"Sohan, what do you like" "I like all who like me. ”What a selfish statement.She is so selfish that she only has herself in her eyes, and she only likes her own Su Han.It wasn't until a long, long time later, when I asked Su Han again what you like, that she no longer had the same radiant energy and innate confidence as before.She clutched her long messy hair decadently, and under the black eyeshadow she cried and wore makeup, her red and swollen eyes and the dark circles that she tried so hard to hide.She said, Gu Xi, I have never liked someone so much.Su Han, tell me, why when I heard this, I was obviously mentally prepared to accept everything, and I was obviously going to be a dutiful listener for you calmly, but I still couldn't help but grieve The heartstring that involved the most sensitive, why did it suddenly break and begin to faintly glow with bitter pain?
It's like a hidden disease that can't be cured for a long time, and suddenly it starts up again.It is like a pair of hands that are clenched tightly, pinching the neck desperately and unable to break free, and he will never forget the suffocating pain and the desperate struggle before despair.You say, I like everything about him, I like his gentle and elegant smile, but why do we all love each other so much, and we have all been together so much, but we are still no match for the years and finally parted You say, Gu Xi, the moment he died, I felt that the sky had fallen, and I was so panicked and helpless, as if I had returned to the scene by the sea.I really want to die, I really want to die in the years when he loves me the most, and it's the first time I've had such a big determination because I'm so afraid of death.You say, I really don't know what it means to like it, I just know that I like the feeling of being with him, and when people around me talk about me and him, I always secretly purse my mouth and laugh happily.Su Han, do you know how much regret I have to make myself cry on the night of losing you You don't know, the distance between the two cities is like a bird and a fish, and I have been in this city because I wanted to see you but I didn't have the qualifications to see you again, and I was so painful that I wanted to die.I would never have imagined sitting alone on the cold floor in the dark of night, with the cigarette burning in my fingers until my hands were hot and then extinguished.And the girl I loved, holding a stranger's hand in another city, laughed until her eyebrows and eyes were crooked, and even the words that came out of her mouth became hot and tongue-twisting love words.Su Han, you have been asking me why why, but you haven't thought about it, I will also ask why, and I also have things that I can't even think of.Eventually, depression will form a knot, and it will become a stinger that cannot be pulled out of the heart, and a burning and embarrassing pimple.Why can I be lonely and brave in the past, and why after listening to you say the boy you like, I can't help but want to rush back immediately just to hug you again, I am really a ruthless blind traveler, carrying a heavy canvas bag and a single-lens reflex, chasing the wind and shadows in the hurried years, but in the end only the pen left a glimpse.Su Han, how hard do I have to work to accompany you all the way The first half of the first semester passed quietly in the fights, and time was also ushered in the starry midsummer night in the nightmare.When we are ignorant of everything and unwary, staying in the junior high school years, maybe we can still laugh and touch the blue sky, bite the cheapest popsicle in the old red yard, sing old-fashioned nursery rhymes, and tease the earth-colored old loyal dog.We were so happy, so happy that even the stars of midsummer dimmed, and the moon smiled."
Gu Xi" Su Han still has that consistent tone, and the old elder who pulled the word "Xi" in my name seems to have changed from the tone she likes to the habit of opening and closing her mouth."
Grandma Chen from the house next door is so annoying, isn't there a golden retriever at home, look at her stupid appearance all day long" Su Han jumped on the single pole in the park with agility, and swayed in the golden sunlight with fine beads of sweat, "When Su Zhiyang's old ghost is willing to let me have a pet, I must raise a golden lion king to show off and tell her what a golden retriever is" I pursed my lips and smiled lightly, reached out and took out a piece of white paper, and folded it slowly and carefully into the shape of an airplane.Under Su Han's half-disgust and half-impatience, I heard myself say: "In my dream, there is a sky hidden, the blue sky is boundless, and there are only paper airplanes flying in the wind." ”"Hypocritical" Su Han hugged the back of his head dissatisfied, staring at the clear sky above his head with some irritation.At that time, the city that accompanied us to grow up, the sky was blue, and there were white lines of airplanes skimming the sky in the distance, and the roar of airplanes and the shouting of people hidden in the sea of people were clearly exploded in our ears.Twenty years later, the city is gradually aging, it is gloomy and it is difficult to see the clear sky, and we are also lost in the torture and bitterness of the old time, and finally scattered to the ends of the earth.Twenty years later, Su Han is still Su Han, staying at the most beautiful, charming and dazzling time, but she can no longer see the flowers blooming and falling and people coming and going, and the cat she has been looking for almost all her life.Twenty years later, I died in the rough sea, blind, deaf, dumb and throat, living in the inaction of the walking dead, looking for the cat for her life.And the promise of childhood, the most innocent smile, was buried in the grave of youth and did not see the light of day."
Su Han, where did you get so much money to buy a guitar for me" I lowered my head and tuned the guitar, and glanced at the sheet music again."
Well, when you didn't come to my house, I kept this money in store to buy myself a better SLR.Later, you lived in my house, and when you liked the guitar so much, I bought it for you. ”Su Han said it very lightly, as if he was saying innocuous words, but I knew that after saving money for so long, it would still be a little unnatural to say that I would give it away.I struggled to look at Su Han, but I saw her leisurely biting into a fruit-flavored lollipop, and the indifference in her eyes didn't know if it was true, or if it was too perfectly disguised to make it difficult to doubt."
Su Han, you should like to take pictures very much, otherwise you wouldn't have saved money for so long, in fact, you could have left me alone, and you don't have to" "Eh, what is this, I'm just a three-minute whim, otherwise you think I'll be so bold to buy you a guitar" Su Han waved his hand impatiently to interrupt me, stared at those beautiful big eyes and continued, "Besides, it's not that I can't tell if you really like it or not."
As for my words, once the interest passes, I naturally don't like it. ”Su Han lowered his head slightly and pursed his lips, muttering softly: "Actually, people are alive, and they are really lucky to have things that they have always liked." ”"What are you muttering" "No" I shrugged my shoulders indifferently and continued to tune the guitar, but I couldn't deny that when I heard Su Han say it, my heart set off layers of waves.Caring about the last person, he is always so careful and sensitive.will be because of her unintentional words, and she has been thinking about it and can't get along with herself.Because I care too much to ignore.I gently plucked the strings and looked at Su Han carefully in the moonlight of the summer night, feeling that there was nothing more determined in my life than to accompany her.There was a shallow smile on her lips, the mischievous pear vortex was deeply moved by surprises, and her beautiful eyes were full of midsummer dreams, playing a song and whirlwind, like a dream among the mountains and rivers, like a dream, like a dream.The summer insects in the bushes gradually sang the night song of the summer day, and the little fireflies suddenly lit up in the bushes, and the sky was full of stars.Under the west bridge, the shadow of the full moon hangs upside down, and the water waves raised by the wind ripple in bursts, and in the middle of the water, it seems to have a leaf boat slipping, swinging pieces of water lines.She listened quietly to my nocturne, her broken hair scattered over her shoulders softened by the moonlight, and her eyelashes fluttered like a serious listener.But no matter how careful I was treading on thin ice, I still ignored the most important sentence.She said she was just a three-minute whim, and I really believed it.She said that she didn't like it once she was interested, and I really believed it.I remember that on a rainy night after that, I had a big fight with her after seeing Xu Cheng in her photo album, and dropped a camera in front of her that she had saved for a long time before she could buy it.She cried and scolded me for being a bastard, and it was only after that quarrel that I found out that she had always loved taking pictures, and her dream since childhood was to have a camera of her own.But for my sake, she carefully hid her liking, and no one found the clues.She also told me that her mother was a photographer when she was not dead, and that the pictures her mother took were the country she longed for most when she was young.The colorful photos, the time notes on the page, and the fragrance of my mother's arms and the endless fairy tales, each of which I deeply loved and worshipped.She still remembers that her mother once told her that photographers are apprentices of time, walking all over the mountains, rivers, seas, lakes and streams, just to write down the good things as they do with time, and to fall asleep with beautiful dreams in their old age.Su Zhiyang hurt them with his own hands, so I will never forgive him for the rest of my life.She replied so firmly, her amorous pupils were covered with pitch-black depth for the first time, glowing with the slight coolness and drunkenness of deep winter, and she began to lose a little temperature.It was only then that I realized that the relationship between you and Uncle Su was not just bad
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