Chapter 35 - When Shen Dayye returned to her dormitory, a cool breeze rose at the end of the night.The autumn wind swept through the bushes, and the soft lamp of her bedroom was on—but the attic was out.Shen Dayye got out of the car with the bag of snacks and politely said goodbye to Chen Xiaodao, who gave her a ride.Chen Xiaozhi suddenly said: "There is no attendance in the office. ”Shen Dayye pressed down the corners of her skirt that was blown away by the wind, and responded gently: "I know." ”"I mean," Professor Chen said, holding the steering wheel hoarsely, "......
You don't have to walk so late every day. ”Shen Dayye thought for a moment and said seriously: "It's my habit to go late. ”"When I was in China," Shen Dayye lifted the bag from the passenger seat, held on to the car door and said, "No, I've been used to leaving around eleven o'clock since I was studying together."
Because it is more convenient to coordinate the instruments when it is late, and I am more efficient at night. ”Chen Xiaozhi stared at the steering wheel and didn't say a word.Shen Dayye said gently: "So this has nothing to do with you." ”"-I've always liked to experiment at night," she said earnestly, "and to be honest, your routine is quite similar to mine......
I'll just go back and buy a bike and ride it. ”Chen Xiaoyi held the steering wheel without saying a word, and the force he used in his hands was so great that even the green tendons were bulging.He's annoying me, Shen Tianye thought like an electric shock.Then, in the night wind of California, Shen Dayye shouted to Chen Xiaozhi: "Thank you—thank you for sending me here!"
Thank you, teacher!
”Then Shen Dayye didn't dare to look at Chen Xiaozhi's face, carried the bag of snacks, slammed the car door, and ran back to the dormitory quickly....... - Shen Dayye really likes to stay alone in the office and stay in the laboratory to do experiments.To be precise, there are many researchers who like to do this, saying that they feel like the masters of the world, and they are free to do anything.Actually, it is.The late-night laboratory was empty, with no teachers, no juniors and sisters, no chores and reimbursement □□ that followed, only humming instruments and lit computer screens.In the physics building, only the lonely Senior Sister Shen sat on the ground with her knees hugged.Freely and alone, she watched the preset temperature on the instrument, waiting for the wafer coating to finish.-- Like the master of this desolate world.
-When Shen Dayye pushed open her attic door, the wind creaked the window glass.The whole room was very quiet, and Shen Dayye stepped on the wooden bar with his bare feet, making a slight 'squeak'.
@无限好文, she took out her mobile phone in Jinjiang Literature City, and the mobile phone lit up slightly in the dark, and then she saw the WeChat sent by her mother: "Has the girl come to the dormitory?"
”Shen Dayye laughed and replied to his mother's WeChat in the dark: "It's here." ”Then Shen Dayye immediately smiled and dialed a FaceTime for his mother.Her mother's end was fast.Shen Dayye's side hasn't turned on the lights yet, the camera is pitch black, only to see Shen's mother seems to be sitting in the office, she is wearing a striped shirt, it seems that she has just permed her hair, and the Beijing sun is shining behind her mother.Mother Shen was stunned: "Baby?
Broken camera?
”In the dark, Shen Dayye said warmly: "No, the lights haven't been turned on yet." ”As she spoke, she fumbled for the light switch.Shen Dayye had two light switches in this room, one at the door and the other at the head of her bed.Shen Dayye touched the switch at the head of the bed, and unconsciously looked out of the window - it was empty, only a long street with street lights on in the dark night.Chen Xiaozhi's car, even the shadow disappeared without a trace.-- Just like those previous nights.Twenty-five-year-old Chen Xiaozhi didn't stop for a moment after she got out of the car, and immediately drove away.…… What would he think?
A thought suddenly popped into Shen Dayye's mind.When he let Shen Dayye get out of the car, would it be as if he had gotten rid of an annoying, strange-smelling plaster?
Shen Dayye didn't dare to think about it, and shook his head desperately.The windows reflect the night sky and the long lights, reflecting the long empty street that the night breeze blows.In her little headphones, her mother said, "It's just that Mom is fine in the morning, let's talk to you." ”Shen Dayye endured his nasal voice and whispered, his fingers trembled slightly, and he snapped the light on.
-In an instant, a warm yellow light filled her little attic.Within three weeks of coming to California, she had covered the attic walls with posters and little star stickers, and the shelves were filled with books and knick-knacks, including three pendulum instruments alone.Shen Dayye carefully sat on the soft carpet of flowers, holding up his mobile phone, and videotaped with his mother.On the screen of her mobile phone, Shen's mother, who was thousands of miles away, asked with concern: "Baby, are you tired these days?"
”Shen Dayye tried hard to pull out a smile and said to his mother: "I haven't had anything to do these days, I'm not too busy." ”"It's good not to be busy," Shen's mother laughed, "Did you find someone to send you back to the dormitory at night?"
”Shen Tianye thought about it and felt that this matter could not happen, so he shook his head lightly: "No."
I'll just go buy a bike next week. ”Shen's mother said suddenly: "-I want to find it." ”Shen Dayye was slightly stunned when he heard this."
I'm looking for it."
Mother Shen's soft eyebrows and eyes were blurred by the morning light, she held up her mobile phone, and said softly: "Girls, sometimes you don't have to be so independent.When my mother was in college, someone always sent her home. ”Shen Dayye was dumbfounded: "......
Huh?
”Shen's mother smiled and said, "Don't you know how many boyfriends your mother has talked to?"
”Shen Dayye burst out laughing."
Mom talked a lot about it when she was in college," Shen's mother said with a smile: "It's your dad who has no emotional experience at all, which makes Mom feel very guilty." ”Shen Dayye laughed: "You always say that your father seems to be so innocent." ”Hua Yan smiled: "-Your father is quite innocent." ”"The first time I met your dad was in a Boston café," her mother gently recalled, "and he sat there and chatted with his friends about □□ and math, and the sun was so good that when I saw him, I thought he was so handsome, and I was going to buy him coffee." ”Shen Dayye's eyes were crooked with a smile: "Then did you buy it for him?"
”@无限好文, her mother thought about it in Jinjiang Literature City, and said nostalgically: "-Cappuccino, add a concentrated and a syrup." ”The wind was blowing outside the window, like it was going to rain again.It was a rare time for their mother and daughter to relax and chat.However, in the next second, Shen's mother hated iron and said: "If you have half of your mother's courage, can you not have a boyfriend until now?"
Yes?
Girl?
”Shen Dayye: "............"
"You have to find someone to rely on." ”Mother Shen sighed: "Ye Ye, why are you always unwilling to rely on others?"
”Shen Dayye didn't know what to say—but twenty-five years of life experience had taught her at least one thing: it was best to pretend to be dead at this time.Zhang Zhen, and even her group of junior sisters are there, if a person's mother says this, it is often followed by three or more blind dates.However, in the next second, Shen's mother suddenly said abruptly: "......
Ye Ye, you used to really rely on that boy. ”Shen Dayye was stunned."
It's the boy you showed me when I was in junior high school," Shen's mother's voice came from the earphones: "......
The one who saved you and got a knife, your squad leader. ”"--That kid's name is Chen Xiaozhi, right?"
Mother Shen said, laughing softly: "Mom still remembers that you relied on him very much at that time, relying on that boy for everything, he always seemed to be very annoyed with you, but every time he sent you home, he sent it downstairs, and he would watch the light in the room turn on before leaving." ”Shen Daye: "......"
Shen Dayye thought of the twenty-five-year-old Chen Xiaozhi, and suddenly felt a little funny, and asked sourly: "......
The front may be true, but the back one, you made it up, right?
”"Huh?"
Shen's mother laughed and said, "What are you doing making up stories, can't my mother see it from the balcony?"
The boy waits downstairs after sending you upstairs, and he won't come home until you enter the house and turn on the light. ”Shen Dayye was silent for a moment and said quietly, "......
It was all ten years ago," she shook her head self-deprecatingly, "and everything is gone." ”Shen's mother: "Really?
Mom always thinks you're comparing yourself to what he does to you, your dad to me, and other boys. ”Shen Dayye sat on the carpet and said reluctantly, "......
No, it's never been like this. ”Hua Yan sighed: "Ever since my mother met my father, your father drove his 1974 broken Ford that he bought from his part-time job to and from school every day, rain or shine, for so many years......
Ye Ye, you should remember that broken Ford, right?
”"Twenty-five years ago, Mom and Dad brought you back from the hospital, and it was the same car that I drove.""
Your father was really poor at that time," Shen's mother smiled lightly and said, "We drove that broken Ford for more than 20 years, and it was almost ten years ...... when we drove it" -- that was indeed nearly ten years.Shen Dayye even felt sour at the tip of his nose.She hummed hoarsely, remembering the rusty, sky-blue Ford Lincoln.The car was always parked in the garage of the Shen family, the windows would shake when the wind blew, the spark plugs were not in good contact, and it was very difficult to ignite.And Xiao Yuba will always lie on the car window, take a breath, and then draw a small smiley face on the fog.- 'Daddy,' Twenty years ago, Xiao Yuye lay on his little suitcase with a milky voice and asked, "Are you going to send me to see grandma?"
’Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye shook his head quickly, letting the memories stay there, not daring to see his father's face in his memory.Then there was a ga sound in her earphones, and it was Shen's mother who put her phone on the desk.Shen Dayye heard the sound of his mother's laptop turning on, and saw the bright ceiling of the office on the mobile phone screen, and the orchid flowers and leaves falling on the camera.Mother Shen said lightly: "......
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It's so lonely to be alone in the world. ”"So, Ye Ye, you have to find someone who can be with you, tolerate you like the wind, and love you."
Shen Dayye rubbed the tip of his reddened nose and asked with a smile, "Then why don't you look for it?"
”"So many years, ten years."
Shen Dayye smiled: "Mom, you are not old now, although I will definitely not call another person Dad, but you know, I have no objection to your remarriage." ”Then, Shen Dayye heard the sound of her mother holding the cup.The morning sun in Beijing is like gold, and students in their twenties are smiling and walking by outside the office.“…… Why didn't mom look for it?
”Hua Yan, who is nearly fifty years old this year, thought about it and said with a smile: "If a person is like a rainbow, he will know it when he meets it." ”In the movie "Heartbeat", the elderly and widowed grandfather Chet said when he missed his wife: Some people in this world are dazzling, some people are dull, and some people are as gorgeous as the summer sea.But one day, you will meet someone who is as gorgeous as a rainbow.It is only when you meet someone like that that that you will know that there is no one in the world who can compare with him.- "I met your father," Shen's mother smiled, "It was in the café in the summer of thirty years ago, and I still remember the summer afternoon in Boston, which was as bright as white wine in the sun." ”Shen Dayye hugged his mobile phone and smiled warmly.Hua Yan, who is nearly 50 years old, said nostalgically: "The summer of 1988 happened to be 30 years ago, it was really good at that time, we were still young.The coffee was good, too. ”Shen Tianye thought about it, and said thoughtlessly: "I also drank coffee today, the kind of three concentrated." ”"I always remember the sun and my friends and your father."
Hua Yan said gently: "I made an appointment with my friends to drive to the beach the next day, and the boy I had made an appointment with released my pigeons.At that time, I didn't expect that the young man I was casually talking to would become the father of my only daughter. ”Shen Dayye smiled: "Dad is a very shining person. ”"Yes," Shen's mother said, "so in my mother's eyes, no one can compare to him." ”After a moment of silence, Shen Dayye unconsciously looked at California in the dark night outside the window."
That boy," Shen's mother suddenly said, "Did you go to the United States?"
I remember hearing that he was going to California. ”Shen Dayye hesitated: "Yes......
Right?
I also......
Forgot ......," Shen's mother said with a smile, "Maybe I'll meet it one day." ”Shen Dayye: "............"
"Also, maybe......"
Shen Dayye is not very good at lying, and whispered: "Maybe." ”--'Maybe.' ’Shen Dayye thought.After she hung up on her mother's video call, the room was silent, except for the Scotsman downstairs playing music in public.Shen Dayye held the literature arranged by Chen Xiaozhi in his hand, and the gentle light sprinkled outside.This is an excerpt from AnnualReviews' 47-page book on the connection between the universe and the halo of dark matter, on which Chen Xiaozhi has made sporadic annotations with a red pen.His font has matured a lot, but you can still see the rudiments of what he had when he was fifteen.And Shen Dayye, it's not that she can't understand it—she just doesn't want to read it.She's fed up starting something new that she can't do well.Shen Dayye only felt that his heart was blocked and uncomfortable, and he thought of Chen Xiaozhi's hands that were bulging when he got out of the car, and the car that had disappeared when she returned to her room.Let him send him home, it should indeed be difficult for a strong man.Shen Dayye unconsciously hugged his knees.- Twenty-five years old, accomplishing nothing.Shen Dayye looked at the Baskerville title on the dozen bound documents, and suddenly felt an indescribable sourness and sadness.…… Who hasn't dreamed of being a hero?
@无限好文, it's all in Jinjiang Literature City, but dreams are always going to be shattered, and reality will smash everything.Shen Dayye only felt that his eyes were red again, and he had to desperately tell himself that he couldn't cry in this place.She has crossed so many mountains that she can't shed tears here.Shen Tianye spent the night in the laboratory, and once got up at six o'clock in order to make an appointment for an instrument, and sat on the subway for two hours with the samples to be tested.She ran across the country, walked through the night, and waited for dawn outside the astronomical center.Shen Dayye had already burned all of his self that could burn.Those mountains that were difficult to climb were all turned over by gritting their teeth, and they were never knocked down.- And this is just a piece of her childhood dream, astrophysics, and falling debris.What is that?
But this is the area where Chen Xiaozhi has already achieved amazing achievements, and it is the past of Shen Dayye's failure.It's the specialty of her first boyfriend, who is now looking at her with almost hatred, where he is at ease.-- Those from Chen Xiaozhi, indifferent and spiky.Zhang Zhen once said to himself, 'Why don't you let your mentor give you a ride?'
At least you can walk a little less at night. ’Shen Dayye remembered what her mother said again, when she was a teenager, she would send her downstairs, and wait for her room to light up before leaving.The tenderness and restraint of the past, the lights in the middle of the night, the kisses in the 2009 New Year's bells.Twenty-five-year-old Shen Dayye trembled.Don't think about it, she shivered and turned off the light, telling herself: don't think about it.Why can't you forget?
It's been 10 years.
-In the dark night, a cigarette flame was extinguished, and there were already several cigarette butts on the ground.Chen Xiaozhi indifferently held a cigarette between his fingers, leaned under the tree, a little fire between his fingers faintly lit up and dimmed, and a gentle light fell from the street lamp in the distance.The lights in the small building are warm, like candles in the wilderness, vaguely like Beijing many years ago.In the next second, in the middle of a summer night in California, the sound of rain sounded softly.When the rain fell, the trees rustled in the wind.When the rain fell on Chen Xiaozhi's hands, a young boy's voice suddenly sounded in his head: ......"......
I'll send you home. ”The voice of the little boy, who was about five years old, came intermittently: "......
I'll send you to the door of the house in the future, see if you can go home, don't be afraid...... "......
Twenty-five-year-old Chen Xiaozhi's eyes were red and he crushed a cigarette butt.Then, braving the rain in the dark night, he walked to his car parked at the fork in the dormitory area.