"The phone you dialed is off," I pulled the corners of my mouth weakly, took out a loaf of bread from my backpack, and slowly tore open the bag and ate it without a bite, the depression that had accumulated in my stomach made me a little breathless.I grabbed a bottle of water from my backpack and hurriedly unscrewed the cap and drank it, but I choked on the water and coughed until my face turned red.I pressed my heart sadly, and suddenly it was difficult to suffocate, and I tasted the salty taste on my lips, and I covered my cheeks, but I felt a piece that was already moist."
Gu Beixi, I'm fucking blind to believe you, you get out of my sight for me" Su Han's heart-rending roar suddenly sounded in my ears again, I frowned, but my heart hurt more and more.I can't forget, I can't forget her full of the pain of betrayal, she glared at me fiercely with red eyes, and for the first time there was disgust in her eyes.Perhaps, we really can't go back.From the moment I learned her story and made up my mind to leave her, the relationship I had managed to maintain was destroyed by me.She said it was a betrayal.Later, I listened and acquiesced that this was a betrayal, and once said that I would never leave but didn't give a single reason, and turned around and stepped out of her world with the only obsession.Just as I was hesitant and anxious at the beginning of stepping into her world, I was just as hesitant and anxious when I left.The boy walked into the thorn forest and saw the most beautiful red rose among the thorns, but he easily patted off the thorns on his body, turned around and walked out of the thorn forest with his original intention, just like the original obsession.And I, day and night, will always think of that thunderstorm night, when I listened to her story calmly like water, and cruelly told her that I was leaving."
When I was six years old, I was in first grade, and my mom wasn't dead and she was pregnant with my brother.And Su Zhiyang, under the illusion of affection with my mother, raised a lover who was ten years younger than him outside, and my mother also lost the child under the accident that day. ”"I still remember that it was raining that day, my mother came to pick me up from school, and then she remembered that Su Zhiyang didn't bring an umbrella in the company, and hurriedly wanted to send me home to find him, but I refused to follow."
Speaking of this, Su Han laughed sarcastically, reached out and grabbed the long curly hair, and said, "Then my stupid mother took me and bumped into him and that lover in the company's office, well, how to say, they were entangled in full swing" "It's really funny, and he also drove me and my mother away with confidence, without a trace of guilt and panic, and then my mother wiped her tears and took me away, but she slipped because of the ground." ”Su Han held his head in pain, as if he was caught in a memory that he didn't want to remember, and he bit a hole in his lip before continuing, "I wanted to help her up but couldn't help her, and then I saw a lot of blood flowing out of nowhere, mixed with the cold rain, and I even complained about the smell." ”"It wasn't until I saw her pale face calling for the baby that I realized that the blood was coming from my mother's legs.I panicked, I screamed desperately, pulling pedestrians on the road for help.After she was taken to the operating room, I waited alone for a long time, and then I heard the doctor telling the nurse that the baby in her belly was gone. ”"At that time, I knew that the original pregnant person can't fall, otherwise there will be a lot of blood, and the stomach will deflate after a lot of blood, and then the child will be gone, and my younger brother will be gone before he is born" "After the loss of my brother, my mother was also depressed because of the double blow, coupled with Su Zhiyang's cold eyes, my mother became more and more depressed day by day, and she often began to have stomach pains when she originally paid attention to eating regularly.One day, my mother was rolling on the ground in pain, and after school, I saw her panic and rushed to the hospital in an ambulance. ”"The doctor said it was acute appendicitis and had to be operated on as soon as possible, and asked me to call my family to sign for the operation, but I couldn't remember Su Zhiyang's phone number."
Su Han grabbed me tightly, his tearful eyes were full of remorse, "Gu Xi, I hate myself so much, I hate that I can't remember his phone number for not being able to remember, obviously they all told me to remember the phone number at home, but I was still lazy and perfunctory, and as a result, retribution came, but there was no retribution on me." ”"I forgot to bring my mother's mobile phone, so I followed me to the hospital, but because I was too young to write anything, and Su Zhiyang's phone number couldn't remember a little.I ran out of the hospital sadly and wanted to go to the company to find him, I searched for a long time to find his company, but he hugged the woman and was intimate. ”"It's the first time I've hated it so much, and my mother can't stand the pain in her heart because of the delay of time, so she bit her tongue and committed suicide."
Su Hanwu let go of me and laughed, muttering, "Stupid woman, what a stupid woman, if she dies, won't Xiao San be able to straighten out the pain of being betrayed, she has endured the pain of losing her child, why did she commit suicide in the end" "Su Han, Auntie is just tired." ”I hugged her in frustration, but I couldn't say a word of comfort, Gu Beixi, all the books you have read for so many years have been in vain You really fucking useless The ringtone of the mobile phone suddenly screamed in my pocket, I woke up suddenly, only to find that I was still sitting on the bus, the corners of my eyes were wet, and I remembered Su Han's confiding a few hours ago.I took out my phone and connected it disappointedly, and Uncle Su's helpless and apologetic words came from the other end of the phone: "Beixi, I'm sorry, Su Han is just making trouble with you." ”I was a little sudden, since Uncle Su picked me up, I haven't been too close to him, he is usually not smiling, he is always busy with big and small affairs, and the most he says to me is to ask some Xi is not used to it.And now, what he said to me the most was, Beixi is sorry.It seemed that after waiting for a long time and not waiting for my response, Uncle Su asked me tentatively on the phone: "Can you forgive Su Han, listen to Uncle's words, come back, okay, I also plan to quit the company." ”I laughed bitterly, if only I could run back desperately, even if I was brazen, I would be by her side."
Uncle Su, I'm going to City A soon, I will go to meet her, and then move to City A to study in high school after the high school entrance examination."
It's just that it's not possible."
Gu Xi, Uncle doesn't want to delay your future, and he doesn't want you to be too pampered with Su Han."
There was silence on the phone for a long time, and when I wanted to hang up, Uncle Su's old voice came slowly from the cold end of the machine."
Uncle Su, this is my own decision."
Su Han, even if you resent me for this for the rest of your life, I can't see you tormenting yourself so guiltily, I am willing to spend all my time for your pure smile.Su Han, if you wear the mask for a long time, you will really get tired, and it will be difficult to take it off.Don't you know how much I feel sorry for you when I heard you talk about it, you started to rebel against Su Zhiyang's everything, you didn't need a penny from Su Zhiyang for a few small jobs, abandoned the princess's arrogant shelf and brought the hooligan slogan of the gangsters, how much I felt sorry for you, you are so young, because you don't accept child labor, so you help arrange flowers in a flower shop with a smile on your face, help wash dishes in a small restaurant, help sell breakfast in a breakfast shop, and help your classmates copy homework and clean the classroom at school to collect their tips, you used to be so high-profile and your family was so rich, But because of the arrogance in his bones, he refused to forgive Su Zhiyang and refused to bow to him, and suffered the cold eyes of his peers, and after getting the money, he jumped so excited that he wanted to shout.You started to mingle with your seniors, you started to study badly all day long, you skipped school to play games at a young age, and you did almost everything you didn't dare to think about in those years.But you have a heart of justice, and you would rather have a stomachache to the point of rolling than rob the money of the lower grades to buy something delicious, and you will not steal things that do not belong to you.You said that you later met a very kind and innocent girl, who did not dislike everything about you, was not afraid of your deterioration, and even often shared half of your bread to eat.You said her name is Shang Shang, although she is a single-parent family, she and her mother are also living a good life, and the two of them depend on each other but love each other.You said that she had been with you for nearly three years, but she was still destroyed by Su Zhiyang.That day, you, she and her mother came to the beach to play together, but because Su Zhiyang didn't check the equipment, there was a sudden accident in the small yacht she was in, and finally sank in the sea without even salvaging the body.Aunt Shang couldn't stand the blow and fainted and was sent to the hospital, and finally after determining Shang Shang's death, Aunt Shang became insane, and no one could remember.You also said that Aunt Shang's situation is getting worse and worse, punching and kicking everyone full of vulgar swearing, and only occasionally when she calms down, she will shout her daughter's name in a daze.You guiltily replaced Shang Shang and became like your own daughter, calling her mother for several years without complaint.And Aunt Shang gradually became stable under the irritability because of her daughter's return, and her consciousness slowly recovered, but she could no longer remember what her daughter used to be.And you, too, have a relationship with Uncle Su to the extreme."
Station XX has arrived, passengers who need to get off the train, please" A loud voice suddenly exploded in my ears, pulling me back from my thoughts.I stared blankly at the noise around me, only to see that I was still sitting on the bus, and the mobile phone with the black screen in the palm of my hand had already hung up the phone at some point, and gradually cooled down from the heat.I clasped my arms and looked at the strange scene outside the window, and sobbed in a low voice of unspeakable pain, Su Han, I am reluctant to leave you, and I am reluctant to let you be so tired and painful.With trembling hands, I dialed again, and I began to panic when I had memorized the phone number for a long time, afraid that I would hear a cold tone, afraid that I would miss this time, and that I would never see my favorite her again.It seems that after torturing me for a long time, God was going to let me go once, so I didn't have to wait too long.In my nervous mood, the phone was connected, and I heard her long-lost voice conveying: "Where are you" "I'm about to arrive in City A, I'll come to see Aunt Shang, and I'm also familiar with the situation here, and it's okay after the high school entrance examination" As expected, before I could say a few words Su Han cut off the phone, I could think of her crazy and speechless expression.I laughed mockingly at myself, Gu Beixi, how much the fuck do you have to be a human being can you not be so selfish The phone suddenly vibrate, and a text message box immediately appeared in my sight, and I saw that the simple message was written like this: Gu Xi, I was wrong, no one is like you anymore
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