Chapter 127 - After that day, Shen Dayye did not go to Chen Xiaozhi's office again.She moved things back one after another, and Zhang Zhen's tutor at Stanford didn't care about Zhang Zhen's attendance, and Zhang Zhen frequently went to Los Angeles to find her high school classmates after experiments, so the office was inevitably empty.Shen Dayye sat alone at his desk, holding a cup of hot tea, unpacking biscuits, and sitting at the desk all day.She no longer spreads the calculation paper every day, but more often deduces it in her head, and the table is full of books borrowed from the library, from messy novels to unpopular tomes that no one in the library borrows, piled up in a sharp pile, like a mountain of despair.In fact, it is.The subject and the science are difficult, and the pain it brings is like a slow and cold blade, which does not hurt too much, but slowly cuts into the flesh and bones of people.The truth is hidden behind the Creator.The two mortals desperately chased after it, but they couldn't catch the corners of its clothes."
Light a lamp outside the temple of human wisdom."
This sentence is simple and poetic, but if you really find someone to do it, it can drive people crazy.After all, this road is full of negation and doubt, like an abyss with the roar of a dragon, and the pain is so painful that people can't breathe.Shen Dayye was among them, and he couldn't find a way out.-…… At half past four in the afternoon, several graduate students went to the cafeteria together, chattering, waking up the whole lifeless building.The phone buzzed, and Shen Dayye raised his head from the book and sat up straight.She picked up her mobile phone and looked at it, it was Wei Lai who asked her if she would return to Beijing during the holidays.Shen Daye: "......"
Shen Dayye's brain was wooden, and he slowly typed 'I'm a little busy this year, I can't go back to the Christmas holiday', Wei Lai's WeChat voice flew over and insulted her.The Christmas holidays are definitely not going back, she thought.In this short three-week vacation, Shen Tian saw that he had other plans, and Chen Xiaozhi did not reveal that he wanted to return to Beijing, plus the two of them had just come from China in October, and the journey back to China was bumpy and jet lag, so it was necessary to talk about it in a few months......
And in addition to this, there is an element of more pain.Shen Dayye was silent for a long time and asked, "Wei Lai, can you speak?"
”Wei Lai was stunned for a moment, and a voice call came."
What's wrong?"
Wei Lai Yaoyao asked, "Feeling bad?"
”Shen Dayye breathed slowly, then looked at the unfamiliar sunlight and asked his friend, "Wei Lai, what kind of person do you think I am?"
”The question came too suddenly, and Wei Lai was stunned.“…… I mean," Shen Dayye paused, "Teacher Ci thinks I'm a malleable talent, so he officially led me onto this path.My former petty boss thought I was a good slave and pressed me to his group for so many years.My big boss didn't think my interest was in his direction, so he took the initiative to let me leave and let me explore the wider world......"
Shen Dayye looked at the cluster of light blankly, and the setting sun reflected her pale pupils.She said calmly on the phone: "-My friends think I'm a bit of a dull gourd, some classmates think I'm a top student, and my mother thinks I'm her baby daughter and wants me to be healthy and happy." ”"And the way my grandmother looks at me," Shen Dayye paused and said, "......
It's like looking at the last trace of her son's stay in the world. ”Only the sound of Wei Lai's gentle breathing could be heard in the earpiece.“…… Everyone sees me differently. ”Shen Dayye said.Wei Lai hummed lowly.Shen Dayye looked at the sky for a long time, feeling that he had a thousand words in his heart that were waiting to gush out, and it hurt to block, but he couldn't catch the words."......," she said, grasping a thread, with difficulty, "but after so many years, so many people have passed by, only my father looks at me, as if he sees something grander, hope for the future, a trend......
Such. ”Wei Lai: "......" -- he really believes that I will change the world," Shen said, "and thinks I will change the way people see the world." ”Wei Lai: "Ye Ye, I've never heard you talk about your father. ”“…… Because," Shen Dayye hesitated for a moment, and said sourly: "Because I can't talk about it." ”She was silent for a long time before she could regain her voice."
He's the heart of our whole family."
The girl said, "It took my mom three years after he died, and she was able to talk to me about what kind of person my dad was."
But even so, our family avoided talking about him -- you know?
He's so good, so every time I think of him, I feel too ......"
Shen Dayye's nose was sour, and he whispered: "......
I think it's too ......
It's painful. ”Wei Lai breathed a long breath and listened softly.The girl's voice was vague and confused, and she said eloquently, "Wei Lai, I've been thinking about my father lately. ”"I didn't dare before, I was afraid that he would be disappointed, because I had changed so much at that time......
But now that I'm back, I'm starting to wonder if my dad expects too much from me. ”"Wei Lai, how can this road be so difficult?"
Shen Dayye looked at the sunset blankly and said, "How can there be so many dead ends, blocked roads one after another?"
”Wei Lai let out a long sigh.“…… Ye Ye, I don't understand this," Wei Lai said honestly, "I only know that you have been ...... since you were a child It's not quite the same as us. ”That sentence was actually a bit stupid, but Shen Dayye laughed relaxedly.Then Wei Lai also began to giggle, so that even the winter sun became warm, and the distance of tens of thousands of miles became as if it were a stone's throw away.The word friend is not actually about solving problems, but about confiding - Shen Dayye and Wei Lai are two very different people, but in the past ten years, there has not been a time when this is not the case.Wei Lai suddenly said: "What about Chen Xiaozhi?"
”Shen Dayye was stunned."
--What does Chen Xiaozhi think of you?"
Wei Lai said: "Ye Ye, you mentioned a lot of your friends, but you missed him. ”Shen Dayye was stunned.She heard Chen Xiaozhi's footsteps returning to the office.The man's footsteps were young and deep, and he walked through the empty corridor outside the door, firm and proud, like a traveler walking among the desolate mountains.What does he think of me?
He is arrogant by nature and does not answer any spring inquiries.Shen Dayye pursed his lips and replied, "......
I do not know. ”…… I haven't been able to ask either.
-As time passed, Shen Dayye gradually realized that there was a huge problem between her and Chen Xiaozhi.The man's heart is real, and he loves himself.But what about other than that?
Besides.Sluggish as Shen Dayye felt that the estrangement was too deep - there were ten, twenty, endless years and tragic farewells in the estrangement, and his past, his own life, the hands they wanted to touch and retract countless times.Shen Dayye looked at the distance between them, it seemed to be a chasm.- A corner of the restaurant.On the verge of the winter solstice, the days have become very short, and a starlight pierces the night sky.Shen Dayye forked the meat jelly in front of him in a daze, Chen Xiaozhi lowered his head to eat, and after a while, he spoke in silence."
What's the 24th going on?"
He asked nonchalantly, "It's Christmas Eve." ”Shen Dayye forked the meat jelly: "It's nothing, what's wrong?"
”She thought that Chen Xiaozhi had some special arrangements: after all, it was Christmas Eve, almost the most special night in the second half of the year, and Christmas Eve belonged to the family, relatives, and lovers.Then Chen Xiaozhi said, "Come with me to a dinner." ”"......"
Chen Xiaozhi wiped the corners of his mouth and said to her: "This year's school board dinner is scheduled for Christmas Eve, and the head of the department asked me to come forward to pull funding. ”Shen Dayye really didn't expect this development......
"That's my teacher," Chen Xiaozhi tried to explain, "And I've been in this department for a long time, so I can't refuse."
Besides, on Christmas Eve, I can't leave you alone in your dorm room watching a movie......
Did you bring a dress dress when you came?
”Shen Tianye reluctantly replied, "No." ”"That's okay, come with me."
Chen Xiaozhi persuaded: "The dinner food is good, and many people may wish to get acquainted."
If you don't want to get to know each other, just eat on the side, and I'll be with you in a while. ”Shen Dayye looked at Chen Xiaozhi very reluctantly and asked, "Do you really have to go?"
”When this question was asked, Shen Dayye had the answer in his heart: Professor Chen is a natural signboard, and his handsome work ability is even more invincible, he is the most capable AP period, and he has more natural teacher-student obligations, and it is impossible for his teacher to let go of this signboard."
You have to go," the signboard reluctantly advised: "Come with me, it's better than watching a TV series in the dormitory." ”Shen Tianye was still reluctant, and even looked at Chen Xiaozhi a little begging for mercy, his face full of resistance and unhappiness to the noisy occasion."
I can't spend Christmas Eve alone with you this year," Chen Xiaozhi shook her hand apologetically, "But I don't want you to be alone."
Come on, I'll finish as soon as possible, the next day will be our time. ”The next day, Chen Xiaozhi was mine......
Shen Tianye felt a little more comfortable in his heart, nodded with a snort, and said awkwardly, "That'......
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All right. ”She speaks with a natural flirtatiousness, a little delicate and a little picky.Chen Xiaozhi felt cute, couldn't help but purse his lips and smile, lowered his head again, and put away her dinner plate for his little girlfriend."
Then I'll report it," he said, taking it in, "you go with me." ”Shen Tianye nodded obediently: "Okay." ”-.................., "Are you okay with the surname Shen?"
”Zhang Zhen asked, "Okay, I'll let that aunt in." ”In the office, Shen Dayye hurriedly packed up his things, and said anxiously: "I need a while here!"
You tell that auntie to go to the fifth floor first-" At the end of the year, the Stanford School of Physics was routinely disinfected, and the smell of sodium hypochlorite wafted through the entire corridor.Zhang Zhen asked her aunt to go first in English, and then turned her head to Shen Dayye and the desk in amazement: "Shen Dayye, are you a hamster, how many things have you hoarded here?"
Half of the dormitories have been moved. ”Shen Dayye snorted, took a stack of newspapers, and covered the books on the shelf."
I've been here for a long time."
Shen Dayye muttered: "What's strange about having too many things, you have too few things, okay!"
”Zhang Zhen smiled: "I'm free enough here."
Sister hamster, I'll pass by the library in a moment, do you have any books that I need to help you get back?
”"......" hamster sister wanted to quarrel back but her vocabulary was not enough, so she held back very unevenly for a while, and finally gave up, picked two or three books from the bookshelf with a red face and handed them over.Zhang Zhen grinned and took the little hamster's ID card and book, slipped out of the office with a bang, and ran to the new world of freedom."
Knock-" The office door was almost thrown away by inertia, which shows how happy Zhang Zhen was when he rushed out.Shen Daye, who saw her back: "......"
Zhang Zhen What the hell is this optimistic attitude, Shen Daye is stupid, this woman can still go out to eat Haisai with burning eyebrows - obviously she is also a Yanbi dog, the surname Shen is huge, she can't eat well and sleep well, and she has to get up and run in the morning to relieve stress, it's all like this, it's okay to look up at the sun, and you can see the formula 1-3 in the sun......
On the other hand, Zhang Zhen, Shen Dayye has no doubt that she used the Stanford canteen and Chinese supermarket to eat three pounds of weight this semester, and the kind with a wide heart and a fat body is by no means a pressure eating.The sun is warm, and the velvet softly cuts through the dust and settles on the neat bookshelves.Shen Dayye climbed onto the desk and wrapped some of the professional books she brought from China in newspaper to avoid being splashed by sodium hypochlorite, and it was at that moment that she saw the dark blue book again.Correspondence book.The book is thick and fluffy, and the gilding on the cover has been worn off a little, and there is a thick letter paper that has been worn for many years.She took the notebook off and held it carefully in her arms.-- It's been an autumn since the last time I read it.Those letterheads, the time when they sank under the water, and the young girl have actually dissipated like smoke.Shen Dayye touched it wistfully, opened it again, and found that the letter he was trying to send to the past was still lying in its place, and no letter appeared out of thin air.Shen Dayye was reluctant to let the book be smoked with disinfectant water, so he deliberately pulled out two newspapers and wrapped it in sharp corners."
Shen Dayye?"
Chen Xiaozhi's voice came from afar: "I took your clothes back by the way." ”Shen Dayye was startled, and when he turned around, Chen Xiaozhi pushed open her office door with two clothes, and saw her sitting on the desk, this time he frowned and said, "Why do you keep climbing up and down, you are a monkey?"
”Shen Dayye said awkwardly: "I'm covering the book......"
"Cover the book?"
Do you need to climb the table to cover a book?
”Chen Xiaozhi laughed mercilessly: "Life that hasn't grown to 1.65 meters is so miserable?
Having said that, I don't know who told me that I would definitely grow ...... in the future" Shen Dayye was turned over the old accounts, and his face turned red with anger: "I want you to take care of it, you grow taller, you come!"
”Chen Xiaozhi laughed shamefully and said, "I'll come, I'll come." ”He walked over, compared with Shen Dayye's little hair, and said sympathetically: "The difference between the two of us is more than twenty centimeters." ”Shen Dayye: "......"
Shen Dayye, who was one meter □□ five o'clock, was so angry that he was smoking, and he was squeezed away with a bang.Chen Xiaozhi rubbed her hair, took off her coat, and said viciously: "Little sister, give it to my brother." ”Little Sister ......
Shen Dayye was completely angry, and said angrily: "Brother, you are big!
You're a poop. ”She climbed off the table and crossed her arms to examine Professor Chen's work.Professor Chen dragged her large stack of books back and answered with an expressionless face: "Then you haven't gotten a poop high, a lump." ”Shen Daye: "......"
Shen Dayye was so angry that his hair curled."
Tuotuo, go try on the skirt," Chen Xiaozhi said as he cleaned up: "If there is anything inappropriate, you can tell me again." ”Shen Dayye puffed up: "Tuo, your mother!"
”She held the notebook and watched Chen Xiaozhi pack up his things, he was tall, and when he bent over, the folds of his clothes were stretched into white mountains in the sun.It's hard to say things like 'this man doesn't love me,' Shen Dayye thought distractedly.This is a natural young master temperamental person, he has been used to being angry since he was a child, and he must have ten fingers that do not touch the spring water, but every time he faced Shen Dayye, he didn't even let her pick up a piece of grass.He's too spoiled and will spoil me in the future.But in the next second, Shen Dayye remembered the estrangement between them.And that barrier is a forbidden area, you can't think about it, Shen Dayye cut off his imagination, as if he was using a fire to burn off a festering wound.Chen Xiaozhi suddenly said inadvertently: "Why don't you go to my office recently?"
”Shen Dayye came out of his own world and muttered, "I can only lie on my stomach on the coffee table, and my back hurts." ”Chen Xiaozhi raised his eyebrows: "Put the table in for you at the end of the holiday?"
”Shen Tianye was a little annoyed in his heart, and said, "No." ”Chen Xiaozhi didn't mention it again, and said after a while: "By the way, you go to the office next door to try on the skirt, see if it's suitable." ”Shen Dayye was immersed in his own world, nodded casually, and touched one piece with his hand.In the next second, Chen Xiaozhi didn't look back, and said coldly: "Take your own, you can't wear mine." ”"......"
Shen Dayye glanced at the tag, which said ChenX., quietly put it back, and took another one.Chen Xiaozhi didn't look back, and said expressionlessly: "Mentally retarded." ”Shen Dayye: "......"
She couldn't hold back, and her face turned red."
If it's not suitable for me, you can send it for correction," Professor Chen told his good students: "Take it back to the dormitory and don't pile it on the bed as garbage." ”Shen Dayye said weakly: "You......
You're just piling garbage on the bed. ”You know the dog thing again, Shen Dayye scolded him in his heart, obviously he didn't even enter my dormitory, and every time he sent me back, he only sent it to the door-I'm twenty-five!
You're twenty-five, too!
Twenty-five, do you know what it means, twenty-five is what my dad means at this age, Chen Xiaozhi, you waste, you haven't even entered the door of my dormitory......
The more Shen Tianye thought about it, the more he was blocked, stuffed the book wrapped in newspaper in his hand into his schoolbag, carried the custom-made evening dress, and ran out.…… Professor Chen cleaned up his student's desk, feeling that something was wrong, and he might have offended Shen Dayye.It must be a delusion, he thought complacently, her boyfriend is so mature and considerate, what can she be dissatisfied with?
Thinking about it, he picked up the flesh on Shen Dayye's table, squinted his eyes and looked at it, recognizing that it was the pot that Liang Le had given her.So the mature Professor Chen, viciously, put Senior Liang's flesh outside the cold wind window, and thoughtfully closed the window."
Freeze you."
He looked at the trembling fleshy and noble and said, "It's been ten years and the ghost is still lingering, get out of here." ”