Rewind the clock to three days ago.On the airship carrying the last wave of supplies to the front line, Lin Xiaoman locked herself in a small cabin, with paper and pen spread out in front of her, holding a letter she had just written, and gently drying the ink on it."
Luo Songxi, my love: from autumn to spring, from school to battlefield, unconsciously, we have walked together for two and a half years.These two and a half years have been the happiest time of my life.I didn't think it would be that long, I thought it would be longer.Anyway, it's finally time to unveil the cup.My dear, if you finally knew that from the very beginning I entered the school, approached you, and made you like me, it was just a task that I accepted to take advantage of you, to manipulate you, what would it be like for you?
But it's true, the first time I stood downstairs in your dorm room, smiling softly and calling your name, that gentleness was fake, that smile was fake.What is true?
That time when you were drunk, I suddenly distanced myself from you and wanted to leave you, and that was true.For I found that I thought I could watch you fall into the trap of my tenderness with the thrill of conquest.But in fact, I fell into a trap with you.You give me warmth, give me ease, and give me a kind of happiness that makes people yearn for it.I found that I was not at all suitable for such a task, and I fell in love with you.So I want to leave you, and I want to end this mission before I can no longer extricate myself.But this is not allowed, I can only continue to play my role, there is no way to exit the stage, only to fall into this play step by step.Do you remember the first letter I wrote to you?
At that time, I said to you that young feelings can be for no reason, and they can be desperate, but we can't foresee the future, and we don't know whether such feelings will become a jar of honey or a sword in the future.I tell you, no one knows if one day we will have a reason to leave each other, whether it's because of someone else, or some damn duty or mission.These were all clumsy excuses, because I knew from the beginning that such a relationship was destined to be only a sharp sword, and I knew from the beginning that we would eventually have a reason to leave each other.Our relationship is destined to be just a dream of our youth, and it will not bloom into a flower that will never wither.We traveled deep into the mountains, and above that meadow, the weather began to get cold as night fell, but the fireflies flew all over the mountains like a carnival.I want to be like these fireflies, able to fly freely, even if I know that life will come to an end when night comes, but at least at that moment, they are free.But I can't, I have a faith that I can't break away, I have a responsibility and a mission that I can't escape.Oh, this damn duty and mission.Every day with you, I live in pain.Can you understand such entanglements and suffering?
Oh, it doesn't matter, I'm not writing this letter to confide in you like that.I just want to tell you that even though it was a mission and a scam from the beginning, I fell in love with you after all.This can be proved by the stars day and night, and by every grass and tree.On that day, you sprinkled the sky full of rain and walked towards me in the sea of flowers, the reason why I am willing to be with you from now on is not that I was moved by this romance, but that I thought clearly, even if that is my task, my task is to stay by your side and be with you, then I will stay by your side and be with you well.No one can ask me to hurt you.If there really is a day - in fact, this day is just around the corner - my organization, my mission, requires me to hurt you, I can't turn my back on my organization, my mission, but I, let alone hurt you.Even if there is any punishment for it, it's the only thing I can do for you.Luo Songxi, my love, when you read this letter, this day must have come, and you must have known the truth of everything.I can't ask for your forgiveness, I just want to tell you one last time, even if everything is fake, but the fact that I love you is very real.Please believe it.Be sure to believe it.Because this is what we leave to each other, and finally and most preciously.Lin Xiaoman. ”Lin Xiaoman carefully folded the letter, trying not to let his tears wet the letter, and then removed the epaulettes on the major general's officer uniform that was about to be sent to Luo Songxi.Yes, Rosongxi has just been awarded the rank of major general by Deputy Speaker Paul Edward, who is temporarily acting as president of the Federation, breaking the record once held by Michael Thaler and becoming the youngest general in the history of the Federation.But what Michael Saylor, what Paul Edward, all fake.She carefully sewed the letter into the shoulder lining of the officer's uniform.………… The sky is spinning, countless scenery is speeding in front of you, Luo Songxi feels like crossing countless mountains and crossing the boundless sea.This feeling is familiar to him, and it is the feeling of experiencing spatial change and displacement in prehistoric ruins.Then he appeared on a field covered with dust, as if he had just risen from the ground.He looked around him—it was much warmer than the Xinta River valley, and it was surrounded by fields full of winter wheat, but the fields had obviously not been tended for a long time, and all the ears of wheat had died in the ground.Luo Songxi already understood Lin Xiaoman's intentions, Lin Xiaoman still had a little emotion after all, and didn't really control him, but used that brooch, not knowing where to send him.He didn't know where he was now, and he could only judge from the climate, roughly to the south of the continent.He didn't know what to do next, he sat in a dead wheat field, not knowing which direction to go.