"Beixi, can you accompany me for Christmas Eve in a few days This is my last request, can you promise me to accompany me for Christmas Eve, and after I finish Christmas Eve, I will let go."
I looked at the mirror and practiced the words I had repeated hundreds of times, and tried to pull the corners of my mouth, but I still couldn't laugh.A chill from the touch of the smooth mirror, the coldness that conveyed from my fingertips to my heart, made me sobble quietly.The word "let go" is how difficult it must be to open your mouth.I can really do it again, and the moment I willingly let go, the phone was connected, I was confused, and I couldn't help but hesitate.The moment you say it, it's one thing to say yes or no, and it's more likely to keep all relationships going on.The familiar voice of inquiry came from the "Sunny Day" phone, which was still as beautiful and soft as before."
Beixi, I think I should let go."
Looking at myself in the mirror, I smiled softly and bitterly, with neat short hair, lined with youthful vigor.In the mirror, I lost my initial inferiority complex and cowardice, and began to become confident and determined, but it was also contrary to the beauty I imagined.I gradually became the most disgusting of myself, but I selfishly loved such a self, hated myself on the one hand, and felt sorry for myself on the other, and refused to let myself suffer a little grievance.Why did I become such an embarrassed appearance, and why did I become so ugly, and the light was so distant and luxurious to me."
What" "Beixi, I'm going to let go, so can you spend Christmas Eve with me This is my only request." ”I searched for memories of the past, pinched my face as he had done, and reached out and pinched my own face.Qingtian, you are so stupid, Qingtian, you are so cute Qingtian, you must be brave to laugh Qingtian, let's be friends, I will cover your "Okay." ”I hung up the phone gently, but I didn't feel the slightest joy at his readily agreed.I lay down on my desk, buried my head in my arms, and finally cried out loud.My world began to get dark and began to crumble.I can't let go, and I don't have the heart to play tricks anymore.Looking at the empty dormitory with tears in my eyes, I laughed bitterly at myself, one of the original six people went to prison, and the rest avoided me.Until now, I'm the only one living in this dormitory.After breaking off my friendship with Han Xi that day, I was more or less scared, afraid that Han Xi or Xu Xian would come to me for trouble.But apparently I'm thinking too much, and they're probably not even looking at me now.Coming to this point where there was no way back, what did I lose and what did I gainOn Christmas Eve, I got up early in the morning and dressed up carefully.Even though I can't escape the ordinary, no matter how much I dress, I also want to stand beautifully next to the north seat.At this moment, I suddenly got tired of wearing heavy makeup.I simply drew my eyebrows, and I only put a little lipstick on my lips, and my plain face was a little delicate.I reached down and removed the dark blue studs from my ears and ended up throwing them in the trash and replacing them with black sanitizer sticks.I wore a pale blue plaid dress and quietly looked at myself in the mirror.It was as if I had returned to before, but the confidence in my eyebrows convinced me that I had changed.Taking a deep breath, I picked up my phone and walked out of the dormitory building, it was bright outside, and the warm soft light made me stunned.It has been raining since the beginning of autumn, and it is rare to see such a brilliant sunny day.I sighed helplessly, today is both the beginning and the end.After arriving at the agreed place with Beixi, I saw that he arrived early, and his tall figure stood on the platform, attracting a lot of attention.He leaned on the platform, tilting his head slightly and tapping on the screen of his mobile phone, the broken shadow of the sun shining on him softly.There was a faint smile on his lips, a touch of affection flowed from time to time in a pair of peach blossom eyes, and his slender fingers were clear and soft in the light.In the warm winter sun, his hair shimmered with a faint glow, and the warm breeze blew slightly, raising his smooth forehead.With a faint smile on his angular face, he stood there like a brilliant model.As if sensing my gaze, he squinted his eyes slightly and raised his head slightly, waved his hand to greet me: "Sunny day, here" I pursed my lips, a little selfishly I don't want others to be able to share with Beixi, but I am not qualified.Secretly disappointed, I slowly walked towards the north seat.Seeing me approaching, Beixi put away his mobile phone and glanced at me, reached out and took off his coat for me to put on, with a hint of tenderness in his tone without blame: "Fortunately, I added a coat today, otherwise you will wait to smoke your snot and walk around." ”I chuckled softly and put my arm around him.Seeing that he didn't mean to refuse, I asked him mischievously: "It seems that you have calculated that I won't wear too much" Beixi turned his face lightly, his eyes were instantly dyed with a sense of loss, his thin lips opened and closed to speak, and finally he spoke: "She always has to be demeanor and not temperature, I can't bear to let her catch a cold and feel uncomfortable, but I can't help."
So I'm used to wearing a coat every time I go out, and if I run into her, I give her the coat. ”"Actually, I hesitated to bring it today, but then I thought about it if I met her, so I would give it to her.As a result, I gave it to you if you wore less, but you girls are too willful and always don't take care of your body. ”I hugged Beixi's arm even tighter, saying that it was fake not to be lost, who likes to go out to play with the person he likes, but he kept talking about other girls The original joke actually made me reacquaint myself with Beixi's infatuation with Han Xi.And I, it turned out that I had always been his gentle spare tire."
What about Han Xi" I asked him cautiously, and I felt that I was simply a scumbag, and I went to ask him about Han Xi."
She said she was alone tomorrow for Christmas, so she was going to go crazy as much as she wanted on Christmas Eve today, so she left me alone."
Beixi hooked the corners of his mouth hypocritically, as if he wanted to make himself really happy."
Don't talk about Han Xi, you belong to me today."
I quietly changed the subject, but my heart was close to breaking down.How could I not know that the pain of unrequited love is as long as the other party is a little ambiguous about you, you can't wait to take out your own heart and tell the other party how much you love.Even longing for the other party's participation every day, the possessiveness is so strong that the other party only has you in their eyes.I think that Han Xi has never loved her, so she rejected Beixi so ruthlessly, but I was lucky that she rejected Beixi."
I said you girls are too small-bellied, why do you have to be so clear."
Beixi was amused by my words, and reached out and scratched my nose in amusement.I grabbed Beixi's hand with my backhand and bit him punitively on his index finger, so intimate that passers-by thought we were a couple.Beixi, it's only because this person is you that Han Xi and I are so clear.Whether she loves it or not, she never thinks of letting you go.As for my decision, it also began to waver.After a round of the city as if it were not a lover, it was already dark.Beixi quietly took my hand and walked through the crowd before finally stopping in front of a boutique.I walked in with my diameter, raised my eyebrows wickedly, and told me that I would definitely send apples and flowers on Christmas Eve, so as to show my sincerity.I laughed but didn't say anything, and he didn't dwell on the issue too much, and after walking around the boutique, I finally bought two bouquets of paper folded flowers.The paper folded flower has candy inside, and underneath the flower is a crystal apple, which is extremely beautiful.After walking out of the boutique, he handed me a bouquet of flowers and said to me with a wicked smile, Happy Christmas Eve.I took the beautiful bouquet of flowers, shyly replied to him with a "Happy Christmas Eve", and said to myself in my heart, I am really happy to have you by my side.When I came to sit down on a bench in the park, the evening breeze was a little cold, but I coveted the time I spent with Beixi, even though he was about to leave me.Just as Cinderella is afraid that the bell will ring at midnight, I am also afraid of the arrival of midnight, because it tells me that Beixi is going back to find Han Xi.The atmosphere was a little awkward, and I laughed wryly and asked him about my liking for Han Xi.I regretted that I didn't open any pot and which pot I didn't mention, but Beixi laughed softly, and he smiled softly and said gently: "Like her is as sweet as eating watermelon." ”"Apples, watermelons, strawberries, oranges, pineapples, bananas, lemons, do you like me or do you like me more," he paused, looked up at the dark sky and continued, "That's how she used to ask me, and when I replied to her that it was watermelon, I hid my liking for her in my heart and didn't say it. ”I looked at Beixi in a daze, he was such a person, only when he talked about his Su Han or saw her Su Han, he would show a long affection and doting.I lowered my head sadly and asked him sullenly how he fell in love with Han Xi."
I don't know how I like her, I just know that when I like her, I start to care about her and everything else except me.I like her, but I can't accept that she treats me the same way she does to everyone else. ”"I don't care about her strengths and weaknesses, but I care about how intimate she is with others than I am.""
She really doesn't have anything to like, but if I like her, I think everything about her is a reason to like it."
I hugged my knees in frustration, regretting that I had asked these words, only to end up being sad.He reached out and touched my head, and said softly to me, "Sunny day, you are my most beautiful and best story, but we can't. ”"Beixi, if I meet you first, will you like me" I looked up expectantly, eager to hear him answer in the affirmative."
I'm sorry on a sunny day."
Why do you want to say I'm sorry, why do you still say that we can't be after saying that I am the most beautiful and best story for you Beixi, why are you tortured so cruelly, I like you Beixi sighed softly, looked at me complicatedly and said to me: "Sunny day, I'm going back." ”"Okay."
Beixi got up and picked up a bouquet of flowers, a little complicated and hesitant, but finally hugged me gently.The soft words hit the heart-beating string, but it was extremely painful: "Sunny day, you are beautiful today." ”I sniffed the faint fragrance of the paper flowers in a distracted manner, and wanted to hug Beixi, but he left first, turned around and left without nostalgia.With tears of grievance and sadness, I bit my lip and shouted at his back: "Beixi, your coat" He stopped and turned to look at me, trying to smile easily, but hooked a touch of far-fetchedness, he said: "Sunny day, today's coat is extra borrowed from you." ”"Okay."
Looking at the departing figure of Bei Xi gradually disappearing, the hot tears in the winter night fell on the back of his hand, the pain and burning.Beixi, no matter how hard I try, I can't have you You hide it very well, but I like you so much, how can I not catch it, in the boutique, the watermelon hair ring you secretly bought I think, the moment you bought it, my mind was full of your Su Han, and the beautiful Su Han with a high ponytail was tied up.You say, liking her is as sweet as eating watermelon
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