Chapter 129 - In the dark night, the car with a California license plate stepped on the brakes sharply and drifted ninety degrees.It was almost a desperate move, blocking the empty, dark road, and the wind and snow were everywhere, and a thinly dressed man stepped out of the car.Shen Tianye even stopped breathing for a moment.The man was tall, with only a dress shirt draped, and at a glance he knew that he could not stop even the slightest wind, but he walked slowly towards her through the snowstorm and the windy sky.Every breath he breathed was as white as snow on the top of the peak, and every step he took was like stepping on the ice that was about to shatter.The headlights shone miserably on Chen Xiaozhi's body.The snow and wind gradually thinned, and Shen Dayye finally saw that the man was covered with wind and snow, his face was pale, and even his steps were staggering, and even made people feel that if they touched him again, this person would collapse on the spot.The girl's heart was tightened, and tears filled her eyes again.-- There is a legend in Crete about a monster with a minotaur who was imprisoned by King Minos.The labyrinth was built by King Minos who had specifically sought out the legendary genius builder Daedalus and asked him to build it for the monsters.Daedalus finished building it, promising that no one could escape the labyrinth.So the brutal Minos said yes, and it was up to you to prove the inviolability of the labyrinth with your life, and threw Daedalus and his son into the labyrinth where the man-eating monsters were imprisoned.The labyrinth twists and turns, deep and vast, and there is no possibility of escape for those who are in it.-- Like fate.Shen Dayye only felt that he was in the depths of the labyrinth, in extreme pain, and no matter how he struggled, he couldn't escape the palm of fate.She felt sorry for Chen Xiaozhi, and she felt uncomfortable that she couldn't be ruthless no matter what-she couldn't forget such a person for ten or twenty years, and she couldn't forget how many people she had walked and how many people she had met.He is the eternal cinnabar mole and white moonlight in his heart, and he dreams every midnight without wind and moon, and he has never left the same place after traveling thousands of miles, and even he can't walk away like this.Shen Dayye is useless.She didn't want to talk to Chen Xiaozhi, but looking at his appearance in the wind and snow, she still got out of the car uncontrollably.Shen Dayye stepped on the thin snow in high heels, and was almost stumbling by the wind.In the next second, Chen Xiaozhi stretched out his hand and firmly grabbed the girl's wrist.At that time, he was even a little paranoid to the extreme, firmly clasping Shen Dayye's wrist, Shen Dayye looked back, and saw Chen Xiaozhi's face as white as paper, but his eyes were red as if he was about to drip blood, his lips were chapped, and he moved slightly: "Why?"
”"......" his eyes were even redder, like a piece of ice floes about to break, and his hand was harder, but his voice was flatter: "- Why, you always have to tell me. ”"......"
Shen Dayye only felt that his chest was blocked by a huge piece of sorrow, and he couldn't even breathe down, and he couldn't even say a word.Chen Xiaozhi stared at her deadly, his head covered with snow, his lips were trembling, his shirt was blown to hunt, and his posture was even very fragile, like a deer waiting to be shot.He stubbornly stared at Shen Dayye's eyes.Shen Tianye felt pain when he blinked, and even his breathing was sore, and he opened his mouth with difficulty: "......
I ......""......
I ......"
Shen Dayye's tears rolled down: "I don't ......"
The next second, Chen Xiaozhi roared in despair: "□□ Mom, can you say it once-!!
”The roar and weeping blood, even the echo came out, and if the heavens heard it, even the heavens would shed tears for the pain."
You've always been like this," Chen Xiaozhi's eyes were split: "It's always been like this, you never say anything you want, you just hold back your words, and you are naturally stuffy--and then you run away when you feel hurt, my □□ mother Shen Daye, you are still a-" "You are still a person-!"
”Shen Dayye's eyes hurt as if they were about to crack."
Am I not good to you," Chen Xiaozhi stared at the girl's moist pupils and asked, "I don't hurt you enough?"
For these things you do, if you were my relative's child, I would have killed you a long time ago, only you, only you, I have been reluctant to touch a finger for so many years, holding it in my hand for fear of falling and holding it in my mouth for fear of melting!
”"I really want to pry your mouth open sometimes," Chen Xiaozhi's voice trembled: "Whip you with a whip and see what opinions you have in your stomach." ”Then he was in the snowstorm and said, "Can you, fucking open your mouth once?"
”Shen Dayye looked at the man in front of him with teary eyes.She saw the young man's red, burning eyes, a look of despair that looked like a landslide, a thin shirt and trousers, and twenty years of snow in his hair.Then she saw through the curtain of tears as the young man's tears fell.Chen Xiaozhi cried silently.Then Shen Dayye's heart was about to break, and he cried out of breath, choking unbearably: "--What do you want me to do?"
”"Chen-Chen Xiaozhi," she rolled down her eyes and said thoughtlessly, "What do you want me to do......
How to face you......
Yikes. ”"What am I supposed to do......
How to face you?
”Shen Dayye choked in the wind that swept the sky and the earth: "You are cold to me for a while, eager for a while, I feel that you love me for a while, and I feel that I am dispensable for a while."
I wanted to talk to you, but I couldn't get it......
It's like you've missed the best of times.I realized all the time that we weren't fifteen years old. ”The moment those words were spoken, Shen Dayye suddenly felt that there was nothing to be afraid of.Love.Years.Disorganized thoughts that can't appeal to words.A yearning for truth and glory.All this, at that moment, was like a torrent that originated in Bayankala, breaking through the gate and rushing towards the sea where they should have flowed.She looked up at Chen Xiaozhi's red eyes, and asked sourly, "Is time such a terrible thing?"
”- You tell me, Chen Xiaozhi."
Why don't you tell me how you've been doing all these years?"
Shen Dayye heard his voice as hard as ever, like an indestructible Tycho slate, and almost asked, "Why don't you explain, don't tell me who you've met, and don't tell me what roads you've traveled over the years?"
”The tip of the man's nose was red, and a tear dripped down."
You don't tell me anything."
She said.Shen Dayye poured out all the grievances in his heart, and choked up: "After we haven't discussed it, we haven't discussed the future, I will admit that you want to return to China without telling me, but you don't even discuss it with me if you decide not to return to China, if you want to stay in Stanford, you must at least tell me, make me look like a fool......"
Chen Xiaozhi was stunned immediately.Shen Dayye could barely hold back the question, but in his heart he felt that he was so childish.It's obviously the outbreak of the long-accumulated conflict between the two, but now it's like an ordinary couple quarreling - what is such a simple question?
Shen Dayye was so sad that he was terribly sad.-- But this is the first time.They are used to bickering with each other, but in fact, Shen Dayye is used to giving in, and Chen Xiaozhi is used to being tolerant, and they have been dating for so long, they haven't even quarreled as a couple.The snow fell in the long night, and the snowflakes flew over the black spruce, Shen Dayye wiped away the tears on his cheeks, and shouted loudly: "Chen Xiaozhi, tell me, are there a couple like us, why do you even treat me like this, and those who don't know still think that you are having an affair with me-others are better than us as friends, no, they are better than us-" Shen Dayye thought of those entanglements with her, and her ears were so sad that the roots of her ears were red."
You don't seem to care about this thing, so I always tell myself that it's all false, and the important thing is that I know you care about me."
Chen Xiaozhi: "......" and "......
But I want it too. ”The girl said almost inaudibly."
I want to be intimate and sit on the couch together to discuss the future."
Shen Dayye's voice was hoarse and sour: "Even if it's just to buy a vase, or discuss what to eat in the morning."
I want to have a clear heart and no barriers. ”The girl felt that her tear ducts were inexhaustible, so that every word seemed to be pulled out of her heart with blood.She awkwardly said to the man in front of her, "I want to be the same as we were when we were children, or even more intimate."
Do you understand Chen Xiaozhi, it's not like this ...... now" "This kind of ......"
Shen Dayye paused and choked up: "We are obviously so close, but we can't talk. ”"Am I asking too much?"
She asked.Shouldn't adults expect the blazing heat of youth anymore?
People have learned to compromise, learn to bow their heads, learn not to stick to others, and learn to live alone, so the sweetness of youth and the inseparable and immature sea vows have become the target of public criticism.As a result, the sincere expression of the teenager was labeled as 'childish' and became a locked black history.- But I still want to.I want to talk to him about the loving Wal-Eli and Eva who travel through the universe, the poems of Neruda and Adonis, Keats and Wilde.The spring breeze blows into the hair.I will tell him about the wheat fields and the land that we will conquer in the future.Talk about the annihilation of dark matter and the intersection of time and space on a mathematical scale.Eleven spatial dimensions folded in one place and colliding particles.On the microcosm, God's random dice are delicately proportioned with the macrocosm.Poverty, and undying dreams.I want to speak to him about the universal truth that must exist.I miss our poor and enthusiastic childhood, those nights of long talk, the returning migratory birds and the fallen stars.The girl choked in the cold wind.Her ears were red from the cold wind, as if she had cried out more than ten years of grievances, and her eyes were like buds soaked in water."
You say I can do anything......
"But that's what I think." ”Then she looked at Chen Xiaozhi, shook her wrist outward, and said sourly, "You're here to drive me back, right?"
”Chen Xiaozhi's eyes were red and he didn't say a word."
Don't worry......" she looked at Chen Xiaozhi and said abruptly."
It's okay, I don't have to do anything."
She struggled to endure her pain: "......
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You're here to pick me up, I'll go back with you. ”――What else?
Shen Dayye knew that he had scared Chen Xiaozhi, as could be seen from the fact that he rushed to stop people without even wearing a coat, and his decision was impulsive, without even the slightest trace of reason, and the safest way in this case was to go back with him.And with Shen Dayye's understanding of Chen Xiaozhi, he would memorize every word tonight in his heart.After remembering it, maybe he will drive Shen Tianye home or back to the dormitory tonight, and then carefully plan the vacation with her during the vacation.It's not a bad ending - it's just too rational.However, in the next second, Shen Dayye was heavily dragged into Chen Xiaozhi's arms."
I'm sorry......"
His voice was hoarse, trembling as he stroked Shen Dayye's hair.Chen Xiaozhi hugged him very tightly, Shen Dayye heard his heartbeat like thunder, he pressed the back of Shen Dayye's head, held her firmly in his arms, and all his panting turned into a clammy white mist.His arms were cold, like the wind that swept across the vast land."
I'm sorry," Chen Xiaozhi's voice trembled, and he couldn't stop saying: "I'm sorry......"
Anyone who listens to that voice feels extremely painful, like a monologue of ice that is about to break, and it seems to be the last winter night before the arrival of spring."
Whatever happened," he gasped, "I had no intention of harming you." ”"Ye Ye," he called."
Shen Dayye, look at me."
Shen Dayye raised his head with teary eyes and looked at Chen Xiaozhi.The tears of the two of them have not been able to hide from this ever since.She saw the tears hanging on the tip of Chen Xiaozhi's nose, and Chen Xiaozhi also saw her, the two of them were so embarrassed that they didn't have the ease of an adult, and they even looked like children."
We'll fix it."
Chen Xiaozhi repeated hoarsely: "--The ones I didn't do well, the ones I didn't do so well, will be solved." ”Shen Dayye couldn't stop crying, and wiped the tears on his face with Chen Xiaozhi's coat."
Now that you have spoken out," he said, "I will settle it for you." ”Shen Dayye choked up and said hello.In the dark night, Chen Xiaozhi looked at her and asked, "Do you believe me?"
”The snow was falling and the wind was cold, Shen Dayye shivered and wiped away his tears, and looked up into his eyes.Unlike before, now she has no intention of retreating, as if she wants to see the soul under the other party's eyes."
-Hmm."
Shen Dayye said.Then thousands of snowflakes fluttered one after another, covering the world.-......" - now you'll have to explain it to me. ”Shen Dayye was stunned: "Huh?
”Chen Xiaozhi opened the car door, and his coat was covered with snow.Blizzard couldn't see the road ahead, and neither car had snow chains, so it had to be said tomorrow morning, and now both cars were parked in the field, and the snow was piled up with tumbleweed along the way, quietly becoming thousands of white snowballs.Like a rabbit, Shen Dayye looked out the window and thought."
--You'll have to explain it to me."
Chen Xiaozhi slammed the car door slammed: "I understand the general idea you just said, but the details have to be implemented with you." ”Shen Dayye said righteously: "You speak." ”"What do you mean I don't tell you about the past ten years," Chen Xiaozhi narrowed his eyes: "Have you asked once, just say I won't tell you?"
”Shen Dayye: "......"
Shen Dayye has a loss of +10......
She was silent for three seconds, and then sobbed: "You're so fierce." ”Chen Xiaozhi: "............""......
I......
I didn't mean that," Professor Chen immediately didn't even dare to have the slightest temper, his tone softened, and he said aggrievedly: "If you ask me once, how can I not say it?"
”Shen Dayye hugged his small pillow and snorted slightly, letting him taste the cold snort by himself.Chen Xiaozhi felt that she was humming and chirping very cute, and he didn't mind if this little bastard was unreasonable, so he reached out and rubbed her hair, and said, "We'll sleep in the car tonight, okay." ”Shen Dayye let him rub his curly hair, and asked blankly, "Okay, how do you sleep?"
Is it a car for one person?
”Chen Xiaozhi: "Just put the front seat down." ”Then he put Shen Dayye's co-pilot down, and the girl sighed and looked at Chen Xiaozhi with a wink."
Shall we go back tomorrow morning?"
Shen Dayye rolled up his coat and asked.As soon as she finished asking, she suddenly had a feeling like she was on a spring outing for elementary school students, and there was an indescribable childishness.Chen Xiaozhi glanced at her in surprise.Then he said, "No going back." ”Shen Dayye: "......?"
”"You're not going to Washington?"
Chen Xiaozhi frowned: "Why am I sending you back?"
”Shen Daye: "............"
I didn't tell anyone, how did he know, how could he know everything, Senior Sister Shen was so confused, the next second Chen Xiaozhi flattened her seat, tucked her coat, and when she looked up, she saw Shen Dayye's skeptical look on whether you have installed a positioning system in my mobile phone."......"
Chen Xiaozhi said: "What do you think you are?"
”Shen Dayye was about to scold back, but Chen Xiaozhi said indifferently: "People's brain circuits are written in python, your brain circuit is a flow chart, and you don't know what you want to do after receiving that text message, do you think about it with your own feet?"
Don't you reflect on yourself?
”Shen Daye: "......"
Shen Dayye scolded and couldn't go back, he was hit hard, and took out his killer weapon tremblingly: "You are so fierce......"
At this time, Chen Xiao's anger didn't hit one place, and finally couldn't help it, he pressed Shen Dayye's saddle with one hand, flexed his middle finger, and bit her a brain meltdown.In a faint light, Shen Dayye curled up into a small ball, and cautiously raised his head to look at Professor Chen.The warm halo fell into the girl's eyes, reflecting the gentlest lake in the world, shaking the sweetest maple sugar, and even her breath was close at hand."......"
Professor Chen wanted to play Shen Dayye's brain-shattering hand, and hesitated for a moment.The spring buds burst out of the ground, and the man's heart tightened and scattered, like a hairy boy, and every cell clamoured to hug her, to kiss her.Still want to play her here, Chen Xiaozhi tried his best to tell himself that the surname Shen had swelled and broken, and it was a little bit away from the upper house to uncover the tiles.And in the next second, the surname Shen whispered: "......
Why?
”Chen Xiaozhi: "Huh?
”"You're going to kiss me now."
She said.After the girl finished speaking, her earlobes were red, like a flower falling in late spring.
-At that moment, Chen Xiaozhi couldn't even breathe steadily.Ten years, no, twenty years, they have had many kisses and many hugs, but on this snowy Christmas Eve, 25-year-old Professor Chen once again felt that he was a hairy boy who had not even held a girl's hand.Chen Xiaozhi was uncontrollable, lowered his head and kissed his green plum.He desperately restrained his breathing, his heart beating like thunder, as if there was only one girl left in the whole world that he was kissing; She is so delicate that she can't even kiss him, so she has to arch him a few times with her head.Lips parted, the girl's family rubbed her lips and whispered: "Just kiss such a small thing, why do you always want me to remind you." ”Professor Chen was so stunned that he couldn't even say a word."
You still said you would do it," Shen Dayye said angrily, "You can do a fart." ”Chen Xiaozhi turned his face away, his ears were red, and he ignored her.Shen Dayye didn't know what medicine he had taken wrong, and he laughed at him very childishly.Professor Chen ignored them all, Shen Dayye was speechless, and simply pulled a data cable from the bag brought by Chen Xiaozhi, and poked the phone on the side of the air conditioner to charge.Chen Xiaozhi suddenly said: "......
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Ye Ye, you really, really mind......
This one?
”Shen Dayye was taken aback: "Huh?
What did you say?
”"I ......
I mean," Chen Xiaozhi was entangled in every peak and trough: "That is, I don't touch you very much, and I don't like to kiss you very much." ”As he spoke, as if he was afraid that she would make trouble, he stretched out his hand and grabbed Shen Dayye's paw, and shook it gently.Shen Dayye: "......"
Shen Dayye thought to himself, this question is a good question, wow, I'll show you my PubMed search history, how about I don't hide from you, I'm already half an endocrinology and psychology expert......
But she resisted her vicious desire and replied sincerely, "Yes." ”"......"
"Do you mind a lot?"
Chen Xiaozhi asked absurdly.…… It's better for you to ask me this question than to ask my browser......
Shen Dayye restrained the second wave of vicious desires, and replied from the good stream: "That's right. ”Chen Xiaozhi was stunned."
I will definitely mind, how can I not go to my heart," Shen Dayye explained seriously: "-I like you, and that kind of liking has always been the same, I want to be with you for a long time, I want to be tired of being with you, I don't want to touch you and kiss you all the time, isn't it normal?"
”Chen Xiaozhi: "......""
--And when I think so," Shen Dayye was ashamed, but almost never so honest, and said: "I hope you have the same thoughts about me." ”He was speechless and looked at the girl next to him.Chen Xiaozhi was lying on the flat main driver's seat, and Shen Dayye was lying in the co-pilot, and the two were lying side by side, holding hands through the armrest box.The snow fell silently, and the windows were foggy.The girl took her boyfriend's hand and shook it, and said honestly: "So I used to deliberately lie in your office, touching you when I have nothing to do, hoping that you will open up one day." ”“……”“…… But you don't seem to have this impulse for me......"
Shen Dayye was a little aggrieved, and angrily snapped Chen Xiaozhi's fingers, and said, "Even if you pretend to want to kiss me and hug me, can't you?"
I don't even ask for any further information, I really doubt that we can-" Chen Xiaozhi said angrily: "What the hell, stop me!"
”Shen Dayye immediately got angry: "Why!
”"You-" Professor Chen was burned with anger, "You listen to this for yourself?"
I don't even have the impulse?
Yourself -- don't you see what you look like?
”Shen Dayye was aggrieved: "What's wrong with me, what's wrong with my small chest......
Oh!
”Chen Xiaozhi's hatred of iron is not steel, and he knocked her a chestnut.Shen Dayye covered his head and looked at him aggrievedly."
What the fuck does this have to do with bust," Professor Chen said in disbelief, "It doesn't matter at all."
Don't think too much, how can I ......"
He took a deep breath, barely audible under the falling snow, and said awkwardly, "......
How could I not want to hug ......
You. ”Shen Dayye blinked his eyes and motioned for him to continue.Chen Xiaozhi was silent for three seconds, decided that the wicked person would sue first, and roared in shame: "-What do you think of me as this?!"
”What are you angry about, of course it's VictimofWestermarckeffect,PatientofErectileDysfunction―probablycausedbymentalanxiety,intensivelylowleveloftestosterone, requiresmethyl-testosteroneintakesorevenintramuscularinjection…… Shen Daye's eyes flashed a long list of literature and diagnostic contents, holding back this string of nonsense such as Westmark Effect Erectile Dysfunction Intramuscular Methyltestosterone in his stomach, and facing Chen Xiaozhi, he showed an innocent, gentle and amiable sweet smile.Chen Xiaozhi narrowed his eyes and looked at her for three seconds, and said, "You checked the database." ”Shen Dayye shouted: "No!
”"If you check it, just wait."
Chen Xiaozhi mocked: "I can't kill you." ”Shen Dayye snorted and rolled over, you don't even dare to poke me with a finger, I believe you are a ghost......
Then he turned sideways and looked at Chen Xiaozhi who was next to her.The lights on the roof of the car were turned off, but the snow was shining brightly.The two of them looked at each other quietly in silence, Professor Chen's eyes were clear, reflecting the snow light, and the roots of his ears were flushed with shame."
So......"
Shen Dayye whispered in the night, "why?"
”Professor Chen was silent for a long time and said, "......
I always felt like I shouldn't have touched you. ”“？”
Chen Xiaozhi: "You......
It's so clean, it's the same as when you were a child, you may not notice it yourself, but ......
I......
Every time I even touch you, I feel ......"
His voice became ashamed: "......
They all feel as if they are defiling you. ”Shen Dayye chuckled."
-I'm afraid I'll scare you."
Chen Xiaozhi said almost inaudibly: "You have to be cautious even when you touch it, and you don't dare to be too fast......
What if you think I'm a pervert?
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That's why I want to take it one step at a time.How slow it was before, how slow it is now. ”It's like an ignorant and innocent boy when he was a student, and like an adventurer who has just opened the treasure box and doesn't even dare to touch the baby's feathers.His girl smiled sweetly and held out a hand to the bamboo horse."
Pull."
The girl said as if coaxing him.Professor Chen's ears were red, and he slowly reached out a hand and pinched his little green plum of the same year, interlocking her fingers.There will never be a more gentle and gentle hand-holding in this world.As soon as they held hands, the tumbleweeds turned into flocks of sheep on the snowfield, and a whole warm, leafy spring hatched under the snow."
You're blushing."
Qingmei Meimei's ears were red at the tips, but she said this to him.Professor Chen's voice was so low that he could barely be heard: "I know. ”Then he quietly leaned over and, in his spring, kissed his little green plum.Xiao Qingmei laughed, so he couldn't help laughing, and the roots of his ears were sunburned like red insects."
Shall we go further?"
The girl said to him softly and sweetly.Chen Xiaozhi said: "......
Good. ”So they hugged in the night when the snow was falling, the girl smelled like some kind of fruit candy, Chen Xiaozhi rubbed the corners of her forehead obsessively, felt the girl's arms around his neck, and leaned up to kiss his lips like a coquette."
Why is your cat called?"
After the girl kissed him, she hugged his shoulder and whispered.Chen Xiaozhi didn't answer, just hugged her.
-A layer of white fog rises from the jeep window, and the shadows are so dense that you can't see clearly.……………… After a long time.“…… Go to sleep. ”Chen Xiaozhi was drowsy and gently stroked the back of Shen Dayye's head.Xiao Qingmei was extremely comfortable with Shun Mao, her eyes couldn't be opened, and she gave a vague sigh.On Christmas Eve, the snow was like goose feathers.Heaven and earth are quiet, and a pair of warm lovers sleep in them.