"It's spring" Uncle Su faintly moved his gaze back from the window, picked up the coffee in front of him and took a sip without leaving a trace, if it weren't for his bloodshot eyes, I would really have exploded all of a sudden."
Yes, Su Han had his birthday yesterday."
I was a little angry with Uncle Su, and turned my head sullenly to stare at Aunt An, who was busy making breakfast in the kitchen, "You didn't look for her." ”"Yesterday she waited for you for a whole day, but only waited for you and your lover to have an affair" Seeing that Uncle Su was silent, I laughed, and even my tone became weird.Uncle Su's face darkened indescribably, and the bruises on his emaciated forehead erupted, as if he was suppressing great anger.He clutched the hot coffee, as if he couldn't feel the heat transmitted to the palm of his hand, he pursed his lips, and after a while, as if he had made up his mind, he hissed in a hoarse voice: "After that incident, she never thought of me as a father." ”"So, you don't think she's a daughter," I laughed sarcastically, and the sight of my parents accusing me of being a scumbag and saying that I was a drag on them came to my mind, "Uncle Su, can you not make excuses for yourself, what will you adults do besides making excuses" "Do you know that Su Han is lonely alone, do you know who she is so precocious and open, do you know that her self-esteem forces her to go to work by herself without spending a penny on you, do you know that she only turned 14 years old yesterday, do you know that she was so sad because you cried yesterday?"
I stood up suddenly, and couldn't help yelling at Uncle Su angrily, "You don't know anything, you know how to be intimate with that lover outside you, Uncle Su, Su Han is really not as strong as you think" "No, no, no, young master, he has always loved Miss, you don't know him" "Aunt An, don't talk less." ”Uncle Su interrupted Aunt An, and then told her to hurry back to the kitchen to get food."
Su Zhiyang, I thank you for bringing me back, but do you really want to make Su Han the next me, we are all just children, how can you adults be so selfish" I shouted at him with tears in my eyes, and the fists in my palms tightened and tightened.Uncle Su held his head decadently, and his somewhat old face was full of self-blame and distress: "Beixi, good boy, Uncle beg, let's be quiet, okay Su Han finally fell asleep, I don't want her to be woken up" I frowned slightly, tried to restrain the impulse in my heart and sat down, and tried to say to Uncle Su in the lightest negotiation tone: "Uncle Su, if you love Su Han, can you not make her sad" "I'm sorry Beixi, I don't want to hurt Su Han, and I don't want to hurt her." ”Uncle Su said weakly, his face showing reluctance and panic, so he sighed softly and slowly let go of the coffee cup.I looked at Uncle Su in disbelief, I was only 15 years old at the time, and I only felt that Uncle Su who was indecisive and couldn't make up his mind was a scumbag, and he couldn't make up his mind about the women outside and his own daughter.So at that time, I scolded Uncle Su with a passionate and righteous heart, as if I was scolding the negative man and scum.But I didn't know that many years later, when I faced women and children, I couldn't choose between them in my bones, and the words I said at that time became the most painful slap.After love is dead and alive, it has become the most shameful torture in the heart."
The little master is really not like this, the master loves the young lady very much, the old master just saw that the young lady was lonely, so he tried to adopt children with different personalities, just so that the young lady could also smile."
Maybe Aunt An couldn't listen to it anymore, so she ran out of the kitchen again, explaining to Uncle Su with teary eyes."
Su Zhiyang, where did you pick up this little beggar, are you so short of a son, is it funny" A familiar word sounded in my ears without warning, and Su Han looked at me that day, and it seemed that there was really something to explore.I looked at Uncle Su with a sad face, and I overlapped with him who was not smiling in the past.I smiled bitterly, and the obsession in my heart disappeared a lot.It turns out that they are just, one too paranoid, the other too clumsy.I reluctantly smiled at Uncle Su, and said to him calmly, "Uncle Su, I'm sorry, maybe I shouldn't have said that about you." ”Uncle Su shook his head gently, tears flashing in his eyes: "No, Beixi, thank you, thank you for being so good to Su Han." ”I bowed my head in discomfort, only to feel the guilt grow heavier.I only blamed Uncle Su from Su Han's point of view, but I didn't look at his world from Uncle Su's point of view."
Uncle Su, I suddenly don't want to ask you so much about Su Han's story, I think it would be nice if she could tell me in person."
I stood up gently, and patted the dust-free clothes in the same way as Uncle Su did, "Because we all know that if Su Han keeps holding back, he will get sick, but I'm still an outsider." ”I turned around uncomfortably and was about to go upstairs, but I heard Uncle Su behind me suddenly say, "I ruined her childhood, ruined her innocence, ruined her world, and ruined her best friend and a family." ”My body suddenly froze, and when I turned to look at Uncle Su in shock, he laughed with great difficulty: "You see, I'm such a bad person, she doesn't recognize me, so I am the real outsider, and I can no longer enter her world." ”"Uncle Su" "Beixi, I really love Su Han, for so many years, I have delayed another person's youth for her, but I don't have a trace of guilt, although I love them. ”Uncle Su frowned tightly, as if he was holding back something from it, but he still let the thing cross his old cheeks and fall into the coffee that had already cooled.Uncle Su sobbed quietly, and suddenly felt helpless and confused like a child: "I can't choose, but I still love her more, the little girl who cursed me and never called me again." ”"Beixi, if she never forgives me again, I beg you to give her happiness" Su Bobo paused, and for the first time there was a plea in his eyes that glistened with tears, "You are the only one who can enter her among the group of children I brought back."
You should be selfish as an uncle, take good care of her, and take care of her like a sister?"
”I swallowed with great difficulty, as if I had made a huge decision, and I began to panic but there was no way to refuse.I wiped my tears with my back to Uncle Su, lifted my feet and walked to the second floor.Su Han, why am I so unwilling and helpless when I heard Uncle Su say that I took care of you as a sister What do you think Do you only want to be my brother who can talk to me I suddenly began to regret it."
She hasn't called me in eight years."
I heard Uncle Su say in frustration behind his back, as if he had lost the final, but he had lost cleanly even though he had reached the last round.We all like to draw the ground as a prison and imprison ourselves in the prison of our hearts, and then, as if we were self-righteous and have a reason, we begin to torture ourselves as if we were treating our enemies.Why in the chaos of youth, we can't pay tribute to the past, a glass of wine, a glass of wine to ourselves, gently pushed Su Han's room open, I easily avoided the mess all over the floor, and slowly came to her bedside and sat down.She didn't sleep well, she seemed to be having nightmares, her beautiful eyebrows were always wrinkled tightly, her mouth seemed to be shouting someone's name, and even the hand holding the quilt couldn't help but tighten.I reached out in distress and smoothed her furrowed brow, sliding gently along the contours of her face, wandering everywhere on her face, as if I could remember her deeply if I did so.Quickly pecking on her seductive cherry lips, I was a little worried about Su Han with such a sad face.As if sensing my movements, and as if she had just woken up from a nightmare, she opened her eyes slightly, and her eyes were full of touching tears.Without waiting for me to speak, she pulled the corner of my clothes uneasily, and said to me aggrievedly, "Ah Xi, I'm afraid. ”Looking at Su Han, who was in a trance, I took out a few different flavors of fruit candy from my pocket and asked her what flavors she liked to eat.Su Han pouted and picked left and right in confusion, and finally took out a watermelon-flavored fruit candy.Looking at Su Han, who was so careful, I pursed my lips and snickered, and tore open the wrapper while she was not paying attention to grab the fruit candy and put it in my mouth.Su Han looked at me with round eyes and yelled at me in dissatisfaction, and I gagged him before he could finish his words.I expertly pried open her teeth and reached into her mouth to pass the quickened fruit candy down her throat, and the sweet and fruity smell of watermelon immediately welled up in her mouth.I reached out and gently pressed Su Han's head, pushed her to the bed and pressed her, looking at her little face covered with crimson, I smiled even more happily, deepening this kiss that I took the initiative for the first time.When the kiss was too infatuated, I stopped leaving her lips, but I still licked my lips with some unfinished thoughts, reminiscing about the watermelon flavor that lingered next to my taste buds."
Su Han, you have to remember me forever, because when you kiss me, it's your favorite taste" I giggled happily, and I didn't have to think about it to know that my peach blossom eyes must be deep and affectionate at this time.Su Han pushed me away with a slight annoyance, sat up from the bed and combed his messy long hair, pursed the red and swollen lips that I kissed and said: "Dead Gu Xi, you actually went behind my back to learn which girls are looking for to practice skills" "Then what's the matter, when you wake up, hurry up and freshen up, it's almost time for breakfast" Su Han angrily don't turn his head and ignore me, I didn't panic, just looked at her quietly, anyway, I have time here."
Gu Xi, she used to be like you, she was very good to me."
I hugged Su Han, like soothing a frightened kitten, and said softly to her: "Su Han, say all the sad words, don't suffocate." ”I want to be your listener, and then listen silently, just because you used to redeem me like this
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