"When I was a kid, I tried an accident and almost died."
Xu Wu stared at the place, did not move, as if penetrating some space, returned to memory, a full few minutes before saying: "There is a well in my hometown, it is a dry well, the children in the village like to go there to play, but once I was very unlucky, when I was five years old, I went to the well to play accidentally fell into the well, at that time, can only be described with a sentence called heaven should not be, called earth is not spiritual." ” "At the bottom of the well, I was sleepy for more than ten hours, until my parents found out that I had not been home since the day, and then they mobilized the people of the village to come out to look for me, and when they found me in the dry well, I was already collapsed, because of fear and because of hunger."
Qin Fei listened quietly, Xu Wu's personal experience must be related to his subsequent story.
In childhood, if you suffer from Xu Wu's experience, the blow to your soul may be fatal.
"But luckily I recovered quickly and there were no major problems, and a few days later I was alive and kicking around again, and it seemed to be a thing of the past."
He shook his head with a wry smile.
"It wasn't until high school, when I went to the city with my father to run errands, and when I got to a building, it was the first time I took the elevator, and it was this time that I realized that I was a little different from ordinary people......
"When I first stepped into the elevator, I felt like I was sweating all over my body and my heart was beating faster, as if the walls of the elevator were squeezing against me.
The moment the elevator door closed, I collapsed, I felt like I couldn't breathe, I was about to suffocate, I was so loud in the elevator that I almost cried. ” Qin Fei blurted out: "Was it that you were frightened in the well when you were a child, and you developed claustrophobia?"
” Xu Wu nodded: "That's right, my father took me to the doctor later, and I heard this word from the doctor for the first time." ” After a pause, Xu Wu said again: "However, my father is relieved, and I didn't take it to heart, after all, my claustrophobia is not serious, unless I go to a confined space, there will be no problems under normal circumstances, so I didn't pay attention to it, anyway, there is no elevator in the countryside, I didn't think I would go to work in a big city back then, so I didn't care about it anymore." ” Qin Fei seemed to understand in his heart that Xu Wu's elimination was probably directly related to this mental illness.
But now in the submarine, why is he like no one?
"Lao Xu, your illness ......"
"Do you mean now?
Why is it okay in a submarine?
” Qin Fei said: "Yes, if you will be uncomfortable in the elevator, then you will definitely not be able to stay in the submarine, but I think you are fine." ” "Let's talk about why I was able to participate in the second audition."
Xu Wu said: "The first time I participated in the selection training, He Ping passed, I was eliminated in this link, and I didn't even dare to go to the submarine......
As soon as I came up, I was very scared, let alone doing any climbing training, and I couldn't even walk.
When I was in the brigade, underwater training was not a compulsory subject, and the captain felt that although I had problems in this area, I was excellent in other places, so he didn't force me to participate in this kind of training......"
"That's how you got knocked out?"
Qin Fei asked.
Xu Wu nodded and said, "That's right, that's it, I chose to quit and returned to the original army." ” "But ......"
"But why are you here now?"
"Hmm."
"Originally, a student who was unsuccessful in the election, plus he also has mental illness, it is impossible to have a chance to return here."
Xu Wu said: "This is what I just told you, the unwritten rule about Unit 203. ” "What does that rule mean?"
Xu Wu covered his face in pain, his shoulders twitched a few times, and finally he had to take a few deep breaths to stabilize his emotions.
"The rule is that if a member of Unit 203 dies, the requirements mentioned in his previous will can be met as long as they are not excessive......"
Qin Fei's heart was shocked, he seemed to have guessed something, but he was unwilling to say it.
"He Ping died, in a mission.
In his will, there is a special clause that asks the army to give me a second chance, and he knows that I really want to join Unit 203, but I don't have a chance......"
"When Team Ray came to me with this will, I looked at it......
I grew so big, I didn't cry once, when I was a child, my father took a rattan to whip me, I didn't cry, in the army, I suffered several times the hardship of everyone to win the title of 'gun king', in order to train to shoot quickly, the skin on my tiger's mouth has been worn off a few layers, I didn't cry, the military region competition, I applied tactics to win the first place, no one knew that I wore out 7 sets of camouflage uniforms, elbows, knees were worn out, I didn't cry; I held He Ping's suicide note that day, and I cried for a whole day......
My dear comrade-in-arms......
That stupid comrade-in-arms of mine......
He didn't ask for anything for himself, but asked Unit 203 to open a back door for me so that I could have a second chance to run for election......"
Xu Wu couldn't control his emotions anymore, and covered his face and sobbed.
Qin Fei's throat was like a piece of lead, unspeakably uncomfortable, and the corners of his eyes were already wet unconsciously.
Xu Wu did not describe the comradeship between him and He Ping, but just by looking at this article in He Ping's will, you can know how deep the relationship between the two is.
Between them, it is the kind of real friendship between life and death, needless to say, just silently in the bottom of your heart.
I trust you as I trust my own hand; I care about you as much as I care about my own life; If you live well, I feel that everything in the world is beautiful.
Exercise!
Qin Fei secretly scolded himself, originally felt that after experiencing his father's affairs, he already had enough ability to resist emotionally, but he didn't expect Xu Wu's story to break his defense line in an instant.
"Lao Xu, don't be sad, I don't think you will disappoint He Ping, don't you get through to this now?
What's more, you're in a submarine now, aren't you fine?
” "In order to be worthy of He Ping, I ordered myself to overcome this phobia and break this psychological barrier.
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After the Lei team left, I began to train myself, I don't need any psychiatrist, I told myself, since He Ping used his life to give me a chance, then even if I don't want to die, I must give this broken disease to customer service, not to mention what kind of fucking mental illness, even if it is cancer, He Ping let me not die, I have to live desperately!
” "Lao Xu!
You can do it!
” "Now it seems that it is no problem to enter the submarine."
Xu Wu said: "I spent a year, and when I was fine, I asked my comrades in the team to lock me in a small private room in the middle of the night, and from there, the space was reduced to the pit for our training, those narrow pits, I specially made two iron doors, so that people could lock me in if they were fine, and I stayed for a whole day, and finally let people grasp the big iron box containing equipment, no matter how I shouted, I would never open the door, and I would not open it until the point." ” "Now it seems that it is very effective."
Qin Fei said.
Xu Wudao: "For the time being, it seems like this, but the day after tomorrow climbing tube training, I have always been at the bottom of my heart, you must know that the climbing tube must be at least 30 meters underwater, maybe the standard of Unit 203 is higher, the pipeline is 8 meters, the width is only 533 mm, and the body has to carry a diving suit, it is a long process to climb out from there, you can only pick the trough wall of the torpedo tube a little bit to advance, underwater, that terrible silence is not comparable on land......"
He sighed and wiped the tears from the corners of his eyes.
"What worries me the most is that I can't climb into the pipe and can only drown in it......
Team Lei also talked to me privately, and he said that my situation would be very risky, and maybe I would die......"
"And how do you decide?"
Qin Fei asked.
"I told him that if I want to sign a life and death certificate, I can do anything, but if I want to give up, I only have two words - never!
If I die, I will die on the training ground!
Otherwise, even if I go to Huangquan, I don't have the face to see He Ping!
”