her background is, is essentially no different.After a long while, a sudden ringing of a bell woke him up.An Zishan turned his head to look in the direction of the school, and watched the students rushing out of the teaching building suddenly wake up, it turned out that a class had passed.He took a deep breath, sighed and slowly stood up, with a wry smile in his eyes, and said to himself: "Even if the world is not worth it, you can't live up to yourself" His eyes looked at the school in the distance again, and his thoughts flew instantly.Somehow, recently, An Zishan has been dreaming for a long time, and the dreams are all college days in his previous life.Those flowing days are quiet and profound, flowing through the fingertips, flowing into the heart, the tenderness that cannot be dissolved, the heart knot that cannot be untied, flying into the air like catkins.An Zishan thought it was gone, but in fact it was still lingering around him, a certain sentence, a certain moment, a midnight dream, lingering and compassionate, tears wet pillow.In fact, in An Zishan's previous life, there was a girl who he would never forget, and the eternal regret and pain left in his memory, he and Li Fangping had at least a long love, romance and passion, and even a marriage that accompanied each other.And the girl glided like a meteor through his ignorant youth, leaving behind only the burning pain and the lilac-accompanied tomb.In fact, the withdrawal and merger of Lianshan County Township High School, which An Zishan did his best to promote, was not entirely for Li Fangping.It's for the girl who flashed like a meteor in his life, and wanted to change the fate of her soft and delicate body lying in the cold tomb.It's something he's been doing with all his might since he was reborn.An Zishan still remembers that when he took the star to the Longhu office to pretend to be forced in the New Year, he saw her shadow at the door of the Longhu office building, the girl called Quiet, riding a pink bicycle and sprinkling a string of silver bell-like laughter when passing by him.The kind of happiness and excitement that I can't believe is like being in a dream.No matter how many times spring goes from spring to winter, some people can never forget.It's just that some of them are leaving, so cruel that they can't allow you and me to say goodbye.It is precisely this departure that leaves irreparable regret and pain in life.