"Miss, it's raining heavily again in City A today.""
Hmm" Sitting at the Western-style dining table, I lowered my head slightly, flipped through a fashion magazine, and responded to Aunt Ann in a light tone."
Miss, breakfast is going to be cold, let's eat something while it's hot to fill your stomach."
Aunt An walked to the window unhurriedly, looked at the gloomy sky outside the window, sighed slightly, and closed the window.Looking at the soy milk and fritters on the table, I frowned slightly, knocked on the table one by one, and felt a little bored: "What about Su Zhiyang?"
"Miss Hui, the master will go out at about seven o'clock today." ”Aunt Ann cautiously walked up to me and bowed her head deeply, looking very low.I pursed my lips, closed the magazine with one hand, took a bite of the fritters, and said to Aunt An with some dissatisfaction: "Aunt An, prepare a hot milk for me." ”Aunt An nodded, and walked into the kitchen with a slight hunched back movement very slowly, and began to get busy again.Looking at Aunt An's back, I pursed my mouth, got up and walked to the window, resisted the urge to cry, and took out my mobile phone to dial Gu Xi's number.It took a long time for the phone to be connected, and the noise of the heavy rain inside was very loud, and Gu Xi's inquiry was buried in the sound of the rain and was a little inaudible, which made me a little irritable intermittently."
Su Han, what's wrong with me" was Gu Xi's extremely laborious voice, and I understood that he was shouting to answer the phone at this time, but the voice coming through the mobile phone was drowned out by the heavy rain."
You're out there," I scratched my hair irritably, leaning my phone closer and listening."
The water has risen here, so I took a leave of absence from school, and I plan to go to the hospital to see Aunt Shang."
The sound of rain on the phone gradually became quieter, and I thought Gu Xi had found a quiet place to answer the phone with me.I opened the window, and the cold wind poured in and my face ached, and I choked up and whispered to him, "Ah Xi take care of her." ”"Don't worry, it's okay to be alone over there.""
Okay" I wiped my wet eyes, hung up, and looked out the window distractedly.I saw that the gray sky did not know when it began to drizzle, and it fell unexpectedly softly on the branches, like a feather slipping without a sound, and the sea of people in the mist, my memory became profound.It was as if the travelers of the old times had brought back the happiness I wanted, but it was just a dream."
Miss, the milk is ready."
Aunt An's voice pulled my thoughts back, I wiped the tears from the corners of my eyes in a panic, turned around and smiled hard at Aunt An, and whispered "thank you" to her."
Miss, why are your eyes red?"
"Aunt An, it's windy outside, and my eyes hurt." ”I closed the window again with my back to Aunt Ann as if I was running away, but my stubbornness suddenly collapsed, I trembled, and finally broke out and cried bitterly.Aunt An ran up from behind in a panic, hugged me who was about to fall, and said distressedly: "Miss don't cry, everything will pass." ”"Well, it's the rancid smell of the dead fish that year."
The once familiar whisper sounded in my ears, and I hurriedly covered my mouth, trying not to let myself cry and plead, and all my strength collapsed in an instant.I'm sorry I owe you and her a sorry all the time."
Han Xi, do you believe in the schools of fish on the bottom of the sea, I believe that the other side of the schools of fish must have their own destiny.""
Han Xi, your father really loves you very much, the light after waking up, with a slightly drunken tenderness, is your most beautiful name.""
Han Xi, if one day we are separated, you must be strong alone, because you are so confident."
When I first woke up from a dream, I suddenly opened my eyes and looked at the familiar living room, empty and filled with a faint smell of milk, I smiled bitterly and wiped the tears from my face.Draped over a thin blanket that Aunt Ann had brought out, and the faint scent of lavender remained, I sat up from the couch and walked into the kitchen.The soup was still simmering on the gas, and Aunt An took a stool against the wall and took a nap, she was over half a hundred years old, she had begun to fall asleep, and the rough hair around her ears had turned white.I walked up to Aunt Ann softly, draped the blanket in my arms over her, carefully turned off the gas, and returned to my room.The room with light blue walls has a simple layout, a small beige closet with clothes hanging from common clothes, a bookcase of just the right size in the corner, and only a Cinderella doll lying quietly on the gray and white bed.A simple wooden writing desk was messily placed with one or two unfinished books, water-based pens poured haphazardly on scratch paper, and a few delicate words were written on the ink that had long since dried up: awake, slightly drunk, bright.Slowly coming to the desk, I pulled out a chair and sat quietly, looking at the mint grass on the windowsill in amazement, and finally lay on the table and sobbed quietly.In the first locked drawer on the left, there are still photos of the year and notes written down back then, but I no longer have the courage to open them, and I don't have the courage to face the bleak memories of the old days.I hate cowardly and hypocritical self, useless and only know how to escape.That was the first time I saw that in addition to me, there were other girls standing next to Xu Cheng, and there were girls who were even better than me.Since the fight, I haven't been looking for Xu Cheng for a few days, although there have been a few times when I can't help but miss him very much, but in the end I endured it.And I didn't take the initiative to go to him, and he didn't say anything he wanted to see me, and our relationship seemed to become even more delicate than before, and the indescribable feeling only felt subtle.In the chat history on my phone, there is still a "good night" I sent last night, and there has been no response for a long time.No matter what happens, I always give him a "good night" every day, and Xu Cheng has never replied to me since he was hospitalized.It's not that I like to pursue the ambiguity of saying goodnight to each other online, but I like the simplicity and truth of simple greetings.The bus stopped at the platform, and I saw the girl holding Xu Cheng's arm, with a cold face without any expression, it was just a big iceberg with a poker face.And he was not angry when he was indifferent, on the contrary, he kept pleasing her, making her laugh with a grimace, even if he clearly understood that it was meaningless.Xu Cheng, when have you been so humble, you are so humble in front of her at this moment, have you ever thought that I would be humble behind your back.I suddenly remembered what Er Cheng said to me, you are such a person who refuses to bow your head, why should you be humble to Xu Cheng Are you still the Su Hanxi we know, my heart suddenly became bitter, and I was a little envious of her next to you, just because she could be so close to you, I was very envious.Sitting on the bus, I watched you walk hand in hand, and I became more and more sad.There was a cramp in my stomach, cold sweat began to slide down non-stop, I bit my lip stubbornly, and stubbornly didn't shout with a cold face, and when I reacted back and wanted to get off the bus to find Xu Cheng, the bus was already running slowly, like a bomb in an instant.I held back the discomfort in my stomach and kept banging on the car window with tears in my eyes, trying to let you see me in the car.I desperately screamed for the driver to stop, wanted to jump out of the car and run to you, slapped the woman unreasonably, and then scolded you angrily, and finally waited for you to coax me, trying to make me angry by all means.At that moment, I realized that I had always thought that the most indispensable time was at this time, but I desperately wanted this minute and second.I want to use this short minute and second to run to you, to make trouble in front of you and then see that you are helpless.Looking at your disappearing figure, my eyes were wet, and my hands were put down in despair, without a trace of strength.With trembling hands, I only felt that the one I loved the most and didn't want to break had gone away from me.Xu Cheng, I only understood at this moment that between you and me, I was really afraid of the distance between the mountains and the sea of people.Just because I'm in the car and you're under the car, I can't run to you, not to mention the crowds in the future, how can I hold you tightly and not let go of Xu Cheng, it turns out that I don't just like you.I have always thought that I Su Hanxi is who, where is I Su Hanxi not worthy of your Xu Cheng's love But you really don't love me.You are so good, how can there be no beautiful and excellent girls around you, I, Su Hanxi, am at best a bad girl, a slut who will be scolded by others, and it is a well-known "heresy" in the eyes of everyone, the kind of "heresy" that I have to contact if I can have less contact.That's right, what do I say I like, and what qualifications can stand by your side, as a matter of course, I leaned against the window of the car and cried loudly, the concerned questions of people in my ears and the people watching the jokes in my cold eyes are so ironic, when will it be my turn to be pitied and laughed at, the bus slowly stopped, I hurriedly pushed away the person in front of me regardless of the image, stumbled out of the car, and ran in the direction you left, but I couldn't see you anymore.In the crowded and noisy streets, I can no longer find the figure I have loved for a long time.I sat on the ground in a daze, looking at the passers-by in distraction, none of them were you, none of them.Xu Cheng, I fell behind you, why don't you come back to me, even if I get out of the car and get under the car with you, I still can't catch you.Even if you're right before me, I can't hug you.It turns out that the feeling of heartache can be so painful xu cheng i don t want to hurt anymore can you come back to me when did i start I became so hypocritical xu cheng is it really over like this we obviously haven't started yet, obviously haven't told you yet.I like you.I really like you
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