This kind of tranquility and calm made Zhu Yingshuang feel a strange feeling in her heart, and she felt that she had no strength in her body."
Dong Ming," Zhu Yingshuang looked at the shadows of the two of them attentively, pulling up a long silhouette under the dim street lamp, "Do you know why I asked you out in the first place?"
”Xu Dongming shook his head, in his previous life, he was still ignorant and young, and he didn't think about it so much, and now he feels a little strange when he thinks about it.He didn't even wake up at that time, he was just an ordinary student, why Zhu Yingshuang just fell in love with him, which he still can't figure out.Zhu Yingshuang leaned on Xu Dongming's back, feeling the temperature coming from his back, feeling very peaceful, she was willing to turn this moment into eternity.If Xu Dongming could carry her all the time, no matter where she went, she would be willing."
Actually, there is one thing I have never mentioned to you."
Zhu Yingshuang said in a low voice."
When I woke up that morning, I found that there were a lot of people gathered at the door of my grandmother's room, and my father and mother were crying.""
I don't know how the funeral passed, it felt like a chaotic dream......"
Zhu Yingshuang said silently.Xu Dongming was also silent, when he was with Zhu Yingshuang in his previous life, he had never heard Zhu Yingshuang say about this, and said: "No one can force ...... of birth, old age, sickness and death" "You don't have to comfort me." ”Zhu Yingshuang shook her head lightly and whispered: "Every time I go home, I feel that my grandmother is still there.She just sat on the edge of the table, wearing reading glasses and knitting her never-ending sweater.Then she kindly gave me canned fruit, I was so old, she thought I was just like a little girl and would be happy as long as I got a snack. ”"But when I came back to my senses, I realized that the funeral was real, but I don't know why, every time I came home, I felt that my grandmother was still there."
Zhu Yingshuang muttered, her voice low.Xu Dong was silent, he knew that Zhu Yingshuang was so grief that he couldn't react, and he still refused to accept this matter in his heart, so he had this illusion.Xu Dongming didn't know how to comfort Zhu Yingshuang, did he let him say something about the dead to rest in peace, and the living to mourn these empty words.Zhu Yingshuang laughed at herself again and whispered: "Grandma used to let me learn how to knit sweaters."
But my mother didn't let me, saying that I was the Tianjiao of the Zhu family, and there was no need to waste time on this kind of thing.After the funeral, I saw my grandmother's unfinished sweater on the table, and I thought I'd finish knitting it, so maybe she would be happier.But the next day, I found that the sweater was gone, not only the sweater was gone, but anything related to my grandmother had been cleaned out. ”"I asked my father and mother what was going on, and they said something about the hurt of seeing things, and some of them were worried that I wouldn't be able to get out of the shadows.""
No matter how much I tried to get my sweater back, my mother wouldn't give it to me, and I ran away from home in a fit of rage.You must be surprised that something as childish as running away from home could happen to me. ”Zhu Yingshuang said self-deprecatingly."
After leaving Zhu's house, I didn't know where to go, I didn't want to go to school, I just walked aimlessly, and then I came to the park.Looking at the bustle in the park, I realized at this time that the grandmother who loved me the most was no longer there, why did she leave without even saying a word.It was only then that I finally realized that the pain of losing a loved one was actually like this. ”"I was crying in the park at that time, and you were right next to me, and you said that you were most afraid of women crying, so you told jokes to tease me."
Zhu Yingshuang smiled."
And after that, I was wondering if I wanted to thank you, and I happened to have two movie tickets in my hand, so I called you out to watch a movie together.""
When I left the cinema, I didn't know why, I felt very irritable, and I understood at that time, after watching this movie, I didn't seem to have any reason to call you out again.But when I was with you, I had a very relaxed and peaceful feeling, and when you weren't around, I would think of you from time to time, and at that time I realized that I probably liked you.But I don't really understand this feeling, and I don't know if you have feelings for me too.So in the end, the movie ends, the song ends, and after you walk out of the movie theater, I will let you confess to me first.I thought at the time, if you really confess, it means that you have the same feelings in your heart as me, and I will definitely agree, so I can have a reason to see you in the future. ”Zhu Yingshuang smiled with memories and said softly.Xu Dongming didn't expect this to happen, he didn't expect that he just casually told a joke in the park, which would cause so many things.Zhu Yingshuang was silent for a while, and muttered: "The more I get along with you, the more I find that although you are good to me, you are really a little indifferent to others."
Although there is nothing unforgettable between us, it doesn't stop me from liking you, I really enjoy the feeling of being with you.I remember when I was a child, I played the role of a wife with my playmates......
I don't know if I'll be a good wife, but I think if you're willing to nod and agree to the engagement, I won't know anything, but I can still do things like thoughtfulness and companionship. ”"After we got engaged privately, I was still thinking about when I could get a marriage certificate, I really wanted to be your wife, but then my family found out about it.And there are suddenly a lot of your gossip in Starfall City, and now that I think about it, I'm afraid that those gossips are all targeted because of my relationship, and the funny thing is that I really believe it. ”Zhu Yingshuang's voice fell.Xu Dongming silently walked on the deserted street with Zhu Yingshuang on his back, just listening to her quietly.In his previous life, he just felt that Zhu Yingshuang's cold arrogance was another kind of eccentricity, and it wasn't until now that she whispered softly that Xu Dongming understood her feelings for herself in her heart."
Dong Ming, do you know, when so many people came to the Zhu family to take me back, if you are willing to explain to me about those photos, you are willing to say even a word of salvation when I am taken away by my mother.I'll stay, if my mother won't let me be with you, then we'll hide to the ends of the earth......"
But you didn't say a word, and it didn't matter if I went or stayed.Now that I think about it, we are probably all fools, and we are not so sure about the original feelings, and we have no intention of actively defending this relationship. ”"Since the day I was brought back to Zhu's house, I have never gone to anything related to you, and I feel that time may dilute everything, not to mention that there is nothing unforgettable between us......
"But then I understood.""
Inside that little pie, you are hiding the secret that I secreted.""
And when I fell into a coma, you didn't hesitate to use your own blood to wake me up, but you didn't say anything.""
I have heard that whales are lonely, and their destination is the silent and deep sea.If I hadn't discovered these secrets, I'm afraid you would have really just left and lost you. ”"For the past three months, I have been at a loss all the time, thinking about whether I will really lose you if I never see you again.Just like when my grandmother left me, and you left me in the end, I realized how important you were to me. ”When Zhu Yingshuang said this, she hugged Xu Dongming's neck tightly, as if she was afraid of losing something."
I understand, the reason why I want to see you again is to say these words in my heart to you, if you don't like me, then I will disappear into your world, anyway, I will just eat the consequences......"
"Although our marriage contract has been canceled by the Zhu family and the Xu family, I haven't talked to you about it myself, and the marriage contract still exists for me."
In my heart, you are the most affectionate and irreplaceable, I am willing to be by your side for the rest of my life, forever and ever, but I don't know if you are still willing to open your heart and accept me again......"
Zhu Yingshuang whispered, her face flushed, and she couldn't wait to find a crack in the ground to get into.She didn't expect that she could really say such embarrassing love words.()