"Hello Aunt Shang, I am Shang Shang's classmate."
I tentatively smiled at Aunt Shang who was sitting on the hospital bed, but I was a little panicked in my heart, and all kinds of bad thoughts suddenly floated through my mind.Aunt Shang didn't speak, just nodded, and then kept smiling at me stupidly.Crow's feet were already faintly visible in the corners of her eyes, and the temples between her hair began to have some gray hair, but she smiled and showed a row of white teeth.My heart was indescribably moved, I cast a reassuring look at the nurse, quietly sat down on the side of Aunt Shang's bed, and stretched out my hand to hold Aunt Shang's somewhat rough palm."
Aunt Shang, Shang Shang has been busy with her homework in school recently, and she is not worried about you, so she called me to come and see you, how are you doing" I raised my head slightly, looked at Aunt Shang's smiling face, and laughed.Aunt Shang rolled her eyes a little puzzled, as if she was thinking about the meaning of this sentence, and after a while, she opened her mouth happily, and said a vague monosyllable in a hoarse throat: "Okay." ”I picked up the wooden comb on the side, because I often comb Su Han's hair when I am too lazy, so when I comb Aunt Shang's hair, I am particularly gentle and skillful.The nurse sister secretly gave me a thumbs up, and when I went out to fetch hot water, she followed and sighed: "Little brother, this Aunt Shang is accompanied by you and Shangshang, which can be regarded as a blessing."
When Aunt Shang was first sent here, she often fell ill and fought with other mentally ill people, and no one dared to take care of her at that time. ”I politely raised the best curvature angle, turned on the faucet and added hot water, and smiled at the nurse: "Later, what about later?"
"Later, then Shang Shang came, took a break from school for half a year, and accompanied the emotionally unstable Aunt Shang all day and night."
At first, Aunt Shang didn't recognize her daughter, so she often grabbed things and threw them at Shang Shang, and once threw a vase on Shang Shang's forehead, smashing a big hole. ”The nurse sighed distressedly, and recalled, "But it's okay, because of the blessing of misfortune, Aunt Shang has also sobered up a lot, and began to be docile, and slowly opened her mouth to talk to people."
It's just that the intelligence is a little low, and it takes a long time to answer if you say something too deep. ”I sullenly answered the nurse, filled up the hot water and went back to the ward.Looking at Aunt Shang, who was sleeping smoothly, I carefully put the hot water away, and only after walking out of the hospital did I find a cigarette and smoke it without a puff.I don't know when I fell in love with the taste of tobacco in response to Su Han's words, as if I was born to like it, and when I suddenly looked back, I found that I had already become addicted to drugs, and I couldn't quit the slightly choking and paralyzing tobacco smell.Everyone's youth is always in vain, so many people who can't ask for it, and you are not the only one, what do you have to be sad about, you can like any thing, a person, a story, but if it is not the same story, it is not the same person.A life of inaction and hardship, a ragged ronin will always carry a love song better than a prisoner who paints the ground as a prison.What we have is a story, but a little less free and generous.When I returned to Uncle Su's house overnight, it was already past three o'clock in the morning.When I entered the door, I saw that the light was still on in Uncle Su's study, thinking that he should still be busy working.I walked lightly, stopped for a moment as I passed Su Han's room, and then hurried back to my room, locking the door and all the tears rushing out of my eyes.I clenched my mouth and sat down on the floor against the door, trying not to make a sound, but some broken cries and whines lingered in the dark room.Some people, as long as you think that she is not around, all the pretense and stubbornness can collapse in an instant.Su Han was a calamity in my youthful years, and he could always make up for me when I was alone, which made me cry in a cold sweat.Even I don't know myself, why when I face Su Han, my tear ducts are like they are broken, and I can't stop crying, I hate such a hypocritical self, but once I touch everything about Su Han, I can't help but laugh after crying, and I feel sad in joy.Su Han, I'm so afraid that if I look at you more, I will regret it."
Beixi, let's have a good rest when you're back."
Outside the door, Uncle Su's voice came from a little tired and wanting to speak, and finally there was the sound of footsteps leaving softly after a while.I slowly stood up, fumbled for the switch to turn on the light, looked at the familiar room, I couldn't stop the bitter pain at the corner of my mouth, and slowly sat down in front of the writing desk.Looking at the pile of white papers on the table, I chuckled abruptly, carefully pulled out the key hidden in the pen holder, and nervously opened the only locked drawer.Looking at the large and small paper airplanes in the drawer, the colors are different, and the buried thoughts are also different.With trembling hands, he picked up a blue paper airplane, slowly dismantled it, and looked at the words written on it: 2008.The time was around five o'clock in the afternoon, it was raining a little here today, and it was a little stuffy, so I listened to a Japanese light music she liked, and my mood was indescribably better.It's been weeks since I came to Uncle Su's house, and I've had cold wars, sarcasms, and jokes with her, and the most rejoicing thing for me is that I seem to be getting closer to her world.She really doesn't have any merits, the only thing that makes me feel good is the delicacy hidden under her heartless smile.I didn't expect to be so close to her one day, and I changed my mind about her at the beginning.How to say it, she is really heartless, well, that's it, and she speaks harshly.But she was so annoying, how could she be so cunning, obviously not happy at all, and still smiling fakely.It's really annoying, it's actually pretty good, I mean get along with her.I smiled wryly, folded it back and put it back in the drawer, took out a blank piece of paper and laid it neatly on the table, and put some ink on the pen I liked to write on the most.I reached out and turned off the lights in the room and turned on the desk lamp.The yellow light fell on the white paper and was a little blurry, so I turned my pen in all kinds of discomfort, and finally picked up the pen and wrote on the paper: 2009.What to do, who can come and tell me, what the hell is going on She just had her birthday the other day, and I didn't have time to give her a gift, so much happened.I really can't do anything about it, I don't want her to be too tired or uncomfortable, I don't want to leave and I don't want to hurt her, but what do I have to do Uncle Su is staying up late and busy working, I came back today and saw his eyes full of bloodshots, I know that as a father he is also very difficult.Maybe I hated Uncle Su's betrayal, but he really loved Su Han.Yes, during the years that my aunt was gone, Uncle Su could have taken that woman home regardless of her wishes, but he didn't.You see, Uncle Su is like this, I can't hate it if I want to.I chose to leave her to accompany Aunt Shang, I didn't want her to become unhappy and irritable about so many things every day, I thought that I could just do a little more for her.She's paying off her debts so much, she's just a girl, and I think I can go and pay her debts in her place.The rest of my life is so long, my dear girl, I don't want you to pay it back all the time, so I'll take care of Aunt Shang, okay, just like in the past, you used to share the popsicle candy with me first, you borrowed me the latest game cd, and the new comic book on the shelves showed me first, so dear girl, this time I also let me be okay The boy wandered in the field with a big canvas bag on his back, encountered a large thorn forest, and saw the beautiful flowers in the thorns.With a happy and apprehensive heart, he walked into the thorns step by step, just to find the most beautiful flower among the thorns.The boy stepped on the thorns and came to the most beautiful red rose, he leaned over and kissed the red rose gently, then patted the thorns all over his body, and turned away without nostalgia.He only had one thought, the flowers needed water, and he had to find the water quickly, fill a whole bottle and come back to it.The boy found the water, came to the flowers, and carefully irrigated them like a peerless treasure, and the red roses he found by stepping on the thorns.To like is to take it away, and to love is to keep the most beautiful and the best of it.Just like your favorite watermelon, it's a sweet watermelon flavor.My dear girl, I think that's my love for you.Carefully folding the paper into a plane and placing it in a drawer, I reached for the gift that I could not deliver, and reluctantly opened it.The gift in a beautiful gift box is not a valuable thing, just an ordinary green ribbon that can be used to tie your hair.Su Han, I want to see you with long hair tied up for me, with a pure and carefree look.I took a deep breath as if to cheer myself up, grabbed my suitcase, and looked up to see a sunny sunny day.I was stunned for a moment, my hand that wanted to cover the sun stopped in mid-air, I smiled far-fetchedly, and looked up at the white sky with white clouds.It's been a long time since the sun has passed, and it's still as warm as ever.I turned around and glanced at it nostalgically, but I still didn't see the familiar figure.That's right, she has hated me for a year, how could she come to send me her lukewarm to me in the third year of junior high school, which is enough to make me regret my original decision, but I can't regret it.Su Han, did you have fun today after graduating from junior high school, but I can't come to the appointment, or maybe it's really hard for me to see you again.I covered my heart sadly, dragging my suitcase with difficulty to get on the bus, but I was hugged by a pair of soft hands from behind, and the warm embrace that I had not seen for a long time made my eyes red all of a sudden."
Gu Xi, don't leave, I don't need you to do this."
Su Han behind me lowered his head and buried his head in my back, and there was an obvious choking in a muffled voice, and I felt a sudden wetness behind my back.Su Han, I wish you hadn't come at the end."
Su Han, I'm leaving" I said softly in distress, but the second half of the words I wanted to persuade her to go home were like a fish in my throat, and I swallowed it back into my stomach, slowly rotting and festering.I admit that I wavered, and I admit that I don't want to leave Sohan."
Are you really leaving?"
”The hand behind her loosened without warning, and the warmth suddenly left, and I turned around in a little panic, only to see that her eyes were full of tears, and her mouth opened and closed without squeezing out a word.I clenched my fists, and the deep pain of my nails instantly sobered me up, and I turned my back to her as if I didn't care, afraid that I would backtrack in the next second: "Su Hanxi, go back." ”Struggling to resist the urge to see her, I lifted my suitcase and strode out of the parked bus, but it didn't seem as free as I thought.The moment the bus door closed, I saw Su Han sitting on the ground decadently, hugging himself very tightly, crying more and more violently at the suspicious questions of others.I hurriedly turned my head away to see her again, but I saw that my vision had become blurry, as if something had covered my eyes, and I reached out to cover my eyes, but I touched a cold wetness.Something fell down my cheek to the ground with a clear sound that exploded in my ears.The bus started slowly, and the sounds of those memories, accompanied by the shrill whistle of the bus, lingered in my ears.Through the cold car window, through the crowd, I saw her who was surrounded in the center and shivered with fear, crying and blowing her long hair, and she no longer had the arrogance she used to have.I think if I had a clean piece of paper by my side, I would take out my favorite pen, write my promise on it, and fold it into a paper airplane and let it fly high in the sky: 2010.Wait for me to come back.I was awakened by the slightly dazzling sunlight, and the moment I opened my eyes, I saw Su Han's hand gently covering my forehead and picking up the bangs I put on my forehead.My arm, which had been sleeping on the table for a long time, was already numb, but I didn't want to break the silence.In front of her, I smiled at her as shyly as before, looking directly into her smiling eyes, I couldn't stop being full of softness, and whispered to her: "Halva, I have had a long, long dream." ”I dreamed that we were back in the past, and you didn't like Xu Cheng at that time.Su Han was still smiling shallowly, as if he was very affected by my obedient appearance lying on the table, and after a while, he suppressed his smile and said to me seriously: "Axi, Merry Christmas." ”"Well, Merry Christmas
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