The Chinese teacher in the classroom dragged the old tone to read the ancient text, and sometimes broke out into an abrupt scream under the interest of the students, and a pair of old eyes that had gone through vicissitudes were vicious and sharp."
Gu Beixi" Chinese teacher suddenly locked his eyes on me who was folding paper airplanes, anger made the chalk was pinched in half, he viciously slammed the lectern with a whip, the dissatisfaction in his eyes was a little aggrieved I stood up flattered, some afraid to look out of the window, dare not look at the strange Chinese teacher again."
Gu Beixi, you study so well, why do you spend time on such useless things during class time" The Chinese teacher glared at me with a "hopeful son", still chattering and unwilling to let me go, "Paper airplanes, how old are you, you are in your second year of junior high school, and you still play this kind of game played by elementary school students" A wanton ridicule suddenly exploded in the classroom, feeling those meaningless eyes, I was unmoved, and reached out to throw the paper airplane out of the window.Rising in the wind, the white paper plane carried a faint expectation and rushed into the sky."
Teacher, I'm still a child."
I turned my head and looked straight at the Chinese teacher, only to see that his eyes were wide open and startled, and then I became a little flustered because of my seriousness.Yes, now I am no longer the gloomy Gu Beixi in Su Han's eyes.I started to smile a lot, and it wasn't about happiness or happiness, but I always thought of smiling when I had her, because then it would give people a very warm and warm feeling, well, that's what I thought.I'm starting to get like that.Gu Beixi, who used to be gloomy and didn't like to talk, began to smile with a ruffian and began to be full of humor, but he also hid that seriousness and disappeared again.Only I know that my earnestness has never gone away."
It's too naïve" "Smack" I looked at the Chinese teacher holding his head in a daze, and what rolled at his feet was a can.I smiled knowingly and looked out the window in good spirits, even though there was nothing there.I know that Su Han must be hiding in a secret position at this time and snickering, she always skips class at will, and then runs to my classroom to guard me after class.Even though we weren't in the same class in the second year of junior high school, she often came to play with me.Every time she bumped into me being trained, she couldn't help but get angry and take out her anger for me, and tease the teacher outside the window.I remember one time she couldn't find something to throw away, so she took off her shoes and threw them in in a fit of rage.I will never forget that day when the teacher carried a shoe to find out the "mastermind" behind the scenes, she innocently blinked her eyes and looked dazed, obviously she didn't expect the teacher to come to her.Later, no matter how reluctant she was, she was forced by Uncle Su to stay up all night to catch up with the 10,000-word review.At that time, she cried and locked herself in the room, screaming and scolding Su Zhiyang's old ghost, scolding him for dying early and surpassing his life, don't stay and harm her, a good girl like a flower, I know that Su Han at that time was not crying because Uncle Su was too strict, and she would not be forced to cry by Uncle Su.She was only 13 years old at the time, and she just felt very wronged and guilty, so she cried.can only blame the teacher she met that day with a serious cleanliness fetish, and she was the only student who forced the teacher into the hospital."
The old man in your class is so annoying, that thief looks so disgusting, there are so many people in the class, he just said, what's wrong with your paper airplane, I'm still playing with flower ropes" Su Han pounded the white rice angrily, and the dissatisfaction was clearly on his face.I pursed my lips and chuckled, picked out all the lean meat on the plate and put it on her plate, and even the words that had always been playful involuntarily softened: "Well, come, eat more to gain weight" Su Han glanced at me indignantly, muttering unhappily in his mouth, but he still picked up the lean meat piece by piece and stuffed it into his mouth: "I hate it, I don't want to gain weight Obviously, I said very slim." ”"Then do you want to have long breasts," I whispered amusefully in Su Han's ear, the warm gas sticking to her earlobes made me confused.Su Han lowered her head shyly, took a big bite of rice with chopsticks, and her eyes were dyed with layers of charming colors, which made me stare at her in a daze.I still remember that after Su Han told me about the past, she always said that I was very stupid in the past, I was just a nerd, and I didn't even hide that little emotion, so she was embarrassed no matter how thick-skinned she was.She also said that I had become bad, and I couldn't say that feeling, the little affection covered in those peach blossom eyes, I didn't look like a little virgin who had been molested by her.I don't care how I used to be, for me, I only care about how I am in the eyes of her."
Gu Xi, it's winter, I don't know how big the snow will be this year."
Su Han suddenly raised his head buried in the red scarf, stared at the hazy sky, and suddenly said to me.I touched my cool nose that was blown by the wind, answered her softly, and then naturally took her hand and put it in the pocket of her down jacket, covering her cold hand."
Gu Xi, I like snow days, I like when it snows, let's come out when it snows" Su Han winked at me with a smile, tilted his head and leaned lightly on my shoulder.I silently looked at Su Han with an excited face, and my grip on her hand suddenly loosened and tightened, and then I heard myself open my mouth with difficulty, and the word "good" rolled out of my throat.Su Han giggled happily, not noticing that something was wrong with me at all, and continued to coquettishly say: "Then as long as it snows in the future, we will see if the snow is okay together" "Okay." ”I smiled at her far-fetchedly, and promised her against my will, my heart full of indescribable bitterness.Su Han, what you forgot is that I told you that my parents were on a snowy day, and no one would go to get food with a hard bread in their mouths, mixed with cold boiling water, and cursed each other angrily that they would not die well.What happened after that, they had a last fight during the New Year, and on that day, they couldn't stand each other anymore and went to the Civil Affairs Bureau to apply for a divorce certificate.In the end, when the court awarded custody, they pushed each other to each other, and the resentment in their eyes was as if I was a plague, and they refused to take it.Then when my parents refused to take it, I awarded custody to relatives who had never known each other.They all disliked me, and drove me to other relatives' houses like bad luck, running from house to house, and I was used to the fate of being abandoned by the world.It's just that in any case, when I walked to her, I stopped, lost my liking, and for the first time was afraid of being driven away again.I am afraid that she will be hated with disgust and hatred like her relatives, spit on and scolded as a white-eyed wolf, and finally live in endless self-torture.I am so easily satisfied, as long as there is you in the place, even if I fall a hundred, a thousand, ten thousand times, I can be strong to raise my head, pat the dust and stand in front of you again.Su Han, you see, I like you so much."
Anyway, Christmas is coming, what's going on" Seeing that I didn't speak sullenly, Su Han smiled and changed the topic."
I want to have a small concert, at school."
I smiled indifferently, and if I didn't want to say something, let it rot in my stomach, so that we wouldn't hurt each other, just like we used to hug."
Eh, great, I'll have to be in the front row at that time, shouting and cheering for you," Su Han hugged me, and then made an extremely expectant expression.I smiled lowly, telling myself in my heart that as long as she could come, you would be crazy with joy, wasn't it a week before Christmas, and before I could do anything, Su Han and the fat man couldn't sit still, painting third-rate promotional posters, and the two of them were promoting my small concert like a joke.I remember that they were tired like pugs, but they were still running around the school in a fever, and when they saw someone, they handed me a poster to promote me, and they didn't forget to hypocritically say a lot of good things, just to have one more person to attend my small concert.It's just that things are always so unexpected, until Christmas Day, I stood on the empty stage, looked at the few people scattered in the audience, and for the first time I felt resigned.But when my eyes touched Su Han's red and big eyes and aggrieved appearance, I gritted my teeth and stood on the stage with my head down, but I looked directly at Su Han without saying a word."
Gu Xi Gu Xi, there are only three days left until Christmas, I'm looking forward to it, ah, ah, my Gu Xi is really good" Su Han's expectant words suddenly sounded in my ears, my nose suddenly sour, my legs couldn't stop shaking, I was really afraid that in front of her, when people looked down on deserters, Su Han, the fat man, and the fat man's group of fox friends and dog friends sat under the stage, and there was no one else.It is estimated that the fat man's group of people were all forced by him to shout to save face, but it didn't play a role.Su Han was still waiting quietly, I knew that she wanted me to speak first, but why did the song, which I had been proficient in hundreds of times, come out of my mouth at this moment, but with obvious crying and trembling Su Han, I really want to hug you.In the end, I don't know how I got off the stage, how I came to Su Han, I only know that when I walked in front of Su Han, I wiped the tears on her face in distress, pulled her face, and said dotingly, don't cry, stupid, it's really ugly Su Han hugged me hard, the first time it was so hard, the first time it was so hot, I was stunned, and I didn't react for a long time.She cried and said sorry to me, she messed up the concert with her own hands, and she shouldn't have fought with someone else on Christmas Eve because of a conflict of words, so that it wouldn't hurt the concert the next day, and none of the people who had promised to come came.I hugged her tightly, rested my head on her shoulder, and said to her as gently as usual, Suhan, as long as you could come.But what a wretch, I still messed up the concert, and the songs were all in the wrong key.Su Han didn't speak again, just lay on my chest and cried, and the fat man also chose to leave reasonably, leaving us a chance to be alone.I slowly reached into her hair, greedily smelling the faint fragrance of her long hair, hoping to remember this moment forever.That bullshit grievance and loss As long as I have Su Han, I am enough, so I don't need that group of hypocritical bastards I comforted myself like this in my heart, and said softly to her in front of Su Han: "Su Han, I really don't blame you, don't blame yourself too much, it's good that you can come." ”"Su Han, only spend Christmas with me in the future, okay?"
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