At that time, he was really stupid, but he also really loved, as long as it was good for him, even if he was wronged, he had to fulfill it for him. gave up his principles, gave up his bottom line, and watched him welcome women into the harem, become his concubines, and become the women sleeping beside him.
Falling in love with Yan Jiuming, she is no longer the original Qin Xuanji.
Perhaps, this is the root of the tragedy of her life.
Yan Jiuming was silent for a long time, sitting in the light and shadow and not speaking for a long time, so long that Chongmen Huan thought that he would not speak again.
In the end, he still opened his mouth, his voice was light and ethereal, as if he couldn't grasp the slightest emotion at all: "Loving someone in my life was also my wish when I was a teenager." ” Chongmen Huan looked at the man's side face, with thousands of thoughts in his heart, and there was unspeakable hatred, he loved one person in his life, Yan Jiuming, who have you really loved?
He probably spent his whole life, but he loved himself.
"Born in the royal family, many things are involuntarily, everyone told me that royal people can't have feelings, and if they have feelings, they will become a wreck!"
When Yan Jiuming said these words slowly, there was a faint smile on his lips, as if he was saying something that made him very happy.
Even though this is just a past that he rarely mentions, now that he suddenly found someone to listen to, he felt that he was back in the past, he was still the depressed teenager, the woman, and the most beautiful appearance.
They never seem to have changed.
"The queen mother told me that if you want to change your fate, control your life in your own hands, and not be swayed by others, you have to be the emperor.
Chongmen Huan was a little dazed, he didn't know why Yan Jiuming suddenly said these things to her, there seemed to be a long distance between her and him, were they suitable to talk about this topic?
However, Yan Jiuming didn't give her a choice, she just needed to listen to him quietly, maybe this man just wanted to find someone to talk to.
With this mentality, she stopped talking, always maintained a friendly smile, and listened just right, anyway, it was just someone else's story, and it had nothing to do with her!
Yan Jiuming didn't seem to notice that Chongmen Huan hadn't spoken all the time, and continued to take care of himself: "However, when I really sat in this position, the power was in my hands, and the world was under my feet, I found that in fact, these things couldn't fill the emptiness and helplessness in my heart at all, and I couldn't do anything. ” If power can heal people's hearts, their hearts will not always hurt until now.
It's a pity that he understood too late!
There were some ripples in Chongmenhuan's heart, in her memory, even when Qin Xuanji was in her time, she had never heard him say these words.
It seems that Yan Jiuming at that time, everything is fine, there are not so many thoughts in her heart, and she has never asked him these questions, so she feels that everything is fine.
It turns out that everyone, no matter how beautiful and beautiful, no matter how powerful they are, have emotions in their hearts that others can't know, and Yan Jiuming is the emperor, and no one cares about his emotions.
What people care about is his power, his means, and the benefits they get from him.