Chapter Seventy-Seven-When Shen Dayye walked out of Chen Xiaozhi's office, his state of mind was surprisingly calm.The rain was pouring down like a strong air mass hitting the coast of California, and it had been raining for days.Are you happy to be able to travel?
Shen Dayye shook his head self-deprecatingly, feeling that Chen Xiaozhi was still very kind as a boss, and he didn't spend the student's money for the meeting, at least he was very generous.Shen Dayye only exchanged some rupiah for buying things locally.To be happy is to be happy.
――It seems that I have known Chen Xiaozhi for ten years.Shen Dayye thought in a trance, ten years ago, the middle of September just after the 2008 Olympic Games was the first time she met Chen Xiaozhi, and she was with him in November, and now it is mid-September in 2018.It's been ten years, indeed.Shen Tianye tried to laugh, but found that he couldn't.She closed the door and stood in front of Chen Xiaozhi's office for a while, looking up at the dark sky of continuous rain.She watched as the heavenly river poured from the clouds, and the rain under the eaves was continuous.Then she unconsciously reached out and rubbed her cheek.-- His hands are full of water.Shen Dayye rubbed his eyes with the back of his hand and found himself crying.She found herself in tears in the next second, and all the pain that had disappeared due to numbness finally came up like a tide.almost drowned Shen Dayye.She stood in front of Chen Xiaozhi's door for a long time, only to feel that she was useless and accomplished, and she finally destroyed even the last trace of pearl-like memories, and Shen Tianye's body on the ruins struggled like a drowning person, and finally fell.-- There is never anything to be obsessed with in this kind of life.
-Shen Dayye did not go back to his office, but sat on the dusty staircase on the top floor of Physics Experiment A, secretly crying.She is no longer used to showing tears or any vulnerability, Shen's mother is old, Shen Dayye is unwilling to let her worry, and friends are not her emotional trash can after all.Isn't that what happened, Shen Dayye wiped his eyes and thought: Chen Xiaozhi hates me, it shouldn't be a day or two.He had rarely had a good face since the day he brought me back, and he was so disgusted with me that he didn't even want to go to a meeting together, which was very natural.He probably didn't hate me for a day or two.But he probably didn't hate me, he just wanted to torture my spirit.However, none of this is important, the important thing is that Chen Xiaozhi is unwilling to go with me, and he does not even make a special report.He's hated me, and he's got to this point.But he can be very gentle and kind to people, he was very fierce to me when he was a child, but he can be so kind to outsiders, the laughter inside, the laughter inside.Shen Dayye's tears rolled out, and his heart seemed to be burning, burning the remaining square inch into ashes.She heard Chen Xiaozhi's cold and piercing voice downstairs asking where Shen Dayye was, and then heard the sound of the office door closing, and his footsteps went downstairs.Shen Dayye sat alone on the steps, crying silently.This man had brought comfort to her as a young woman.-- and now I hate her like this.Shen Dayye burst into tears in almost despair.Like a lump of garbage that everyone hates, or a rock rolled into a shoe.-......Your mentor is looking for you," Zhang Zhen said subtly when Shen Dayye opened the office door, "It's in a hurry."
He left you something. ”Shen Dayye's eyes were not red after crying, so others couldn't see that she had cried.She just smiled palely, and then saw a note on the table, which was folded squarely and written on a scrap manuscript, which looked like it was written by Chen Xiaozhi.Shen Dayye was extremely tired in his heart, and put the note in a mess.Zhang Zhen: "......"
"I won't be here tomorrow." ”Shen Dayye smiled and said to Zhang Zhen: "I'll pack my luggage and set off the morning after tomorrow."
Would you like something to eat?
I'm going to the supermarket tonight. ”Zhang Zhen was shocked and said, "You......
Are you okay Ye Ye, why is your face so bad?
”Shen Dayye shook her head to indicate that she was fine, but her face was almost as pale as a ghost.She unplugged the laptop cable, messed up the things on the table, stuffed the communication book and kitten cup into her bag, and even held the laptop together, Zhang Zhen even saw her fingers shaking as she cleaned up.Zhang Zhen was shocked: "He won't murder you, right-" Shen Dayye still shook his head.Zhang Zhen: "You have a conflict?
――Aren't you going to a meeting together?
”However, Shen Dayye just trembled and packed his luggage, and left the scene with his things in his arms.Zhang Zhen intuitively felt that Shen Dayye's state was extremely wrong, but before she could say the next word, Shen Dayye picked up the umbrella, held the necessities she had in the office, and rushed out."
Dayleaves!"
Zhang Zhen poked his head out of the door and shouted anxiously, "What's wrong with you!"
”Shen Dayye didn't even answer.Zhang Zhen only heard a sound of footsteps, it was Shen Dayye who rushed downstairs.
-The rain poured down, the water flowed like a river on the road, and the banyan tree aerial roots were blown and stuck in one place.Shen Dayye was walking with an umbrella in the heavy rain - she couldn't run, she couldn't breathe, and besides, she was still holding a pile of very heavy things that she was going to take with her.She walked in the rain for twenty minutes before walking back to the dormitory, the corners of her skirt soaked by the rain and the thin skirt sticking to her legs.When Shen Dayye walked to the dormitory building where he lived, his whole body seemed to be drained of strength, and when he entered the door, he didn't grasp his bag and fell everything to the ground.Shen Dayye was extremely tired, she dragged everything upstairs and locked herself in the room.
-Zhang Zhen was sitting in the office, the door behind him suddenly opened again, and Chen Xiaozhi asked indifferently: "Has Shen Dayye been back?"
”Zhang Zhen said: "I've been back, but I don't seem to be feeling well, and I just left." ”At that moment, Chen Xiaozhi's face was not happy or angry.He walked over to Shen Dayye's desk and saw the desk she had cleaned up so much that even the computer had been removed.Chen Xiaozhi: "......"
His expression was extremely ugly.Zhang Zhen always felt that Chen Xiaozhi didn't seem to be quite right, and said confusedly: "She took a lot of things when she left, and she should have taken them to Sumatra, old-" The word 'teacher' can't be spoken.Zhang Zhen's expression drifted for a moment, remembering that Chen Xiaozhi should be a little younger than her, and thought to himself, how can he call the word teacher......
Shen Dayye is really pitiful, she is still a former classmate.Then the humble doctor Zhang Zhen was mentally prepared and respectfully called: "--Teacher." ”Chen Xiaozhi glanced at her."
You don't need to call a teacher."
Chen Xiaozhi said indifferently: "Tell me when she comes back." ”Zhang Zhen wanted to say that Shen Dayye should not come, she seemed to be really sad, the worst thing in our group was her, can you be nice to her-but Zhang Zhen didn't say it in the end.There is no need, Zhang Zhen thought with a little sadness, Shen Dayye didn't need this.
――I don't need the man on the other side.Zhang Zhen said softly, "Okay." ”Zhang Zhen speculated that the two should have clashed - and with what she knew about Shen Dayye, she was most likely the one who was scolded.So after Chen Xiaozhi left, Zhang Zhen glanced at the note he put on the girl's table and was thrown aside by her.Will it be an apology?
Zhang Zhen knew that a gentle and kind girl like Shen Dayye could hardly refuse the apologies of others.However, when Zhang Zhen unfolded the note, he found that it was not.On that piece of paper, there was only one line of the address of the meeting.-…… In order not to go with me, he preferred to give up the opportunity to give a special lecture.Invited Presentation by APAPC.Shen Dayye suddenly discovered how similar this was to the reason for their breakup.Shen Dayye was knocked down by this accident, curled up on the bed, and looked at the ceiling blankly.The ceiling of her dormitory was covered with finely streaked wallpaper, glowing in the dark.There was a photo of her father on the wall, Shen Dayye remembered the source of all this, everything she did when she was fifteen years old, Chen Xiaozhi's care and love for her that year, and what she said to Chen Xiaozhi at the last moment with tears in her eyes, "Let's break up".Shen Dayye couldn't retch in the dark night, and his mind was a mess, thinking to himself what am I now?
I didn't seem to be much in the past.Shen Tianye trembled, almost wanting to turn himself into ashes.It was the extreme, unbearable humiliation that came at her.Ten years ago, Chen Xiaozhi didn't know what he was wrong with, so he knelt down to her and begged for forgiveness, but Shen Daye didn't even pay attention to it at that time.But he can still hurt her in this way.He can obviously talk well, he can obviously be gentle with others, Chen Xiaozhi's gentle appearance towards that blonde girl made Shen Tianye unbearably curled up in the quilt - he just didn't want to treat you.She said to herself.- You've never been special.Ten years, Shen Dayye thought in a hurry.I used to love the universe and all truth, and I used to love a boy who had the same aspirations as me, shining like the sun.I used to walk alone in the middle of the night, and I fell asleep in the wee hours of the morning.I gave everything I had unconditionally and got a blank answer.When I was young, I dreamed of all the good, with all the sharpness and pride, I dreamed that I would be the center of the world, that I would get what I wanted, that I would carry all the expectations of my predecessors and teachers who had placed their burdens on me and who had high hopes for me.From the depths of my soul, I longed for their proud gaze.But I didn't get even one.Shen Dayye was trembling and crying, she heard Zhang Zhen knock softly twice on the door, and asked her, "Ye Bao eats", she tried her best to hold back her nasal voice and said, "I don't eat".Zhang Zhen said softly outside the door: "......
I left you with tomato egg soup, and in the kitchen, you can eat it hot if you are hungry. ”Shen Dayye trembled and whimpered.Then she got out of bed gently, sobbingly.If anyone pays attention to her shadow, they will find that Shen Dayye is really very thin.Zhang Zhen had already left her door, and Shen Dayye took advantage of the dim light to find his own notebook from the things he had brought back.The notebook is not difficult to find, Shen Dayye found that she had broken the computer - this notebook was still changed when she was enrolled in graduate school, the anodized aluminum alloy shell of the steel and iron bones, and the diamond knife were difficult to leave traces, and at this time it was forced into a corner.Shen Tianye hiccups in sadness and opens the notebook.-- A new letter arrived.With tears in her eyes, she opened the letter from the past.The night was long, the rain crackled and banged on the roof, the rain poured on the windows, and the last letter was Shen Dayye's explanation that he tried to make up, persuading the other party to stay away from Chen Xiaozhi, stay away from the competition, and find something else interesting to do--Then, Shen Dayye saw three big characters written in oil-based pen on the letterhead: "I don't want to."-…… The last full stop is still very big.It doesn't feel like a full stop, it's a bowl, it means that I am unswerving, and I am determined to ask for food.Shen Dayye was so angry that he could barely sleep, and his tears fell even more fiercely, thinking that my mother was so hard when I was rebellious?
Didn't you?
When I was a child, I was obviously very obedient and sensible, a good child, especially after my father's death, I was obedient to my mother, and my mother had never experienced this kind of daughter - how could a fifteen-year-old child say such rude words?
Am I not doing it for her good?
Live - the next moment, Shen Dayye tried his best to endure the next word "should", and told himself: That's me, that's me, I don't deserve it at all, Shen Dayye is innocent.This Xiao Dayye is fucking fake, 25-year-old Shen Dayye was so angry that he almost wanted to drop his notebook and pen, and then remembered that he was indeed this virtue when he was a child: if he saw a direction, he was so stubborn that he couldn't pull it back, which was done by the 24K Shen Dayye.But give me advice!!
I won't hurt you!
At the bottom of the letter, there are one, two, three, and three reasons: First, the competition is at the doorstep, I will not play in vain, I will have a good ranking in the semi-finals, and I must resolutely participate in the finals and not retreat.Second, Chen Xiaozhi is such a handsome man, I may not be able to find such a good-looking man if he runs away!
He's really pleasing to the eye.Not divided.Shen Dayye reading the letter: "......"
Shen Dayye was so angry that he almost grinded his teeth - what kind of thing?!
She thought about it, and that was exactly what it was at the time.Chen Xiaozhi is really good-looking, handsome and tough, he is a masculine and intelligent look, and he can't take advantage of the same sports performance."......"
It's time to start over, you damn it.What is this, a tragedy of fate.Shen Dayye flipped through the letter.The words on the reverse side: "Three, I think astrophysics is really fun, and I have thought about it very carefully, how far can I go."
Shen Dayye: "............" - amazing, Da Dayye thought.Xiao Yuye is indeed a talent, this is not even a one, and I don't plan to hear it.-…… Shen Dayye was so angry that he was a miniature version of himself, and with Chen Xiaozhi, he spent a day in his small attic the next day, packed his suitcases tightly, and checked his passport and visas one by one.She didn't go to the office all day, and in the evening she received Chen Xiaozhi's WeChat x1, asking why she didn't come today.Shen Dayye's stomach was hot when he saw his news, and he felt breathless and uncomfortable when he thought that Chen Xiaozhi hated himself so much that he didn't even want to go with her--Otherwise, he would give up the opportunity of this joint training and return to China, apologize to Academician Zhou, and directly confess that he wasted the opportunity of this joint training.In all fairness, Chen Xiaozhi, as a mentor, is actually better than her little boss Li Lei, and it can be said that it is not the same kind of person at all - comparing them together, they are all humiliating to Chen Xiaozhi.Chen Xiaozhi has extraordinary ability, rigorous academic treatment, and extremely upright academic attitude.Moreover, although he has a bad temper, he allows students to make mistakes, and he is always ready to make mistakes when students make mistakes.is very serious about what went wrong, and it is bound to explain it to Shen Dayye until he understands.…… It's also very generous.It's almost the most popular kind of young Zhuang tutor.Rich, capable, patient.When Shen Daye was originally under Li Lei, he had to explore almost everything by himself, even the most basic experimental data analysis had to find literature one by one, and then asked the senior brothers and sisters of other groups in a low voice to let them teach themselves.- The next day, the plane departed from LAX Airport at ten o'clock in the morning, Shen Dayye dragged his suitcase to the meeting alone, once he went out, he felt that he was not particularly miserable after getting on the bus.There were three huge English letters of LAX erected on the long road entering, the sky was overcast but not raining, and the plane should be able to take off normally.Shen Tianye took the boarding pass and checked in his luggage alone, carried his small bag through the customs, and checked in the ticket on the plane.The flight time is more than twenty hours.Shen Dayye sat still in the cabin, looked at the boarding pass he printed in the row of 2-D by the window, and leaned on the window side blankly.One after another, mothers with children, people in suits and leather shoes passed by and took their seats in business class.Business class is much more spacious, and indeed relatively comfortable - it was a twenty-hour voyage after all."
Theplaneisabouttotakeoff......" the captain's voice sounded, "......
Pleasesetyourphonetoairplanemodeand......"
Shen Dayye hugged the small blanket on the seat and her own communication book, and the seat next to her was actually empty.She looked at the unchosen seat next to her in a daze, and realized a little hindsight that Chen Xiaozhi didn't seem to have refunded the ticket.The captain's announcement was cut off by the rustling of electricity.She glanced at her phone before turning it off - she hadn't replied to Chen Xiaozhi's WeChat yesterday, but he sent another one ten minutes ago, asking, "Are you on the plane?"
”Shen Dayye hugged the blanket and replied softly, "It's time to shut down." ”