As soon as he got up from the sofa, Qin Fei saw several strong men carrying a bullet clip with a huge black zipper pocket on it, applying to come out of the room on the first floor seriously.The Britons were members of the I17's logistical support unit, and the black pockets they were carrying were actually body bags.What was in it was very clear to Qin Fei and Mister.It's Joyce.Several men carried Joyce's body directly into the garage and put it in a large van they had driven.George walked out of the equipment room next to the garage and stood by the door, looking sad and lonely.Miste struggled to get up from the couch and limped to George with Qin Fei.A couple of brawny men cautiously opened the back door of the van and lifted Joyce into the car.A faint sadness permeated the air silently.The car door closed, the electric roller shutter slowly rose, and in the dim garage, Qin Fei saw something shiny in the corner of George's eyes flickering.The technical officer suddenly raised his hand and saluted.Almost subconsciously, Mister and Qin Fei also raised their hands and saluted.For dead servicemen, this is the simplest and most direct way to show their respect.The car left the safe house, the gate closed, the garage door roller shutter was lowered again, and everything was dark again.Qin Fei wanted to comfort George, but he couldn't speak.George stood stupidly by the door for a moment, then turned around and returned to the equipment room."
I'm going to make a call."
Qin Fei repeated this sentence again.Mister shrugged and didn't speak, as if silence was better than sound at this time.Qin Fei went upstairs, returned to his room, took out his satellite phone and dialed Old Man An's number."
Old man, I didn't disturb your rest so late, did you?""
No, I haven't slept tonight.I received the latest intelligence briefing from there, saying that I17 and an American mysterious operation unit are fighting in the Soweto area, and you have reported your whereabouts before, so I guess it will be related to you, but I did not receive your request for support beforehand, so it is inconvenient to send people, for fear of ruining your plan.Call me now, do you need my help?
”Old man Ann is always well-informed."
yes, almost died."
Qin Fei smiled bitterly, and Joyce suddenly sounded.There was silence on the other end of the line.After a while, Old Man An said: "Boy, I know that I have wronged you, and I also know that you are under more pressure and danger than anyone in Unit 203, so as long as you need it, I can immediately send the most elite forces to support you." ”"No, you don't need too obvious support."
Qin Fei said: "I work well with the ghost group, too much publicity will affect my plan, and others will doubt my identity." ”"You're right, that's why I don't dare to meddle in all your affairs, you're now a kite that goes out independently, and because of this, you have the greatest freedom of all people, except for me and the people of Unit 203, no one knows your identity, if you have too much contact with us, it won't do you any good, at least ......"
Old Man An sighed and said: "At least a top-secret operation department like i17 won't cooperate with you." ”"yes, they trust me now.""
Well, after all, they are people who have experienced life and death together."
Old Man An heard that Qin Fei's tone was slightly depressed, so he asked, "You seem to be in a bad mood." ”"Yes, a female officer died in i17 tonight, and a lieutenant was shot and is currently being rescued in a safe house, I don't know if I can survive, my injuries are very ......serious," Qin Fei said.Old Man An said, "I understand......
Have you ever been injured yourself?
”"A little skin wound, just a stray bullet, it's not a big deal."
Qin Fei remembered the almost close-range shooting in the darkness of the police station, Qin Fei didn't think too much about it at that time, and he didn't have time to think too much, he just gave it a go to survive, but in the car that came back, the more Qin Fei thought about it, the more afraid he became, shooting at each other in such a small place, and he was able to pick up a life that was smoked from the ancestral grave."
Old man, I'm under a lot of pressure......"
Qin Fei sat in his chair and looked up at the night sky outside the window not far in front of him.The pressures we have been facing recently are suddenly surging from all directions like a tide.The feeling of being caught in a spider's web made him suddenly feel so powerless.Qin Fei considers himself a very confident person, and he believes that he can cope with any situation he faces.This can also be said to be a kind of stubbornness and self-esteem.He always felt that he couldn't lose his face, his father's face, and even more so the army's face.My father endured humiliation and endured infamy, and under Fan Tianlong's subordinates, he had been collecting intelligence for so many years, what was it difficult for him to be compared to others?
However, at this moment, he really felt the pressure."
Is there any difficulty?"
Old Man An was obviously surprised by Qin Fei's performance, at least after Qin Fei left Unit 203 and left Country Z to assume the role of the current free man on his own, he had never been so depressed, and he had never tried to be so depressed."
Or is it because you see someone else's death and you're afraid of death?""
I'm not afraid of death!"
Qin Fei shook his head and said, "I just feel powerless. ”He sighed and talked about the complexity he was facing, the unknown difficulties faced by the cornerstone project, the i17, i6 and the Colombian side, and the doubts he had always had about the forces behind Mister.I said this for more than ten minutes.Old Man An listened quietly and did not interrupt Qin Fei once.He suddenly realized that he had always regarded Qin Fei as an omnipotent special forces soldier in the past, but he had forgotten that Qin Fei was just a young man in his twenties.If he wants to bear so much pressure, maybe he really thinks too highly of Qin Fei."
Old man, I used to think that I was just a good soldier, my duty was only to obey orders, but now I find that I must make judgments and choices, otherwise someone will be like Joyce, I have never understood why their commander, the major named Michelle, always looks like a stressful person, and now I know that it is not because we are afraid of death, it is not difficult for us to be not afraid of death, but it is difficult for you to carry everyone's lives and responsibilities on your own shoulders, If you make any mistake in the slightest plan, someone will die because of it......"
"Qin Fei, this is the difference between a soldier and a commander. ”Old man An said: "I was indeed a little selfish in the past, I have never tried to care for you from this aspect, you chose this path, I didn't give you enough psychological adjustment, originally last time you returned to China, I really shouldn't have talked to you for one night, I should have had a good talk with you."
Warrior and commander, are two different concepts, as you said, the soldier only needs to obey the order, and the commander you have to consider the overall situation, you have to take responsibility, especially all the heads of your subordinates are in your hands, grandpa is a person who has come over, in the past, grandpa also came from a soldier to a general, I also tried to fight a battle, win is win, but many soldiers died, I stood next to the remains of the soldiers and cried loudly, crying so much that I almost fainted with black eyes, I did not have the joy of victory at all, I can only blame myself for the command, and I will think that if my offensive plan is a little better, a little more appropriate, maybe I don't rush to attack, and everything will be better......"
As he spoke, the old man himself seemed to have passed through a time tunnel, back to the days when Rong Ma was in good years, on the battlefield filled with gunpowder......
"The faces of those soldiers appear in my dreams every night, some of them I can remember names, some of them I don't even know names......
They came and went, walked and came, they were all smiling at me, but no one scolded me, I actually wanted them to scold me, scold me fiercely, poke my nose and scold......
But there is no ......"
Old Man An's snort became thicker, as if he was trying his best to suppress the emotions rolling in his chest.Finally, with a long sigh, the old man continued: "But then I figured out that this is the price you must pay as a commander, my old boss once told me that if you are like this in every battle, then you will crush yourself first, it will be easier to be timid, make more wrong choices, and die more people, or, if you quit and do not be this commander, you can choose not to do it!"
But if you're going to do it, then believe in yourself, travel light, and don't hesitate to make what you think is the most accurate choice in the most critical moment, no one can help you!
If you want to be a hero, you must have the consciousness of being a hero, heroes are lonely, why are you lonely, not because heroes are cold-blooded, but because heroes must choose to take a lonely road, so that it is good for themselves and others!
”"Qin Fei, the road is your own choice, if you think you still want to do it, just continue to do it, do it well, don't do it, you say, I will approve you to leave immediately, you can choose to make an appointment to be your mercenary leader, or you can choose to return to China to continue to serve in the army, I can do it for you, but remember my words, from today on, let go of those pressures that you shouldn't bear, don't let it crush you!""
Tell me!
Do you do it, or don't you do it!?
”Old man An's words shocked and sobered Qin Fei like a morning bell, this old man who had participated in several major battles explained the truth in the most direct and popular words, not talking about theories, not talking about doctrines, and penetrating people's hearts!"!
I, Qin Fei, have never done things halfway, and I haven't given up halfway!
If you say you will do it, you will do it to the end!
If I don't destroy the Black Sun, I, Qin Fei, won't return to China!
”Qin Fei heard the kind of gratifying sound of his teeth biting, and this sentence was squeezed out of between his teeth.