Lin Qi, I won't be with you today's Christmas.I silently turned off my phone and put it in my backpack, raised the white scarf a little more, and buried my head deep in.I let out a long white breath, and there was still no trace of warmth in my hand in my coat pocket.I looked up at the snowy sky, and this winter was much colder than usual.Walking alone to the center of the park, I looked at the huge Christmas tree full of exquisite ornaments, but I felt that my eyes were shaking, and my eyes were extremely painful and burning.I suddenly didn't want to go to the dance studio."
Oh beautiful girl, I'm Santa Claus, I see that you and I are destined, why don't you accept my Christmas gift for you" My eyes suddenly darkened, and then I saw a man dressed as Santa Claus stop in front of me, shaking his white beard and smiling at me.I politely drew a shallow arc, just because the dance teachers who taught me said that this was my most perfect smile, polite and generous, without losing the high-end gentleness."
Thank you."
Smile without showing teeth, look directly at the other person, and then slowly reach out to accept the gift he handed over."
Merry Christmas, beautiful girl" "You too. ”After Santa's actor left, I stared at the tree a few more times before leaving.Aimlessly wandering the familiar streets, I developed my first fear of the tall buildings and the dazzling array of goods around me.All the happiness in the world has nothing to do with me, and there is nothing but love for me.As I walked, my eyes were suddenly drawn to a pair of dancing shoes in the window, and almost instantly I stopped walking towards the front and turned back and walked into the shoe store.The warm color system of pink has never been my favorite color, but this pink dance shoes with white borders makes people's eyes shine and can't help but be excited.I looked at the dancing shoes carefully, in fact, it can be said that they could not be more simple and simple, but the color combination makes people feel very warm, the matching pink silk is about the kneecap, tied with a big bow.I don't like pink and squeamish dancing shoes, but this simple pair of dancing shoes seems to have been agreed with me, not only with my shoe size, but also for it to shine."
This classmate, these dancing shoes are newly listed, the quality is guaranteed, and you are called such white skin."
The staff on the platform came over with a smile on their faces and introduced the advantages of shoes for me, "I see that you have soft bones, you should have learned dance for many years, then you should also see that these shoes are good, and with a white dance skirt, I think it is very beautiful and full of vitality." ”"Vitality" I put my shoes back in place like an electric shock, pursed my lips and muttered, "I don't like it, and I don't learn to dance." ”"No, I think classmate, you are very suitable for dancing, your beautiful body bones are so soft, and it is absolutely great to dance" "Shit is suitable, I said I don't dance" I yelled at the staff excitedly, and rushed out with tears on her bewildered face, but was knocked to the ground by a person who came in front of her."
Classmate, are you okay?"
I rubbed my sore eyes hard with my dusty hand, but the more I rubbed it, the more it hurt, and finally the tears on the back of my hand burned the pain in my hand.I trembled and got to my feet, expertly tiptoeing through the crowded streets, my hands spread and dancing the best of my best.I danced desperately as if I was venting, and tears were falling irrepressibly, but my heart became more and more cold when I saw the curious onlookers of passers-by.It's not me, it's me.Lin Qi, who is arrogant and well-mannered, will not dance so shamelessly on the streets; Lin Qi, who can endure and wait for the continuation, will not dance so impulsively and recklessly on the streets.What's wrong with me, why am I sad and happy, is it the presumptuousness that I have endured for too long to liberate myself, or the freewheeling self that makes myself tormented again, and my feet are broken without warning, I sit on the ground in frustration, ignoring the tentative gazes of others, I hold my head and cry regardless of the image.I hate dancing "Oh beautiful girl, do you need a candy to comfort yourself Oh even though it's Christmas and not Halloween haha." ”The crowd laughed very cooperatively, and I looked up with some confusion and hesitation, only to see that the person who spoke was the actor of Santa Claus that I had just met.Well, he's quite responsible."
I've got apples, oranges, peaches, watermelons, grapes, milk coffee, cantaloupe, and chocolate."
Santa Claus stretched out his big hand to me, which was full of beautifully packaged candy, "Such a beautiful girl, can you tell me that you need that flavor" I looked at his white beard in a daze, and as I spoke, I couldn't help but burst into tears and laughed, and asked him seriously: "Then dear Santa Claus, I ask you, aren't you robbing your job by bringing Halloween candy, be careful of being knocked at night" He pretended to be distressed "Oops", rubbed his eyebrows and sighed: " I was so amused by his humorous words that I finally chose to follow his previous words and said, "Dear Santa Claus, please give me a milk-flavored candy, thank you." ”Taking the candy he handed over, I reached into my coat pocket and wanted to stand up by myself, but he stretched out his hand with thick white gloves, and his voice was unexpectedly soft: "Helping a girl to get up is the most basic demeanor of a gentleman." ”I was a little stunned, even though the surrounding area was still so bustling and noisy, but I still remembered that far-reaching and long early summer.The warm sun in early summer is not scorching at all, the cicadas still stop at the branches in the quiet afternoon, the white clouds hang on the blue sky, and the classroom is full of young students.It was in this most peaceful early summer that I met him for the first time.Like a bullet fired in an instant, it hit the softest heart accurately, and blood gushed out from then on, just to keep him looking back again.At that time, I was delicate and short, giving people the feeling of not being in the wind, and in addition to wearing a school uniform at school, I only liked to wear a loose and fat single coat on my body.Like a little girl trying on her mother's clothes, there is no development that should be in this adolescence.Back on a weekend holiday, I just hurriedly changed out of my school uniform and wore my usual baggy coat and canvas shoes.When I caught the bus and accidentally bumped into him who was still on campus, I clumsily fell to the ground with an unstable center of gravity, and when he reached out to pull me, I angrily turned my head and ignored him, but I heard his lazy voice sounding overhead: "It's okay if you really don't get up, anyway, this dress is big enough and it doesn't affect me to see the spring."
But classmate, you don't say it's 16, isn't it a little stunted" I covered my chest in annoyance and stood up, and the elegant atmosphere I had cultivated in the past disappeared in an instant, leaving only a shy and extremely spicy energy: "I'll go to your stunted growth, your whole family is stunted, don't you know that poor milk in ACG is a rare resource, I haven't seen a perverted hooligan" He was not angry and laughed, and after ravaging my long black hair, his smiling eyes were full of impropriety: "Classmate, we are quite harmonious, or play everywhere" I glared at him fiercely, and when I turned to leave, he took out a brick out of nowhere and successfully stopped me: "Classmate, your brick fell off, will it be very asymmetrical", "Dead hooligan, your brick has just fallen", "Beautiful girl, what's wrong with you" A soft voice suddenly sounded in my ears, I looked around blankly, but saw that the actor of Santa Claus still maintained his original movements.It turned out that unconsciously, I remembered the first meeting with Arlo.He is still so improper, heartless but affectionate under his bad smile."
Dear Santa Claus, don't you know what gentleman means in ACG, hmm" I curled the corners of my mouth amusedly, patted the dust off my body and stood up from the ground.He touched his nose a little embarrassedly by what I said, and I stopped teasing him, and returned to his previous gentle image, walking out of the crowd and going home.I have to say that my mood is much better than before.As for the damn dance class, I'm late anyway, and I don't want to be blinded by those jealous ghosts.When I got home, I wandered a little at the door, and I was afraid that my mother had returned, but it was too late for me to regret it.Taking a deep breath, I felt the key to open the door with trepidation, and I was a little relieved to feel that no one was home, and before I could change my shoes, I was pulled by a hand.The sturdy stick fell on the calf in pain, and I dodged the falling stick with a bitter face, but I was still beaten and unable to resist."
Mom, Mom, Mom, I'm wrong, don't fight, okay" I choked up and begged my mother for mercy, but she pushed me the cold floor, and the merciless stick fell on every part of my body in pain.My mother hit me with a black circle under her eyes, and she didn't stop because of my begging for mercy, but she worked harder, scolding indecently in her mouth: "Why did my mother give birth to such a white-eyed wolf, my mother wants to die and work hard to let you learn dance and etiquette, do you repay my mother like this little film?"
Have you ever thought about it for my mother, are you still worthy of your father, who died early, to teach you etiquette is to make you shameless and embarrassed outside" I numbly hugged my mother's legs, crying and shouting and begging her: "Mom, Mom, I don't dare anymore, I was wrong" I don't remember how many times I have been punished for violating her rules.The old mother in my memory is always too perfectionist, and she can't have a flaw in me.I didn't meet her demands, or I broke her rules, or I lost a match, and what awaited me was a beating without mercy or mercy.I know that she is also sad to lose her father, and it is not easy to pull me up alone.So many times, I've become numb enough to live in her worldview, and I've also been able to pursue perfection.It's like a doll doll that pulls the strings, being controlled and restricted, but also being loved.My world has gone numb
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