This is the first time since I went abroad that someone said the word "home" to me in Chinese, and my heart was soft, and I gave the old lady an affectionate hug, and decided to live here well and embrace a new tomorrow.The kind and enthusiastic old lady also helped me introduce me to work, and after sifting through it with Watarase, I chose an old-fashioned photo studio in the next block.The photo gallery has a lot of years at a glance, the decoration is quite retro, and the sense of the photo studio of the last century is quite old when you walk in, both the style and the equipment are quite old.The owner is an old Shanghai gentleman, an omega like me, who moved to Italy with his husband after retirement to live with his daughter who works here.He didn't have a detailed understanding of my work experience, but only let me get started with the equipment a few times, and asked, "Do you have a lot of experience in taking portraits in China?"
”I was stunned for a moment, and shook my head a little nervously: "......
It's not very rich, and I'm better at photographing landscapes. ”"Are you good at capturing people's gestures?""
That's pretty good at that......
I'm not good at it, I've observed a person very carefully, so I'm quite sensitive to the small details of the characters' movements, expressions, and so on. ”"Oh?"
The boss stopped wiping his hand for the camera and looked at me meaningfully, "Didn't you leave some photos for that person?"
”I lowered my eyes: "No, the relationship was too close at that time, and I never thought that we would separate, so I didn't take a photo for him." ”The boss didn't say anything more, explained some precautions and hired me.Before leaving, he sent me and Watarase out of the store, stood on the street at dusk, and said to me softly: "Xin Kan, no matter what happens, for the sake of the little life in your belly, the most important thing is to live hard." ”I thanked him, smiled at Watarase, and slowly set out on my way home in the golden sunset.......
"Throw the gun / Lose it and take the Ricketta cheese rolls." ”On the way, Watarase suddenly stopped and asked me to wait.I was bored looking at the passers-by, in a daze, when a hand suddenly reached out in front of me.I was stunned for a moment, and took a dessert from Watarase's hand: "What did you say?"
”"Ricketta Cheese, every time I see this line from The Godfather, I want to try this dessert."
Watarase held up the same dessert as me in his hand and touched it pretendedly, "Congratulations on starting a new life, cheers." ”My heart was warm and astringent, and I didn't know how to thank him.In fact, when we met, he didn't need to help me like this.Probably because he is a pediatrician and a doctor is benevolent, he can't get used to seeing me as a pregnant husband living on the street and being bullied.I took a bite of the cheese roll and whispered, "Watarase, thank you......"
"You're welcome." ”Watarase glanced at me with a smile, "Of course, it would be better if you could pay more attention to rest in the future."
You haven't forgotten what I told you that your physique gradually deteriorated because you didn't have alpha pheromone appeasement for a long time, and you were stimulated in the early stages of pregnancy.You have to be careful not to get any more irritation. ”He sighed, and touched my head with his free hand: "Hey, as a pediatrician, I really hope that I won't receive your emergency call in the next three days." ”"Bah, three!"
I quickly reached out to cover his mouth, "The Chinese are the most taboo about this, don't say such unlucky words!"
”In fact, I didn't believe in this kind of thing before, but now that I have a child and the baby has suffered a lot with me all the way, I have become very concerned about these things.In addition, the old lady of Chaoshan downstairs especially believes in these, and pulls me to pray for the child twice in three days, and I am about to be brainwashed.Watarase lowered his eyes, obediently pouted three times in a row, apologized to me, said a few nice words, and specially said word by word in broken Chinese: "May your children grow up carefree, live a long and peaceful life, and enjoy endless glory and wealth in their lives." ”I was taken aback by his sudden Chinese sentence: "When did you learn it?"
”Watarase shook his head and didn't answer."
Watarase, in fact, you are quite different from the Japanese I imagined, I used to read some Japanese novels during the Meiji Taisho period, and I always felt that the Japanese were very fond of sadness and autumn, and had a kind of cold and decadent temperament, and you didn't have anything on you, and you loved to joke with people."
I looked down and picked out the chocolate chunks from the cheese roll and threw them into my mouth, chewing and asking, "How can you talk to me as a Chinese like this?"
When you were in Japan before, did someone say that you don't look like a Japanese person?
”Watarase paused and smiled indifferently: "There have been, but it's not an important person, it's all over." ”I am sensitive to his emotional changes, and my heart is not good, so I can't accidentally touch his sadness, right?
quickly changed the subject."
When did you plan to live and work in Italy?
Was it invited?
”Watarase nodded: "Sort of, I participated in a secret research project that has nothing to do with my job, and I can't contact the people here in time in China, so I resigned and came to Europe."
I gave myself a long vacation before I got my new job, and I didn't even bumble into you in Corsica. ”"That's right."
I lowered my head and took a bite of the cheese and muttered. ”Aren't you curious what project I'm working on?
”Watarase was a little surprised, "I thought you'd like to know, when Corsica rescued you, I joked that I worked for the gang/gang, didn't you believe it?"
”"Since it's a secret project, it's definitely not good for me to ask casually, so I won't ask more."
I blushed and was embarrassed to explain, "That's because your strength was so amazing when you came to save me, it didn't look like an ordinary beta, but like a high-quality alpha." ”Speaking of which, I'm a little curious.,Did Watarase regret that he didn't differentiate into alpha?
”Watarase stopped and looked at the father and son in front of the hamburger cart in a daze, until the father left with his son, he slowly came back to his senses and smiled at me: "Alpha is not necessarily good, but seriously, sometimes I wish I could be an omega, if I am an omega and fall in love with alpha, I can also conceive life for him like you." ”The author has something to say: Qin Manxin will make a cameo appearance in Chapter 77 Chapter 71 The autumn wind brings coolness, and the difficult summer will soon pass.I hugged the fan, eager to bury myself in the cold water, while frantically lifting my clothes, while patting my belly to count the days when the child came out.Come out soon, my treasure, your dad wants something cold so much!
In fact, I almost couldn't control my mouth many times, but my physical condition was not optimistic, and in the end I could only obediently listen to the doctor's words and live a relatively healthy life.If I don't unload again, I can't help it!
I scratched my head irritably, turned my head to look at the moon outside the window, and suddenly remembered that tomorrow was the Mid-Autumn Festival.Half a month ago, Watarase came to see me and brought me a box of Suzhou-style mooncakes, saying that my relatives in China sent them to Simon, and Simon mailed them to him and asked him to pass them on to me.I haven't been able to contact my parents for a long time, and I can't even get through to Zhuang Qin's phone, and I don't know if it has something to do with my loss of identity.But now they send me mooncakes, at least it reassures me, and I feel a lot of comfort.I sighed helplessly, when the child is older and returns to China in the future, the first thing I will do is to go to the relevant ministry/door to restore my identity, and I can no longer be a three-nil person.The first time I spent such an important festival in a foreign country, I felt an inexplicable sourness in my heart, and I touched my stomach: "Hey, fortunately, I have you with me, and I don't have half of my relatives around me." ”With my back to the moonlight, I turned over and hugged the cool quilt, remembering the person who had not dared to inquire about him for a long time.Is Qin Yuan okay?
More than half a year later, is he still looking for me?
Has he come out of my "death"?
He's probably relieved and has let me go.Otherwise, what's the use of always worrying about a "dead person"?
I don't know if he and his current partner have a good relationship, will he or she occasionally mention to him or her that he once had a small hair that grew up together, and the two have been together for more than 20 years, but the road to the future can no longer go together.I sighed deeply, lay back on my stomach with my stomach in my hands, closed my eyes, and slowly fell asleep.......
"Wake up, your morning, four dollars five, remember to return my meal card." ”I got up from my school desk, rubbed my eyes in a daze, and looked up at the wall clock -!
I almost fell asleep during the whole big recess!"
Didn't I tell you to wake me up when you came back from?
It's late, and in the next chemistry class, I haven't memorized the periodic table yet. ”I complained and took the math workbook at a right angle to slap Qin Yuan, and Qin Yuan disregarded a piece of meat muffin and handed it to my mouth: "Then didn't I go to buy you breakfast?"
If you don't go to the commissary at the east gate, you can see how many people line up to buy things every day. ”I didn't think about it, I bit it, and while chewing, I went to the drawer to flip through the chemistry book, and the afterglow slid it on the table, which became even more angry: "How is it coconut bread!"
You know I don't eat coconut flour!
”Qin Yuan was stunned: "Why don't you eat coconut flour?"
Aren't you your favorite to eat coconut flour?
What's wrong with you today?
”My eyes suddenly blurred, hazy and covered with a layer, and I couldn't see Qin Yuan's face clearly in an instant.I shouted in a panic, "......
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Qin Yuan?
”Obviously, Qin Yuan's person was right in front of me, but his voice seemed to be so far away from me, and he heard it ethereal, not really intangible."
Also, how can you not memorize the periodic table of chemical elements, aren't you a representative of the chemistry class?
Last week, you also took the first place in the quiz. ”I slammed into my seat, unable to move, and my back was chilling.Not me.The person Qin Yuan is talking to now is not me.I don't eat coconut flour, my chemistry grades are extremely poor, and when I was studying, Qin Yuan never ran errands for me to buy breakfast.Qin Yuan is not facing me, so who is it?
Who is replacing me?"
What the hell is wrong with you?"
Qin Yuan, who couldn't see his face clearly, suddenly stretched out his hand and gently stroked my face. ”——XX。
”My sensory system suddenly lost consciousness, I couldn't hear the last name he uttered, and it was pitch black.The floor suddenly collapsed, and I fell out of my chair and kept sagging down.I shouted Qin Yuan's name, but no one came to save me, and I struggled to grab the leg of the desk suspended in mid-air, and I could never hold on.I kicked hard in the air, trying to get myself back up.As a result, this kick directly woke me up.I looked at the sunlight that poured into the room and the already bright room, and I gasped for breath before I sat up from the bed with difficulty.Hiss – broken, leg cramps.I looked at the time and made sure I wouldn't cause trouble to my neighbors, so I called the old lady downstairs."
Hey, Guan Po, I'm Xin Mandarin.My leg cramps again, can you come up and help me, I'll move to the door and wait for you to open the door......
"I had nothing to do while waiting for the old lady on the old iron door, so I simply started to stay."
Last night, I actually dreamed of Qin Yuan for the first time in a long time.In my dream, he and I were both teenagers, only fifteen or sixteen years old.I don't know if it was because I thought of him before I went to bed last night that he broke into my dreams in the middle of the night.Hmph, really, if you want me to dream of you, at least let me have a good dream, and leave some good memories for each other, it's so annoying to disturb people's precious sleep time for no reason."
Xiao Xin, are you okay?"
“…… Yes?
Ah, I'm fine. ”The old lady suddenly called me back to her senses, I leaned on the wall with one foot to open the door for her, and smirked twice, "Hehe, it's just that my leg hurts a little......
The old lady hurriedly helped me back to the bed and sat down, skillfully helping me rub my legs.Their ancestors have been doing catering for generations, and they are all very skillful.The old lady said while helping me stretch it: "By the way, Xiao Xin, today is the Mid-Autumn Festival, are you still going to the photo studio to help?"
”I shook my head: "I haven't been there for a few days, and the boss's daughter recently got engaged and gave me three days off." ”The old lady laughed when she heard this: "That's great, my youngest son flew from his hometown to accompany us for the holiday, and you can eat with us today."
The mooncakes we eat during the Mid-Autumn Festival are also different from other places, like egg yolk crisp, you are from the north, I don't know if you have eaten it?
Your uncle made a lot of stuffing today, all of which are stuffing you can eat, I'll bring you some later-ohoh yes, your aunt and I are going to worship the moon girl tonight, you must not have seen it, come and see it at night. ”I listened to the old lady babbling and reciting it, and my heart warmed.I know that she is an old man with a kind heart, and seeing me alone outside, it looks even more pitiful during the New Year's holidays, so she wants me to join their big family."
Hmmm!
I will definitely go!
”However, before the moon viewing dinner in the evening, Watarase suddenly visited.I opened the door to him in surprise: "Watarase?
What are you doing here?
”If I'm not mistaken, Watarase hasn't been on / My house for a while.In addition to his own job, the affairs of secret research projects are also very cumbersome.Despite this, he would take the time to visit me, check on me regularly, inject nutrient solutions and pheromone-stabilizing potions.Watarase flashed into the house, cautiously glanced out of the house, opened the door softly, and looked at me with a serious expression: "Xin Tang, is there anyone in the country who knows about your affairs here, except for your parents and the friend who sent you to Nanfa?"
”I saw that his expression was solemn, and suddenly he became serious, and shook his head: "No, I had an accident in China at that time and almost died, and later contacted my parents and Zhuang Qin, and only they knew that I was safe and sound abroad. ”I paused, pondered his expression, and asked thoughtfully, "You are in such a hurry to find me, what happened?"
”Zhuang Qin paced back and forth, sighed tangledly, and finally gritted his teeth, took out a letter from the inner pocket of his coat, and handed it to me."
Do you know this sender?"
With a bad feeling in my heart, I took the envelope suspiciously, and printed my name on the front recipient in Chinese and English.People who know me I live in Italy don't usually contact me like this, what's inside this envelope?
It can't be a threat letter, right......
Could it be that I was hated by those serpents in the southwest of my escape?
This couldn't be, at that time I was just a random target they chose to rob/rob/extort in an attempt to kidnap/sell, they knew how to identify me as an omega through pheromones, and they didn't know what my true identity was.Could it be that my original plan to trade kinship camouflage improvised devices didn't go smoothly, and the other party thought I had seen through their trafficking/human trafficking scheme, so they tracked me down?
This is even more impossible, not to mention that I contacted them in a dark Internet café at the time, and even the pseudonym I used for my name, how could they find me?
I swallowed nervously and looked up at Watarase.Watarase nodded in encouragement and motioned for me to open.I gently lifted the fire paint from the seal and opened the envelope, where a creamy yellow letter lay quietly.I carefully pulled it out and spread it out.The moment the contents of the letter came into view, my eyes widened instantly, and I handed the letter in front of me, almost exclaiming.Watarase frowned: "What's the matter, is it someone you know?"
”I clutched the letter in my hand, my hands trembled, and after only a cursory glance, I clenched it and hung it to my side.I took a deep breath and spoke with difficulty, my voice hoarse: "I know ......"
Watarase wondered: "You......
Don't look for the content of the letter to confirm?
”I shook my head and replied weakly, "......
No, it's someone I know well, and I know his handwriting. ”Not only did I know his handwriting, but I also knew his habits of words, and which idioms he used to write in the wrong order of strokes.I didn't dare to read the contents of the letter, and I gasped, and my heart throbbed.Qin Yuan knew that I was still alive.What did he write to me for?
Do you tell him what he misses, or do you rebuke me for my ruthlessness?
He refused to call, but chose to send such a warm letter, probably angry and annoyed, very disappointed in me, feeling that there was really nothing more to talk to me, and that it was important to get the matter resolved.For example, a few casual greetings, and then write some words copied from dog blood novels, such as "The child is born and handed it over to me, you are not qualified to raise him, I will find a lawyer to fight for the custody of the child."
But this seemingly joking thought only flashed through my mind for a moment, but it made me tremble.These lines may not be painful to him, but each one of them has appeared in my dreams and kept me awake at night.The author has something to say: Yuma Watarase, the best actor in this article.Chapter 78 Chapter 72 I had already calculated that as long as I made Qin Yuan believe that I was gone, he would definitely not think that there was a child between me and him.But if he now has the ability to find out that I'm still alive, and even sent letters to people around me, it's entirely possible that he already knows that I'm pregnant and running away."
I ......," I shoved the paper back into the envelope, clearing my throat and squeezing out an ugly smile at Watarase, "where did you get this letter?"
My alpha seems to already know I'm here. ”"When the office received the mail, I thought it was a medical record from the patient's family."
Watarase was stunned for a moment, and he didn't know what to reply to me for a while, so he had to take the envelope from my hand and look back and forth, and only after a while did he ask, "Are you really sure it's him?"
Don't you need to confirm again, did you see the sender's name?
In case someone pretends to be him and wants to threaten ......"
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"No. ”I shook my head, "I don't have any enemies in the country, it's a pure accident that I will run out of the country, and the only group of people who have hurt me will not come to me so idlely, I should be just a random target."
Coupled with the fact that we have known each other for more than 20 years, I can make out his handwriting at a glance, and there is no mistake. ”Watarase reached out and put his hand on my shoulder, patted me lightly, and comforted: "Xin Tang, I don't know what happened to you in China, but if you meet someone who is plotting against me, be sure to tell me."
Although I was just an ordinary beta, I used to be a member of the kendo club when I was in school, and I was good enough to protect the omega. ”After that, he glanced down at the letter again, and was filled with righteous indignation: "I think it's better to take a closer look at the content of the letter, and see what your alpha said in the letter, is it using anything as a bargaining chip to blackmail you into returning to China?"
If that's the case, you must not go back, if you don't like him, he forcibly marks you as illegal, and after you go back, you will only be under his house arrest until you give birth, you must not listen to him and go back with him.You keep the evidence and wait for the child to be born and return to China, which is a powerful legal weapon that you can accuse him of illegal marking. ”I didn't expect Watarase to have a richer imagination than me.I smiled bitterly and comforted him: "Well, but it doesn't matter, my alpha is a good law-abiding citizen and won't do anything out of the ordinary, don't worry."
And it was my own willingness to mark the pregnancy/conception at the beginning, and it was my own choice for me to leave him, we can't be partners, at least we can be friends, but I need time to adjust my psychology, in case he cares that I want a child or something, I can also clean up my mood and discuss these issues with him. ”"You've been marked by him, can you still be friends again?"
Watarase was shocked when he heard this."
Marking is both a sacred ritual, and although many people go to the hospital to wash the mark nowadays, I personally strongly disagree with this practice.I think partners should always be together once they are fully marked, and if they can't, they will never be together.If it were me, I would never have been able to watch him with others and send blessings. ”Watarase's remarks are very close to the traditional argument that AOs should conclude an eternal relationship, but he is even more extreme on a conservative basis.When he mentioned this, he suddenly reminded me that Qin Yuan had also said something similar.When we broke up, he grabbed me and asked me if I still had a heart, but if I loved him, I wouldn't want to be friends again, and he couldn't be friends with me again.I was angry and scared at the same time, angry that he questioned my feelings for him for so many years, but at the same time I was afraid that I would lose my love and this precious friendship.Twenty years, how many twenty years are there in life?
I am not willing to give up love and friendship, if my love with Qin Yuan will definitely stop, then of course I hope that the friendship between us can last forever.That's why I said to him, let's be friends again.Now that I think about it, it's ironic, Qin Yuan and I kiss when we should kiss, we go to bed/bed, and we don't do anything less between couples, how can we be friends in such a situation?
Don't talk about Qin Yuan, I can't do it myself.From the night of Christmas Eve, to the later trip to Yunnan alone, at a certain moment, I suddenly realized that I could not treat Qin Yuan as an ordinary friend at all.Would a normal person put himself in the bed of an ordinary friend, let him mark himself completely, and insist on giving birth to a child after conception?"
It seems that both of us are old-fashioned enough to figure it out."
I sighed and whispered, "You're right, you can't be friends anymore."
I just knew I was going to run like this, I didn't want to face him, I was afraid that I would have to face everything around him in the future, so I ran away. ”"Don't run away, Xin Tang, running away will only make you more miserable."
Watarase shoved the envelope back into my hand, "Look at it, face him bravely." ”I stared at the fiery lacquer above me in a daze, and was silent for a moment, before finally making up my mind to open the letter.Unexpectedly, Qin Yuan didn't say anything accusing me in the letter, there was not much turmoil between the lines, he only greeted me, just like he made a message call to my mobile phone after breaking up, in an extraordinarily calm tone.It seems that Qin Yuan really let me go.I sniffed and looked down.Qin Yuan did not explain in the letter how he learned that I was still alive, but he told me clearly that he knew that I was pregnant with his child.He regretted the impulsive mark and was willing to let the child follow me in the future.But in any case, the child has half of his genes, and he hopes to have the opportunity to visit the child in the future."
Xin Tang, I will always keep in correspondence with you, if you wish, I hope you will contact me before the due date, I want to witness his birth with you.No matter what happens, I will always be your friend if you want to, please don't push me away.I wish you all the best in Italy, and I hope you return home as soon as possible and return to your father. ”Payment, Qin Yuan.After reading the last word of the letter, I suddenly felt enlightened and breathed a long sigh of relief.It turned out that letting Qin Yuan know everything didn't seem to be as complicated and difficult as I thought in my heart, and the consequences were far less terrible than I imagined.Although his warm tone made me a little disappointed, it was also in line with his attitude towards me after he was relieved, and the correct way to handle the relationship with me.Before, I didn't dare to read the contents of the letter carefully, but now I want to thank Qin Yuan for writing such a letter to me.He didn't mention half a word, but the whole thing seemed to appear in front of my eyes, stretched out his hand to me, and comforted me as a friend for many years - I let go, you let go too, let's not be stuck in the past, let's all move forward.I looked at his illusory figure and nodded in agreement."
How, what does the letter say?
Threatened you?
”Watarase looked at me nervously.I smiled at him: "It's nothing, he said that when I have a baby, he will raise a glass with me to celebrate." ”Watarase was stunned for a moment, and then said in surprise: "Really!
That's not great, you see, don't run away from it, face it bravely, sometimes things don't go as bad as you think.If you don't want to have anything to do with him anymore, then you can stay in Italy and live well with your children. ”I put this meaningful letter away carefully, and my mood was extraordinarily bright.Except for the leg cramps in the morning, what happened today is a good thing, and it coincides with the holidays, so I was in a good mood.Now that Qin Yuan's letter has swept away the haze in my heart and driven away my anxiety for months, my heart is even happier.I looked up at the full moon outside the window, and remembered the last sentence of the letter, and suddenly felt very worried."
Watarase, do you know what day it is?"
Watarase chuckled: "I know, the Mid-Autumn Festival, the day when Chang'e runs to the moon."
Your Chinese district is so lively tonight, when I came up just now, I saw several fresh faces coming to the old lady's house downstairs, and the five-year-old boy from his family stuffed me with a box of egg yolk filled desserts, which didn't look like mooncakes. ”As he spoke, he put down the handbag he was carrying when he entered the door, and handed me the egg yolk crisp in the transparent food box: "Here, can we eat together?"
”I took one from his hand and took a bite into it, it was crispy on the outside and tender on the inside, sweet and delicious, and the full egg yolk was salty and fragrant and not greasy.I chewed as I walked to the window and stopped to look down.The neighborhood is lit up with lights, and the colored paper that falls during the dragon and lion dances and firecrackers in the afternoon has not yet had time to be cleaned.Many overseas Chinese who have stayed abroad for many years are actually not very specific about what should be done for each traditional festival.Far away in a foreign country, most of the festive festivals simply symbolize longing and reunion in their eyes, and they are the days that make them think about a lot.Hey, it's getting colder, and the wind is blowing and my eyes are red.I leaned on the edge of the window and sniffed, lowered my eyes to look at the half-bitten egg yolk crisp, and slowly spoke: "Watarase, I'm a little homesick." ”Watarase was silent and didn't reply, and I turned my head to look at him, and found that he had a facial tissue wrapped in his hand, and he was re-stacking the egg yolk crisps in the food box one by one.What kind of quirk is this?
I was puzzled, and called him again, and he raised his head: "......
Ah, you just said you were homesick?
”He closed the lid of the food box, crumpled the tissue and threw it into the trash, and asked, "Since the person you want to escape from already knows about your existence and wants to meet you, do you plan to return to China?"
”Return?
This is indeed a problem.I also want to go back, but I don't know my identity now, and it is very troublesome to return to China.Besides, it's not too long before my due date comes, so I think I'd better wait until I give birth to my baby."
Not for the time being, I don't think there's anything wrong with staying here, even though life is harder......
I don't mess around until the baby is born. ”Watarase nodded in agreement: "It's right to do this, you have poor physical fitness and unstable pheromones, so it's better not to run around."
Oh yes, and this—" he said, suddenly turning and pulling out the portable medical bag he was carrying from his handbag, and pulling out a familiar injection to enhance the stability of the omega pheromone.I almost forgot that today is another day when I should take nutritional regulators.The author has something to say: Mr.
Qin: People think about their wives at home, and the pot falls from the sky.Chapter 79 Chapter 73 "Doctor, it's been more than half a month past the due date, why is there still no movement at all?"
”In mid-October, I was admitted to the hospital for a severe pheromone disorder, and I was ready to go to the hospital for delivery, but my stomach did not move.I had a prenatal check-up at a hospital that didn't require identification, and although it wasn't formal, at least the results weren't wrong.The doctor told me that due to the early pregnancy and the lack of alpha pheromone reassurance, the baby may be overripe, coupled with the aggravation of my pheromone disorder, and wanted me to be hospitalized for observation, just in case.But I pinched my fingers and counted all my savings, and if I were to be admitted to the hospital now without knowing when I would be able to give birth, it would be far from enough money for my expenses.I gritted my teeth and made another transatlantic call home, asking if my dad could transfer me some money to help me through this difficult time — but I still couldn't get in touch with them.This has been going on since I came to Italy.Do they see it as an unfamiliar foreign number and are reluctant to answer the phone?
After thinking about it, I dialed the new contact information mentioned by Qin Yuan in the letter, but I also went directly to the voice message many times.I've tried to dial a few times before, and after each message, he'll text me back and tell me that it's not convenient for him to answer my call.I guess he probably had something he couldn't say that prevented him from talking to me directly, and had to contact me via text.For example, I can't let the subject know that he still has contact with me or something, after all, although he and I are only friends now, we are also ex, and the threat is too great.If he knows that I have a relationship with him and am ready to have a child, he will probably be so angry that he will be angry.Ding – another text message reply."
Okay, I'll ask someone to transfer money to you, how much do you need?"
Don't worry, I'll take care of this side as soon as possible, and I'll let you go through such a dangerous moment alone. ”Qin Yuan still didn't answer my call, and still chose to reply to my message after listening to my voice message.Actually, I vaguely felt that something was not right, but at this time, the trivial matters about production had taken over my mind, and I didn't have time to think about it at all.Of course, the phrase "I won't let you go through such a dangerous moment alone" also reassures me a lot.At the very least, it makes me feel that I am not alone in worrying about this impending life, and that the other father of the child is also worried about the distant country, and is about to cross the ocean for him to witness his birth.The roof leak happened to rain overnight, and when it was tight, I suddenly lost my job.The daughter of the photo studio owner moved to another city with her husband, and the old couple moved with them.I smiled bitterly to myself, thinking, yes, I don't need to take maternity leave now, and I will be unemployed and waiting for childbirth.When I think that after the birth of a child, I will also need a lot of expenses, and I will have to spend money everywhere, and my head will be ten big.No, I have to find a way to make money, the child is what I insist on giving birth to, I have to take responsibility, in case Qin Yuan likes the child so much when he sees it, and wants to rob it, he even only needs to use "Xin Tang currently does not have the conditions for children" as a reason to take the child away.One day in late October 2014, I asked my boss to quit and go home after finishing a job as a cashier at a fruit store near my neighborhood.